i wish i knew...

Adam said "mama, dont pass away ok?"
I asked "what do you mean?"
Adam replied "dead. Dont die, ok?"
I smiled...

I wouldnt know dear, I wouldnt know....

6th anniversary

yahooooo.... dah nam tawon kami kawen; and the first to celebrate it online :P tak pelah bang oiii. dinda pasrah aje.. online pun online la. kata hi-tech, tak gitu?

i love you for who you are
i love you for the love you've given me
i love you for being beside me
i love you for the quarrels we had
i love you for what had been said and done
i love you for the joy and tears i had
i love you for standing strong and push me forward
i love you for stealing my heart
i love you for putting sense into my thoughts
i love you for the lovely care and tender
i love you for being the anchor of my strength
i love you for your says and thoughts
i love you for sharing your life with mine
i love you for the love we've shared
i love you for the time you've spent
i love you for being my ears and eyes
i love you for sleepless night caring for my pains and cries
i love you for the advise and words of wisdom
i love you for being my "spongy" bag
i love you for always be there for me
i love you for being the great father of my kid(s)
i love you for the sacrifices you've made for me
i love you for our imperfections that made us a perfect couple
i love you for being the torch of guidance
i love you for the tolerance and patience you've showed
i love you for being the great partner of my life

i could have never love you enough, if you have never loved me this much...
for the 6 years we've spent together, i know that you knew that i love you and will always love you forever...
i cherish the times we've spent and i look forward for many-many years to come to be beside you
i hope and i pray that we could be together, till the death do us part - insya Allah..

merdeka! merdeka! merdeka!

merdekakah kita?

ntah... persepsi masing-masing adalah subjektif.

those days, kalo merdeka day, bangun pagi tengok perbarisan. hari ni kul 9 baru celik mata. itu pun sebab adam dah "good morning mama! electric dah ada mama. kita dah tak panas lagi". kalo ayat dia cuma "morning mama!" confirm aku doze off balik. hahaha..

made pun takde di kala long weekend ni. jadiknya senyum sumbing ajela bangun pagi. keje ada sikit lagi. kang last minute la buat. macam biasa. hehehehe...

dari semalam asik layan lagu raya. rasa berkobar aje tahun ni nak buat kuih raya. alasan setiap tahun - oven takde. hehehe.. time ni jugaklah asik terkenang kuih raya uwan. mmm.. syahdu. kuih raya uwan takdelah semprit ke yg ber-colourful ke, atau yang bercokelat bagai. dia punya kuih2 lama aje. kuih bijan tu confirm ada. kuih bunga ros tu. kuih siput. macam2 kuih lah.. itu hari rasa nak nangis mengenangkan kuih ketayap. nak sangat makan kuih tu, tapi rasa ngek sangat nak buat tak reti. so i called mak uteh - my resort for recipes. and as she went on explaining the ingredients, she mentioned "you bancuh macam roti jala yang uwan buat tu". mmm.... kalo kata bancuh macam roti jala aje tak boleh agaknya.. kena mention jugak "macam uwan buat". that's how relativenya uwan and kuih serta makanan.

same goes to when made needs to fly off the other day. as it's his first overseas trip yg agak jauh, i intend to make some sambal ikan bilis so that he wont be kebulur over there. unfortunately, after few trials, i still cant make a good sambal ikan bilis. well... it was good for us to eat. but i guess it's not good enough for made to bring it over for his trip. so we called off the idea, and asked mak for her extra serunding instead. and again.... memories with uwan melambai2. when mak or bapak had to go for an overseas trip, uwan will definitely bertungkus lumus pegi chow kit to get some good ikan bilis to make her specialty, sambal ikan bilis goreng. and inilah bekalan yg mak dengan bapak selalu bawak selain maggi.

back to merdeka.. uwan is a true supporter of UMNO. to me regardless of which political group you're in, or whatever view you've having; the most important thing is how synonym MALAYSIA is to you. regardless what "kind" you are, the virtue is how you'd like to value your own country. looking at uwan supporting UMNO has been a joy to me. flashing back the memories on how she made me complete the borang keahlian for all the UMNO members had been so much fun. banyak woooo.... satu kampung pandan punya keahlian. she didn't say much. she said what she felt she had to say. at times, bila pegi ceramah tu, dia tido. tapi tetiba aje dia bangun, bagi point dia. majik! that's my uwan.

the other day as we were clearing up her cupboard, i took one of her baju UMNO just to feel her patriotism and national spirit. tapi ntah bila nak pakai; muat ke tak pun tak tau jugak. paw tu penting (sebelum org lain paw dulu). hahahaha...

selamat berposa & memerdekakanlah diri anda sebelum org lain menjajah semula.

pic from: http://www.malaysianrecipes.co.uk

cita-cita saya

dulu time budak-budak, kalo sapa2 tanya nanti besar nak jadik apa, jawapan mesti standard.. nak jadik cikgu, tentera, polis, doktor. peh tu kat sekolah dulu ada profile student yg cikgu akan listkan apa cita-cita kita. my profile, confirm ada cikgu, doktor dengan tentera. kekonon time tu kagum la ngan keje bapak kan... peh tu time tu jugak cam tak tau apa menda nurse tu. yg menonjol pun doktor. so amik doktor. hebat tuuuu... tapi realitinya, saya nak jadik cashier. hahahahahah..

dulu-dulu la.. kalo ikut mak gi giant kat melawati, mesti saya duk kat depan kaunter cashier tu. mak masuk dalam kedai tu lama-lama pun tak pe sebab saya leka tengok mesin cashier tu. time dulu mana ada bar code. so, semua kena key-in. best sehhhh..

i've been a cashier. seronok giler. kira cite-cite saya sudah tercapai. alhamdulillah :D

sekarang saya ada cita-cita baru.. hehehehe.. saya nak jadik domestic engineer atau bahasa mudahnya, housewife.

kenapa eh? dulu kot org dengar awak tu housewife, automatically orang ingat awak time sekolah tanak belajar rajin-rajin. sebab tulah sudahnya duk dapur ngan jaga anak aje. tapi skang ni, rata-rata yg jadik housewife pun educated beb... belajar setinggi awan pun ada. malas nak keje je. hahahaha...

skang ni saya bukan dalam kategori malas nak keje. i love my job. i still have passion in working. bukan rasa diri dah tua.. tapi rasa nak fokus on anak-anak. aicehhh.. dah sebut anak2 tuuu... i think, i have missed some part of adam's growing up moments. the other day i teased him and he cried out loud. and i just let him cry as i know one day, i'll never get to see his crying. i wouldn't be able to tease him and he'll never cry before me, anymore...

tengok adam dah pandai mengira, mengeja, i couldn't hide the feeling - i'm a proud mom. but deep inside me, i felt i'm a loser. i didn't teach adam how to count. i help adam to count. the teacher taught adam. i didn't teach adam how to read. teacher shanti has the patience, i dont.

but of course, if i were to be a housewife, i still want my current salary + allowance and annual leaves. hahahaha.. dah macam laki aku keje tokey kedai emas 916. hahahahahah

takpelah.. for the moment, i'll just let the mind do the berangan thingy :D

happy birthday sayang

today is another manic monday. but it's a special day :D

it's my darling hubby's 32nd birthday.. dah tua. nak celebrate ape sangat kan? sendiri beli kek la kan bang? ngehngehngeh..

my other half is a man of few words. and i'm the opposite. that's what stick us together. my thirty-words would be his three-words, if i have such luck that day. worst would be, "aaa". nak tengok dia cakap banyak, tunggu "gu-gu" dia berkumpul. but still la.. from observation, dia jadik tukang gelak and tukang tambah.

he ain't look like my fav bon jovi. neither that he's like sexy robbie william. not that he looks like zac efron. salih yakob, i used to refer him to; and he's all i want :D

and this man who have been standing strong beside me for more than 6 years had once told me,
"we learn to forgive and forget because we are not going to live forever. if we do, we dont live for ourselves. we live for our kids. look for a brighter day, and dont look back".

i couldn't and wouldn't ask for more. he's all i need and i'm here to wish him, happy birthday, sayang.

i'm not a good singer, so i cannot sing him a nice happy birthday song.
i'm not a good writer, so i cannot write some nice poem for your birthday.
i'm not a good artist, so i cannot draw a nice picture for your happy day.
i'm just the way i am. and i am still whom you have known before. and here i am, sharing your happiness on your celebration day.
mintak sikit kek tu ye bang.... tak baik kudukut.....

untukmu sayang, kupersembahkan lagu cinta kegemaranmu...

kisah di satu petang

adam was napping and i have to tell you that to get adam to take his afternoon nap is a painstaking job. as i was about to nap as well, tetiba terdengar "pukimak ko, yada.. yada.. yada..". and i was, "hei budak2 skang ni....." and tried to nap again.

then i heard chaos. and i thought "ah sudah.. bergaduh pulak budak2 ni...". so i looked out of my window. tak nampak pulak apa2. tengok arah padang pun takde apa. tengok kanan tak de nampak apa sebab diblocked dengan kain baju dan umah makcik pah. so i went to the living room. i still hear the chaos. dari tingkap living room to baru la nampak umah hujung tu bergaduh, anak beranak - it seems. after a while, they went silent, adam woke up and gua panas hati! anak aku baru nak tido tak sampai sengah jam dah terjaga..

you know what i was planning to do?

i wanted to siap2 cantik-cantik, comey-comey then marched to the said house sambil bawak kosi kecik and take posisi cantik depan umah org gaduh tu. for sure one person will say "ni apa duduk sini ni? balik!! jangan campur urusan keluarga. tak ada kaitan dengan kau"

and i'd reply "memangla takde kaitan. tapi kalo kamu pun cakap sampai kami yang selang lima buah umah ni pun boleh dengar; sampai anak saya pun boleh bangun tido, itu dah macam memang nak suruh kami amik tau. alang2 saya kat sana dengar sayup-sayup je, baik saya duk sini. loud and clear ha....."

what do you think will be their action?

1) akur dengan kesilapan mereka, minta maaf dan berpelukan sesama sendiri lantas masuk ke rumah

2) meneruskan perbalahan antara mereka dan tidak menghiraukan saya kat depan pagar tu

3) mengambil microphone dan berbalah lagi supaya satu taman pulak boleh dengar

4) they stop arguing among themselves and start to kejar me with the parang

mmm.. i think option 4 is the best :D

anyways.. adam terjaga bukan sebab commotion tu pun. dia terjaga sebab mama terlepas pintu so the pintu banged aloud. takde kaitan pun dengan org gaduh2. hehehehe

ceritalah lagi

the past few weeks + months we've seen quite a number of deaths of celebrities. my condolences to their families. this made me think.. kot2 time aku dah sampai in a few days time, would i be ready? would my family be ready? sapa la nak bayar belen kredit kad yg menimbun tu? huhuhu.. adoiii... keciknya rasa diri ni...

pregnancy going well. last check up, doc kata we may be expecting a girl. yiha! yiha! one thought, mama is going to be a shopaholic (again). on another thought, kena pikir in 10 years time, umah ni nak kena re-build ke tuan rumah nak kena berpindah sarang. mmm... hard decision tu. money! money! ongkos! ongkos! kot2 i buat "dana suhanna" ada sapa2 nak menderma tak? heheheeh...

adam dah setat sekolah this week. mama is back with her pick-up duty. adam is getting better with his math. "six on my head, two on my hands. six, seven, eight. eight mama!" well done, my son!! so skang, keje dia main monopoly. without all the leasing cards, only dadu and buah penanda tu. mainlah dia hari2. peh tu asik main lompat2 atas katil dengan kosi. ntah apa yg best sangat main lompat2 tu. kadang2 geram betul tengokkan. tapi dah budak laki kan.. biarlah dia.. tak kosa dah nak melarang.

made will be traveling soon. bulan posa pulak tu. nak merasa berpuasa sebagai perantau la kononnya tu. elehhhhh.. and since he knew gender of the baby, he's been searching for girl's name on the net. so sapa2 nak bagi suggestion tu, sila la buat usul anda kepada encik ramadhan.

selamat berpuasa semua.. semoga puasa kita diterima & amalan kita diberkati. insya Allah..

weekend with adam & ammar

hari ni pegi antara gapi. jalan2 tengok umah mak. planning nak ke ikea ditunda lagi :(

paling happy adalah budak berdua, ammar & adam.

gamba atas bukit belakang umah. yg hujung kanan tu ditugaskan jaga budak2 panjat bukit tu. aktiviti seterusnya?

dah pandai naik kenalah pandai turunkan? takan nak duk atas bukit tu aje...

landing time... gedegedegedegedegede...

"sakit bontot dam?"

"sakit jugak"

"nak naik lagi?"

"nakkkkkkkkk!!!"

"ah sudah.. besok2 naik lagi.... kang lopong bontot tu karang"

on the way balik, adam ternampak lereng bukit yg terbakar. dont know whether it was intentionally or it was an accident. so budak2 prihatin ni suruhlah mama & ayah kol bomba. we asked them to call themselves. conversation as follows:

adam: hello bomba?

ammar: hello bomba?

(time ni dua-dua pun nak jadik rakyat prihatin)

adam: ada fire dekat atas mountain tu

ammar: ada api. (couldn't catch what adam was saying)

adam: tolong ambilkan air padamkan api itu

ammar: baiklah

(suddenly ammar jadik bomba)

ammar: tapi air dah habis

adam: ambil la daripada sea atau swimming pool

ammar: swimming pool tempat awak berenanglah..

adam: oh ya.. tak apalah.. saya pakai air dari water bottle saya

ammar: baiklah

adam: tapi nanti habislah air water bottle saya

ammar: tak apa.. nanti kita boleh tambah lagi

adam: baiklah.

(phone conversation ended)

soon after, we saw a bomba on the opposite road. these 2 budak was so excited and relieved!!!

adam: yeh.. kita berjaya talifon bomba. kita kena terima kasih pada tangan kita

ammar: ya betul. terima kasih tangan

adam: terima kasih tangan saya

tak lama lepas tu, kedua-dua rakyat berhemah ni pun off to lala land...

kenapa terima kasih tangan? sebab tangan derang tu, pretend jadik talipon lah. ala.. sign language gitu..

nak pengsan gelakkan budak berdua ni..... senak2 perut...

keinginan meluap

teringinnya nak makan nasik minyak..... sapa2 ada jemputan kenduri kawin tu, mehlah hulur2 jemputan kat kami ni ha..

kalo takde, i dah buat plan dengan made nak redah aje sapa2 punya kenduri hujung minggu ni. kenal ke tak kenal ke, kami nak gi jugak. hahahaha...

alah.. pengantin mana yg kenal semua jemputan dia kan? paling hebat pun yg duk tunggu tetamu adalah mak ayah dia kan? kalo tak mak ayah pengantin mestilah makcik pakcik pengantin kan? kalo kami datang bawak hadiah atau paling sikit pun bagi duit kaut, ada ke antara pakcik makcik yg pakai bunga duit tu nak tanya, siapakah kami? mesti tak de kannnnnnn? kot-kot dia tanya pun, kami cakaplah, kami kawan pengantin. mesti lepas tu dia persilakan makan.

cantek tak cadangan?

of courselah kami takan pegi yg kat dewan perdana felda. kalo setakat dewan org ramai tu, rasanya sanggup lagi kot...

peh tu kami bawak mangkuk tingkat ni. agak2 boleh pow bawak balik sikit tak?

hahahhaha.. melampauuuuu

di sebalik sawang :D

ish ish ish.. punyalah lama tak update blog ni.. bersawang2 dah ha... macammana nak post pun dah tak tau tadi.. kehkehkeh..

life has been good.... alhamdulillah :D

adam has been a good boy. recently ada 2nd term exam. ntah bila first term exam pun kami tak tau. he did great. though takdelah 100% markah dia, but we are proud of his achievement. we had some concerns over his test paper, but as his class teacher pointed out; the BM & agama teacher had been called before the principal for numerous times, i guess, i should take my own initiative to guide & teach adam. after all, he's my baby :D minggu depan cuti sekolah... siaplah tv - 24hourslah bersiaran.. since i got pregnant, adam has been a little possessive. tido ngan mama kena pegang tangan. mama tak boleh tido mengadap ayah. mama kena pandang adam aje. lepas hantar adam balik umah after school pun, adam will merengek nak ikut mama gi ofis. ape ke halnya? ntahlah.... makcik pah sebelah ni kata, sebab dia nak dapat adik. but to think about it, he's already 5. ntahlah.. tak pelah manja. mama pun suka nak mengada2 dengan adam. hahahah

made at times has been busy. travel here and there. banting, subang, JB, etc. he'll be flying off soon but until i get a confirmation date, anggap sajalah the business trip tu tak menjadik lagi. *memujuk hati ni....*

we've found a maid and she's been here for about 2 months. good girl (insya Allah). basically nothing much to do in the house. dia pun kadang kebingungan - dia la kata... all i want is an assistant with my house chores and mainly to look after adam. alhamdulillah, she's been doing well. at the time of hiring, i was not pregnant. as she came in, i was in the middle of my first trimester. so knowing that i was pregnant, kind of a "shock" news to her. so i told her that i didnt know that i'd get preggy. and she did tell me that she doesnt know how to take care of a baby since she's the youngest in the family. well.. neither do i. it's been 5 years since i look after a baby. therefore, we have to go back to basic. both of us will learn from scratch. tak pelah... tak cuba, tak tau...

my pregnancy has progressed well. alhamdulillah. now dah 4 months plus, plus. dah nampak pun baby wiggles dalam perot boncet ini. and everytime adam tengok adik dia, sure adik dia akan lambai2 kat abang adam. we are excited for the new addition :D other than that, alhamdulillah, for the new school year, rezeki bertambah lagi. berkat doa family & kawan2. syukur...
apa lagi eh? takde dah kot.. nanti cite la lagi ye :D

"mama... saya makan worm.. heheheheh"

sports day adam

adam had his annual sports day on 14 march 2009. waktu perbarisan masuk adam kena duk belakang sebab lambat datang. nasib baik ngam-ngam hahahaha. org dah nak masuk padang baru terkedek-kedek adam sampai

roughly 2 weeks before the day, adam balik sekolah satu hari tu tetiba je pandai nyanyi lagu uptown girl. rupanya on sports day dia kena kena buat performance. siap ada pom-pom ok..

sorry ye... video adam tu besau benar. nanti bila dah resized, i'll upload it :D

letih jugak menunggu for the event to start. kul 8 kena datang, kul 10.30 baru nak start acara-acara semua. we had to wait for ALL the primary & secondary students buat perbarisan masuk & some cheerleading performance.

mula-mula - 4 rumah sukan of primary students buat perbarisan and little performance.
kendian - 4 rumah sukan of secondary students buat perbarisan and little performance.
seterusnya - 4 rumah sukan of primary students buat cheerleading performance.
peh tu - 4 rumah sukan of secondary students buat cheerleading performance.

tak ke er... bosan, menunggunya.. and some of the performance, to me, did not represent semangat kesukanan langsung. ada satu tu, kononnya main tarik tali. peh tu group dia ala-ala nak kalah, ketua kumpulan boleh gi amik pistol gi tembak group org sana. boleh ke gitu? violence ok... with current situation, i hope the school management will be more sensitive. yang paling kesian budak2 kindylah.. dahlah duduk mengadap matahari. berpanasan..


adam masuk acara perah sponge masukkan air dalam botol dengan bawak bola pingpong. satu menang, satu kalah. alah.. budak-budak kindy. menang dapat hadiah. kalah pun dapat hadiah. apa kisahhhh..


untuk menaikkan semangat kesukanan di kalangan budak-budak ni, parents pun kena participate tau. termasuklah parents yg ini. hehehe.. alah.. setakat main lari kaki tiga.. apalah sangat. ini juara negeri belah tenggara selatan laaaaa.. saja je kami bagi bagi parents lain menang sebab kat umah kami tak cukup almari nak letak trofi kemenangan. ngehngehngeh

perasan tak baju kitorang yg hijau tu? haaaaa... sebab anak pun baju hijau ok.. ku lihat hijauuuuuuuuu...


time amik hadiah, semua kindy students kena beratur. teacher dah susun bebudak ni ikut name list. tapi apalah nak diharapkan kat bebudak ni kan? susunlah macam mana, tak sampai 1 minit dah berterabur. untuk amik hadiah, adalah announcer panggil nama bebudak ni. announcer ni pulak duduk jauh and tak boleh monitor budak mana yg tengah amik hadiah. therefore, nama yg dia panggil dengan budak yg amik hadiah tak tally. nak dijadikan cite, adam tengah elok beratur amik hadiah. sekali dia dengar nama dia kena panggil. terus dia gi salam org bagi hadiah tu and...


tada..... dah dapat hadiah. hahahahaha... sukahati dia aje potong queue budak lain.. tapi elok jugak.. cepat sikit mama & ayah balik. :D


barisan juara-juara: airiel, haziq, adam & mukriz. hehehehe


dan hasilnya?
monday kena gi amik nebulizer. balik sekolah terus gi gleneagles sebab tengok dah lembik anak mama sorang ni. cikgu pun kata "he's not on his usual mood today".

i wish to thank all friends who are concern on adam's health. sangat-sangat terima kasih.. me and my husband appreciate it so much. currently we are considering every options. at times, we just dont want to think about what had happened to adam. the more we think, the more we takut. we love adam so much and we want the best for adam. i know all of you are offering the very best for adam too. thank you again..

baby adam

i was not tagged tapi itchy-itchy nak jawab. boleh? i got it from here.

1. WAS YOUR FIRST PREGNANCY PLANNED?
plan tak, accident pun tak. mak pasrah nyahhhh... a day before nikah, bendera jepun menyerang. harus tergedik-gediklah cik ovum bertemu en. sperm. kehkehkeh..


2. WERE YOU MARRIED AT THE TIME?
yup! yup! legally :D


3. WHAT WERE YOUR REACTIONS?
ntah.. tak de perasaan sangat. sebab dua-dua pun macam mengong-mengong. cuma bila dah tengok gamba budak adam time dia cinonet dalam perut ni, baru ada sikit rasa excited.


4. HOW OLD WERE YOU?
baper eh.. 26 kot? lemah betul ilmu hisab..


5. HOW DID YOU FIND OUT YOU WERE PREGNANT?
cara tradisi.. period tak muncul jelma. peh tu buat test drive :D


6.WHO DID YOU TELL FIRST?
ntah sapa...... sapa eh? tak leh recall la..


7. DID YOU WANT TO FIND OUT THE SEX?
basically tak de sangat.. tapi gynae tu sibuk nak bagitau. so dengar ajelah. tapi sekali tu jelah dapat tengok pun. dengan doc kat damai hospital. peh tu nak tengok sekali lagi kat HKL, dia dah tanak tunjuk. pemalu budak adam ni.


8. DUE DATE?
12 June 2004


9. WHEN WAS YOUR CHILD ACTUALLY BORN?
12 June 2004 - ngam-ngam. champion punya.. hahahahhaha


10. HOW MUCH DID YOUR CHILD WEIGH?
2.9kg


11. DID YOU HAVE MORNING SICKNESS?
inilah antara punca che made tidak mau bininya berpreggy lagi. tak larat dia nak melayan morning sickness cik puan kesayangan ni ha. 9 bulan ok. 9 bulan mengada-ngada asik nak muntah aje. peh tu tak boleh nak tengok muntah sendiri. bertambah2 muntahnya..


12. WHAT DID YOU CRAVE?
yang ni lagi mintak ampun. dalam sebulan mesti ada satu menda yg gila-gila punya teringin. and craving will last for a month, at least. ada sekali gilakan rojak buah. ntah apa yg sedap sangat pun tak tau. tapi tiap2 hari ahad dalam sebulan tu mesti nak ke pasar malam au3 beli rojak buah pakcik ni. ada lagi sebulan pulak dok gilakan burger ramly dekat depan 7-11 au4. burger mekdi tak main. punya la kemaruk time tu.. makan kat situ dah satu. tapau satu bawak balik. dah balik, suh che made gi beli lagi satu lagi. 3 biji burger satu malam. kaya brader tu. hehehe. one thing yg tak leh lalu kat tekak adalah durian. makan sikit aje dah demam.


13. WHO/WHAT IRRITATED YOU THE MOST?
ntah.. macam tak de perasaan. tapi yang idengan perasannya rasa, ramai org asik mengendeng je time preggy tu. ntah nak amik berkat ke nak amik lemak ke nak amik apa pun tak taulah.. ada aje org nak bermanja2, ajak bercite, ajak berjalan, etc.


14. WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CHILD’S SEX?
the boyish adam


15. DID YOU WISH YOU HAD THE OPPOSITE SEX OF WHAT YOU WERE GETTING?
no preference. pernah terdetik sekali nak lelaki. heheheh


16. HOW MANY POUNDS DID YOU GAIN THROUGHOUT THE PREGNANCY?
ya tuhan.. yang ni memang tak de ampun. naik double. daripada 45 kilo, naik sampai 80 kilo. kalo i ni lembu nak kena jual buat raya korban, confirm-confirm beribu-ribulah harganya..


17. DID YOU HAVE A BABY SHOWER?
baby shower takde. shower dengan baby ada. hahahaha


18. WAS IT A SURPRISE OR DID YOU KNOW?
soklan tidak berkaitan. sila ke soklan seterusnya


19. DID YOU HAVE ANY COMPLICATIONS DURING YOUR PREGNANCY?
early preggy ada kena masuk sjmc seminggu sebab kurang air. time tu posa. jadik tak tau kalo kurang air boleh effect baby


20. WHERE DID YOU GIVE BIRTH?
hospital kuala lumpur. mama adam pun lahir kat situ tauuuuuu


21. HOW MANY HOURS WERE YOU IN LABOUR?
ada 24 hours kotnye


22. WHO DROVE YOU TO THE HOSPITAL?
beloved husband, che made



23. WHO WATCHED YOU GIVE BIRTH?
doctors & nurses. keadaan kritikal untuk suamiku berada bersama. kehkehkeh... tapi dia kata kan.. dia nangis kat luar sambil kol akak dengan ayah dia. hehehehe.. eeeeee...tak ballu......


24. WAS IT NATURAL OR C-SECTION?
last minute c-section


25. DID YOU TAKE MEDICINE TO EASE THE PAIN?
ntahlah.. kalo ada medicine pun dah tak tau apa rasa dah...


26. WHAT DID YOU NAME HIM/HER?
adam danial


27. HOW OLD IS YOUR FIRST BORN TODAY?
my little angel is turning 5 soon :D


ni gamba adam dengan el-haryz danial. anak my cousin, lidiya. adam was so excited jumpa baby danial. dari awal sampai sudah asik duduk kat tepi baby tu aje. siap ikut baby pegi mandi. time tengok baby mandi tu siap bagi laporan, "mama.. baby tu berak". hahahahah

impak maksima untuk mama ni.. ayahhhhhhhhh.. ayuh kita.. hehehehe

san francisco coffee brownie "semuties"

i was home early yesterday as adam had another asthma attack. i rushed adam to gleneagles after fetching him from his school. i didn't bring my handbag - only wallet, handbag & car key.

after adam had his nebulizer, i called sherry to take my handbag from my drawer and to pass it to me at the parking lot. she did, with a plastic bag from san francisco coffee. a brownie inside :D

soon me and adam arrived home. put our things down. i cooked some spageti for adam and left the brownie on the table. while waiting, adam watched tv and i got connected with the world wide web.

we had our meal. adam had his ubat. threw out all the meal he had. and he watched tv again. i had my meal and suddenly thought of the brownie, only to find it has already surrounded by semuties*.

so i ym-ed sherry "your brownie got attacked by semuties la dear". i can't recall her reply.

so today i had the following conversation with sherry:

me: i believe your brownie was delicious. too bad the semuties had it first

sherry: yeah.. too bad. and you know i completely forgot that i went to san francisco klcc. i called the ampang branch instead

me: eh? why you called them?

sherry: well... you know.. some "customer feedback" regarding their semuties (she said that with a wink-wink)

me: haaaaaaah??? you what????? the semuties were from my rumahlah, sherry

sherry: oh my god!!!!!!! oh my god!!!!!!! oh my god!!!!!!! oh my god!!!!!!! oh my god!!!!!!!

me: hahahahaha.. i guess you have to call them again on another "customer feedback"

sherry: hahahahahhaa..... will think about that..

hahahahahahahah..

sherry jahat..

hahahahahhaha..

* semuties adalah sang semut

the brownie looks a little bit like this la...

pic from: http://joychariz10.blogspot.com/

rear view mirror

situasi gini eh...

traffic lite - currently, lampu merah. you're the third car dari depan. after a while, traffic lite tukar hijau.

first car, vroooooommmmmmm.. babai.
second car, terleka sekejap sebab ntah apa yg dia berangankan.
third car, yes you, terkulat-kulat berpikir nak honk ke tak, nak hi-beam ke tak

while you dok berpikir2 suddenly the 2nd car moved

penah tak perasan yg the 2nd car driver for sure(*) akan tengok his/her rear view mirror, to look at your reaction.

dan penah tak perasan.. kalo misal kata you honk or hi-beam kat dia, reaction dia akan sama ada terkumat kamit baca jampi serampah and/or sumpah-seranah ataupun dia akan tekan pedal minyak as though he/she has just being flagged off for a race.

hehehe..
macam-macam manusia nih...

* i'm saying for sure sebab happened to me few times already. and please note that i have put there HE & SHE ye.... oleh itu tiada genderism yeeeeee

pic from: http://www.cartoonstock.com

cuti-cuti

will be out of town & kl for couple of days.

bawak adam cuti naik air asia. boleh tahan budak2 sekarang bercuti kan? dulu time i, dapat naik keta balik umah uwan kat kampung pandan tu pun dah cukup bagus. hahahahah...

talk about cuti ni kan.. nak cite satu kisah ni lah... dulu time kecik, mm.. takdelah kecik sangat. dah darjah 6 kot. bapak kata nak bawak bercuti. so kami adik beradik pun excited lah. dia kata nak gi fraser's hill. ha... ko.. memang bunga-bunga la perasaan. sebab? sebab ingatkan fraser's hill tu kat overseas. ada salji, kena pakai winter coat, boleh buat snowman apa bagai. time tu siap packing dengan along & siap beranganlah nak buat itu ini. peh tu bila tengok naik keta je, tak de pun pegi airport, jadik cam heran pun ada. apesal naik keta aje ni. oooo.. rupanya fraser's hill tu dalam malaysia je. tak de jauh mana pun. cheh! hahahahah.. ngok kan geografi saya?

kisah ni pun mengingatkan kisah adam recently. when i told him that we are going to kuching, naik air asia. dia kata "iye ke mama? kita nak pegi planet kuching ke mama?" hahahaha.. nak pengsan rasa. planet kuching ok kawan-kawan.... harus kena panggil sheikh muzafar jadik tour guide. kahkahkahkah..

lagi beberapa jam nak ke planet kuching dah. take care kawan2.

selamat bercuti & selamat menyambut maulidur rasul.

si kambing itam

kasihan kambing itam
dicerca pun dia, dipuji pun dia
dikata pun dia, diagung pun dia
dicela pun dia, dimegah pun dia
pendek kata semua pun dia...

malangnya si kambing hitam
meragut rumput di laman orang
adakala dipuji "elok juga ada kambing itam ni. tak payah potong rumput"
adakala dikeji "menyusahkan betul kambing itam ni. habis pokok bogenvila aku diragutnya"
apalah nasibnya..

macam manala masa depan si kambing itam
nak tanya salah, tak tanya pun salah
nak buat salah, tak buat pun salah
nak cuba salah, tak cuba pun salah
bulat kata, semuanya serba salah

tulah kambing itam, orang dah kata
"jangan kacau hak orang
jangan berkehendak milik orang
jangan gilai kepunyaan orang
jangan diminta-minta pada orang"

"bukan.. bukan macam tu..
bukan niat nak kacau
bukan berkehendak sangat
bukan tergila-gila pun
jauh sekali nak meminta
sekadar membantu... salah ke?
cuma berharap.. payah ke?"

langit tu tinggi, Allah itu Esa
minta saja pada Yang Kuasa
kita ni di dataran
memanjat doa jangan dikala resah
merintih nasib bukan dikala musibah
dekatkan diri, bersihkan jiwa
akal diperguna, perasaan jangan diraja

senang saja cakap orang
dituding sana, ditunjuk sini
disuruh situ, dipanggil sinun
nasib diri, berlandas iman
baik mulut, permaidanikan bahasa
mujur badan, berkotakan akal

tak mengapalah kambing itam
kamukan gagah, tegar menangkis kata nista
kamukan tegap, bisa membuang kudis buta
kamukan kuat, mampu mengota apa dikata
kamukan terror, boleh melawan nafsu durjana

kamukan kamu....
kamu tahu apa kamu mahu
kamukan dirimu...
kamu tahu apa kamu ingin
kamukan tahu...
kambing itam adalah kambing itam
selamanya kambing itam
selagi hidup adalah kambing itam

mampu larikah kamu?

pic from: http://www.noahsanimalfigurines.com

drama minggu ini

we have been receiving telekom bills belong to the former owner of our house couple of months back. i have accidentally opened the first bill that came to our house thinking that it was our bill. after i read carefully, i realized the bill was not ours and phone number starting with "8". knowing that he and his family has moved to putrajaya, i reckon it was the bill for his house in putrajaya. we have neither informed him nor telekom. recently we received a bill with "REMINDER" printed on the envelope, and still addressed to the former owner.

knock! knock!

telekom: assalamualaikum

me: waalaikumussalam, ya?

telekom: maaf kak, kami datang nak potong line

me: line? line apa?

telekom: line telefon

me: kenapa pulak nak potong line telefon?

telekom: sebab kita dapat arahan kata akak tak bayar bil dah lebih dari tiga bulan

me: are you sure?

telekom: akak dah dapat reminder kan?

me: are you very-very-very sure of what you're doing?

telekom: kalau akak tak puas hati, akak kena deal dengan HQ. kami dapat arahan aje kak

me: i am certain i have paid all my bills & certainly clear that telekom owes me couple of ringgit. you better check again with your HQ

telekom: akak jangan macam ni kak..

me: bukan saya yang macam ni. awak hantar bil ntah ke sapa2. org lain punya bil awak hantar kepada org lain, lepas tu awak sedap-sedap aje nak potong line ye?

telekom: bukan kak.. kita dah hantar reminder untuk akak jelaskan bil

me: memanglah awak hantar reminder. tapi cuba tengok nombor tu nombor berapa? kawasan kat sini nombor dia start nombor berapa? ada logik?

telekom: eh.. kat sini bukan 8xxxxxx? (cakap kat kawan dia, "weii.. kawasan sini nombor berapa?". "empat" kawan dia kata)

me: saya tanak menghalau, tapi awak baik balik and suruh HQ awak check balik details yg mereka key in dan tolong betulkan.

telekom: maaf ye kak

me: a'ah.. saya maafkan. kem salam ye dekat org HQ awak tu

of course, this has yet to happen :D telekom kalo nak potong line mana ada datang rumah. dia cut off daripada tempat dia aje.. i have, however, prepared some lines should my line went off

me: encik yang berhormat, kenapa potong line saya?

telekom on line: sebab puan tak bayar puan punya bil setelah kami hantar reminder

me: awak hantar bil sapa? awak hantar dekat mana?

telekom on line: bil "former owner" di keramat. macam dalam rekod kami

me: boleh tak awak tengok balik application dia against rekod awak. dan tolong rectify masalah awak. nombor "8" takde dekat kawasan keramat. saya yang tak keje telekom ni pun tau nombor "8" ni nombor kat putrajaya

telekom on line: sebentar puan, saya semak. (after few minutes) maaf puan. ada kesilapan dalam rekod kami pun. kami mintak maaf puan

me: ok. maaf diterima. bila saya boleh dapat balik line saya?

telekom on line: puan boleh dapat balik line puan dalam 24 jam. kami akan creditkan rm10 sebagai pemasangan semula la puan

me: ape pasal pulak saya kena bayar rm10? awak yg suka2 hati potong, saya pulak kena bayar. awak suruh ceo awak bayar

telekom on line: errrr.. nanti saya refer pada supervisor saya puan. tunggu sebentar. (after few minutes). puan, saya dah refer pada supervisor saya dan kami tak charge rm10 dalam bil puan.

me: you better not.

telekom on line: terima kasih kerana memanggil telekom on line puan. ada apa2 lagi yg boleh saya bantu?

me: boleh. tolong suruh semua employees telekom buat eye check up setiap bulan. terima kasih

dont blame my scriptwriting talent :P

hahahaha

otak..... bergeliga

torn

"You don't seem to know, don't seem to care what your heart is for"

i have always loved this song. i remember listening to this song with joy with someone special. i remember calling it "lagu kita" as both of us like the song so much.. not much of the lyric but more of the melody. somehow that someone had hurt my heart and now i'm listening to the song with sorrow.

"You're a little late, I'm already torn"

please tear, no more cry.. big girl dont cry, you know...

kisah adam dan atuk

gamba adam lukis. siap tulis nama.. org suh pandang kamera, dia sibuk nak pandang mirror.

pagi tadi i sent adam to atuk's. you, you, you, you, you and everybody la, should look at atuk's glowing face when adam walked in with his school uniform & school bag. atuk was excited, i reckon. sebab dia yang bukakkan pintu.. hahahha.. it was nothing great with atuk bukak pintu. tapi selalunya atuk malas nak bukak pintu ok.. kalo kami datang kebiasaannya, kenalah berpanggil-panggil, bersahut-sahutan baru dia bukak pintu. walaupun jarak dia dengan pintu tu tak sampai beberapa meter. :P

yesterday when i told him that i need him to send adam to school, atuk didn't show his excitement. but he did (and so did along) told me that he needs some exercise for his legs. and he wants to start his day early morning. so by sending adam to school, he will at least have something to do and have his fresh air.

at about 8.30am i called atuk and i asked about how was the trip to adam's school. he said:

"ok aje.. masuk pintu. parking depan guard. lepas tu guard tu bukak kan pintu. dia kata masuk sini. lepas tu jalan dengan adam pegi kelas dia. sampai kelas dia, dia bukak kasut, bapak baliklah lepas tengok dia masuk kelas. jaket adam ni, dia tinggal aje kat moto. dia tak pakai kat kelas ke?"

i replied "tak payah. dalam kelas dia tak baper panas. and he moves around a lot", and i had teary eyes. iyeeeeee.. saya cengeng. sila ingat :P

then the kepoci mama asked adam how was his journey with atuk. adam said:

"best mama..... saya naik moto. saya tunjuk arah kat atuk. mula-mula atuk bawak selo. lepas tu saya cakap dekat atuk. lepas tu atuk bawak laju sangat mama. tapikan mama, jaket saya tinggal dalam moto atuk la mama. besok saya pegi dengan atuk tak mama?"

and i replied "ha'ah.. OK ke adam pegi dengan atuk?"

"tak pe.... sebab nanti teacher (i suppose he meant boss) mama marah kat mama. hari ni teacher mama marah dekat mama tak?" said adam

he was jumping joy when i said "no.. teacher mama tak marah kat mama hari ni sebab mama datang awal". and i said that with another teary eyes. baru 5 tahun dah paham perasaan mama.. adoi... nangis! nangis! menciklah air mata ni....

i reckon, atuk akan beli jaket & helmet adam lepas ni. hahahahaha..

made kata, "i guess it's every atuk's dream to send their cucu to school. sebab tulah atuk excited. masaklah kalo lepas ni adam nak atuk hantar aje"

and i terbayang... kalo tok ayah ada, mungkin tok pi & tok ayah bergilir-gilir hantar adam.....

mama tanpa ayah

basically, ok aje.. feeling-wise? kuat semangat lagi ni.. kehkehkehkehkeh.. the thought of "nanti dapat claim, sapa jugak yg senyum sampai telinga? aku jugak...." has made me told myself that there are other people facing even worst situation. the thought of "made gi keje carik rezeki, bukan carik bini" supported my emotion. the smile i see in adam, has made me even stronger.

as made is away, i have to send adam to school. it was easy for me before CNY, with DUKE, i managed to reach office in time, before 8am. however, for 2 days, my boss has given me the "what's the time now?" look. it's more of a PUKE expressway to me. yesterday, i was at taman sri rampai heading to wangsa maju stretch for more than 10 minutes. i didn't get into PUKE as i saw the crawl was even slower than siput babi. ended up with i went back to my house.. i tak balik tido ok.. i ikut jalan biasa i pegi office when made is around. laju jugakla.. but still.... keta bersusun macam nak pegi perang. this morning, i changed my route. instead of turning right after adam's school, i went straight towards alpha angle. then i turned into my housing area ikut jalan semalam. tapinya, hampeh! i arrived office satu minit awal aje daripada semalam. paling horrible was when i looked up on the PUKE, keta bersusun menghala ke ampang. and i had a feeling that the ekor susunan has reached au3 area.

for that, i have decided to seek bapak's help to send adam in the morning. starting tomorrow, i'll send adam to bapak's and bapak will send adam to school. and i will face another traffic depan umah bapak. adoi..

i am an overprotective mother. i am sensitive when people talk, does or whatsoever about my son, overly done at times. i was, at first, refused to have bapak sending adam to school. my thought was, i'm his mother. let me be responsible over him. that lead me to "ah.. kena showcause letter on tardy attendance pun tak pe.. my son, my priority". but then again, the thought faded away... the thought of, "kalo benti keje, anak aku macam mana" has made me drove to bapak's this evening to seek his assistance. i am still feeling unsure of what i have decided, but i guess, i have to learn to release adam bit by bit.. i have to - though it's hard.

ye.. berdoa la banyak2 adam dapat adik cepat2 ye.. :D

banyak berpikir-pikir pulak dalam posting kali ni eh.. mmmmmmmm

i'm typing this post with our new iMac that we bought from a charity bazaar for palestine held at bangsar shopping complext last weekend. apa edition, gua tak tau. but current price is about RM5k and we got it for RM1700. original was RM2k. we didn't negotiate as it's for charity. segan pulak nak nego pun. tapi owner dia kasik rm300 discount, amik ajelah kan.... :D

adam took this picture using the Photo Booth application. this computer ada built in camera. so pukul ajelah gamba tu. and boleh buat comic strip. bestttttt!