abg botak menang lagi..

hehehe.. asik2 dia menangkan? kalo ada pakai sms ke undi ke sure dia menang punya. i pun suka dia menang.. yey!

ABP berita harian this time around cam tak baper best je. ntahlah.. ada yg tak gempak. tak taula what was the missing x factor. cam ntah. tak best. dengar presenter cam mengarut. and i cam tak suka fauziah nawi tegur fasha sanda macam tu. biarlah dia nak nangis. itupun susah. nak tegur pun belakang2lah. ni dengan mike kat mulut. apa la..

what else eh? aaa.. i like zahid like that. takdelah rambut cacak2 macam nak bersih sawang. ooopppp.. ampunnn... serius.. he looks better tonite. pakai selipar pun henseeeemmm

yada yada yada yada

i like mawi + m. nasir the bestest. m.nasir pun dah jangkit mawi tak ingat lirik? nice! hehehe.. i really enjoy their show. itu 2 org ingat ke tak ingat yg derang tu perform depan kerabat? hahaha.. they really groove into the music man! itu yg enjoy sangat2.

to sahabat mawi.. congratulations! u guys really work hard for it. for bukan sahabat mawi.. tabahkanlah hatimu. heheheh

amacam? hensem tak jambul adam?

i'm like a bird

i dah resigned! yey!!

being in that company is like enroll into mental hospital. sebelum application i lulus, baik i angkat kaki, blah. bukan i tak suka keje situ. suka. tupperware i pun laku banyak kat situ. heheh. but then maybe it was my mistake that i couldnt adapt into the environment. which i think, typical narrow minded people. i dont mean all the people ok. certain people. maybe that's the culture of that particular group of companies. i tak tau. but my first employment was not that bad. oklah.. but this one.. aiyahhh.. memang gali lubang kubur punya.

for this company i wish the good fortune and all the best with it's future undertakings. headed by 2 new bosses, i hope their vision & mission are realistic. the only thing i hope they could is to smack on that MBA. uurgghh! how i wish she would wake up and realize what she has done wrong.

for the new company... eh eh.. dah resign ni banyak pulak offer. sampai tak tau nak pegi lapor diri kat mana. hehehe.. alhamdulillah. rezeki. i pulak yg kena short list. amboii.. ala2 eksen pulok dooohhh..

a blessing in disguise? amin...

~ 0 ~

You're beautiful, that's for sure
You'll never ever fade
You're lovely, but it's not for sure
That I won't ever change
And though my love is rare
Though my love is true

I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away
I don't know where my soul is
I don't know where my home is
(And baby all I need for you to know is)
I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away
I don't know where my soul is
I don't know where my home is
(And baby all I need for you to know is)

Your faith in me brings me to tears
Even after all these years
And it pains me so much to tell
That you don't know me that well
And though my love is rare
Though my love is true

It's not that I wanna say goodbye
It's just that every time you try to tell me that you love me
Each and every single day I know
I'm going to have to eventually give you away
And though my love is rare
And though my love is true
Hey I'm just scared
That we may fall through

E.M.P.T.Y

that's how i feel at the momento..

why ah? i oso dono. i just feel so empty inside. tho adam-the-cheeky-inhouse-entertainer is there to cheer me up, but to some extend, there's still emptiness in me.

aight! i might miss uwan. i might. but i dun think i miss her that much. it's just that whenever i look at the Quran she gave. and look at those piccies, the tears start to flows. whatodo... i'm cengeng kan..

or maybe it's about the incident happened between me and this awek of somebody i know. nah... why should i bother about somebody who lied to me. kan? and why should i think about somebody who have once said "eleh.. asal nampak jantan hensem mula la terhegeh". padahal that jantan yg hensem was my bf (was ye.. sila baca sekali lagi.. w-a-s my bf). ceh... tulah.. karma is always rite. what goes around comes around. dulu dia dok ngata i. la ni tengok... tengok.. sapa yg terhegeh? harharhar.. i bukanla nak ngutuk dia. i just want her to know the reason why i remember her so well.. tho that thing happened more than 10 years ago, those words are just a click away. it hurts man!

bukan. tidak. i bukan pendendam. neither that i'm arrogant. cuma kadang2 i tak suka mengenang kisah sembilu pedih meleleh macam kena siram dengan air garam campur cuka campur limau nipis nih. yg lopeh tu lopeh la kan. i malehlahhh...

eh eh. cam rasa lega sikit pulak.. heheheh..

anyway, bunch of my old skool frens are coming for a reunion next sunday. teruja tuuu.. it's been like what? 10 years? wow! 10 years since i left skool. sungguh cepat masa berlalu. la ni pun asik celebrate besday anak2 member je. i pun dah setat plan for adam's birthday this june. BBQ sounds interesting kan?

counting days!!!!

rukun negara ke lima

kepercayaan kepada Tuhan
Kesetiaan kepada raja & negara
keluhuran perlembagaan
kedaulatan undang2
kesopanan & kesusilaan

atau dalam bahasa inggerisnya

belief in God
loyalty to king & country
supremacy of the constitution
the rule of law
mutual respect & good social behaviour

"Rukunegara or sometimes Rukun Negara is a philosophy - de facto Malaysia pledge of allegiance - introduced by the Malaysian government 1970 in reaction to a serious race riot known as the May 13 Incident which occurred in 1969. The incident proved at that time that Malaysian racial balance and stability was fragile at best. Immediately thereafter, the Malaysian government immediate sought ways to foster unity among Malaysians. One of methods used to encourage unity is the Rukun Negara. The Rukun Negara was introduced on the 13th Malaysian national day, which fell on August 31 each year."

~ 0 ~

time sekolah dulu i ada sedikit menyampah dengan hari senin. sebab pagi2 kena nyanyi Negaraku. peh tu lagu negeri selangor. peh tu lagu Malaysia jaya (ke apa ntah). peh tu lagu sekolah. peh tu rukun negara. tang rukun negaralah yg paling letih. siap kena angkat tangan ala2 karam singh walia. tapi hari ni i rasa macam ada sedikit tertampar with the 5th rukun. kisahnya begini..

seperti biasa jalan i nak gi keje jem. jem yg amat sangat this few days. i rasa due to most rakyat jelata works 5 days a week nowadays. so people either masuk awal atau balik lambat. kerana itu, jumlah kereta sudah bertambah. did the menteri2 cabinet had a thought about it before they agree on the implementation? tapi tak pela. dah terlambat. dah jadik bubur ayam mekdi dah. back to my jem story. jalan short cut bagi penjenayah jalan raya ada sedikit kesesakan. therefore, they have to opt for the main road. ada la satu, dua, tiga dan empat (baca ala2 ruffedge nyanyi ye) kereta yg masuk kategori tak pegi sekolah memandu. main potong q ikut belah kiri. ala2 ikut jalan emergency gitulah. what interest me so much was, this particular car ahead me, dia tak kasik org lain potong q dia. tapinya.. dia potong q i tak pe. and people yg nak potong q dia tadi tu adalah org2 di jalan short cut yg dia nak amik mula2 tu. paham tak? mm.. macam ni, dia nak masuk jalan short cut. tapi jalan tu jem. so dia potong q i kat main road. peh tu bertembung dengan org jalan short cut. tapi dia tak kasik org jalan short cut tu potong q dia. aa.. paham tak? tak paham jugak? mmmm... buat2 paham jelah...

so i was smiling & "eleh.. dia buat tak pe. org lain buat tak boleh.. piraaaaahhhhhh".

then i sampai kat elevated hiway punya tol. before me was a mercedez kaler ijo. this particular toll gate guy, dari jauh i dah nampak kekuyuan matanya. mungkin masih mengantuk sebab pagi2 dah kena keje. the merc driver kasik RM2.00. the charge is RM1.50. so budak kuyu ni pulangkanlah 50sen. tapi cara dia pulangkan tu, buat i rasa tertampar for the second time. dia lepaskan aja duit tu kat this merc guy. macam kita pegang duit peh tu lepaskan atas meja. aa. camtu la. to make the story interesting, duit tu jatuh. obviously that merc guy marah. and this budak kuyu? buat muka toya 3 kupang tak pandang langsung kat merc guy tu. and i dont think he said the magic word "sorry". "eh.. kurang ajarnye budak ni" kata i di dalam hati. dan terus i teringat the 5th rukun negara.

i dont know about u people. but i think things are getting worst each day. i jarang sekali dengar "terima kasih" kat cashier counter. the other day, i pegi tupperware, i terhegeh2 nak masukkan barang dalam plastik, this young lady buat derk je. eventhough i tak mengharap sangat pertolongan dia, but then cant she have the courtesy to at least say something like "boleh ke kak?". in contrast, i like the guys yg jaga parking kat opis i. memang i salute. they have the courtesy to greet, even the generousity to help u with ur things. memang boleh buat kawan. org2 macam ni dah pupus ke?

org skang dah hilang pertimbangan on kesopanan & kesusilaan ke? dah tak de rasa respect to each other? i dont feel there's need to welcome that kind of generation in Malaysia. we need pure malaysian. people with courtesy to say hi & thanks (+ other magic words). people with respects to other people.

makes me wonder, those program yg tunjuk tolong org tua lah, OKU la, budak2 la, tu sume real ke? ke lakonan semata2?

i rest my case..

i am

when i was a kid, people around me call me dikna. there was only me & my bro, definitelylah i dapat title adik. then my sister came along. i became angah. but the dikna still exist especially to my relatives in terengganu. baik tua, baik muda, suma panggil i dikna. my neber depan umah lagi best. dia panggil i kak dikna. heheh..

for family members, it was angah here angah there. kak ngah to my cousins. and i'm going to be mak ngah soon. but to friends, i remain as anna. that time, i sungguh marah kalo org eja my name with single "n". sampaikan tulisan jawi pun i buat dable "nun". and i remember one ustaz ni buat "sabtu" atas "nun" i. harharhar...

until the day i joined metrojaya, somebody called me anne. this bro maleh nak panggil nama i panjang2. furthermore ada yg nama sama. dia takut kompius. so i got a new name. then i got into ITM. in my class ada few names end with "-na" namely hana, dianna, mardiana, azianna. so since my friend azianna took the anna, i decided to go with anne. bedal je la. kena pulak the masa predip tu, i kena blajar omputeh je. so the name blends la kan? anne the org puteh? heheheh...

bila i dah graduated, i jadi confuse. nak suh org panggil anna ke anne? my first job, i kenalkan diri as anna. bersambunglah sampai ke 2nd job ni. but yet terselit jugak anne di sini sana. yelah... i dah ada mixture of friends. so anne + anna here, there.

then i got another name. mak bagi. termaktublah yg i ni the cemetot among my siblings. due to that, mak suka panggil i metot. joben & chengkut pun terikutlah panggil i cenggitu. akan tetapi, as younger sister, chengkut tak lehlah panggil i metot kan? nanti dia dianggap adik yg kureng hasam. so she calls me cemet. therefore, i got another name... nama itulah yg my family panggil i skang nih.

i got a cyber name. cumi. heheh.. ada few people je yg panggil i camtu. kekadang cam kelakar je rasa. jauh benar dari anna & anne tu. tapi tak kisahlah. janji derang tau sapa derang panggil. kan?

i've never like people call me su. i dont know why. time kecik2 ada la org panggil i susu. and i rasa because of that, i jadik bengang gile kalo org panggil i su. until now, i still have the same feeling. i dont like being called as su. but then i have to give in for che made's family. the nieces & nephews ada yg panggil i cik su or suna. suna tu sebab i makcik yg bongsu & na tu nama i. cik su tu.. mmm.. mm.. mungkin sebab derang ingat i dipanggil su. tak taulah. tapi nak sedapkan hati i yg lara ni, i katala nama cik su tu sebab i ni makcik bongsu. hehehehe..

since 12 june 2004, i got a boy who call me mama. that's the best name ever. yey!

well.. ayang, honey bunny, sweet pie, angel of my heart, daling tercinta tu tak yah citelah kan? macam u all tak de nama2 manja camtu kan? kan? kan? elehhhh....

notakaki: anna my ITM classmate tu end up being called acik sudahnya. hampehh..

because u love me

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak

You were my eyes when I couldn't see

You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

~0~

i've loved
and i'm still in love

under the bridge

~ forgotten realms ~

life is a trip, tripping is unavoidable. we all fall down from time to time. we all sit in our rooms alone, walls closing in, wanting to shed our skin. and with all of life's demands it's easy to get over burdened and loose touch with ourselves. there just isn't enough time in the day no matter how much time u hvae. there are always questions looming heavy over all of us. we find that we can lighten the load a little by expressing ourselves. sometime it's all we can do. sometimes it's the only thing that makes sense.

the human experience - life, is greater than the questiones it poses and our answers. it's important to have an answer though. the clock is ticking on all of us. i'm scared tooo...

~ 0 ~

i got it from a good friend. from him, i learnt that we each have our own anger and pain. he also told me that keeping it inside can do a lot of damage. we normally talk about what we had inside. and it really help - no matter how serious the problems are, we all must deal with the monster within. the same guy taught me this song:

Sometimes I feel
Like I don't have a partner
Sometimes I feel
Like my only friend
Is the city I live in
The city of angels
Lonely as I am
Together we cry

I drive on her streets
'Cause she's my companion
I walk through her hills
'Cause she knows who I am
She sees my good deeds
And she kisses me windy
I never worry
Now that is a lie

I don't ever want to feel
Like I did that day
Take me to the place I love
Take me all the way

It's hard to believe
That there's nobody out there
It's hard to believe
That I'm all alone
At least I have her love
The city she loves me
Lonely as I am
Together we cry

I don't ever want to feel
Like I did that day
Take me to the place I love
Take me all that way

Under the bridge downtown
Is where I drew some blood
Under the bridge downtown
I could not get enough
Under the bridge downtown
Forgot about my love
Under the bridge downtown
I gave my life away

"under the bridge" - red hot chilli peppers

**miss u keyoi**

i believe i can fly..

sometimes i wonder. macam mana org yg selalu menganiaya org lain sentiasa lepas dalam perbuatan dia. no. i dun query apa yg Allah telah tentukan. cuma i rasa kesian kat derang. derang ni lupa ke adanya hari pembalasan? derang ni leka ke dengan buaian duniawi? bila derang nak sedar? mampu ke pahala derang menggalas bahu dosa2 derang?

i selalu terfikir. tertanya sendiri bila derang ni nak sedar? what if they wake up one day just to realize that it's too late to seek apology or at least to say simple sorry? when would they realize that they cant turn back the time to hear "u're forgiven. i simply couldnt understand this type of person. menganiaya org tu memang seronok. seronok yg amat.... dan balasan seksa yg dia akan dapat? pun "seronok" sangatttttt..

my patience for the MBA (Moron Bodoh yg Amat) in my office is up to the limit. the bell has rang. i know i'm just a little anchovy in a big ocean. the sharks and the piranhas will come after me at anytime. i'd be eaten and out of the world by any second. gulp! these sharks and piranhas are the people with power in their hands and they would do anything just to get their hands off the mud. and they are too ignorant to apprehend that the power they have could be beneficial for those in need.

what i did recently was just to make my voice heard. so that this particular person is not taking advantage on other people anymore. she may get away for few times but not all the times. i know. she's good in creating good plot & cerekarama. but i believe in honesty. i believe in Allah. and i believe in faith. what will be will be. i hope i have the courage to stand strong. i know i will. i believe i will.

i will fly!!!

untuk cik julie

tau.. tau.. lambat.. sorryyyyyyyyyyyy

AJL 20

i just wanna jot down some personal thoughts on the show. sekali sekala jadi tukang bagi review best jugak...

started with the red carpet, kartini mungkin ada gelabah sket2, tapi overall, she's goodlah.. macam aidiel, dia dah kira senior kan, so definitely he's good. when kartini a bit kalut time the result was actually not with her, aidiel got the thing undercovered. good job! tapi i rasa u people would agree that the hadiah sampingan thingy was a bit kalut. dengan org lalu lalang. dengan tetiba buat announcement. and everything was a bit messy. but why endon mastura yg menang eh? ntahlah.. macam tak de apa je kat baju dia tu.. i tak taulah kan. i tengok kat umah. kamera mana ada fokus kat dia sangat. and one more, why announce siti's winning time tu? cam tak best je.. announcelah time show. maybe lagi best.. maybe ye.. maybe sahaja...

fara fauzana & cheryl was a good combo. fara was fun, same as cheryl. ally & cheryl? mm.. oklah.. boleh tahan. amy mastura & cheryl? hahaha.. kiut.. amy was really kiut. tu baju anak dia ke baju dia tu? ezlyn & cheryl i tak tengok sangat. sibuk babai mak & bapak nak balik penang. i heard there's suppose to be hans. mana dia? i believe the rock time was his?

with zehra, my eyes was on her baju wonder woman. chengkut panggil baju "superman pompuan". whyla buat baju camtu? dahlah semacam je "bera" kat luar kaler pulak kelam dek dancers. sampaikan i tercarik2 zehra ni kat mana. dahlah i tak kenal dia..

then azaharina. i was hoping that she wouldnt do the goyang bontot, tangan tunjuk satu & mohon maaf action sebab dah 2 kali live show i tengok dia wat camtu. nasib baiklah tak de. her preformance reminds me of ziana zain. dia dah kurus eh?

next VE. i baru je komen that the baju putih tu kurang sesuai, pandang lagi sekali, derang dah tukar baju. barulah i rasa cam ada move to the song.

rohana jalil came next. i sebenanya tak paham lagu tu. dengan bebudak tu. i tak paham apa dia cakap & performance dia pun i kurang paham. i wont query why she got in, dah rezeki...

go on to ning baizura. i didnt expect that was her. so simple. baju pun macam bukan ning. but then rambut tu i rasa a bit contra with the concept. maybe kalo rambut tu disanggulkan, mungkin.. mungkinlah lebih sesuai

the red white guy, adam made me tak tau kenapa ada pelakon tambahan tu? and they were not fully utilised pun. buang karan je.....

time for commercial break pun tiba.. sebab time noraniza idris. heheh.. we all kurang berminat dengan dia ni. so time nilah bapak made move. and time ni lah i pun packing nak balik. i tak taulah.. with the spekulasi on her marriage & son, she still can perform? kalo i, tak taulah.. mungkin i back off for a while. at least settle things with the loved ones then barulah pikir nak bergelek depan org. i read an article saying she left the kids with the husband. and my view was: "dia ni tak sayang anak ke? mak lain sibuk nak jaga anak, dia lagi sibuk nak gelek bontot depan org". my point ye.. my point saja... ada satu dancer dia "cumil". sungguh "cumil". hehehhehe

dapat tengok kejap je wajah - jaclyn victor, sebab dok sibuk babai mak & bapak. masuk2 tengah dah nak habis. i sebenarnya cam minat2lah lagu ni. tapi tak dapat tengok dia perform.

then i made move balik umah. masuk umah, bukak tivi, tengok ular. adohhh.. i terbayang britney spears. zainal & gaia rupanya. bab2 ular ni i fel la.. mintak ampunnnn.. fizah, amacam ko semalam?

nak kata ditunggu2 tak jugak. tapi i nak tengoklah jugak si fenomena ni. time for mawi. i ingat dia pakai kain. sabo jelah.. awat baju dia kaler tu? tak menyerlah lah. selainnya i tak baper dengar dia nyanyi. i sibuk tengok adam, pasang komputer, etc, etc..

gemilang was another song yg i tunggu2. lagu tu memang best la. cuma i tak berapa suka dengar jac asik "yeah.. yeah". at some points, sedap. at another point, macam kureng je.. and the choir reminds me of sister act & whoopi goldberg.

finally hazami with kata. shioklah. memang mengshiokkan. and i saw tris as one of the back up singer. apa salah pencipta jadik back up jugak kan? yg lain2 tu student dia ke? heheheh.. kagum i tengok dancers dia. really groove into the music.

showcase was great except for the rapping yg mengganggu julie sudiro's, jeffrydin's & dj dave's song. i nak dengar jugak lagu2 lama ni. ada pulak yg menyampuk. i rasa cam bikin rosak lagu je. i like the great combos. ito & neves, jamal & misya, andy & amy. superbbbbb!!! jamal & amy look true gentlemen. hensem bangetttt.. then came kru. oklah. just like before. i actually had the hope that they would apprear for adam. then innuendo with belaian jiwa. sungguh melayannn... i nak carik kaset derang. i miss their songs. especially selamanya. i like that song the most. m.nasir rasanya tak payah cakap apa la. memang best! dina & pija was funny? dina with that suit and pija macam tak bersungguh nyanyi. i cam sengeh sensorang tengok derang. then came along ruffedge, ahli fiqir & the rest with lagu evolusi muzik berterusan. lepas windu tengok sein. hehehe.. and was that cat of ruffedge? semacammmmm..

siti nurhaliza as jury? wow.. an honour! ajai with the subang? heh.. muka banyak baru.. semangat baru! way to go music industry..

congratulations to the winners. i rasa juri memang maleh nak carik ramai2 pemenang. ada 3 winners. all took home 2 prizes. mawi was expected to win the sms contest. hazami was no way in my mind. i thought ning would win. then jac memanglah dah dijangka. horray!!

nite-nite!

cerita ceriti cerito

sepanjang cuti ni i tak gi mana2. most of my times duduk melepak depan tivi or menghapal catalogue tupperware. hehehe.. yesterday kak cik amik rice dispenser. yihaaa.. sonot! after this kena beli 1 lagi untuk kak wan. sonot jugak jadik business lady ni. i've never into direct selling or yg bersamaan dengannya. but with tupperware, i found it very easy. letak catalogue, org datang carik. cakap sikit, org order. so senanglah untuk i yg muka sombong + penyegan silu ni. ;P

lagi satu, i jarang menghabiskan masa watching tivi. unless show yg memang i tunggu. macam house (isk. isk.. awatlah cepat sangat dia habis), natasha, csi, just to name some. csi pun i dah macam malas2 nak tengok. semacam pulak rasa bila horatio asik cakap pandang sisi. peh tu cam asik derang je betul. solve satu kes in a day pulak tu. amazing. forensik mesya? heheh.. tamo cakapla. kang kena saman.

about malay movies. i've been watching quite a number. bukanlah i tak suka. suka jugak. bila pikir2 balik, banyak yg tersirat dalam malay movies. but the presentation was a bit foolish to me. thinking back, berguna jugak "kisah benar" tu. walaupun cite dia ala-ala banganglah sikit. tapi moral of the story tu ada. kita kena pikir. tapi itulah yg i malaskan. nak tengok pelakon tu satu. dialog tu satu. script pun satu. adegan2 tu tok sah cakaplah.. tahan leleh je rasa.... what i notice in malay movies, i dont know the producer ke, director ke script writer ke, but they are bound to fantasies. thus make their good artwork into rubbish. i dont know about editing things. but i think this is the important part in making the movies flow smoothly. it's the editor's responsibility to ensure people understand the whole story. editing lari, habihlah... cite kejap kat tampin kejap kat ulu jempol. (note: mind me ok.. i dont know the exact job of the people involve. so i cuma cakap keje derang based on my understanding. salah kalu, ampunkan saya).

i catched some scenes:

1. cite apa ntah. corrie lawan2 dengan sorang mamat. then dia tikam mamat ni. amazingly baju dia tak de darah. darah kat baju mamat yg mati tu je. tak de percikan darah jua. well i think this one is too much of CSI influence
   
2. cite apa ntah. zamarul was fighting with this guy kat tepi laut. awalnya that guy yg kena belasah tu still pakai helmet. then one point, tak de. lepas tu sikit je lagi eh... ada balik. apa daaaaaaa
3. sembilu 2005. cikgu erra panggil hetty ke bilik guru recess time. cakap depan kawan2 dia. sekali time recess kawan2 baik dia ni boleh lak tak tau dia pegi mana. peh tu pegi tanya kat juliana banos whom is hetty's enemy. and juliana banos pulak yg tau mana si hetty pegi. hairan... then, kalo nak sedih2 memang kena dalam ujan ke? tak de ujan tak boleh? peh tu kat epot. dah panggil tu jalanlah cepat2. ni boleh pulak jalan cam nak bersanding.. adohhhhhh.. awatlah dato ni bikin cite ini macammmmmmm..
4. cinta fotokopi. cite ni memang banyak mengarutlah. cant imagine that this is a handmade of a prof madya. so lucky i tengok ujung2 je. boleh ke minang2 tak de org tua? wow... terlalu advance khai & zarina. peh tu tunggu ketapi kat ketapi barang? sorang2? dari tengahari sampai ke senja? adoh!!! peh tu ada kat opis, boleh pulak farid kamil & wife masuk opis berpeluk tangan? come on la........ ada ke org gi opis itu gaya? ada lagi.. tengah2 khai puji2 zarina, ada pulak zarina kat muka pintu. before that tak de. aaa.. majik. majik. bahasa tok sah cakaplah... kaget saya menonton cerita ini. i sangguplah dengar je, tak payah tengok....

just to name a few la. these are the movies yg i tak sengaja tengok sepanjang cuti ni. ada lagi yg i tak sengaja tengok. like maria mariana. arghhh.. another one... mensampah gue tengok muka itu azza.. tak bley berlakon elok2 ke derang ni? and i pun cam dah boring2 tengok rosyam noor. i dun know why. but i think he's just like that. i dah boring nak tengok lakonan dia. cam dah tak de kelainan. cite sedih2 oklah kot...

i tak 100% condemn malay movies. some are good. i dont go on actors or actresses. i go for the cerita. cerita tu menarik, i tengok. macam i like afdlin shauki. tapi cite dia yg jadik org jahat dengan wahid tu i tak berkenan. ntah. i went blur with that movies. lagi satu to me, in a movies or cerekarama, kalo character dia bagus, i berminat. like natasha. i minat character tina. i wanna know the ending of her character. memang i jadik menci kat dia. so what does that mean? she's a good one.. right? and i suka tengok lembut si natasha. i like almost everything in this movie. i berminat sungguh dengan rashid sibir's. but cinderella was yucks to me. paling best i tengok layar lara. 2 kali kat wayang. beberapa kali kat tv. tak puas. still tak puas. the other one is gol & gincu. sebab? that's whom we are. cakap itu macam. perangai itu macam.

i hope the film makers will do something for the malay film industry. they are really talented. dont waste it. do things based on realistic character. buat apa nak tipu2 penonton dengan buat cite2 ala hindustan. let hindustan be hindustan. la pun tak de stress on bahasa baku. apatah lagi in daily languange. people nowadays mana ada cakap "kenapa kau melukakan hatiku? aku kecewa dengan sikap kau yg terlalu egoistic". kan? and i think i'd go for something simple... better..

bahasa cinta tak semestinya bahasa bunga2. kan?

dua puluh tiga bulan satu sampai satu bulan dua

pergghhh.. lamanya tak update blog ni. bz ke? tak jugak. buat2 bz kot.. buat tupperware ni really makes me moving, thinking and a looooot of talking. heheh.. both me and aiza had few things in mind. insya Allah, with a little bit of patience & effort, i hope our dream will come true. steady za... we'll go thru the obstacles...

i did a facial demo on the 7th floor office. wow. ramai jugak yg datang. sampai tak cukup tangan nak layan. nasib baik ada kak jah. cite punya cite. basuh punya basuh. rupenya adalah sorang my old friend kat situ, sha. sama2 kat metrojaya some times ago. ha.. kan dah jejak kasih.

after ANFC, i venture into a friend's gathering. mmm.. boleh tahan jugaklah. kalo kira2, tolak campur bahagi, memang i ni kategori rugi. tapi tak pelah. for the fun of it, belasah jelah.

mak dah dapat pingat gagah perkasa V1008 the other day. che made had to make way to penang & drove it safely to KL. la ni it's in terengganu. bercuti sakan..

what else eh.. we bought a printer cum scanner cum copier. purpose? we wanna be professional kan? so we have to start being one.

cuti lama2 made both me and che made tak tau nak gi mana. this coming thursday, bawak adam gi cocok. dah setawon sengah tak cocok lagi budak kecik kat sebelah ni. yesterday on our way to kak ti's place, adam pointed to KLCC and said "CICI". it was a nice feeling knowing that this little guy is learning & remembering things so well. he's an observant. he'll do what other people did. and we are sooo.. proud of it. isk.. isk.. isk.. paling dia suka main kejar2. sampai tak larat nak kejar dah. nenek sampai sakit pinggang main kejar2 dengan dia. being the first cucu kan.. manjalah sket. peh ni dapat cousin, kena share2lah nenek & atuk.

abg ajih, kak amy and their 2 little army are in town. they are suppose to come over for lunch today. tapi tak nampak bayang lagi. tuan rumah pun lepak je. masak tak, apa pun tak.. yelah.. dah menu piza kan.. tak payahlah susah2 nak masak kan? hehehhe... kejap lagi order je. yesterday we had nasi budu kat umah kak za. sampai pecahla botol budu tu... bersesuaian sungguh dengan tema. satu umah bau budu sudahnya. ayah & ma planned to tag along. tapi ayah tak berapa confident with his health.

i watched few malay movies. i'm keeping my prayer so that the next movie wont be as suck as the previous ones.... sometimes kan.. i wonder la.. why la those datuk's & prof madya's movies are just rubbish? educated & highly respected for? nothing... dont get me wrong. bukannya i tak tengok cite melayu. i tengok jugak. i layan jugak natasha & mya zara. hahaha.. but those cinta fotokopi, sembilu & some others are just.... plain. plot merata2 tempat. kejap kat kajang, kejap kat kelang, kejap kat tampin. apa ni? and ada ke org tunggu ketapi sorang diri? kat tempat ketapi barang pulak tu? ayoyoo... peh tu kalo nak mengamuk, marah2, sedih, mesti ada hujan? apa relevan hujan ni? kasi sedih lebih la? standard hindustan la... buatlah cite cam gol & gincu. light & easy. cakap pun tak delah berbelit. nantilah. i'll elaborate more on this. i kena spend more time on the movies. nak jadi analyst pulak. hehehe..

sebelum lupa.. hepi besday to aiza & hepi 30th year anniversary to mak & bapak..

bagaimanakah anda menghabiskan masa hujung minggu anda?

i had tupperware assembly on saturday afternoon. seperti biasa, kerja saya: sangap. dah maghrib baru balik sebab carik barang door gift for adibah noor fan club. start to work with the packing around 10 pm. adam kena layan dulu. itupun tengah malam tak tido lagi. being a "keras tangan" person, dun ask how the ribbons look like. tangan saya tidak sekreatif pemikiran saya. enuff said. tengah sedap buat, sekali ribbon habish. adohai.. so saturday ended.

pagi2 tadi i went to umah bapak. adalah belen ribbon i kawin itu hari. sambung balik buat ribbon & pack the whole thing into a box. phewww.. akhirnya... sempat masak bekpes untuk adam & che made before head to meet haris kat depan ampang point. dah passed barang, head to tupperware.

i had a training with julia hiew of tupperware. it was quite an interesting training but i was not so attracted to the deliverance. so i pun startlah belayar ke sana sini. basically it was a training to boost up our spirit in doing business. she had the points. but being me, i couldnt be bothered.

training ended, i made my way to KLCC. adibah noor fan club: pecah dara gathering. hehehe. so lucky they were still there. surprisingly, bila i sampai, i tak nampak pun kak dibano. ntah mata i rabun, ntah dia dah selim. lama2 pandang barulah nampak si gadis manis dengan baju orennya. harharhar. quite a number turned up. it was a nice feeling. being the hilite of the day. hehehe. biasalah.. dah sponsor, lambat pulak tu. but it wasnt my mistake. blame the parking entry machine. ada ke duit singgit suma dia tamo. bukan syiling tau. duit kertas. duit baru pulak tu. jenuhlah i masukkan seposen2 dalam menda tu. 5 hengget tau. nasib baik tak de org kat belakang je.... duk kejap je then, they call it a day. oklah. i dun mind.. after all, it was a pleasure dapat jumpa kak dibano. i'm not a big fan of her. ok-ok jelah. tapi oklah.. heheh.. unexplainable feeling..

balik kejap, then kononnya nak bersiap gi wedding kak sue. bukaklah wedding card. "majlis: 12 - 3pm". kensel la nampaknya... hehehe.. sudahnya kul 6 gi lepak umah kak ziana. dapat jugaklah makan mee hoon goreng yg dah lama tak makan tu. aaahhhh.. penat....

mata i dah layu. kuyu. sepet. but i'd like to finish what i had in mind.

i had a mix feeling when i prepare the door gift pack. to give the catalogue or not to give. i feel it's inappropriate to put catalogue in the pack. but the other side of me said vice versa. and i'm so glad that i chose to add the catalogue in. i had some positive feedbacks. with some had of "hek eleh... ini pun nak letak catalogue" kind of look. but who cares.. hahahah... i'm eager about the opportunity. being a newbie in business industry, i welcome this opportunity. i really do. i feel like my pray is answered. alhamdulillah.. harap2 rezeki ini berpanjangan.

it's a tiring weekend. i'm exhausted!

now my bed time. i betul2 sudah ngantuk tahap jula juli bintang tiga bersinar-sinar terkelip-kelip. nite-nite..

@d@m d@n!@L

adam memang suka kamera. kamera pun memang suka dia. gifted with the a dimple on his left cheek, he's cute. i know, i know! dah bile i nak puji anak sendiri kan? inilah timenya. nanti2 dah besar, tak kuasa nak puji. la ni adam dah ligat. tak hengat punya ligat.

ligat-ligat pun, he's a good observer. apa je yg org buat, he'll try to do. vacuum lantai, basuh pinggan, sapu sampah, main komputer, drill, anything. now that he can talk. lagilahhhh.. "ayah", "mama", "nenek", "totok" (atuk), "bapak", "lelen", loong", tanak", "dap", "bed"(bird), "air", "nanah" (hannah @ aina) etc, etc. budak kecik ni cengelat. dia tak mo sebut nama dia. he knows he's being called. but to say "adam", dia tanak. tak boleh dengar horn. sure dia ala-ala mak nenek membebel. ntah apa dia cakap..

he calls his atuk as bapak. agaknya dah terbiasa dengar we all sume panggil cenggitu. whilst his babysitter's husband is called totok. lelen is my sista. from moksu lin, lelen je yg tinggal. bedal jelah.. when he sees a waja he'll scream "mama". when he catches a wira, he'll go "ayah". upon seeing a taxi, he'll call out "totok". yg best dia nampak motor. "vroooooooommmmmm". siap dengan gaya2 tangan.. hehehe

i luv my 2 dalingsssss....

gambar kat umah mak kat penang.. i like this pic so much.. tukang amik gambar memang pandai pilih time la.. hahaha

i feel gay today..

a'a.. it's not what u think.. gay in this context is cheerful, jovial, merry dan yg sewaktu dengannya.

(menung sat... time mandi tadi idea meluap2. la ni dah takde pulak..)

i came accross this gay word during my predip in ITM, which was 10 years ago. perghh.. cepatnya masa berlalu. learning english was no joke man. i had 6 months of english then continue with 3 years compulsory english learning. kalo pedap pun dah tak leh cakap apa la.. angguk2 geleng2 pun tarak guna. at one time, mak pun cam heran2. anak dia sorang ni dah jadik minah saleh. cakap ngan mak pun "i-u". hehehe..

i was not really an english literate person. bapak & mak cakap BI. but it was not our prime language kat umah. i'm lost if i watch english movie without having my eyes scroll on the subtitle. and i remember laughing watching english movie semata2 sebab dengar ada org gelak dalam movie tu.. hehehe..

my 1st school was SRKTM. it was a mix school. tapi bangsa lain still cakap BM. so i was not totally exposed to "english language". i still remember during an exam, i curi2 dengar org sebelah i explain to org sebelah dia what is IRON. yes i know. seterika. that time mana i tau. if mak were to sebut iron sekalipun, i've already got confused on the spelling. then at another time, in my test, i corrected my teacher's spelling. SELFISH became SELL FISH. so org yg pentingkan diri sendiri, jadik tokeh ikan. hahaha.. stupid me..

while i was in SKLK, i became the quite good english student. my essay on my english teacher, mrs wong, was posted on the "good work" section. bangga seh. padahal ntah apa je i tulis time tu. dia suh tulis 5 sentences essay. so i bantai apa pun. time tu rasa terer la sikit kononnya.

SMLK was not a big difference. same faces, more or less the same people. so english was still not my main liking. until my good buddy, sherry came. dia memang minah salehlah. speaking london tak sudah. she got so popular for that. ntah macam mana i boleh baik ngan dia. dialah supplier mills & boon. hehehe.. and i still remember naming nickel as part of my body. bodonyerrrrr..

while working in metrojaya, i had experience with one customer that was not satisfied with my english. she told me "u better start learning english. i couldnt understand what u're saying" memang gile punya malu la time tu. rasa macam nak keje sambil pakai paper bag.. but it was her that encourage me to learn proper english.

now, english i cam ok la. like my lecturer said. there are 3 types of people in english learning. one with both speaking & writing skill. one with only speaking skill and the other one absolutely the one with good writing skill. i cant decide in which group i belong to. i still have fear & over concern on my english. terlalu menyusun ayat, sampai ayat i jadik tonggang langgang. kadang2 dah sebut baru pasan salah grammar.

but the best of all is the expression of love from my non-fellow-friend-ship, am. the story, our lecturer suh buat ayat pakai segala grammar yg ada. then this guy, he came out with this:

my mother makes love to me everyday

adohai.. sebodo-bodo i, i rasa i pandai lagi daripada dia nih. harharhar.. (appreciation to mills & boon)

pepsi?

i've been constructing my words on this topic since the day we went back to krai. whenever i had some good points, that's the time the pc is not before me. time driving la, time yak2 la, time discussion la.. so i hope i could squeeze back all the juices...

i read about the mother with her 2 daughters being called "sundal". my 1st impression seeing their picture was "sesuai pe....". it's my perception. look at what they wore. so lucky they are not jeslina hashim la. kalo tak sure kes lepas punya. hehe.. then i got an email - kononnya a copy of the mother's police report. ok! ok! i tak delah percaya email tu 100%. but i have my point there. according to the email the policewoman said "pakaian macam sundal". and that was the spark of the whole thing. all i can say, the policewoman kata "macam". diulangi.. "macam" aje. if the lady was not a sundal, apa dia nak bising2. macamlah dia tak penah cakap camtu kat org lain jugak kan?

mak always remind me not to voice our "valued opinion" out loud. tengok je apa yg tak kena kat org tu. jangan cakap kuat2. dosa. anyway, she has a point. yelah.. kalo kita cakap kuat2, nanti jadilah macam policewoman tu kan? and another thing, what if org tu adalah kita? how would we feel if somebody is talking about us? rasa oren kan? itulah dia.. but i really miss the moment kutuk org dengan akut. nampak org bibir tebal lipstik merah menyala we'll go "tu bibir ke belon?". then jumpa pulak org rambut kinting2, something like "tu rambut ke mop?" will pop out.

so those are perspesi. pandangan seorang terhadap sesuatu atau seseorang. perception. it's how we perceive. we have to be fair. we cant blame other people for having a negative perception. it's a thought. takan nak puji-pujian je kot.. sesekali kena kutukan baru best.. barulah ala-ala makan nasik kerabu cicah budu. and pepsi? a perception of persepsi..

usaha tangga kejayaan

ee ur goal

nderstand the obstacles
lear ur mind
reate a positive mental picture
mbrace the challenge
tay on track
how the world u can do it!!!

good ones...

~ enuff said ~

nota kaki: baru lepas layan kabhi kushi kabhi gam... ishk.. ishk.. sedey sehhhhhh. apesal la tengok cita hendustan mesti leleh-leleh..

chubby legs, healthy heart?

"women complain about less-than-lithe legs, but new research suggests that leg fat may actually protect against heart disease. this might explain why ur body fights so hard to hold on to it, no matter how much u sweat it out on the treadmill. "in the past, we thought all fat was bad." says rachael van pelt of the university of colorado at denver. but where u store that fat makes all the difference.

abdominal fat is linked to heart disease. but what about leg fat? van pelt measured fat levels of 95 women and looked at risk factors for heart disease, including insulin & triglycerides (a sometimes dangerous fat). women with excess leg fat, regardless of belly fat, had fewer triglycerides in the blood, which may mean they are at lower risk for heart disease. how does it work? let fat may grab triglycerides from the blood and store them. with more research scientists may be able to create drugs that help stomach fat act like leg fat." -- source: reader's digest, dec 2005

now i have a reason to love my betis-buluh-betung.. heheheh






<-- gambar hiasan adalah ehsan adam danial.

aidiladha in krai

i have just got back from krai. penat seh... berkematu montot i duduk di dalam kereta. lucky ada adam. tak de lah busan sangat. bukak pintu tengok umah macam sarang tikus. bersepah tak hengat punyaaaa.. adohai.. inilah dia.. nak gi itu hari maleh nak ngemas. dah balik ni, pening kepala tengok umah bersepah2.

hari raya aidiladha was ok lah. cuma anak sulung & anak bongsu yg balik. but we had so much fun. tak ke mana2 pun. tak taulah napa. petang i sampai tu, we went to anakku to spent another bunch of monies for adam's clothes. kejap duk umah nenek, kejap umah mak nek. peh tu balik umah mama. so baju pun tak cukup. banyak sangat tempat persinggahan. i dah serik beli baju adam kat baby's world. pakai kejap je, lepas tu dah tak berapa muat. nak kata adam gumuk sangat, tak jugak. baju dia shrink kotnye. hehehe..

che made tak ke tempat penyembelihan. adam was quite fragile. tak nak ngan org lain selain mama & ayah. so agaknya tok ayah amat memahami.. hehehe.. lagipun nak kena hantar kak ti tengahari tu. so kalo gi ladang tu, mungkin tak sempat nak bersiap. so this year, che made miss the "cuci-perut-lembu-moments". tok ma bawak balik sebekas besar isi2 lembu & barang2 seantaranya. tengok tu ngeri je rasa. adam sampai tertido tengok tok ma buat kerja pembersihan. mama? heheh.. ngeri punya pasal, melarikan dirilah..

on the hari raya we had nasi kerabu. besh sehhh.. the sambal was terrific. kak sah punya recipe. i makan pun sampai terasa2 lagi ini hari.. pehtu seperti biasalah.. makan sup-bahagian-badan-lembu. bolehlah.. lemak banyak. bertambah2lah lemaks2 di badan i yg dah memang solid molid nih.

abg cha & abg chik are coming tonite with their families. they already craving for the soup. makan lagi...

anyway, che nani dah selamat melahirkan "ovarian cyst"nya. alhamdulillah.. hope the baby in the tummy will be ok..