al-fatihah

untuk adik nurin dan takziah untuk keluarganya.

*****

i got the news on her death this afternoon. perhaps only few minutes earlier than it was in the news. no.. i'm not her relative. neither that i'm her acquaintance. i just happened to have the news earlier.

upon receiving the news that the little girl that was found dumped in pj was nurin, my tears dropped. this poor little lady was suffered to death. tak de peri-kemanusiaan langsung ke pembunuh kejam tu? oh.. why would he/she rite? after all, she/he is a pembunuh kejam :P

nurin as all knows by now, was sexually abused by strong object. and the strong object known as terung and timun. kita yg dah besar and have had sex ni pun tau sakit. apa lagi sekecik cam nurin tu. apa sangatlah yg budak tu tau? apa jugaklah yg budak tu dah buat sampai terseksa dia macam tu sekali? she was totally abused. scars, bruises here and there. ya Allah.. manusia apa yg dah buat menda gila ni?

apa dah jadik dengan manusia sekarang? hidup dalam dunia yg penuh dengan development, hi-tech. tapi fikiran makin lama makin kebelakang. org zaman jurassic dulu, membunuh untuk hidup. they had to survive. but people nowadays? kill for excitement? ya Allah.......

nyawa skang umpama duit 20sen. lambung, head or tail. u pick the head, ur head will be chopped off. u pick the tail, u'll suffer baby.. camtu ke? is that how easy people solve their problems? is that how people think nowadays? no more logical thinking? no more sense of sympathy? Allahuakbar...

i'm still sad. sad with the news. when the news first appeared on buletin utama, my first thought was "there u go. another anak merajuk dengan mak, balik umah atuk". but then when i knew that the little girl had this and that sakit, i pointed my 10 fingers to the parents. why should they let her out? she's just a plain 8 years old kid. and she's sick! cant they think? i wouldnt let adam out of my eyes for a second. there was once when i came to fetch him from maknek's house, he was not there. out of my sight. and not with maknek, i've already started to think about the making police report. ni pulak parents yg boleh lepaskan anak dia macam tu aje. aduhhhh... senangnya..

and now that she's gone, but still my 10 fingers are with the parents, and deep inside i feel bad. bad for this murder had taken place. kalo berdendam sangat, kalo marah sangat, janganlah menyeksa anak org. kalo marah ngan ayah dia, pegi berkarate ngan ayah dia. kalo bengang tahap 28 dengan mak dia, pegilah seligi mak dia. kenapa kena balas kat anak dia? anak dia tak bersalah!

i bet, the parents will live in regret. the father is now living in denial. of course he would. he was hoping for good news, but he received otherwise. the same case if i were to give u a 30cm long pencil. but in return i got a cinonet 1cm long pencil. should i call that pencil mine? definitely not. i pity the parents.. but what has gone, that's the fate. accept it as what we are told by our religion. redha dan pasrah dengan ketentuanNya. yg penting percaya kepada Allah dan qada & qadarnya.

i'm not adding salt to the current pain. my apology if i have offended anyone. but please.. take care of your beloved children. org sekarang tak macam org dulu. dulu kalo org jumpa anak kita tepi jalan, dia hantar anak kita balik umah kita. org skang, kalo jumpa anak kita tepi jalan dia hantar anak kita balik umah dia.

i'm a mother, i'm telling this to myself also. anak tu tanggungjawab. biar beban macam mana pun anak kita, dia tetap anak kita. biar sakit macam mana membesar dia pun, dia tetap anak kita. macam mana kita terseksa dengan dia pun, dia tetap berbin/bintikan suami kita sepanjang hayatnya, dan berbin/bintikan kita di akhir hayatnya kelak.

i hope, the suspect will be brought up to justice. sepandai2 tupai melompat, akhirnya jatuh ke tanah juga.

insya Allah

nurin, damailah kamu di sana. amin

here's a blog for beloved nurin by her uncle: nurin jazlin