Itinerary orang nak kawin

Ketibaan pengantin disambut kompang
Selawat ke atas nabi
Diarak ke pelamin oleh bubble boys & girls
Majlis dizahirkan oleh along
Silat
Merenjis-renjis dipilis pasangan pengantin
Makan beradap
Joget melayu

"mak, nape masa kita kawin mak tak buat pun camni?"
"waktu tu x cukup ilmu. Sapa suh kawin cepat sangat"
"alahhh... Nak kawin lagi sekali la"
"gatal. Buat sendiri. Bajet habis"
"alaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh"

should i press the panic button?

kad belum habis distribute

kotak cupcakes dah dapat

barang cupcakes belum beli

mixer belum amik

baju adam & alesya belum siap

baju made & myself in progress

tudung tak carik lagi

mekap done - ini penting ok.. hahaha

bag untuk door gift dah jumpa ke si akut ni

tag/stamp untuk cupcakes tak buat lagi

umah mak still pending

umah sendiri pun tunggang langgang

will there be rehearsal?

budak-budak punya bubble guns tak prepare lagi

payroll for february is coming soon

then leavers settlements pulak

and i have only 2 weeks to settle. ayayai!

should i press it now?

alin nak kawin

wohooo... my baby sister dah nak kawin. cam tak caya..... hahahahhahahahahah..

tadi dia bagi wedding card for distribution. dok ralit tulis nama recipient on the card, tengok-tengok kad dah tinggal lima keping. eh.. tak cukup pulak. kena mintak lagi la ni.. hehehe..

mana yang dapat kad nanti, jemput datang ye. yang kena tagged on FB pun, kami alu-alukan kedatangan anda. yang terima sms pun, jika takde halangan, sila la hadirkan diri. nak bagi kad sorang satu tak sempatlah.. so, mana yang dapat ajelah ye. sekarang ni, harga postage pun mahal. tak mampu makcik ni ha...

so save the date... 5th FEBRUARY 2012 - alin & faiz

I knew..

One day, it will happen. The clock ticks and tacks. Anticipating a situation. Now the show started..

Somehow, i selalu takde luck with those born di bulan sebelas. Ntahlah kenapa.. Taurus and scorpio conflict kot? I'm a taurean and a horse too.. I can be hard to understand but i can be easy to please too..

Recently i have a situation with a friend. I had the feelings couple of years ago, during the first stage of knowing this friend. Perasaan eh? Maybe.. As much as i try to avoid, im still a human. Obliged to make mistake.

Clashes of thought are predicted. But when only one thought kena kondem, sakit jugak hati tu kan? And friends... Please.... IM, email, YM, whatsap or whatever tech thingy are no good at passing messages basically. And please realize that huruf besar in ur typing can be understood wrongly. When u feel u want to make a subject clears, another may think, u're shouting & it becomes offensive. My case, i think, the wall is already there. So, ni kira wrong timing lah.

At the moment i'm at "ntahlah" feeling. I have much respect and love for this friend. For this friend has been such a good listener & advisor and had been with me & my other buddies at all time.

How to move on, i tak sure lagi. Playing with time is the game right now. Nak say sorry tak sure for what. Now it seems what i've planned and thought a long time before, dah disalah erti pulak. It's hard eh when people like to assume & being judgmental?

Till then...

DJ umah orang kawin

dah common dah kan sekarang ni? flash back 8 years ago, my wedding pun ada DJ jugak. what i'm going to share is about an irritating DJ - awal tahun dah nak comment pasal orang kan? hehe..

we attended the very first wedding on for 2012. we were among the early birds. banggakan? sudu pun tak bersusun lagi. food was nice. ice kacang tambah sampai 5 mangkuk. kumpulan gamelan & nasyid was good. cuma DJ aje buat bengang ulu hati.

after a while, dia jemput hadirin-hadirat hantar sms untuk dibaca kepada pengantin yang dirai. ok. good motive. tapi.... dia tanak baca ucapan selamat untuk pengantin baru zaman dulu, i.e. "selamat pengantin baru, semoga bahagia ke anak cucu". oi! suka hati lah... lagu orang kawin yang selalu dipasang time kenduri tu pun gitu jugak senikatanya. ok.. i understand the reasoning. doa sampai ke cucu aje. lepas cucu takde ke?? but, dont la say like that. cuba cakap something like "saya pohon agar ucapan tu biarlah ke akhir hayat ye. jangan sampai ke anak cucu saja". i believe hadirin yang 90% adults tu akan paham apa maksudnya. kan?

then agaknya takde text yang masuk, dia kata pulak..

"alah apa sangatlah sepuluh sen satu sms tu. kalau nak kedekut sangat, lepas hantar tu, marilah datang meja DJ tuntut sepuluh sen. tapi saya tak akan bagi duit. saya akan bagi air suam. hahaha (ketawa sendiri. orang lain buat derk aje). air suam pun sekarang tiga puluh sen tau".

eeeehhhhhhhhh.......... ada aku pedulikkk??!!

we left before hearing to any sms. so, tak taulah ada ke tak yang sempat salin nombor talipon dia tu.

cheeky thought - cara bagus untuk dia market service DJ.. kan? hahaha..

on another occasion, we had one DJ yang asiklah bagitau hadirin pukul berapa. ada la kot selang lima belas minit dia update semua orang on the time. takde bahan nak bercakaplah tu gamaknya.

DJ can be entertaining but sometimes irritating. janganlah syok sendiri jadik DJ tu. yang penting ayat-ayat tu kena jaga. memanglah majlis kenduri kat umah-umah aje. tapi ayat awak tu, satu kampung boleh dengar. agak-agaklah sikit...

feeling

felt what uwan felt on this particular day, 8 years ago.

hurt.

silence.

better, i hope.

calar

nak kata first calar pun bukan. sebab dah kena gesek bawah tu dah baper kali. kehkehkeh.

tapi yang ni memang meruntun jiwa, sanubari..

kena kat umah mak. tak nampak tong sampah. ingatkan dah lepas dah. adehhh...

bapak kata hantar polish aje. mm.. polish pun polish lah...

End of 2011

is just around the corner..

It's time to:

update 2012 resolutions. Should there be no changes, carry forward aje. Confirm banyak tak tercapai. Haha..

Happy New Year everyone!

Moga tahun yang baru adalah lebih elok dari tahun yang sebelumnya. Hiasi peribadi, perelokkanlah ibadah kita. Insya Allah... Yang baik itu hanya dariNya.

anak burung

dulu ada myspace. lepas tu password lupa, username pun tak ingat.

lepas tu sibuk friendster. peh tu malas. account ntah ke mana.

masuk pulak zaman facebook. hambek! pantang bukak, berejam melekat. sumpahan betul!

now, i sudah jadik anak burung u-olls! berkicau-kicau. memekak!

hahahahahah...

Batang sayur

You all makan batang sayur?

Saya makan. Tapi sejak kawin dengan made ni, rasa malas pulak nak makan.

(sila jangan kona-kan pemikiran anda)

Bukan malas pasaipa... Made suka makan daun dia aje. Batang tak berapa. Memula tu give in la jugak. Tak kisahlah kan.. Lelama boring pulak rasa. Nak-nak kalo termakan tang batang yang tak sedap. Geram aje tengok made habiskan daun sayur.

Oleh itu, kalo sapa-sapa mai makan umah saya, jangan la kata saya tak pandai potong sayur; walaupun itulah hakikatnya. Hehehe...

555

rezeki byannerafei untuk minggu ini.

alhamdulillah..

thanks for the support!!!!

Reasoning

the more i thought about "early retirement" from my work, the more reasoning i need to do. haih!

ok.. why?

1) i wanna be with my kids. well, yes ok. i can still be with my kids though i'm working. i've been working for the past 8 years, with my kids sent to babysitter. that's the catch! my kids are sent to babysitter. shouldn't they be with me? oh well.. i'm the mother. i need to do the needful. ok. if i'm working i'd be able to provide more than necessities to them. but think about this.. adam is going to turn 8 soon. should he still be at babysitter's house up till he's 12? oh come on! alesya is growing. shouldn't she be with me? ok.. disturbed mind. cant think of reconciliation to this reason; at the moment.

2) i'm tired at work. yes, true. i understand my boss needs me. she loves me. she's my "baby". but there are times when i came home, and i'm already exhausted. one, for the amount of work. two, for the mentally challenging work i have in the office. i have never thought HR could be as hard as i've been going through. i've always thought HR would be the best platform for me. 4 years in HR division proved to me that, what i have been seeing are only the overview of what a HR personnel does in an office. what i've been going through is sometimes, a hell of a work place. you're the most hatred person. you're the most loved person -- when one needs help. people goes silent when you walk into the lounge and you'll notice that the topic has changed to cooking - suddenly. when one news reaches HR office, you'll be the first person to be blamed, when you (me in this situation), never knew of such news existence neither had the thought of conveying any messages - should there be any. and one would either ignore your friend request, or block you, or added then remove you in FB! kejam!!!! conveying exclusive news to HR director is one of my job descriptions. and for the past 4 years, i have never had marks more than 3. tiga tu pun markah kesian for no news had been kepohci from me. mmm.. this reason sounds personal... truth is, i'm tired with the mental and psychology challenge.

3) i'm tired to think right now.

will think some more later.

nite-nite.

Cinema day

We started the day with swimming cancelled. Grab some nasik lemak, ate at home, get prepared and off we went to Caps Square.

The first time we were there was to watch kungfu panda 2. That was the only cinema that has available seats for KP2. But still, as second timer, we were round and round in finding the parking. Hehe..

We started with tin tin. Alesya slept half way through. Well.. That was part of the plan so that we can watch the movie peacefully. Tintin was fun. Adam enjoyed it too.

Then we continued with happy feet 2. This time around we had Alesya as Gloria's backing singer - if you know what I mean. Hehe... It was more of a musical movie. We did'nt enjoy it as much as the first one.

After the movie ended, we went for zohor prayer and then to secret recipe for lunch. Up again for asar and continued with puss in boots.

Thumbs up for puss!! We had so much fun watching it. Alesya was once again slept during half of the movie - that's a blessing, actually. Hehe...

Again to surau for maghrib before heading home. Caps Square, if you ask me, has nothing except for empty shops. But both me and Made would really want to do this again. We managed to spend the whole day with the kids. We did'nt miss a prayer - alhamdulillah. And there was not so many people. First thought of it - scary. But then we thought, it's better than having have lots of people and you get so stressed up be in a pool of people. Right?

Fun day!!

Manic monday

First half of the day i feel that my tudung made me looked like a cekodok.

Fine!

Second half of the day i think, it looked like a lepat pisang.

Ok! Fine!

At the end of the day, i know i cant deny the fact that today, the whole day, my look was nothing but selebet.

Evidence?

Here you are....

duit seratus

adalah a catch semata-mata! sebab nak suh mak bapak pegi amik report cards anak. kehkehkeh..

i was shy-shy cat la at first nak pegi amik duit tu. i have no obvious reason. ntah. rasa segan aje. then i was convinced by friends and kak an had a very solid reason: "ntah-ntah dia nak bagi report card. dah cuti sekolah dah kan?". i had a thought and i went and it was so true!

ramai kawan-kawan adam dah balik by the time saya sampai. terjumpa pulak sorang lagi kawan sekolah saya. lepas tu jumpa lagi sorang kawan. huih.. rasa glamer sungguhlah makcik sorang ni. hahahahah...

bila review report card adam cikgu kata the followings:

1) adam ni ok dalam kelas. tapi fokus dia cepat hilang. after a while, dia mula la buat kerja dia sendiri. tapi dia faham apa cikgu ajar. bila dia tak faham, dia tanya..

--- macam mana eh nak kekalkan fokus budak adam ni? but the fact that he understood what the teacher taught, i rasa sedap hati jugaklah...

2) lepas beberapa bulan, baru saya perasan rupanya dia ni tak berapa faham bahasa malaysia. kalau cakap pun dia selalu cakap bahasa inggeris. bila saya cakap dengan cikgu bahasa inggeris dia, cikgu tu kata dia takde masalah bila bercakap dengan adam. then saya taulah. rupanya dia tak faham apa saya cakap.

--- one point, i felt like crying. proud pun ada. one another point, i felt like, alamak... language effect his concentration? perhaps?

3) dengan kawan-kawan dia pun, dia cakap bahasa inggeris. kadang-kadang ada kawan dia tak faham dia cakap. itu yang kadang-kadang saya nampak dia main sorang-sorang aje.

--- alahai.. sian anak mama. this point, saya memang rasa nak masukkan adam kat iskl. er.. ssu sudahlah kot... sob! sob! sob!

4) peratusan dia bagus puan. sekolah ni lain sikit peratusan dia. kita ambil average, first semester combine dengan second semester. sebab kita nak menilai student selama setahun pembelajaran dia. ada pelajar yang bagus first semester, tapi tak berapa bagus second semester. jadi for next year kita tak stream kelas pelajar untuk tahun depan.

--- alhamdulillah. peratusan adam adalah A. overal standing pun not bad. kalo masuk grouping, masuk lagi group pertama. syukur sangat-sangat...

5) ini duit seratus puan ye.

--- er.. terima kasih

adakah adam masih layak untuk mendapatkan iPad?

kita tungggggguuuuuuuuuuuuu.......

matematik oleh cikgu ammar farhan

"mama, ammar ada soalan untuk mama"

"ok"

"berapa seratus campur dua puluh empat?"

"seratus dua puluh empat"

"wah.. hebatlah mama... cepat betul mama kira"

-- both me and made chuckled. felt proud tho. but that was a question from a 6 years old kiddo okeh... layan la....

"ok mama. ada ni soalan susah. berapa tiga ratus campur tiga puluh lima?"

"er.. tiga ratus tiga puluh lima?"

"eh.. betul lagi la mama. mama ni memang pandai matematiklah...."

-- ok. proud again...

"ok mama. ni soalan yang sangat susah. sangat-sangat susah tau mama. berapa tujuh ratus campur tujuh puluh?"

"tujuh ratus tujuh puluh?"

"alah mama ni.. macam mana mama kira?"

-- this time around, both made and me laughed out loud. we expected the question to be like tujuh ratus lima puluh lapan campur enam puluh sembilan or anything that would need me to take out the calculator.

hahaha...

budak ammar ni memang kelakar.

Onde-onde

Saya dah pandai buat onde-onde @ buah melaka. Clap! Clap! Clap!

Few years back, saya penah jugak buat. Tapiiiii..... Time buat tu saya memang ngek. Resepi suh letak jus pandan. Saya letak pewarna hijau. Sebabnya, saya macam blur bila baca jus pandan tu. Tak terfikir pun tang blend daun pandan untuk dapat jus. Duk fikir mana nak beli aje.. Sudahnya........ As predicted la kan.. Masuk hijau, kuar pun hijaula. Makan hari la jugak "hasil" hijau tu. Ngeri seh tengok toilet bowl waktu tu. Hahaha...

Bebaru ni, masa tokbaq meninggal tu, mak suh mintak daun pandan dari makcik pah. Ehhh... Takdela saya amik daun pandan dari bantal kepala tokbaq tuuu... Ada balance makcik pah bagi. Dua helai saya buat nasik lemak. Sambil duk pandang daun yang berhelai-helai lagi tu, teringat kat onde-onde. Ha... Itu yang menjadik tu..

Inilah onde-onde saya. Comel macam saya kan? Hehehe...~

nekad!

planning in progress..

supports pouring in..

head held high..

mathematical projections..

implementation due in few months..

doakan saya!!!!

amin..

tokbaq

tokbaq passed away peacefully yesterday afternoon.

i didn't realize along's calls and made's phone was at home. i got the message at about 1pm as i reached for my phone to pick up adam from school. blunder!

alhamdulillah, we were given enough time to pay respect, recite do'a and look at his dearly face for the last time.

tokbaq is mak's father.

tokbaq and nenek lives in puchong. they moved from dungun couple of years ago. that morning, hakimi took care of them before left for school. then came nadhirah. tokbaq had a fall in the toilet that made nadhirah called her big brother, hafeezhat. on his lap that tokbaq had had his last breath. alhamdulillah, hafeezhat managed to quide tokbaq recited his last kalimah syahadah.

tokbaq was laid to rest after asar.

it was completely a family affair. i praise Allah for His gift to my dear family.

moga arwah tokbaq dicucuri rahmat dan tenang disisiNya. amin

al-fatihah

First of everything

First day for adam attending his art/drawing and swimming class. He is loving it!!

First day for mama making vanilla cupcakes with choc ganache on top. Nak buat choc melt tak sure macam mana.. Hehehe..

First er... Pre-first lah kot(?) for alesya with ayah in the swimming class too. Next week baru consider first class, kata instructor.

Wohooo....

You know what I like about Adam when he enjoys something? He'll smile while doing it.. It has been half an hour of his class, and he is still smiling.