my good friend, mr I

today open house umah mak. penat jugaklah. but not as bad as the other day.. maybe because hari ni i rushing jaga dapur je. tak delah bz mana sangat. yelah.. i kan tak payah layan org sangat. all are familiar faces pung.. jebons & jebonas couldnt miss any of our events. so untuk derang ni tak yahlah nak "jemput makan ye".. derang pandai carik makan sendirik. tak yah jemput pun dah amik pinggan dah.. at the time of writing ada lagi org datang. tak pe.. biarkan mereka²..

i've registered myself as tupperware dealer. only for 1 reason. satu sebab. i like the catalogue. iye. betul. most of my dealer thingy are because of catalogue. in fact, i boleh hapal buku ikea tu. series punya hapal. sambil² membelek (read: hapal) catalogue tu, my imaginative mind would be running wild. imagine this and that. umah i la. i pakaila. bagi org ni la. this and that la.. well u know.. ompompuan.. hehehe. berangan kena lebehlah

i'm sort of imaginative type of person. a very imaginative one. very the very. sometimes for good. sometimes for bad. there are times baru dengar tajuk, i dah terbayang bukan². my latest mengarut was listening to adibah noor's "terlalu hina". and my imagination friend helps me up with adibah noor with amuk's outfits. and this morning, i had this dream. my hubby and my sis-in-law is a halimunan.. hahahah.. bangang punya mimpi.

sometimes imagination does help me. i kind of had my ayat bunga² chinta through imagination. i'm bad in structuring words becoming sentences thus paragraph. so i have my imagination to help me up.. i think thats why i got an A for my BM-SPM. kira baguslah i kan. i remember my first few words were "jam berdetik 6 kali. aku masih tidak dapat melelapkan mata.." bla... bla.. bla..

on some other occasions, my imagination doesnt help me much. one time, i was in the middle of heavy traffic kat jalan menghala ke kampung baru. then my imagination takes place and suddenly *bang*. i hit the wira berlagak kat depan i. tulah.. imagine eksiden sapa suruh kan. padanlah muka i.. hehehhe

masa i tuition kat emkay melawati, mak will fetch us and bring us to giant. time tu giant kat melawati lagi. and that time, the cashier counter was without the scanner thingy. tot tet.. tot tet la cashier. mak tak yah susak² kalo bawak i. belikan i snickers. and i'll be the good girl tepi cashier counter tu. seronok giler tengok derang main mesin tu. giler punya seronok. tekan². amik duit. bagi duit. best. and i imagined being a cashier. and know what? i was a cashier. kat metrojaya. if people were to ask whether i have achieve my cita², i would positively & proudly say YES.. saya sudah berjaya mencapai cita² saya sebagai juruwang. hehehe..

so being imaginative is good oso rite?

aaa... one more thing. when i was in standard 5. i imagined myself kat hawaii. that time, manala i tau hawaii tu cenggana. overseas pun i tak penah pegi. so when the teacher tanya i dah pegi bercuti kat mana, i tak segan silu cakap i gi hawaii. and bila cikgu kata "ceritakan kenangan anda ketika di sana".. hahaha.. biasalah.. my good friend datang membantu dan menjadikan saya seorang budak berusia 11 tahun yg telah ke hawaii. hehehe. sorri cikgu. saya tidak bermaksud untuk menipu cikgu. ampun..

oklah.. i nak berimagination lagi....

hari ini..... setahun berlalu...

hari ini, setahun yg lalu, i cried. menangis semahu²nya.. tewas barangkali dengan dugaan Allah Yg Maha Esa. i kerdil. tidak kuat nak menentang kuasaNya.

this day, a year ago, uwan kaku kat umah wan chik. i sampai, i terus pass adam kat bapak. i gi dalam. the thing that i have never, ever expected is to see uwan lying there, breathless. uwan has always be there for me & the others. and now, it's the end. period. stop. uwan will no longer buatkan sambal bilis whenever we have to travel. uwan will never able buatkan kuih kegemaran kami lagi. there is no longer uwan yg nak layan cucu² & anak² punya kerenah. "rasa cam nak makan karipap la wan..." besok sure ada ring².. "bila nak amik karipap nih?" arggghhh.. seksanya nak menaip without this annoying tears.. yelah kut.. cengenglah aku nih...

i percaya takdir. i terima takdir. i know, there's always a blessing.. but it's hard. asalkan ada apa² berita, i mesti akan terpikir "eh.. dah cakap ngan uwan ke?" .. "eh.. uwan datang cenggana besok eh?" .. even mak uteh pun tersasul "lepas ni kita gi umah uwan". silent... i guess it's hard for me and mak uteh.

it's even harder to think about food that uwan selalu masak untuk kami. bahulu yg i beli, tak bersentuh sebab uwan's was the best. roti jala untuk open house, berat hati i nak order sebab it has no uwan's touch. i can never make the same sambal bilis. sipi² pun tak dapek.

kadang² timbul rasa bersalah pada uwan. during my confinement, uwan yg jaga. dialah yg carikan cerek kecik. buatkan air akar periuk yg pahit letung tu. i tak minum, dia amik satu lagi gelas. dia satu, i satu. minum sama². bekpes dialah yg buat. air dialah yg bancuh. tapi i bangun lambat. bila nak minum, air dah sejuk. uwan marah; "tak elok org lepas bersalin minum air sejuk". betul cakap dia.. la ni, badan i senang sakit². uwan gagah.. mintaklah nak makan apa. sure dia buat punya. i dah letih makan ikan haruan dengan nasik. i mintak goreng ikan bilis. dia gorengkan. i tak makan banyak, dia tegur. takut tak de energy katanya. even nak tolong dia angkat kain sebab ujan pun dia tak bagi. dia dah lah terdenjut². i nak tolong dia angkat kain pun tak boleh. "enko tak kuat badan nak tolong aku pulak". geram? she said for the best of the her cucu..

during the confinement period, uwan akan datang every monday and she insists on going back every thursday. kami selalu leka. lambat² hantar uwan. kalo cepat, sukalah dia. kalo lambat dia dah membentak² tunggu depan pintu. kadang² sebab bapak lambat. kadang² che made lambat. kalo suruh solat kat umah sure dia tak nak. dia nak balik jugak. i selalu tertanya² kenapa. i tanya dia tak nak cite. untill the day kenduri kat umah uwan. org kat sana kata derang dah tak de org nak ajar marhaban. selalunya uwan yg ajar. we have never thought of that... never. ever. we all tau uwan aja budak ngaji petang². tapi tak tau pulak dia ajar marhaban malam hari. my mistake. i never ask..

we have never brought her for holidays. dia nak pi mana² dia pi sendiri. i penah pegi sekali je cameron highland dengan dia. peh tu tak penah dah.. time tu i tengah dok menganggur. sebab tu dia ajak. lepas tu, sejak i keje, dia tak penah ajak dah. uwan one kind. the only one of it's kind. dia tak penahlah nak kata kedekut. sampaikan org sewa umah tak bayo duit sewa, uwan diam. org buat citer pasal uwan, uwan tak kata apa. uwan buat kuih, tak baya duit, uwan senyap je. tempat 500 pcs uwan kasik 100 pcs extra. banyak org dengki ngan uwan. uwan dah tak de ni pun, masih ada org nak menang anugerah pereka ceritera terbaik. buat citer yg bukan² pasal uwan. biarlah uwan aman.. biarlah uwan damai di sana. janganlah kaco uwan. tak cukup² lagi ke?

it's been a year. i still could feel her warm hug. her kisses. i could see her smile. her laugh. the way she solat. the way she slept. everything in her...

uwan.. semoga uwan di tempat org² disayangiNya. moga uwan dirahmati.

dan, semoga kita berjumpa lagi.... na rindu uwan. rindu yg teramat sangat...

phew! thank u people!!!

syukur alhamdulillah! my whoope-de-do berjalan lancar. walaupun ujan, walaupun jalan jem, masih ramai yg sudi datang. dengan ini i wish to thank:

• makcik leha & son
• en. rahim & family
• the jebons - eebal, arman & fendi (sploh hengget kira halal la)
• the jebonas - anem (sempat menjamu mata ye...), alien (bersama banchik & friend), ayu (nape tak bawak ajwad?), dilla & apai, ajai (cantik baju ko ye...)
• kak shidah & son (sorilah kak.. nanti kita boling sama² ye)
• ayu, mami & syafik
• fik (wink².... heheheh) & bob
• tajul
• irwa, irma & wan hartini (i'll find one fine day for ur kepohan.. sori)
• kak ziana, adik & kakak (che bidin? tau dahhhhhh....)
• farid & friend
• mak nek, intan & syafiq
• kak zaini & family
• kak nik
• kak ita, kak imah, kak yati & kak zue (lenkali janganlah buat saya risau itu macam...)
• liana & hubby (selamat dah ko ke sydney ye...)
• kak mala & family
• kak aishah & kids (jauhnyeeerrrrrrrr)
• nurul & family
• ezreena & family
• fizah & ahmad (biler imran nak bawak latip?)
• afifi & family
• kor & family
• kuba
• najib
• kak ti & family
• abg cha & family + kak sah
• aunty norlia & family
• aunty yati & kids
• aunty ani & kids
• atuk baq & nenek
• nyut (apesal tak pakai baju pink?)
• irah & family
• lili & hubby
• conan & friend (ko gi lah hapal map KL nih.....)
• abg ijan & kak eina
• abg ujang (tetiba awak moncol ye.....)
• abg mirul (hope sherry is getting better!!)
• ijam & tunang
• hafidz & family
• kak pah & friends
• makcik yah, kak wati & abg man
• abg chik & family
• kak na & kak aishah
• mak uteh & family
• pak uda
• uncle meo & family (congrats to yani!! selamat menempuh dugaan)
• zul & family
• kak riri & family
• izwa & family
• ombujang sebelah umah
• dan juga kawan² che made yg tidak begitu saya kenali..

for spending some of ur precious time.. sorila kalo ada yg terkurang...

special thanks to julie, che nani, chengkut & big joben... without the 2 org kuat dapur, my day wouldnt be a smooth sailing!! thank u so much. nanti kita gi makan² sama² ye..

to mak & bapak, thank u for taking care of adam for a while...

penat gilerla.... tapi i happy.. happy yg sangat-tersangat... thank u people! thank u so much.. u've made my day...

peel fresh....... here i come..

si pinkie, maju junc & toll samy velu

this is fariz jahaya. but we call him hanyut, atau manja² sket nyut. we were classmates in ITM, SS14 (1998 kot baru dia joined). dia ni mengong.. hari ni i got the chance pekena dia. i guess he looks kiut in this pinkie baju melayu. selamat hari raya nyut. ayu sungguh ko berbaju pink. gelang pun pink nyut? trajis koooo

nyaaaaakkkkkkkkk!!! hahahhaha

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i was in maju junc today.... sebulat hatiku melangkah. basically i takut lintas jalan. that's why i tak suka gi maju junc. dont mention pertama or sogo lah. no thank you. kalo ada nak bawak naik kereta, i sudilah. hehehe.. purposely go to maju junc for mawi & adibah noor. the mawi is not for me ok. it's for my cousin, izyan. she got 5As in her UPSR recently. *bravo yan!!* dont know what else to give her, so belikanlah mawi tu untuk dia. she's a big fan ok.

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one thing about malaysian drivers kan.. which i hope most of the people could agree... they - or can i say we? - dont have sense of direction kan? every day i pay RM1.50 to the toll gate boy or girl kat elevated hiway tu. and that every day i could see the same situation & attitude again and over again. bayar toll ujung sana, tapi nak pegi ujung sini. why cant they decide where they heading to? u wanna stop at the toll office (which normally after the toll booths), then amiklah toll booth yg paling kiri which is also yg paling dekat dengan immediate exit tu. gatal bayar toll ujung sana kenapa? mengundang kemalangan, tak gitu? menyusahkan betulla. kalo bagi signal diampunkan jugak.. yg tak reti bagi signal ni, i rasa nak sepak those setungpit drivers tu. i pun bayo toll ok...

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ok. nak balik dah. nak gi JJ. beli some more things for tomorrow thingy.. oh! i'm so excited!!!

ta!

good food, great listening...

yesterday zahar & anak sedara abg nan, suaminya kak ti yg akaknya che made datang umah beraya. i masaklah mee kari.. ahem.. ucapan.. ucapan..

"sebagai chief the dapur, thank u to my loyal helper, chengkut untuk resepi sup bawangnya yg sungguh mengasyikkan. juga terima kasih yg tak terhingga kepada org dapur, che nani yg bertungkus lumus mengacau mee kari itu sehingga ia melahirkan rasa kelazatan yg burp.. kenyang. tidak lupa kepada the big joben yg membuat kami tertunggu-tunggu bilala turn nak makan mee kari pulak - dengan nasehat, lenkali nak sembang duk depanlah.... least, untuk adam danial yg tidak mengganggu mama masak. gud boi. yayang dia... eh lupa... to my hubby for cleaning up the hall & tido awal.. ;P"

i tido ngan alin semalam. lama tak tido dengan budak besar nih. tido kat luar. berlapikkan toto.

*tak aci kut.. ko tido atas toto, atas kapet. aku atas lantai tau... menarek-tertarek over my banana-boat bantal nampaknya? gi lah JJ. RM69.90 je.*

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people! kenal sama this talented artist? yup! the amazing, tremendous, supertitious adibah noor



here's the story mory..

i drove big joben's jentu this morning. waja perkasa kelabu is up for maintenance service. dok baik² kat sana ye.. ok. back to adibah. big joben showed me her cd few weeks ago. he has just bought it from tower records, KLCC. at that moment, i admitted, i dun have sekelumit rasa nak beli pun. due to review on her album from cari some times ago. and i thought it's just another sponge cake. well it's not. it's a cheese cake. with some nice words on top "adibah is hot, babyyyyy!" the voice is mmmm.. yummy.. the melody, music, etc are well blend. aaaahhh.. it taste so.. soo.... luscious! scrumptious! delicious!

dengarlah.. now i cannot stop kelalalabu.. hehehehe. best tak tipu punya.. i nak gi carik CD dia minggu depan. minggu ni still excited over the makan². mood makan kena jaga.. harharhar

morons berhari raya dengan roti hanian.. hah!

i was pissed off this morning with these two morons whose driving a honda accord and a S70 volvo. they were on tidal flow route kat elevated highway with 30kmph. kilometer per hour tiga puluh saja. oh! why waste monies to buy those highly-branded-kononnya-banyak-laju-punya-kereta when u only wanna go 30kmph? 2 cars with a horsepower more than my waja perkasa kelabu terkedek² di jalan raya. aduhai... people! please! do something!! they are abusing the jalan raya yg dibina oleh JKR untuk kemudahan semua org di bandaraya kosmopolitan ini... tolong! tolong!

did i mentioned that the honda's driver is having his sweet talk on his handphone? aaa.. see.. handphone sammo..

end of story.

i'll be having my hari raya whoop-de-do this coming saturday. why am i so excited eh? mmmm...

end of story.

have u people been listening to the fly? yesterday's story-mory was on mistakes on the signage. and one caller had this experience. he went for a mamak stall. the mamak has this "roti hanian" on the menu. curiousity hit the caller. he called the mamak.

caller: mamak!
mamak: apa mau order?
caller: itu roti hanian itu apa?
mamak: ayoyo.. itu pun tarak tau ka?
caller: apa itu?
mamak: itu roti sama itu bawanglah. itu cakap org putih jugaklah

well well well.. what to say.. that's how we malaysian talk right? f**k up becomes pak u.. what else? nickle replaces nipple <-- that's mine ok.. harharhar..

cucu uwan has been tersangap for so many times today.. now she wants to go and sangap sammo.. ta!

cheese + belacan = yummy!!

hahaha.. i guess i was sooo impatient about my cheesy frienda. she actually replied, but the message was not in my inbox until yesterday. bad server! hehehe.. lucky me that she was online and messages transmitted every 10 minutes. good server! kembang kunchup my idunch when she mentioned "u're my best friend kat sekolah la". perasanlah kan.. hahahaha

so many things happened yesterday. one of those, bapak dapat invitation gi launching album mawi tomorrow kat pwtc. invitation ok.. mana dia dapat pun tak taulah. dia dah pesan awal²: "mau gambo mawi, tengok suwat kabo" hahaha.. maknanya tak yahlah suh pesan amik gambo mawi tu.

i read about my friend's perit derita kehidupan from a blog belongs to another friend of mine. -ku berserah - and i was sooo geram. sampainya hati ayah dia buat cenggitu to her family. oklah... her family mite sound too general. ulang semula. sampainya hati ayah dia buat cenggitu kat my friend. i am here standing as the witness of her tertiarap terlungkup mencarik rezeki for her family. dan ayah dia senang² ati gunakan duit yg my friend bagi (maybe part of it ajelah. part aje pun it's still hers ok... and the monies should go the her other siblings yg lagi memerlukan taw dak? ) for his other wife. yup. another wife. a discovery after 10 years of marriage to that lady. dah jatuh timpa tangga, timpa lagi baldi tepi tangga. my friend's mom was diagonised as a cancer patient - womb. and now undergone kimo. i macam... sepak kang ayah dia nih.. aaaa.. geramla ni. the part yg buat i geram was, ayah dia bulih berjinggangjinggut dengan enjin baru while enjin lama tengah overhaul. betapa senangnye memaling muka menukar haluan kasih baru kan? berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu memikul. me? i cannot do much. monies can be contributed. but to heal hati yg luka? not as easy as "sabarlah.. sabar.. semua tu dugaan". words are easy to said. but to actually be empathy, it's harder than to create the word itself.

i balik semalam, my angel meramuk. ntah apa masalahnye pun i tatau. dari umah maknek sampailah umah. menangis tak henti. nangis yg bulih kata high pitch jugaklah cord dia. sampailah maghrib. i asked my hubby to bathe him again. lepas mandi, baru pakai suar, dah tido. tak pakai baju sampai ke sudahnye. me as mother, i felt terrible. i know it's hard for the babysitter to monitor adam's nap time since there are 2 other kids + her own son (with additional anak² sedara sommo). but then if my angel dont get enough sleep, he'll be a monster macam semalamlah. end up i yg kepenatan balik keje ni, langsung tak dapat main ngan my own angel sebab dah penat menangis tengok dia cenggitu. well.. i kan cengeng.. hahahaha.. and i had a little discussion with my hubby & sista. it seems that i dont have any solution but to voice out my frustration to her. and my biggest obstacle, she's not an easy person to talk to. she will listen, but in the end, dia but dono jelah.. apa i rasa? sakit hati jugak kan? and i know the type of person i am. dont let me talk when my blood is upstairs. my words would turn nasty & ugly. nak cakap pagi ni pun, ntah baper kali susun ayat dalam keta da.. nasib baiklah adam behave this morning. takdelah geram sangat rasanya.

cucu uwan always hope she would be a good one. for adam danial, and for the family. for herself - Allah jua yg menentukan...

cheese + belacan = bloergh!!

yesterday, at one moment i was so happy.. i've finally found a long lost friend. a friend that i've been searching hi & low. left & rite. just a click, there she was. wow.. marveles sungguh zaman teknologi ini.. but then today, i feel a bit frustrated.. the blog updated but the email sent has no reply. urgh.. didn't she recognize me? urm... i think i've given her a brief intro on me and i think those are some points that are easy to recall... urm.. maybe i'm not thaaaaaat cheesy to be among her cheesy frienda. urm.. or maybe the friend "ship" is no longer crossing our rivers.. she seems to be somebody out there. dan.. siapalah saya.. hanya cekodok pesek.. yaakkkk... hahahhaha.. it's ok, i guess. i've tried to find her. i've found her. i've tried to say hi. but it seems that she's saying bye. tak pelah.....

found this on a friend's blog. kindda kiut. i guess a way to tell my hubby on how to go into raptures over me next time.. kanda... ooooo.. kanda... wakakkakakaka.

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cucu uwan is just a plain belacan. sometimes with additional pepper. sometimes with some gula melaka. to add up the colour, to spice up the flavour...

hari raya dan i

hiksssss...

my raya this time around bercampur baur. tatau nak describe. nak kata happy, tak jugak. nak kata tak happy pun tak jugak.. on par!

1st day: pagi² raya letis giles nak bangun. the nite before adam still tak berapa sihat. pegi umah mak pun lepas kena bedilan talipon dek mak.. mukan tamo datang awal la.. tatak mulih mangun.. adam segak baju melayu. made hensem baju melayu. mama pun apa kurang kan? haruslah "cantik menarik tertarik - da bomb" hehehehe... i ingat baju i paling mahal.. wooooo.. ada lagi mahal RM30.. hahhaha.. syabas puan noraini! anda berjaya! konon nak gi tg malim seawal pagi. so that boleh balik kl seawal petang. sudahnyer dekat nak zohor baru kuar umah. all together - mokteh + pokde. i terus ke "umah baru" uwan. i know her "umah" dekat dengan pokok apa-menda-ntah-tu. so tak susah nak carik. baru je baca "RAJIAH BINTI LIMIN" my tears dah tak leh stop. bercucuran macam ujan petang kat KL la ni. dan seterusnya, "kembali ke rahmatullah pada 22 November 2004 bersamaan 9 syawal 1425, berumur 74 tahun". i rasa kalo i ni bukan islam yg kuat, i akan meraung macam org hilang akal. alhamdulillah... yassin yg i baca lancar. walaupun tersekat² dek sedu. thanks to yan for the payung. lepas baca i rasa rindu i lepas. i cakap ngan uwan, i akan datang lagi. insya Allah.. peh tu i gi umah wan chik. seperti biasa, i ilang ingatan kat anak mak lang kenong. 13 orang beb! ingat 3 di atas je la. yg lain, main agak² je. then ke umah pak long ali. "sayang anak..." - i'm still wondering with what she meant by this. nak gi jumpa wan wa, pokde ada kat belakang. i rasa wan wa rindu uwan.. yelah. she has never missed visiting her eldest sister on hari raya. it's the first time dia tak de.... *sigh*.. i tak singgah umah opah usu but i was told, atuk usu was in a good condition. alhamdullilah.. then head back to KL. malam dah rilek² sket, gi pulak umah tok baq & nenek kat puchong. half an hour later head back to KL. balik kemas beg nak gerak gi krai pulak pagi besok.

2nd day: gi krai. bawak balik sket lauk pauk mak. berjangkit pulak virus si chengkut ni. adohai... adam dah nak ok dah. mama pulak setat achooo.. peh tu gi telan polaramine 20mg 2 ketul pulak tu. bertambahlah tingtong palo i. memang i flat. sampai umah sana pun, sembang kejap, peh tu tido balik. sampailah ke malam. malam pun dah setat sakit tekak.

3rd day: ingatkan nak pakai baju raya shantik² satu family. nak gi berayalah.. dengan sesemanyer, batuknyer. kem salam jelah kat baju raya tu. terlantar je atas katil. ayah take over adam. abg chik beli breacol. sedap sikit tekak nih

4th day: rasa ok sket. pakailah baju raya. kengkonon nak lah gi beraya. sudahnyer my hubby pulak flat. tersadai lagi lah.. pakai shantik² duk umah.. nak wat ganooo.. patutnya today balik t'ganu. kensel

5th day: balik kl. pagi² dah siap². adam bangun, terus gerak balik KL. singgah umah abah + mek & lah + mek. then head back to KL. singgahlah genting sempah kononnya nak makan apa² yg patut. dia punya queue panjangnyer la.. peh tu kat "playcourt" tu ada pulak hamba Allah tukar napkin anak dia atas gelongsor. kembang tekak... kensel, terus balik KL. terus balik umah sebab my hubby memang dah tiada kelaratan. malam mak datang bawak lauk.

begitulah hari raya i tawon nih.. nak kata meriah, tak de sangat. dengan demamnyer. hari ni pun tak kebah lagi nih. ubat batuk dah berbotol dah telan. sesema ok sket la. in 2 weeks wat open house. sesapa yg berkenaan tu, jemputlah datang ye...

cucu uwan menadah tangan: Ya Allah, panjangkan umur hambaMu ini agar dapat aku terus bersyukur di atas kebesaranMu.