Wednesday, December 28, 2011

calar

nak kata first calar pun bukan. sebab dah kena gesek bawah tu dah baper kali. kehkehkeh.

tapi yang ni memang meruntun jiwa, sanubari..

kena kat umah mak. tak nampak tong sampah. ingatkan dah lepas dah. adehhh...

bapak kata hantar polish aje. mm.. polish pun polish lah...

Saturday, December 17, 2011

End of 2011

is just around the corner..

It's time to:

update 2012 resolutions. Should there be no changes, carry forward aje. Confirm banyak tak tercapai. Haha..

Happy New Year everyone!

Moga tahun yang baru adalah lebih elok dari tahun yang sebelumnya. Hiasi peribadi, perelokkanlah ibadah kita. Insya Allah... Yang baik itu hanya dariNya.

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

anak burung

dulu ada myspace. lepas tu password lupa, username pun tak ingat.

lepas tu sibuk friendster. peh tu malas. account ntah ke mana.

masuk pulak zaman facebook. hambek! pantang bukak, berejam melekat. sumpahan betul!

now, i sudah jadik anak burung u-olls! berkicau-kicau. memekak!

hahahahahah...


Saturday, December 10, 2011

Batang sayur

You all makan batang sayur?

Saya makan. Tapi sejak kawin dengan made ni, rasa malas pulak nak makan.

(sila jangan kona-kan pemikiran anda)

Bukan malas pasaipa... Made suka makan daun dia aje. Batang tak berapa. Memula tu give in la jugak. Tak kisahlah kan.. Lelama boring pulak rasa. Nak-nak kalo termakan tang batang yang tak sedap. Geram aje tengok made habiskan daun sayur.

Oleh itu, kalo sapa-sapa mai makan umah saya, jangan la kata saya tak pandai potong sayur; walaupun itulah hakikatnya. Hehehe...

Monday, December 05, 2011

555



rezeki byannerafei untuk minggu ini.

alhamdulillah..

thanks for the support!!!!


Thursday, December 01, 2011

Reasoning

the more i thought about "early retirement" from my work, the more reasoning i need to do. haih!

ok.. why?

1) i wanna be with my kids. well, yes ok. i can still be with my kids though i'm working. i've been working for the past 8 years, with my kids sent to babysitter. that's the catch! my kids are sent to babysitter. shouldn't they be with me? oh well.. i'm the mother. i need to do the needful. ok. if i'm working i'd be able to provide more than necessities to them. but think about this.. adam is going to turn 8 soon. should he still be at babysitter's house up till he's 12? oh come on! alesya is growing. shouldn't she be with me? ok.. disturbed mind. cant think of reconciliation to this reason; at the moment.

2) i'm tired at work. yes, true. i understand my boss needs me. she loves me. she's my "baby". but there are times when i came home, and i'm already exhausted. one, for the amount of work. two, for the mentally challenging work i have in the office. i have never thought HR could be as hard as i've been going through. i've always thought HR would be the best platform for me. 4 years in HR division proved to me that, what i have been seeing are only the overview of what a HR personnel does in an office. what i've been going through is sometimes, a hell of a work place. you're the most hatred person. you're the most loved person -- when one needs help. people goes silent when you walk into the lounge and you'll notice that the topic has changed to cooking - suddenly. when one news reaches HR office, you'll be the first person to be blamed, when you (me in this situation), never knew of such news existence neither had the thought of conveying any messages - should there be any. and one would either ignore your friend request, or block you, or added then remove you in FB! kejam!!!! conveying exclusive news to HR director is one of my job descriptions. and for the past 4 years, i have never had marks more than 3. tiga tu pun markah kesian for no news had been kepohci from me. mmm.. this reason sounds personal... truth is, i'm tired with the mental and psychology challenge.

3) i'm tired to think right now.

will think some more later.

nite-nite.


Sunday, November 27, 2011

Cinema day

We started the day with swimming cancelled. Grab some nasik lemak, ate at home, get prepared and off we went to Caps Square.

The first time we were there was to watch kungfu panda 2. That was the only cinema that has available seats for KP2. But still, as second timer, we were round and round in finding the parking. Hehe..

We started with tin tin. Alesya slept half way through. Well.. That was part of the plan so that we can watch the movie peacefully. Tintin was fun. Adam enjoyed it too.

Then we continued with happy feet 2. This time around we had Alesya as Gloria's backing singer - if you know what I mean. Hehe... It was more of a musical movie. We did'nt enjoy it as much as the first one.

After the movie ended, we went for zohor prayer and then to secret recipe for lunch. Up again for asar and continued with puss in boots.

Thumbs up for puss!! We had so much fun watching it. Alesya was once again slept during half of the movie - that's a blessing, actually. Hehe...

Again to surau for maghrib before heading home. Caps Square, if you ask me, has nothing except for empty shops. But both me and Made would really want to do this again. We managed to spend the whole day with the kids. We did'nt miss a prayer - alhamdulillah. And there was not so many people. First thought of it - scary. But then we thought, it's better than having have lots of people and you get so stressed up be in a pool of people. Right?

Fun day!!

Monday, November 21, 2011

Manic monday

First half of the day i feel that my tudung made me looked like a cekodok.

Fine!

Second half of the day i think, it looked like a lepat pisang.

Ok! Fine!

At the end of the day, i know i cant deny the fact that today, the whole day, my look was nothing but selebet.

Evidence?

Here you are....

Thursday, November 17, 2011

duit seratus

adalah a catch semata-mata! sebab nak suh mak bapak pegi amik report cards anak. kehkehkeh..

i was shy-shy cat la at first nak pegi amik duit tu. i have no obvious reason. ntah. rasa segan aje. then i was convinced by friends and kak an had a very solid reason: "ntah-ntah dia nak bagi report card. dah cuti sekolah dah kan?". i had a thought and i went and it was so true!

ramai kawan-kawan adam dah balik by the time saya sampai. terjumpa pulak sorang lagi kawan sekolah saya. lepas tu jumpa lagi sorang kawan. huih.. rasa glamer sungguhlah makcik sorang ni. hahahahah...

bila review report card adam cikgu kata the followings:

1) adam ni ok dalam kelas. tapi fokus dia cepat hilang. after a while, dia mula la buat kerja dia sendiri. tapi dia faham apa cikgu ajar. bila dia tak faham, dia tanya..

--- macam mana eh nak kekalkan fokus budak adam ni? but the fact that he understood what the teacher taught, i rasa sedap hati jugaklah...


2) lepas beberapa bulan, baru saya perasan rupanya dia ni tak berapa faham bahasa malaysia. kalau cakap pun dia selalu cakap bahasa inggeris. bila saya cakap dengan cikgu bahasa inggeris dia, cikgu tu kata dia takde masalah bila bercakap dengan adam. then saya taulah. rupanya dia tak faham apa saya cakap.

--- one point, i felt like crying. proud pun ada. one another point, i felt like, alamak... language effect his concentration? perhaps?


3) dengan kawan-kawan dia pun, dia cakap bahasa inggeris. kadang-kadang ada kawan dia tak faham dia cakap. itu yang kadang-kadang saya nampak dia main sorang-sorang aje.

--- alahai.. sian anak mama. this point, saya memang rasa nak masukkan adam kat iskl. er.. ssu sudahlah kot... sob! sob! sob!


4) peratusan dia bagus puan. sekolah ni lain sikit peratusan dia. kita ambil average, first semester combine dengan second semester. sebab kita nak menilai student selama setahun pembelajaran dia. ada pelajar yang bagus first semester, tapi tak berapa bagus second semester. jadi for next year kita tak stream kelas pelajar untuk tahun depan.

--- alhamdulillah. peratusan adam adalah A. overal standing pun not bad. kalo masuk grouping, masuk lagi group pertama. syukur sangat-sangat...


5) ini duit seratus puan ye.

--- er.. terima kasih


adakah adam masih layak untuk mendapatkan iPad?

kita tungggggguuuuuuuuuuuuu.......

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

matematik oleh cikgu ammar farhan

"mama, ammar ada soalan untuk mama"

"ok"

"berapa seratus campur dua puluh empat?"

"seratus dua puluh empat"

"wah.. hebatlah mama... cepat betul mama kira"

-- both me and made chuckled. felt proud tho. but that was a question from a 6 years old kiddo okeh... layan la....

"ok mama. ada ni soalan susah. berapa tiga ratus campur tiga puluh lima?"

"er.. tiga ratus tiga puluh lima?"

"eh.. betul lagi la mama. mama ni memang pandai matematiklah...."

-- ok. proud again...

"ok mama. ni soalan yang sangat susah. sangat-sangat susah tau mama. berapa tujuh ratus campur tujuh puluh?"

"tujuh ratus tujuh puluh?"

"alah mama ni.. macam mana mama kira?"

-- this time around, both made and me laughed out loud. we expected the question to be like tujuh ratus lima puluh lapan campur enam puluh sembilan or anything that would need me to take out the calculator.

hahaha...

budak ammar ni memang kelakar.


Monday, November 14, 2011

Onde-onde

Saya dah pandai buat onde-onde @ buah melaka. Clap! Clap! Clap!

Few years back, saya penah jugak buat. Tapiiiii..... Time buat tu saya memang ngek. Resepi suh letak jus pandan. Saya letak pewarna hijau. Sebabnya, saya macam blur bila baca jus pandan tu. Tak terfikir pun tang blend daun pandan untuk dapat jus. Duk fikir mana nak beli aje.. Sudahnya........ As predicted la kan.. Masuk hijau, kuar pun hijaula. Makan hari la jugak "hasil" hijau tu. Ngeri seh tengok toilet bowl waktu tu. Hahaha...

Bebaru ni, masa tokbaq meninggal tu, mak suh mintak daun pandan dari makcik pah. Ehhh... Takdela saya amik daun pandan dari bantal kepala tokbaq tuuu... Ada balance makcik pah bagi. Dua helai saya buat nasik lemak. Sambil duk pandang daun yang berhelai-helai lagi tu, teringat kat onde-onde. Ha... Itu yang menjadik tu..

Inilah onde-onde saya. Comel macam saya kan? Hehehe...~

Sunday, November 13, 2011

nekad!

planning in progress..

supports pouring in..

head held high..

mathematical projections..

implementation due in few months..

doakan saya!!!!

amin..

Friday, November 11, 2011

tokbaq

tokbaq passed away peacefully yesterday afternoon.

i didn't realize along's calls and made's phone was at home. i got the message at about 1pm as i reached for my phone to pick up adam from school. blunder!

alhamdulillah, we were given enough time to pay respect, recite do'a and look at his dearly face for the last time.

tokbaq is mak's father.

tokbaq and nenek lives in puchong. they moved from dungun couple of years ago. that morning, hakimi took care of them before left for school. then came nadhirah. tokbaq had a fall in the toilet that made nadhirah called her big brother, hafeezhat. on his lap that tokbaq had had his last breath. alhamdulillah, hafeezhat managed to quide tokbaq recited his last kalimah syahadah.

tokbaq was laid to rest after asar.

it was completely a family affair. i praise Allah for His gift to my dear family.

moga arwah tokbaq dicucuri rahmat dan tenang disisiNya. amin

al-fatihah


Saturday, November 05, 2011

First of everything

First day for adam attending his art/drawing and swimming class. He is loving it!!

First day for mama making vanilla cupcakes with choc ganache on top. Nak buat choc melt tak sure macam mana.. Hehehe..

First er... Pre-first lah kot(?) for alesya with ayah in the swimming class too. Next week baru consider first class, kata instructor.

Wohooo....

You know what I like about Adam when he enjoys something? He'll smile while doing it.. It has been half an hour of his class, and he is still smiling.

Friday, November 04, 2011

Frust lah..

"mama, saya dapat nombor 18"

Not bad..

"mama, next year saya 2 cempaka"

Alah......

Patut ke rasa frust?

Ni yang nak sangat duk umah ni....

Anyway, i havent received the report card. Tengok la peratusan dia macam mana nanti. If there's increment, he's in a good boat. Otherwise, kena study hard sikitlah next year.

Thursday, November 03, 2011

Masih menunggu

Saya nak duk umah la.. Jaga anak, kemas-kemas, bake dengan senang hati. Teringin benar dah ni... Kalah orang pregnant mengidam eh?

Tapi monthly expenses tu tak contra lagi. Camno tu.. Plan dah cantek. Tapi ada aje yang melintang. Haih! Nak air fryer la, vacuum cleaner la, nak bikin rumahla. Macam-macam hajat kalau ikut hati ni tau.

Tadi sembang dengan mak. She plans to being uwan to KL. Saya pulak yang excited dengar. Berdetik jugak dalam hati, kalau saya ada kat umah, boleh la saya nak bawak uwan and/or ma duk umah saya seminggu dua. Sekarang ni, sapa pulak nak jaga makan minum dia. Kami anak beranak pun makan mana sempat aje. Takan nak layan nenek dengan mak mertua gitu kot. Jatuhla saham. Hahahaha...

Last month punya baking project, alhamdulillah - nampak progress. Kena perdalam ilmu lagi ni. I've put aside the money that i got from my baking. Bukanla profit. Tapi bila tengok account tu, tersenyum la jugak tengok hasil tangan sendiri.

Tengoklah.. Insya Allah ada rezeki dan berkat doa, makbul la jugak permintaan saya ni kot..

Amin....

Tuesday, November 01, 2011

dah jumpa handphone!!

alhamdulillah..

ce teka kat mana?

dibawah buku ini.

ce baca tajuk dia... sesuwaiiii kan????!!!

Monday, October 31, 2011

what a DAY!

i woke up at 5.47am and i slept again, and woke up again at 6.10am.

then i couldn't find my handphone. at the side of my bed, under the pillow, in the kitchen, anywhere. i even tried to call, but the line was unavailable. so my mind started to unwind.

we spent our evening in kak ti's house. i sent and received sms. i recall receiving latest sms in the car, on our way back home. that was because alesya alerted me, "mama.. mama.. mama" and refused to stop until i checked on my phone. i remember got down from the car, trying to locate where had the kucing berak this time because the bau was soooooo busuk. i remember looking back at the car. i know i didn't drop my handphone. i got in, and i reached for magazines while laying on the bed. i didn't want to access to my FB as i know i'll be carried away. then i slept with alesya.

ok. that was so far that i can recall on my handphone.

my morning continued. i got into the car with adam's phone. i asked made to send budak-budak punya bakul later as i was running short of time. i reached opah's house, i passed alesya to her, i started my car again, and suddenly the indicator started to made noise and showed "coolant level too low". aik?? semalam dah isi air. aiyo.. i drove with the temperature of the car suddenly hiked to 90 and the blinking next to it didn't go off. i called made. he wanted to come over, but i told him, i'll ask hairul to look after it. Now, kereta la pulak...

i reached my destination and my mind was still on the phone. where could it be? i remember looking at the phone and i saw the battery has 44% to dead end. so i should have enough until i recharge it in the office the next day. but how come it was off? made called kak ti, and she said there was no sign of my phone. alah...

hairul called me and said he's free to check on the car. so we went. i showed him the indicator and the blink-blink i had. next 15 minutes, we spent on trying to find the unlock button for the bonnet!!! siap bukak car manual book okeh?!! so you out there.. 101 lesson is to find your car front bonnet's button. do not assume everything is under the pilot's chair or on the dashboard. from the manual we learnt that my car's bonnet button is at the co-pilot's door. hebat! hebat! kereta perancis ni memang hebat!!!! as hairul trying to open the bonnet, he saw a cap. a cap to what, everybody? YES!!! the cap for the coolant. my dearest husband has forgotten to cap it back after he poured half a bottle of spritzer mineral water into the coolant bottle (or whatever it may be called)yesterday. at this point, i tell you; i'm half exhausted thinking of what's going to happen next. but syukran jazeelan that we found the cap and the coolant indicator did not make any noise when i drove off to pick up adam.

later, i was late to pick up adam. there was an accident along ulu kelang highway and one stupid honda drove at 30km/h on the fast lane. ntah apa yang dia syok sangat bawak keta sebegitu lembab di kala orang nak cepat ni. i arrived adam's school about 10 minutes later than my usual time. adam's first question was "mama.. why were you late?". no appropriate answer for now. then he showed me his next two results. english dapat A. bahasa arab dapat B. ok. there goes his chance in getting and iPad. he was frustrated. sian anak mama.. well... as i was speaking to made just now, we probably will still buy him an iPad kot. kesian dekat dia duduk kat rumah opah tu takde entertainment. kalau ada budak sama baya tak pelah jugak. anyhow, we'll think more about it.

started my second half for my with a call from a colleague asking me to check on the tax payment that i made for the sub teachers back in june, july this year. apparently there was a hick up and we might have to pay penalty. adoh!!!!!!!! i didn't look at the files immediately. and i hoping for the payment had be made and there was a mistake in the account. nak mengadap bos lagi.. at that moment, i lost count of my adoi already!

thought on handphone came again. sayangnya gambar-gambar alesya and adam... mmmmm....

then i received a phone call. that time, i was.. "ok.. apa lagi ni?" this colleague is submitting the teacher's absence list. despite emailing it to me, she asked the dispatch to hand carry and told me that the signed copy will reach me on wednesday. i told her, an email will do. after the boss has signed it, then only she can pass the listing the me, in hard copy. her argument was "nanti u nak tengok hardcopy". haloo! how stupid can you be? i cannot print from the email lah?? ahhhh fine.. suka hati kaulah!!

i did this and that, then i thought, might as well check the tax file now and report it to my boss. i checked and double checked and i was at fault. ya allah! beratnya dugaan untuk hari ni. i was trying to find the courage to talk to my boss when she told me that she has a closed door meeting and please do not disturb. and i saw the meeting attendees, i could sense her tense! alamak...... till the end of my working hours, i was not able to catch her. she was still in a tensed meeting as i walked out of the office door.

the traffic was building up in front of the school so i took jalan belakang and exit at the china embassy. i made a u-turn and yes, i know the lampu was red. and this honda (or toyota) memula macam nak bagi masuk, tak alih lepas tu nak marah-marah and showed me the red light. kecohlah lu apek!!! lu nak jalan, jalan ajelahhhhhh.. lu pun potong jalan orang lain, nak cakap banyak. ok. panas hati part ke... mmmm.. berapa ntah..

arrived melawati to send alin's parcel. singgah the stationery shop to get the bubble envelope. first budak kedai tu tak paham apa menda bubble envelope. second, i requested for the right size to fit in the kotak, dia boleh mendengus pulak. alahai dek....... i've had enough dah ni dek....

now, address dapat, poskod pulak takde. so i thought, the people in the post office would be able to assist. after all, they are working in the POST OFFICE kan? i got to pinjam the manual poskod book, carik punya carik, takde pulak jalan dr. nazrin shah. hish! i asked the guy at the poslaju counter, "saya carik poskod jalan dr. nazrin shah, takde. can u help me?".

"saya boleh carik poskod aje kak, nama jalan saya tak tau"

"yelah.. saya ada nama jalan. she's staying at the impiana hotel. but i do not have her postcode"

"call la dia"

"she didn't know neither. she is not a local"

"saya tak boleh tolonglah kak"

bodoh eh? rasa nak lempang aje budak itu. bukan ko keje kat POST OFFICE? bukan ko boleh check online ke?

pemalas!

so i made the decision as i said "she needs the parcel urgently, you tell me what postcode do you want me to fill in?"

"akak letak ajelah 30000"

see..... seeeeeee...... he can give me a number. and as i glanced back at the postcode book, perak punya poskod starts with 30xxx. so he basically has an idea and he could have suggested to me rather than boiled up the angry birds inside me. kan??? ok............. the charge was rm7.30. i gave him rm50. i heard the "huh". i have the precise rm7.30, but for that guy, lantak kau lah!

i picked up the kids. oh! lupa nak cerita. lepas pick up adam from school tadi, dia mengadu gigi sakit. gigi is up to cabut already. and 2 gigi. hahaha..

parked kereta. masuk rumah. lock everything. started the washing machine. then i told adam, "can you look after adik for me? i want to search for my phone".

"ok mama.. i'll help you"

first, the nearest pillow. raba-raba. takde.

second, the side of the bed. again. handphone takde. rm100 ada. duit si ad la kot. ok. rezeki.

third, i saw cecelia ahern's story book. my thought - bila pulak aku baca buku ni. i lifted it up and.....

tadaaaaaaa

my phone!!!!!

alhamdulillah!!!!

now i'm hungry. baru perasan makan roti aje pagi tadi. letih memikirkan nasib badan. ok. now nak makan, mandi, solat, bersyukur + berdoa panjang sikit hari ni, and tido.

now, i am COMPLETELY exhausted..



u think my day has settled?

no!!!!!

as i finished typing, published my post, getting ready to step into the toilet. azan maghrib berkumandang. and i have not solat asar!!!

ok.. i want my bantal, and i want to sleep. i dont want anything to happen on october 31, 2011 anymore. nope. nope. i'm done.

i want to sleep

but i'm hungry.

aloh....

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

i'm soooooooooooooo into baking

dont ask me to cook. i'm not a good cook. siang ikan pun saya tak reti. potong bawang ok sikit. nama ikan fel. saya tak pandai letak garam dalam masakan. and the list will go on and on..

but i love to bake. depends ada masa atau takde aje.. most of the time, ada aje masa tu. hahaha..

hari ni saya sangat-sangat suka hati sebab saya dah pandai (sikit) smooth kan icing on the cake. jenuh tengok youtube dan baca tips sana sini. alhamdulillah...

ha.. tengoklah..


cantikkan? hahahahha...

because of this baking interest, made bagi saya kata dua. nak jual tupperware atau nak jual cake. so, as you can see... i'm no longer selling tupperware. kalo nak kek dalam tupperware boleh... hehehe..

jemputlah ke byannerafei.com untuk maklumat lanjut.



Tuesday, October 25, 2011

standby mode




hari ni dapat lagi exam papers adam. another 2 As in hand. another 2 papers to go..

now, mama & ayah kena standby pecah tabung ayam.

wohooooooo......