lelong part 1

barang2 tupperware di umah tu sangat banyak dan sangat penat nak menyimpan dah.. oleh itu skang tokey mau jual lelong2 aja. so sapa2 nak, lemme know. my ym adalah bengong. therefore please email me at anne.rafei@gmail.com or we can talk-talk via googletalk: anne.rafei

sumer barangan boleh self collect atau dihantar melalui pos. kalo nak dipos, sila tambah rm5 sekali bagi setiap penghantaran - tak kiralah baper ringget korang beli. oleh itu, janganlah setakat memborong satu barang sahaja kalo nak dipos. sangat tidak berbaloi harga pos lagi mahal dari harga barang :D saya perlu pastikan duit masuk ke dalam akaun dahulu baru barangan akan di hantar. sekiranya mau diself-collect, silalah isi minyak dalam tong petrol keta masing2 ye....

nombor akaun akan diberi setelah process bargain-membargain selesai :D (baik hati betul tokey ni...)

barang2 tupperware ni ada lagi.. besoklah update lagi.. letihlah nak meng-upkan gambo.

lagi satu, baju2 yang terdapat di www.miraclechamps.blogspot.com juga dijual lelong kini. kesemuanya adalah rm50 (limaploh sahaja) kecuali songket dan baju melayu (yang satu itu) berharga rm60.00 (namploh sahaja). ini adalah kerana baju baru akan datang minggu depan. dan tokey ini sangat tak reti jual baju. amik sajalah sedekah amal jariah, tokey jual murah2 aja.. selai rm50. dua-lai kalu, rm80 sajala..

ini adalah kategori RM1.00 (singgit) per piece













ini adalah kategori RM3.00 (tiga hengget) per piece








** mangkuk tu ada 6 pieces. kalo nak sumer, RM15.00**

ini semua RM5.00 (lima hengget) per piece


















































ini adalah kategory RM25.00 (doploh-lima hengget) satu set

6903 love story

"nama saya ramadhan"

"hi! i'm anna. welcome to sime engineering" (dalam hati: "confirm org kelantan")

*****

"hari ni dah gaji. teman gi bank boleh? peh tu kita gi makan laksa. mau?"

"boleh"

*****

"bengang betul la dengan bos nih.. jom gi main boling"

"kang kalah kang......"

"berani marilah?"

after few games..

"kan dah kalah....."

*****

"saya pegi jogging ngan kak wani"

"mmmmm"

prang-prung-plak-dang-tang-pang. habis meja beterabur

*****

"saya bertunang besok"

"ok"

next week..

"ramdhan mana?"

"balik bertunang"

*****

hari 95: "na.. nak biskut"

hari 178: "na.. nak maggi"

hari 6903: "na.. nak awak"

*****

above are bits and pieces of our love story. started with hi and we could't end it with any bye-s. the thought of him being a kelantanese has put me far from him. takutla.... nanti kena pakai jubah ke, cakap ngan tak leh pandang pompuan ke.. kan? a simple justification for a kelantanese, to me, at that moment.

our love grows simple. from an office buddy, he became my listener & advisor. he wont interrupt when i did the talking. he wont tell at that very minute if he is in disagreement. he'll just listen. but after a few days, he'll come back and says "na.. remember the thing u said the other day? i think......" that's when he'll open up his mind. sometimes too late :D and sometimes it fits the time frame. and i fall for him...

we hooked up because we have always been together. month end, to settle banking matters. of course, those days mana ada internet banking. and most of the time, to have lunch as the canteen food was not so impressive. and some of the time just to be with each other. we enjoyed both companies and we enjoyed talking. one topic can grow up to thousands. and we couldn't stop. we can talk about everything. one can just mumble and the other can understand. one can just look and the other has the details. laughter has always been our days. we enjoyed bowling. and that's where we spent most of our times. we went out each weekend and yet we didn't realize that we have fall for each other.

i was then engaged to somebody. and that's when i heard my other-heart is breaking. i thought this is another episode of drama swasta, but yep! i had the pain. and more to him. when i was supposed to feel happy, i actually wasn't sure of my ground. somebody said to him, "if you love her, let her go. if she comes back, she's yours". and he did the thinking.. "i've let her go. she was engaged to somebody. but now she's back. she's back to me. she's DEFINITELY mine".

that's our love story. we didn't realize it until we were losing it. we didn't know what love could bring until we talk about it. we didn't know that we need each other so much until one of us has thought of ending it.

today we're celebrating our 5th-love-anniversary. and we hope for more anniversaries to come.

buddies

at this age; today, a friend told me that she felt lost in her life. she's indecisive. she's unable to determine what's best has she given, what's worst has she done. she's eager to elaborate her talents and her desires, but she remains silent when asked on her future. she's neither happy on her monetary ground nor her work environment. she's blessed with kids & loving husband. she's my best buddy. to which i told that life will treat her fine, that i'd help her as much as i could and that i told to hang on tough...

at this age; today, a friend told me that she wants to be alone and far from her husband. she knows what she wants but she's afraid of her own strength. she wants to be loved and she's lovable. she's nice but was not treated fairly. she's blessed with lovely kids and surrounded by highly-supportive friends. she's also my best buddy. to which i told to stand firm on the ground and go through the obstacles with her own strength. and to which i promise that i'd stand tall behind her...

at this age; today, some friends told me that they are not happy about their working life. increments are not given, bonuses are not granted. they are asked to assist elsewhere and not given proper benefits. they are bound with terms and conditions and they want to move ahead. they are lovely friends who would be a group of bitches when the target is right and also a team of angels in a split second. they are all my buddies. to which i offer some experiences in working life and some "uh", "ah", "oh", "stoopid" and "idiot".

at this age; today, i look at my friends and realize that they are all i want. they are all i have. i'm happy for what i have. i am thankful for what i have been given. their shoulders carry all the burden and my shoulder is only for them to cry on. my eyes are only to see how they could smile nicely but deep inside they are crying out loud. their minds are thinking hard on how to keep life going especially for their little treasures. my ears are hearing the cheering laugh and some sighs in some statements. i said i understand but i am not able to exactly feel my own understanding. i said i want to help but my assistance somehow with boundaries. i said i would be there for them but in reality, it's more than me that they need.

i'm neither a good buddy.

here i am, before this pc. with my hands typing letters and phrases on my friends. thinking of what they have told me. thinking of what i have been telling them. thinking of what future could offer and what past has put on ground.

and i felt............ empty.

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fever bz

i've been bz. yup! a bz bee. and now i'm down with hi-fever.

the month of august has put me behind my own bars. i was unable to blog as by the time i came home, i felt totally exhausted. i was unable to be online with YM as my server was a little cranky and that my boss has full view to my pc. it faces her. i blame the new office renovation. stoopid!

i was on sick leave on the very first day of the new school year. then i was in jb for liz's sister's wedding. the next weekend i was in alor gajah for anem's wedding. and last week i was in dong, pahang for another relative's wedding. returned from pahang, hi-fever till now.

yesterday i went to gleneagles, as my temperature has reached 38. i was asked to rest in the observation bay and had to wait for blood count result. alhamdulillah.. takde apa. and they charged rm43 for a 15 minutes rest in the observation bay. panadol dua bijik, 50 sen. air milo secawan 70 sen. pandainya buat duit. tak pe.. nanti i claim. heheheh

nothing much to update. made dah dapat bonus. alhamdulillah.. no, he's not going to pay for my credit card this time around (hehehe). he's going to put it aside for adam's school fees - next year. my son is turning 5. woohooo.. dah besar anak mama. i'm going to get my first festival bonus some time next month. me and made has bought one thing each from each bonuses - for the house. alhamdulillah.. rezeki dari Allah, insya Allah, berkat doa mak ayah, adik-beradik, sedara-mara, kawan-kawan. :D

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4 adam & ammar 2

adam turned 4 on 12 june 2008 whilst ammar has just turned 2 last weekend, ie 19 july 2008. we had their birthday bash on 5 july 2008 - sempena mama habis exam. hahahahah..... basically i like their age this year. birthday bash for (4) adam & ammar too (2). cliche kan? hehehehehe

the party was great though there was a little chaos at first. the khemah guy called ibu at 11 hour to cancel their delivery. time tu ada rasa macam kaget sket.. tak tau nak tekan panic button atau tak. somehow, mak managed to get a khemah from our neighbourhood. alhamdulillah.. but then, khemah wasn't up until the first 2 families arrived. time ni confirm i had my panic button. and food yg ibu ordered pun tak sampai lagi. aduuhh... but somehow (again), dalam kejar2 itu ini, everything solved! settled! well done, indeed. 2:30pm, the party begun :D

adam & ammar were the stars of the day. they were well behaved (ehem..), friendly and excited about the birthday party. looking at ammar, he was a little lost. hahaha.. expected la ha... he's only 2. adam was the same when he was 2 - couldn't understand a thing. but adam had enjoyed his day, totally. he has been asking me about the birthday bash since he saw us buying some preparations for the bash. i am so glad that both of them really enjoyed their day.
theme for the party was actually blue. why blue? ntah.. mama likes blue. ayah likes blue. ibu is kind of fond of purple. mak's colour of the month eventually, blue. bapak & along has no taste in colour - kasik belasah aje. janji perut boleh nampak kempis sikit. blue cam sesuailah sikit dengan boys kan? hahahha.. i ordered special paper bag for the birthday bash from partythemepack. maizah did a great job - just look at the bags! the bag could perfecto-ly fit the pingu stationery set, a packet of could9 cake, biskut teddy & oreo. all blue! i bought the pingu stationery set in isetan during one of the members' sale. original price was rm24.90 but i got it for RM9.00(++). good bargain huh? i like!the cake was specially made by mamamin. she did a very wonderful job! i love the cake and purposely kept it after the candle blowing session. hahahahah.. sampai aunty sue nak rasa kek pun kena mintak. apa punya tuan rumahlah... the cake combined both kids' favourite toys. adam, the train and ammar, the bike. kecuali thomas the engine & the little motorbike, kesemua bahagian kek boleh dimakan dengan tanpa keraguan.

this time around we had a&w and the bear-bear as our entertainer. this is the first time ever that we called in an entertainer. we also prepared one corner for the kids to have fun & enjoy the day with adam & ammar's toys. another reason why the makan-makan & food area was not so spacious.

we also had lucky draw sessions before each guest went home. something different heh? a day before the bash, me and made went to carrefour and bought 1 cart full of items with blue packaging like softan, pepsi, fab, tissue, max cleen, glades, shaver, listerine, kopi hang tuah, dutch lady, etc. sumer biru. i was a little bit unsure of that idea at first, but it turned out to be so much fun! sampai ada yg membodek tuan rumah untuk mendapatkan barangan yang dihajati. heheheheh..

at first mak was a little ragu2 with the weather, but, alhamduliilah.. the day went great! nampak macam nak hujan, tapi tak jadik hujan. i was and still happy thinking that many of "meaningful"faces in my life turned up. thank you so much! i hope you guys have enjoyed the day as much as myself did. sape yang tak datang tu confirm rugilah... hahahahaha..

at about 5pm, both stars sudah keletihan. tido tak hengat :D org bising pun dah tak heran. tido sangat penting untuk kesihatan tubuh badan. hehehehehe.. last but not least, tima kasih mak & bapak. tima kasih ibu & pak long. tima kasih alin. thank you so much for hanyut (sorrylah.. gua tak hengat lu punya fotopages), for these lovely pictures (dan gua tau lu curik tulang kan? hahahah). tima kasih org pasang khemah. tima kasih org a&w bandar baru ampang. tima kasih zz for the t-shirts' printing. tima kasih kawan ibu yg buat mihun sup-yg-sedap-yg-mama-tak-sempat-makan. tima kasih made, the great husband!

sehingga tahun depan...

birthdays celebration - epilogue

the party was "wonder-blue-ful"

to relatives & friends,will update more pics & stories later :D

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aloh loh loh loh loh...

itu hari minyak naik tengah bulan. dah la tengah bulan, cuti sekolah pulak tu. nak naik harga tak ingat hari, tak pikir tarikh. macam malaikat maut! tak kira ketika, kalo ajal dah sampai habislah riwayat. ini nak buat decision macam nak amik nyawa org jugak. tak kira time, main bedal je. dia sedaplah, nak gi mana2 ada tukang ne-no-ne-no suh org lain ketepi. jalan jem ke tak ke dia pedulik hapa. janji dia sampai dulu. tak pikir org lain dahlah suffer duk bertapa dalam barisan, sakit hati dengan monyet-monyet dan sakai-sakai tak de akal bertenggek tepi barisan lagi. kita ni dalam keta dengan perut memulas, anak sibuk nak makan mekdonel, bini merayu nak mintak gelang sampai ke lengan, dia haram pedulik. "saya bekerja bersama rakyat, sayalah wakil suara hati anda". chait!

ni tak sampai sebulan minyak naik dah nak kensel kredit kad pulok doh. apa pekdahnya ni... dahlah org merompak macam tak ingat dosa pahala. membunuh org macam buat eksperimen biologi kat lab. ni nak galakkan org bawak duit banyak2 semata2 nak isi minyak. stupid izzit?

tak boleh pikir ka? pagi, amik rm50 habis buat isi minyak, penuh pun tidak. amik lagi rm50 buat beli rokok dengan breakfast merangkap lunch. petang kena pulak anak rengek2 mintak beli heppy meal kungfu panda habis lagi rm50. besok gi keje tengok duit dah kena pau dek bini. amik lagi rm50. malam kang amik lagi. peh tu selamat lah kena charge limaposen setiap transaksi. limaposen pun kalo lima kali dah dua ringgit sengah. dua ringgit sengah kat kedai-makcik-jakun-duit-rm50-baru tu dah boleh dapat sambal kentang satu pinggan. duit tau! duit! money! ringgit!

adoi doi doi doi..

buat gaponya promo kad kredit dengan petronas? dengan shell? dahlah processing amik masa sebulan lebih skang nih. itu nasib baik kalo nube tak buat demo. kalo dia buat demo peraga baju2 kak kiah, kak milah, abg mat, abg ipin berdiri tepi jalan sambil tiup wisel dah processing amik masa berbulan2.

apo nak jadik ni?

dia pikir dia punya minyak je naik. dia tak pikir lagi aku punya naik minyak!

tak pe.. tak pe.. pikir baik. pikir positif.

minyak naik, kurang jalan
kurang jalan, kurang belanja
kurang belanja, savings banyak
savings banyak, pegi haji
pegi haji, cukup rukun
alhamdulillah

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whenever ayah is away...

adam danial muhammad ramadhan

happy birthday adam danial

adam turns 4 today! horayyy!!!!

since both of our cars had each roadtax ended 10th & 11th june respectively, we have no choice but not to go anywhere this time around. cian adam..

nevertheless, mama had already bought a cake a month earlier. and already had the celebration with cake & candle. so kira 0-0 la adam eh.. :D

so here's some words for adam from your loving mama:

adam - my darling,

i know you wont be able to read what i'm writing here for you today. but i know someday you will.

adam - my love,

my life has changed since i had you in my arms 4 years ago. you have changed my perspective of motherhood & childhood ever since. you've taught me the meaning of responsibilities, consideration, and looking at things from you little point of view. you have aspired me through the price of your smiles and the value of your tears.

adam - my sweet honey pie,

i don't know what's the best words to describe you as my little treasure. the steps you made, the words you expressed, the thought you had has added colours to my days. you are the clown of the house, the little star of my life, the biggest monster of the cave. see darling.. you are everything to me

adam - my sunshine,

i know my hug would'nt stop you from leaving me one day. my kisses wont stop you from bid farewell to me. i'm over protective? yes, i know darling.. dont blame this attitude.. because i know i would'nt be able to stop you from the path and journey you'd choose one day. but i want you to know that every step you make, i'll be a step behind. every fall you might encounter, i will always be with you.

adam - my son,

i dont want to keep my words to myself and only to realize that it was to late to let it out. mama loves you and mama will always love you. you have always made me laugh, you have always made me cry. equivalent.

happy birthday adam danial!

kenduri kawin

jiran beberapa belah umah kami nak kawin hujung minggu ni. makan nasik minyaklah kami sabtu ni. semalam tengah duk rilex2 ngan made, timbul la persoalan ini:

"kalo jiran depan umah kita ni kawin, kita nak buat apa?"

and here's the list of what we plan do bila tokey ikan depan umah kami nak buat kenduri:

1) cat umah
2) renovate umah
3) bersihkan longkang
4) bersihkan tempat sampah
5) panggil org tarkan jalan dekat depan gate
6) suh org hantar perabot
7) basuh keta
8) basuh laman umah
9) parking keta depan umah
10) basuh baju banyak2 sampai kena sidai dekat tiang khemah dia
11) jemput kucing berak depan umah
12) bersihkan tahi kucing
13) bersihkan umah & biarkan sampah berlonggok depan umah
14) masak sotong, ikan, udang, ketam pada malam sebelumnya peh tu buang sampah ketika pengantin makan beradap
15) dan sebagainya

mmm.. apa lagi yg kami boleh buat eh?

persoalan ini terjadik semalam selepas menyaksikan tokey ikan ini serta merta menutup pagar otomatiknya selepas dengar org mintak derma bagi salam.

kawan2... janganlah kita mengikuti sikap yg tidak mulia yg ditunjukkan oleh tokey ikan ini. kita tidak akan tahu bagaimana rupa rezeki Yang Maha Esa turunkan untuk kita. mungkin ini salah satu kunci rezekinya, timbang-timbangkan..

ps: tapi jangan pakai penimbang yg BN pakai. penimbang dia tak boleh harap

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mother's day

if my memory serves me right, i have only celebrated mother's day twice in my whole life. once when i was pregnant. and the celebration was because it falls on my birthday. the second time was when made bought me a spa treatment from the energy spa. none other that i could recall. neither that i could recall if i have ever celebrated mother's day with mak. maybe there was..

me and mak has never been an item. we argue most of the time. we could never row the same boat. the boat will crack, we will be drown. neither of us could swim - one of the minor similarities that we share.

during my childhood, i have always thought mak has never loved me. mak has always tried to figure out my fault. and it seemed that whatever good thing i did, has never caught mak's attention. but i have always been punished for things i did wrong. mak hated me, mak was jealous of me, mak has never wanted me in her life. it was hard to get daily pocket money from mak. it was only if i HAD no choice that i turned to mak. and i became little thief. whenever mak asked me to buy things from the kedai leman, instead of rm1, i'll "accidently" pull out rm5. i retired being a little thief a couple of weeks later, after bapak made me wrote a book full of "saya tak akan mencuri lagi".

during my teenie, things never changed. mak was still the same. i have never felt "welcome" by mak. whenever i did wrong, i'd be punished. whenever my sayings were wrong, she wont talk to me, silent treatment. thus made me turned to my friends. and she never knew who my friends were, except for sherry. the rest, i needed to explain. "fizah.. yg duduk belakang ni", "ayu.. yg duduk au3 tu", "bukan najwa la mak, nama dia izwa". it was pathetic. mak called me "anak setan" for answering a phone call from a friend. i felt totally discriminated. i felt.. i'm better off without mak.

i worked during my semester breaks. i have even started part time work during my final year in itm. simply because i needed my pocket money. simply because i want to stay away from home. simply because i dont want any silent treatments. and i had tears of sadness on my graduation.

i got married. we moved out of the house. a dream came true. and i am so grateful that this action has its disguise.

things changed.. mak has now called me whenever she has things on her mind. i am now, a buddy to mak. i am now somebody whom mak trusted and mak can turn to. mak has now been my companion whenever made is not around. though, yes, there are still times that i felt neglected by mak, but deep inside i know the reason for mak taking such action. mak confided in me. i felt proud. i felt a sense of belonging. i started to feel, i am mak's daughter. i started to feel the love in the air. i started to breeze with mak beside me. a feeling that was never with me...

as time passes, generation changes. that was the root of all conflicts. mak wanted the best of her children. along as her only son, she expects the best from along. so does from her 2 daughters. she stands firm for the lovely roses. and also to her only daughter-in-law whom she loves dearly, and the same goes to her darling son- in- law.

i tend to think she didnt love me. when the fact is that she loves me dearly. i am her first daughter and she was being over protective. i thought she was being nasty & strict because she didnt want me, but the truth is she wanted me to reach the clouds and not only stays on the ground. i felt she has neglected me but the thing was she wanted me to be independent and stand firm. she wants me to be able to look into the world with my own view and not thru her eyes. she wants me to listen to the melody with my own ears and not with her singing the lullaby. she wants me to taste all the sweet and bitterness and not for her to swallow it all for me.

she wants me to be me.

perhaps i was blind. perhaps i was the one who closed the ears and shut the mouth. or perhaps i was given more time and chances to realize before it was too late to love mak.

"i dare not to speak, as a word of mine will be a torn in your love. i dare not to speak as my speech will be a tear of my own. i dare not to cry as my tears will be the heaviest punishment for my children. as much as my sayings hurt you, it hurts me too. my silent was not a treatment. my silent was for your own good. i wouldn't want to hurt my darlings whom i cherish all these years. what had happened to me, was meant for me. i have never asked for things to happen but it was all written for me. please dont judge me for what i said for the sayings are only for what i felt. dont judge me for what i did for the action are only for what i regret" - mak

interview: en. made cekgu tahir

i was with made the other day. had nothing to do, i asked this question to my darling:

"let say one day, u have rm3 million. what is the first thing you will be doing?"

he conveniently answered, "masturbating"

er.. ok...

so i rephrase the question to, "if one day you win rm3 million, whats the first thing that comes into your mind?"

he chose to answer, "pay all my debts"

fair enough, i guess....

i then rephrase and asked the same question again:

"if you win rm3 millions tomorrow, what is the first thing that you'd buy?"

he confidently answered, "groceries and put it in the fridge. i'm being practical, ok.."

men are like this eh?

sawadikharp

friday, 16th may 2008
mh780
1805/1905 (local time)
KLIA, malaysia/suvarnabhumi, bangkok, thailand


taxi dia altis ok... confirm aku takkan beli altis.. driver dia bawak keta laju giler dan terselit-selit sampai aku rasa nak gi register insurance time-time tu jugak. kona dulu baru bagi signal, boleh? taxi dia ada macam2. motor pun ada. best wooo...


first impression, ya rabbiiiii.. ape menda ni. wire-wire ni sumer boleh dicapai dengan senang lenangnya oleh michael jordon ok.. untuk aku, kena panjat tanggalah.. giler rendah, berselirat. ada satu area tu, betul2 depan kedai. boleh?


check in: the bedrooms, boutique hotel
hospitality: excellent. staff dia sangat efisien, sangat cuba membantu. tak pandai english pun bedal je....
free wi-fi, bilik besar master bedroom aku je la tapi :D, depan mata - carrefour. flag belah kanan sekali tu flag malaysia. bangga kan?

www.thebedrooms.com

bangkok mass transit system (bts) = lrt
10 minutes from the bedrooms. ada tv dalam train. they announce name of places & put it up in the tv together with the ads. sangat convenient untuk org macam kami.
17/5: on nut - chatuchak market - on nut
18/5: on nut - siam paragon - on nut
19/5: on nut - mbk - siam paragon - on nut

ape ke boringnya aktivit en. ramadhan sekeluarga ni..



chatuchak park - opposite chactuchak market. chatuchak market tu ada macam2 menda. tapi kami tak berjalan sangat. tak bawak stroller adam. keadaan jalan yg tidak mengizinkan. visited only few front rows of shops saje. rugi pulak rasa :(


swensens ni dalam carrefour. kat kl susah nak jumpa. redah jugak :D makan macam payah sikit. sebelah swensens ni ada black canyon. dia kata tomyam seafood, tapi macam ada jugak daging tu. tawakal je lah... ada tempat kata halal, tapi ada itik gantung.. steady je. kehkehkeh makanan yg kami betul2 makan dengan berselera tanpa rasa was-was adalah secret recipe kat siam paragon. yg lain sumer baca bismillah tiap kali suap


tut-tut dari mbk ke siam paragon yg kalo jalan kaki tak sampai 100 meter pun. nak merasa punya pasal. lagipun driver dia ensem. dia bawak ronda2. tapikan.. aku rasa dia saja nak intai aku dari rear mirror dia. eh eh.. boleh ke gitu? hahahahaha


balik dari siam paragon, hujan lebat. satu simpang nak ke hotel tu naik air. pakai kasut baru, velvet pulak. tak leh kena air. nampak selipar biru ni tepi jalan. rembat je. kecik sikit. tapi bedal la.... tima kasih selipar. balik bilik, siap2 gi orchid spa, gi cuci kaki. hehehe...spa ni sebelah hotel je. made buat foot massage, aku buat thai massage. thai massage adalah sangat best. tapi untuk isteri-isteri yg suaminya ada sikit galak... sila ikut sehingga ke bilik ye. kalo nak tunggu sama pun bagus. sebab thai massage ni sangatlah lemah lembut dan "sensitif".


tuesday, 20th may 2008
mh785
1105/1405 (local time)
suvarnabhumi, bangkok, thailand/KLIA, malaysia


ole-ole dari bangkok, thailand:
baju tido tu sebab murah
buku cite tu beli kat kinokuniya sebab boring tak tau nak buat apa
souvenir beli kat mbk & chatuchak market
plaster tu sebab kasut merah tu gigit ankle
train untuk adam, cian dia boring
cd pocoyo tu untuk adam jugak sebab tv takde cartoon langsung. cite blue pun takde. kaciwa...
double decker tu mau kasik bangga je sebab barangan buatan malaysia
kasut tu... no comment


hospitality org thai sangat best - sila jangan pikir yg bukan2 ye... derang sangat bersopan santun & hormat org. asik tertunduk2, macam org jepun. dalam bts, kami confirm akan dapat seat. they will angkat bontot once tengok budak kecik. giler tabik kat derang. and the only sign they have in their bts is "please allow seat to those in need". takde sign org preggy ke, org pakai tongkat ke, org tua ke - yilek.

excited - penat - best - happy - seronok

kita dan org

rasa sakit hati kan..
bila kita jaga hati org
org tak reti jaga hati kita

rasa ralatkan..
bila kita jaga cakap kita, tutur kita, adab kita
org kata kita kurang ajar

rasa bengangkan..
bila kita cuba nak membantu
org kata kita menyibuk, jaga tepi kain org

rasa bodohkan..
bila kita hormat org
apa kita dapat hanya nista

kata-kata seperti apa yg kita buat selama ni tak cukup
kata-kata seperti apa yg kita buat selama ni tak memadai
kata-kata seperti apa yg kita buat selama ni tak perlu

apa lagi yg org mahu?
apa lagi yg org harap?
apa lagi yg org hendak?

tak cukup lagi dengan apa yg kita dah lakukan?
tak cukup lagi dengan kita tolong fikirkan kebaikan & kebahagiaan org?
tak cukup lagi apa yg kita dah korbankan selama ni?

kita kah yg terlalu memberi
atau
org kah yg tak pernah rasa mensyukuri?

kita kah yg terlalu memikir tentang org
atau
org kah yg tak pernah rasa dihargai?

kita kah selalu berbalik harap
atau
org kah yg selalu ingin dipenuhi

kita hanya manusia
manusia yg tak lari buat silap

adakala kita tak mampu
tak mampu untuk memenuhi semua hajat org

adakala kita tak larat
tak larat untuk menutup mulut org

adakala kita malas
malas nak layan perilaku org

salahkah kita begitu?
salahkah kita hanya ingin rasa kasih sayang & hormat
bila kita rasa hanya itu yg penting?

bukan duit
tidak harta
bukan kemewahan
tidak kekayaan

org mana yg mampu membeli kasih sayang
dengan ferrarinya?
org mana yg mampu membeli hormat
dengan juta-juta ringgitnya?

hanya si bodoh dan tolol saja yg kepinginkan ferrari & juta-juta ringgit org

kita tak nak hanya bahagia di dunia
kita nak bahagia di akhirat juga
tolonglah kita

kita penat....

pic from http://www.boundless.org

you and you and you and you and you

this morning something interesting happened...

i was infront of kilang transformer (ha.. kelas keramat kan? siap ada kilang transformer gitu...), i noticed one huge lori pengangkut carrying a jentolak, kept blinking it's headlights towards the opposite traffic. you knowlah.. like what will normally happen when a driver needs to make a turn but has not got a chance to do so. therefore he will blink-blink so that the incoming traffic would consider giving him way lah. macam itu... got it? anyways, pulang ke kisah driver lori tadi.. mari pikir why there were few cars ahead of me whom were also like me, ignored the blinking headlight given?

it is because... the signal given was going to its left. and he was actually wanting to turn right. jadik salah i dan kereta-kereta depan i ke tak bagi dia jalan?

ngoks....

this evening oso, something interesting happened...

i've been wanting to send gayah for some cleaning therapy. so after fetching adam and ammar, i went to this car wash which is like 2 minutes away from my house. the other day, made sent wakjah for cleaning, he said it was fast & cheap. rm7 only. so with this recommendation, i went there with the kids. upon arrival, i felt pity already. one of the workers is handicapped. i sangat hati sayu pilu tak boleh tengok org gini ok... so, i parked my car. and sat with the boys at one waiting space. nyamuk sangat banyak and ahead of us was this sign saying "kawasan wabak denggi". rasa nak je jalan gi 7-11 beli ridsect. the 2 workers were juggling between my gayah and another satria. berlagak siut owner satria tu. nak je aku lempang. macam aku heran sangat ko keje pengiring agung. takdenye aku nak tau ko nak beli keta 2nd hand untuk mak pak ko ke, mak mentua ko ke apa ke. baya keta cash ke. ko bawak satria ko dah sampai gunung ledang ke gunung jerai ke... aku tak herannnnnnnn dan tidaklah aku ingin tauuuuuu wahai kanda oiii.. tapi ko dah cite, aku dengar jelah...

CUTTT!!

cite balik pasal cuci keta. upon arrival, when i asked the guy how much was it for cleaning and vacuum, he said rm8. i was, oklah.. tambah rm1 pun tak kisahlah. then after cleaning2, i thought, nevermindlah. give him extra lah. pity them also. tempat terpencil, dont know got customers or not. so, i decided to give all the small change i had - rm11. after all cleaning done, i asked again how much for the cleaning & vacuum service. the non-handicapped guy told me rm10. pulak dah.. i was like, "eh? tadi kata rm8". and since i didn't want to argue, i just handed the money to him. the money means, all my rm11. and he just l-e-f-t. i watched him with no guilty feeling took the extra rm1 into his pocket. rasa nak belasah je dia. boleh ke? bukan tak ikhlas.. extra rm1 tu pun bukannya banyak mana sangat pun. in fact, i sangat ikhlas nak membantu. tapi....... ntah.. rasa ralat bila tengok keta takdelah cuci sangat. comot masih ada. kesan najis burung pun ada lagi. cuci kejadahnya tu? baik suh adam ngan ammar je cuci. puas hati tengok bebudak ni main air.

things like these happen all the time, yes? tak amanah, ignorant, selfish, berlagak, back-stab, etcetera. we are all human. we are bound to have these kind of feelings. but having said this, human, or we, people are still not wanting to analyze the root to what had happened. what had caused the feeling? what had caused others to feel or to react such way? we want people around us to sympathize. we want people to feel how we felt. but we are not willing to do more for others. am i right?

looking at 20 years ago, there were none to be called major highways. there were minimal tall buildings and skycrappers. there were minimum number of technology in life. and people are so intoeach other. now? as technology lead our life and development took the major role, human factors have decreased. respect, feeling for oneself, empathy, all the good-good note in pelajaran mural have been forgotten.

i'm scared. scared for what will adam face in the next couple of years. scared for what will myself be facing in the next couple of months?

notakaki: i have been bz lately.. penat. letih. exhausted. haus.... will update on me & iskl, me & 30, me & family soon. tunggu made balik, baru boleh upload gamba.

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tuesday, 22 april 2008

i was in maybank bandar baru ampang. bapak's hp no appeared on my mobile phone. it was along. at first i thought of nothing wrong until i sensed something was not right because along was asking sort of stupid questions. and i had a feeling that he was trying to figure out how to inform me a news.

"moto bapak hilang, ada org curi subuh tadi. mak nak kuar gi keje, tengok moto takde"

i was stunned. bapak had just recently bought that bike with his allowance & winning money from paralympic games.

i went to bapak's place that night. bapak was in sorrow. whilst listening to the au5's CSI's report, bapak was resting in front of tv. then he sat, looking at me.

i could feel his despair

i could feel his lost

i could feel his sadness

i could feel his anger

i could feel his hope

he did'nt say much. but his eyes said it all..

while i was in maybank this morning, i could not even curse the thieves. i could only think, "hari ni ko bersuka ria la angkut moto bapak aku, akhirat besok berdukalara la angkut dosa2 ko". but upon looking at bapak, i wish i could do more for him.

"tak pelah bapak... kita redha saja. one day, ada rezeki lebih, i'll buy u a new moto - insya Allah"

thursday, 24 april 2008

i have just came back from maknek's place, fetching adam & ammar. then i saw this pakcik misai-ganteng, delivering flyers from house to house. i stopped infront of makcik pah's gate giving way for him to deliver the flyers.

he didn't stopped at kak shida's house. auik? my instant thought was maybe because kak shida is only renting that house. so perhaps there's no reason to distribute the flyer to her house.

but then he skipped my house too. auik? apa kes nih? i starred at him. he did'nt do anything. and delivered the flyer into makcik pah's post box. and to my other neighbours?

that was NOT right!

what make me different from my other neighbours?

first of all, i do not RENT this house. myself and made OWN this house. wanna see the s&p agreement? kami penduduk tetap kawasan ini ok!

yes, we are not the original penduduk of this kawasan, but neither do the mat despatch, pakcik misai-ganteng. he bought the house from pakcik matsom. how do i know that fact? because that house belongs to a friend of mine. and his father, pakcik matsom, has moved to bangi.

yes, made & i not a frequent "visitor" to the surau nearby. not because we suka2 tanak pegi. but we have time constraint and we are woking and we still have errands to run after working hours (these are called alasan ye kawan2). but we have made effort to join the community. we attended the ceramah (which was not informed to us like others. we figured it out thru a banner). made will occasionally perform his solat fardhu in the surau. we invited our neighbours for some makan2 when we have any.

i voted pas for the recent election and saari sungib has won.

so what make us different? why should we be pulled out from the list?

itu hari suruh sangat kami bergiat dalam aktiviti kemasyarakan & surau. tapi kalo tidak diinformkan, macam mananya kami nak tau?

cuba jawab pakcik2, makcik2 ajk BAKAU?

thursday, 25 april 2008

i was in maknek's place wanting to fetch adam & ammar. adam was sleeping, not very to my surprise, with puting. it was not my first time caught adam with puting whilst he's sleeping. not my very first time, i pulled it out and told adam off about this habit. but this time around, i had to put my foot down.

i told maknek that i was dissapointed with her. i told her that she was not helping me and made to get adam out of this habit.

i was harsh and my words were hard. i'm sorry..

i've been telling maknek about how we tried to pull adam out of his habit. i've been telling her how adam was coping with "no puting" environment. i've been telling stories to maknek how was it hard to adam and how he is now ok with the situation.

but whats the use of complimenting adam on all his effort at his own home when he's not achieving anything at maknek's house?

got what i mean?

i know... maknek has been helping me with adam since adam was 2 months old. i could never repay that contribution. but, if she really loves adam as much as i love adam, i just need her to support my moves to mould adam to be a better person. that's only it.

i hope she could understand. it's not that i'm controlling. well, maybe, perhaps, yes a bit. its just because adam is my only child. my only son. my only treasure. my life!

please understand.. i appreciate that...

adam danial, head to toe sponsored by mickey mouse

malu seh..

penah tak korang tegur org, tapi sembang punya sembang punya sembang punya sembang, tak alih-alih salah org? kehkehkehkeh.. malu kan??

meh nak kongsi cite ngan u all..

ada la satu hari tukan, i was in empire tower, city square. peh tu nampak la satu lady ni. sekali pandang macam kawan lama. so i pegilah tegur..

"heyyy...... zakiah kan?"

"eh.. bukan.."

mak datuk.. time tu rasa tebalnya muka... dahlah time nak tegur tu senyum sampai ke telinga. muka excited giler. sekali salah org..

addddduuuuhhhhh.... malu! malu! malu!

tapikan.. tebal muka time tu tak terlawan my second incident. it happened in iskl. ye.. di tempat kejeku. time tu ada international fest. so ramailah orgnya. ntah kenapanya hari tu i pun sangatlah peramah tamah makmahnya

we were heading to our car. sambil tu mata i meliar tengok keliling. spot this one car. this one lady, she looked exactly like my aunty who stayed in bukit indah. my thought, "oh.. mak long pun ada". so i lambai-lambai. kindda excited looking at her. and she came towards me. at that point, i looked at the driver. ah sudah! takde rupa my uncle langsung. time tu dah rasa nak panjat bumbung iskl.. tapi sebab that lady dah jalan towards me, buat menten jelah..

"hai...... have we met?" she said

ha ko.. rasa nak pitam time tu jugak.. apelah nasib ni.. salah org pulak ha.. walaubagaimanapun, i pity that lady. she tried hard to recall where we met. padahal tak penahlah berjumpanya. nasib baik anak2 dia kat elementary school. kalo kat middle/high school memang i pakai jubah tutup muka gi keje. malu giler!!

and baru kejap ni terjadi lagi satu insiden. we went out for dinner. i wanted to order this tahu bakar. so i pusing belakang, i nampak this guy. memang meja tu selalunya tempat budak tahu bakar tu duduk. dengan rasa terujakan tahu bakar tu, i pun orderlah kat dia. apa lagi.. both dia dengan awek dia cengang-cengang. aduhai.. salah orang pulak dah... malu lagi.. nasib baik lepas insiden, budak tu blah. kalo tak, mau terbakar je rasa duk kat situ.

moral of the story, pegilah buat pemeriksaan mata selalu. kehkehkehkehkeh

"maskot malu-malu konon"

i'm 30

aris's passing has given quite a deep impact on me. it has made me realize how short & valuable life is. and how Allah has given me chance to rebuild & reconstruct my inner-strength and faith.

alhamdulillah..

my gratitude goes to all my good & best friends ever in my life. one best friend since i was a 6 years old kid said this to me the other day "na.. if a newborn will cause you your life, please forget about it and dont make me regret". this was then concurred by another good friend. i'm touched whole-heartedly.

thank you..

reality, i wish i could just chew what the doc has said and spit it out. the obstacles are to hard. just when i thought i could sleep with the fact that newborn is a life vs death situation for me, i was awoken with another news.

"well.. from the test we had, you have two fibroids. one is 2.75cm and harmless. and the other one is 2cm but it's approaching your uterus line. this might be the reason why you're having the pain and it's pretty dangerous for pregnancy. but not to worry.. i've had cases worst than this".

"but i dont have 2 fibroids. i have only one which i had since i was a bachelor. and it dissapeared during my pregnancy. how can you say there is two when there is only one, 2 months ago?"

"well, lets monitor it for the next 2 months. if you're still having pain, perhaps operation is the best. however, the good news is, you're out of cancer"

"are you sure?"

"only the One above can decide that. as from my view, you are 95% free of cancer"

half sweet, half bitter!

went home, called mak, asked for 2nd opinion. and i had another not-so-interesting-info-for-my-listening..

"aren't fibroids some kind of cancer?"

completely bitter!

it has been a week since i got the news. trying hard not to think about it. some said fibroid is genetic. could be true. mak had it. but as for now, i'm living with it...

"yang.. do you want another baby?"
"i dont mind.. after all, you ARE my baby"

notakaki: the title acts as a reminder that i'm counting days for my birthday, my dear friends :P