Wednesday, December 28, 2011

calar

nak kata first calar pun bukan. sebab dah kena gesek bawah tu dah baper kali. kehkehkeh.

tapi yang ni memang meruntun jiwa, sanubari..

kena kat umah mak. tak nampak tong sampah. ingatkan dah lepas dah. adehhh...

bapak kata hantar polish aje. mm.. polish pun polish lah...

Saturday, December 17, 2011

End of 2011

is just around the corner..

It's time to:

update 2012 resolutions. Should there be no changes, carry forward aje. Confirm banyak tak tercapai. Haha..

Happy New Year everyone!

Moga tahun yang baru adalah lebih elok dari tahun yang sebelumnya. Hiasi peribadi, perelokkanlah ibadah kita. Insya Allah... Yang baik itu hanya dariNya.

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

anak burung

dulu ada myspace. lepas tu password lupa, username pun tak ingat.

lepas tu sibuk friendster. peh tu malas. account ntah ke mana.

masuk pulak zaman facebook. hambek! pantang bukak, berejam melekat. sumpahan betul!

now, i sudah jadik anak burung u-olls! berkicau-kicau. memekak!

hahahahahah...


Saturday, December 10, 2011

Batang sayur

You all makan batang sayur?

Saya makan. Tapi sejak kawin dengan made ni, rasa malas pulak nak makan.

(sila jangan kona-kan pemikiran anda)

Bukan malas pasaipa... Made suka makan daun dia aje. Batang tak berapa. Memula tu give in la jugak. Tak kisahlah kan.. Lelama boring pulak rasa. Nak-nak kalo termakan tang batang yang tak sedap. Geram aje tengok made habiskan daun sayur.

Oleh itu, kalo sapa-sapa mai makan umah saya, jangan la kata saya tak pandai potong sayur; walaupun itulah hakikatnya. Hehehe...

Monday, December 05, 2011

555



rezeki byannerafei untuk minggu ini.

alhamdulillah..

thanks for the support!!!!


Thursday, December 01, 2011

Reasoning

the more i thought about "early retirement" from my work, the more reasoning i need to do. haih!

ok.. why?

1) i wanna be with my kids. well, yes ok. i can still be with my kids though i'm working. i've been working for the past 8 years, with my kids sent to babysitter. that's the catch! my kids are sent to babysitter. shouldn't they be with me? oh well.. i'm the mother. i need to do the needful. ok. if i'm working i'd be able to provide more than necessities to them. but think about this.. adam is going to turn 8 soon. should he still be at babysitter's house up till he's 12? oh come on! alesya is growing. shouldn't she be with me? ok.. disturbed mind. cant think of reconciliation to this reason; at the moment.

2) i'm tired at work. yes, true. i understand my boss needs me. she loves me. she's my "baby". but there are times when i came home, and i'm already exhausted. one, for the amount of work. two, for the mentally challenging work i have in the office. i have never thought HR could be as hard as i've been going through. i've always thought HR would be the best platform for me. 4 years in HR division proved to me that, what i have been seeing are only the overview of what a HR personnel does in an office. what i've been going through is sometimes, a hell of a work place. you're the most hatred person. you're the most loved person -- when one needs help. people goes silent when you walk into the lounge and you'll notice that the topic has changed to cooking - suddenly. when one news reaches HR office, you'll be the first person to be blamed, when you (me in this situation), never knew of such news existence neither had the thought of conveying any messages - should there be any. and one would either ignore your friend request, or block you, or added then remove you in FB! kejam!!!! conveying exclusive news to HR director is one of my job descriptions. and for the past 4 years, i have never had marks more than 3. tiga tu pun markah kesian for no news had been kepohci from me. mmm.. this reason sounds personal... truth is, i'm tired with the mental and psychology challenge.

3) i'm tired to think right now.

will think some more later.

nite-nite.


Sunday, November 27, 2011

Cinema day

We started the day with swimming cancelled. Grab some nasik lemak, ate at home, get prepared and off we went to Caps Square.

The first time we were there was to watch kungfu panda 2. That was the only cinema that has available seats for KP2. But still, as second timer, we were round and round in finding the parking. Hehe..

We started with tin tin. Alesya slept half way through. Well.. That was part of the plan so that we can watch the movie peacefully. Tintin was fun. Adam enjoyed it too.

Then we continued with happy feet 2. This time around we had Alesya as Gloria's backing singer - if you know what I mean. Hehe... It was more of a musical movie. We did'nt enjoy it as much as the first one.

After the movie ended, we went for zohor prayer and then to secret recipe for lunch. Up again for asar and continued with puss in boots.

Thumbs up for puss!! We had so much fun watching it. Alesya was once again slept during half of the movie - that's a blessing, actually. Hehe...

Again to surau for maghrib before heading home. Caps Square, if you ask me, has nothing except for empty shops. But both me and Made would really want to do this again. We managed to spend the whole day with the kids. We did'nt miss a prayer - alhamdulillah. And there was not so many people. First thought of it - scary. But then we thought, it's better than having have lots of people and you get so stressed up be in a pool of people. Right?

Fun day!!

Monday, November 21, 2011

Manic monday

First half of the day i feel that my tudung made me looked like a cekodok.

Fine!

Second half of the day i think, it looked like a lepat pisang.

Ok! Fine!

At the end of the day, i know i cant deny the fact that today, the whole day, my look was nothing but selebet.

Evidence?

Here you are....

Thursday, November 17, 2011

duit seratus

adalah a catch semata-mata! sebab nak suh mak bapak pegi amik report cards anak. kehkehkeh..

i was shy-shy cat la at first nak pegi amik duit tu. i have no obvious reason. ntah. rasa segan aje. then i was convinced by friends and kak an had a very solid reason: "ntah-ntah dia nak bagi report card. dah cuti sekolah dah kan?". i had a thought and i went and it was so true!

ramai kawan-kawan adam dah balik by the time saya sampai. terjumpa pulak sorang lagi kawan sekolah saya. lepas tu jumpa lagi sorang kawan. huih.. rasa glamer sungguhlah makcik sorang ni. hahahahah...

bila review report card adam cikgu kata the followings:

1) adam ni ok dalam kelas. tapi fokus dia cepat hilang. after a while, dia mula la buat kerja dia sendiri. tapi dia faham apa cikgu ajar. bila dia tak faham, dia tanya..

--- macam mana eh nak kekalkan fokus budak adam ni? but the fact that he understood what the teacher taught, i rasa sedap hati jugaklah...


2) lepas beberapa bulan, baru saya perasan rupanya dia ni tak berapa faham bahasa malaysia. kalau cakap pun dia selalu cakap bahasa inggeris. bila saya cakap dengan cikgu bahasa inggeris dia, cikgu tu kata dia takde masalah bila bercakap dengan adam. then saya taulah. rupanya dia tak faham apa saya cakap.

--- one point, i felt like crying. proud pun ada. one another point, i felt like, alamak... language effect his concentration? perhaps?


3) dengan kawan-kawan dia pun, dia cakap bahasa inggeris. kadang-kadang ada kawan dia tak faham dia cakap. itu yang kadang-kadang saya nampak dia main sorang-sorang aje.

--- alahai.. sian anak mama. this point, saya memang rasa nak masukkan adam kat iskl. er.. ssu sudahlah kot... sob! sob! sob!


4) peratusan dia bagus puan. sekolah ni lain sikit peratusan dia. kita ambil average, first semester combine dengan second semester. sebab kita nak menilai student selama setahun pembelajaran dia. ada pelajar yang bagus first semester, tapi tak berapa bagus second semester. jadi for next year kita tak stream kelas pelajar untuk tahun depan.

--- alhamdulillah. peratusan adam adalah A. overal standing pun not bad. kalo masuk grouping, masuk lagi group pertama. syukur sangat-sangat...


5) ini duit seratus puan ye.

--- er.. terima kasih


adakah adam masih layak untuk mendapatkan iPad?

kita tungggggguuuuuuuuuuuuu.......

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

matematik oleh cikgu ammar farhan

"mama, ammar ada soalan untuk mama"

"ok"

"berapa seratus campur dua puluh empat?"

"seratus dua puluh empat"

"wah.. hebatlah mama... cepat betul mama kira"

-- both me and made chuckled. felt proud tho. but that was a question from a 6 years old kiddo okeh... layan la....

"ok mama. ada ni soalan susah. berapa tiga ratus campur tiga puluh lima?"

"er.. tiga ratus tiga puluh lima?"

"eh.. betul lagi la mama. mama ni memang pandai matematiklah...."

-- ok. proud again...

"ok mama. ni soalan yang sangat susah. sangat-sangat susah tau mama. berapa tujuh ratus campur tujuh puluh?"

"tujuh ratus tujuh puluh?"

"alah mama ni.. macam mana mama kira?"

-- this time around, both made and me laughed out loud. we expected the question to be like tujuh ratus lima puluh lapan campur enam puluh sembilan or anything that would need me to take out the calculator.

hahaha...

budak ammar ni memang kelakar.


Monday, November 14, 2011

Onde-onde

Saya dah pandai buat onde-onde @ buah melaka. Clap! Clap! Clap!

Few years back, saya penah jugak buat. Tapiiiii..... Time buat tu saya memang ngek. Resepi suh letak jus pandan. Saya letak pewarna hijau. Sebabnya, saya macam blur bila baca jus pandan tu. Tak terfikir pun tang blend daun pandan untuk dapat jus. Duk fikir mana nak beli aje.. Sudahnya........ As predicted la kan.. Masuk hijau, kuar pun hijaula. Makan hari la jugak "hasil" hijau tu. Ngeri seh tengok toilet bowl waktu tu. Hahaha...

Bebaru ni, masa tokbaq meninggal tu, mak suh mintak daun pandan dari makcik pah. Ehhh... Takdela saya amik daun pandan dari bantal kepala tokbaq tuuu... Ada balance makcik pah bagi. Dua helai saya buat nasik lemak. Sambil duk pandang daun yang berhelai-helai lagi tu, teringat kat onde-onde. Ha... Itu yang menjadik tu..

Inilah onde-onde saya. Comel macam saya kan? Hehehe...~

Sunday, November 13, 2011

nekad!

planning in progress..

supports pouring in..

head held high..

mathematical projections..

implementation due in few months..

doakan saya!!!!

amin..

Friday, November 11, 2011

tokbaq

tokbaq passed away peacefully yesterday afternoon.

i didn't realize along's calls and made's phone was at home. i got the message at about 1pm as i reached for my phone to pick up adam from school. blunder!

alhamdulillah, we were given enough time to pay respect, recite do'a and look at his dearly face for the last time.

tokbaq is mak's father.

tokbaq and nenek lives in puchong. they moved from dungun couple of years ago. that morning, hakimi took care of them before left for school. then came nadhirah. tokbaq had a fall in the toilet that made nadhirah called her big brother, hafeezhat. on his lap that tokbaq had had his last breath. alhamdulillah, hafeezhat managed to quide tokbaq recited his last kalimah syahadah.

tokbaq was laid to rest after asar.

it was completely a family affair. i praise Allah for His gift to my dear family.

moga arwah tokbaq dicucuri rahmat dan tenang disisiNya. amin

al-fatihah


Saturday, November 05, 2011

First of everything

First day for adam attending his art/drawing and swimming class. He is loving it!!

First day for mama making vanilla cupcakes with choc ganache on top. Nak buat choc melt tak sure macam mana.. Hehehe..

First er... Pre-first lah kot(?) for alesya with ayah in the swimming class too. Next week baru consider first class, kata instructor.

Wohooo....

You know what I like about Adam when he enjoys something? He'll smile while doing it.. It has been half an hour of his class, and he is still smiling.

Friday, November 04, 2011

Frust lah..

"mama, saya dapat nombor 18"

Not bad..

"mama, next year saya 2 cempaka"

Alah......

Patut ke rasa frust?

Ni yang nak sangat duk umah ni....

Anyway, i havent received the report card. Tengok la peratusan dia macam mana nanti. If there's increment, he's in a good boat. Otherwise, kena study hard sikitlah next year.

Thursday, November 03, 2011

Masih menunggu

Saya nak duk umah la.. Jaga anak, kemas-kemas, bake dengan senang hati. Teringin benar dah ni... Kalah orang pregnant mengidam eh?

Tapi monthly expenses tu tak contra lagi. Camno tu.. Plan dah cantek. Tapi ada aje yang melintang. Haih! Nak air fryer la, vacuum cleaner la, nak bikin rumahla. Macam-macam hajat kalau ikut hati ni tau.

Tadi sembang dengan mak. She plans to being uwan to KL. Saya pulak yang excited dengar. Berdetik jugak dalam hati, kalau saya ada kat umah, boleh la saya nak bawak uwan and/or ma duk umah saya seminggu dua. Sekarang ni, sapa pulak nak jaga makan minum dia. Kami anak beranak pun makan mana sempat aje. Takan nak layan nenek dengan mak mertua gitu kot. Jatuhla saham. Hahahaha...

Last month punya baking project, alhamdulillah - nampak progress. Kena perdalam ilmu lagi ni. I've put aside the money that i got from my baking. Bukanla profit. Tapi bila tengok account tu, tersenyum la jugak tengok hasil tangan sendiri.

Tengoklah.. Insya Allah ada rezeki dan berkat doa, makbul la jugak permintaan saya ni kot..

Amin....

Tuesday, November 01, 2011

dah jumpa handphone!!

alhamdulillah..

ce teka kat mana?

dibawah buku ini.

ce baca tajuk dia... sesuwaiiii kan????!!!

Monday, October 31, 2011

what a DAY!

i woke up at 5.47am and i slept again, and woke up again at 6.10am.

then i couldn't find my handphone. at the side of my bed, under the pillow, in the kitchen, anywhere. i even tried to call, but the line was unavailable. so my mind started to unwind.

we spent our evening in kak ti's house. i sent and received sms. i recall receiving latest sms in the car, on our way back home. that was because alesya alerted me, "mama.. mama.. mama" and refused to stop until i checked on my phone. i remember got down from the car, trying to locate where had the kucing berak this time because the bau was soooooo busuk. i remember looking back at the car. i know i didn't drop my handphone. i got in, and i reached for magazines while laying on the bed. i didn't want to access to my FB as i know i'll be carried away. then i slept with alesya.

ok. that was so far that i can recall on my handphone.

my morning continued. i got into the car with adam's phone. i asked made to send budak-budak punya bakul later as i was running short of time. i reached opah's house, i passed alesya to her, i started my car again, and suddenly the indicator started to made noise and showed "coolant level too low". aik?? semalam dah isi air. aiyo.. i drove with the temperature of the car suddenly hiked to 90 and the blinking next to it didn't go off. i called made. he wanted to come over, but i told him, i'll ask hairul to look after it. Now, kereta la pulak...

i reached my destination and my mind was still on the phone. where could it be? i remember looking at the phone and i saw the battery has 44% to dead end. so i should have enough until i recharge it in the office the next day. but how come it was off? made called kak ti, and she said there was no sign of my phone. alah...

hairul called me and said he's free to check on the car. so we went. i showed him the indicator and the blink-blink i had. next 15 minutes, we spent on trying to find the unlock button for the bonnet!!! siap bukak car manual book okeh?!! so you out there.. 101 lesson is to find your car front bonnet's button. do not assume everything is under the pilot's chair or on the dashboard. from the manual we learnt that my car's bonnet button is at the co-pilot's door. hebat! hebat! kereta perancis ni memang hebat!!!! as hairul trying to open the bonnet, he saw a cap. a cap to what, everybody? YES!!! the cap for the coolant. my dearest husband has forgotten to cap it back after he poured half a bottle of spritzer mineral water into the coolant bottle (or whatever it may be called)yesterday. at this point, i tell you; i'm half exhausted thinking of what's going to happen next. but syukran jazeelan that we found the cap and the coolant indicator did not make any noise when i drove off to pick up adam.

later, i was late to pick up adam. there was an accident along ulu kelang highway and one stupid honda drove at 30km/h on the fast lane. ntah apa yang dia syok sangat bawak keta sebegitu lembab di kala orang nak cepat ni. i arrived adam's school about 10 minutes later than my usual time. adam's first question was "mama.. why were you late?". no appropriate answer for now. then he showed me his next two results. english dapat A. bahasa arab dapat B. ok. there goes his chance in getting and iPad. he was frustrated. sian anak mama.. well... as i was speaking to made just now, we probably will still buy him an iPad kot. kesian dekat dia duduk kat rumah opah tu takde entertainment. kalau ada budak sama baya tak pelah jugak. anyhow, we'll think more about it.

started my second half for my with a call from a colleague asking me to check on the tax payment that i made for the sub teachers back in june, july this year. apparently there was a hick up and we might have to pay penalty. adoh!!!!!!!! i didn't look at the files immediately. and i hoping for the payment had be made and there was a mistake in the account. nak mengadap bos lagi.. at that moment, i lost count of my adoi already!

thought on handphone came again. sayangnya gambar-gambar alesya and adam... mmmmm....

then i received a phone call. that time, i was.. "ok.. apa lagi ni?" this colleague is submitting the teacher's absence list. despite emailing it to me, she asked the dispatch to hand carry and told me that the signed copy will reach me on wednesday. i told her, an email will do. after the boss has signed it, then only she can pass the listing the me, in hard copy. her argument was "nanti u nak tengok hardcopy". haloo! how stupid can you be? i cannot print from the email lah?? ahhhh fine.. suka hati kaulah!!

i did this and that, then i thought, might as well check the tax file now and report it to my boss. i checked and double checked and i was at fault. ya allah! beratnya dugaan untuk hari ni. i was trying to find the courage to talk to my boss when she told me that she has a closed door meeting and please do not disturb. and i saw the meeting attendees, i could sense her tense! alamak...... till the end of my working hours, i was not able to catch her. she was still in a tensed meeting as i walked out of the office door.

the traffic was building up in front of the school so i took jalan belakang and exit at the china embassy. i made a u-turn and yes, i know the lampu was red. and this honda (or toyota) memula macam nak bagi masuk, tak alih lepas tu nak marah-marah and showed me the red light. kecohlah lu apek!!! lu nak jalan, jalan ajelahhhhhh.. lu pun potong jalan orang lain, nak cakap banyak. ok. panas hati part ke... mmmm.. berapa ntah..

arrived melawati to send alin's parcel. singgah the stationery shop to get the bubble envelope. first budak kedai tu tak paham apa menda bubble envelope. second, i requested for the right size to fit in the kotak, dia boleh mendengus pulak. alahai dek....... i've had enough dah ni dek....

now, address dapat, poskod pulak takde. so i thought, the people in the post office would be able to assist. after all, they are working in the POST OFFICE kan? i got to pinjam the manual poskod book, carik punya carik, takde pulak jalan dr. nazrin shah. hish! i asked the guy at the poslaju counter, "saya carik poskod jalan dr. nazrin shah, takde. can u help me?".

"saya boleh carik poskod aje kak, nama jalan saya tak tau"

"yelah.. saya ada nama jalan. she's staying at the impiana hotel. but i do not have her postcode"

"call la dia"

"she didn't know neither. she is not a local"

"saya tak boleh tolonglah kak"

bodoh eh? rasa nak lempang aje budak itu. bukan ko keje kat POST OFFICE? bukan ko boleh check online ke?

pemalas!

so i made the decision as i said "she needs the parcel urgently, you tell me what postcode do you want me to fill in?"

"akak letak ajelah 30000"

see..... seeeeeee...... he can give me a number. and as i glanced back at the postcode book, perak punya poskod starts with 30xxx. so he basically has an idea and he could have suggested to me rather than boiled up the angry birds inside me. kan??? ok............. the charge was rm7.30. i gave him rm50. i heard the "huh". i have the precise rm7.30, but for that guy, lantak kau lah!

i picked up the kids. oh! lupa nak cerita. lepas pick up adam from school tadi, dia mengadu gigi sakit. gigi is up to cabut already. and 2 gigi. hahaha..

parked kereta. masuk rumah. lock everything. started the washing machine. then i told adam, "can you look after adik for me? i want to search for my phone".

"ok mama.. i'll help you"

first, the nearest pillow. raba-raba. takde.

second, the side of the bed. again. handphone takde. rm100 ada. duit si ad la kot. ok. rezeki.

third, i saw cecelia ahern's story book. my thought - bila pulak aku baca buku ni. i lifted it up and.....

tadaaaaaaa

my phone!!!!!

alhamdulillah!!!!

now i'm hungry. baru perasan makan roti aje pagi tadi. letih memikirkan nasib badan. ok. now nak makan, mandi, solat, bersyukur + berdoa panjang sikit hari ni, and tido.

now, i am COMPLETELY exhausted..



u think my day has settled?

no!!!!!

as i finished typing, published my post, getting ready to step into the toilet. azan maghrib berkumandang. and i have not solat asar!!!

ok.. i want my bantal, and i want to sleep. i dont want anything to happen on october 31, 2011 anymore. nope. nope. i'm done.

i want to sleep

but i'm hungry.

aloh....

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

i'm soooooooooooooo into baking

dont ask me to cook. i'm not a good cook. siang ikan pun saya tak reti. potong bawang ok sikit. nama ikan fel. saya tak pandai letak garam dalam masakan. and the list will go on and on..

but i love to bake. depends ada masa atau takde aje.. most of the time, ada aje masa tu. hahaha..

hari ni saya sangat-sangat suka hati sebab saya dah pandai (sikit) smooth kan icing on the cake. jenuh tengok youtube dan baca tips sana sini. alhamdulillah...

ha.. tengoklah..


cantikkan? hahahahha...

because of this baking interest, made bagi saya kata dua. nak jual tupperware atau nak jual cake. so, as you can see... i'm no longer selling tupperware. kalo nak kek dalam tupperware boleh... hehehe..

jemputlah ke byannerafei.com untuk maklumat lanjut.



Tuesday, October 25, 2011

standby mode




hari ni dapat lagi exam papers adam. another 2 As in hand. another 2 papers to go..

now, mama & ayah kena standby pecah tabung ayam.

wohooooooo......



Monday, October 24, 2011

Two As

Adam excitedly showed me his exam papers as soon as he got into the car today.

2As as at today and he's in the running of an iPad. Yay!!

Adam asked me just now, "Mama, if I have all A's but only one B, how?"

"You get two rotans"

"Even if I have all other A's?"

"Aup"

"Alah..... If I have all F?"

"You'll be sleeping in the toilet"

"Alah.. Worst!"

Hahaha...

kuat beno gamaknya bunyi kipas kat umah saya eh.... hehehe

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Opah bercerita...

Baru-baru ni Opah bercerita pasal ada mamat naik motor cuba nak mencuri barang depan umah dia di tengahari buta. Mujur budak-budak ni nampak and alerted her.

Lepas tu, dia cerita pulak pasal neighbour dia yang kena rompak waktu hujan lebat. Jiran dia tengah bukak pagar, datang orang tanya alamat. Rupa-rupanya orang tu nak merompak.

Lepas tu dia sambung lagi cerita ada orang curi kereta anak saudara neighbour dia yang datang beraya. Pagi dalam pukul 2, dia perasan beberapa orang tolak kereta anak sedara tu, tapi dia tak dela fikir apa-apa. Besoknya, baru dia tau cerita..

Sekarang saya ketakutan. Berdebar-debar sentiasa bila balik dari keje.

Yang mereka ni pun, apa yang seronok sangat mencuri dan merompak tu? Dahlah menyusahkan orang. Tambah dosa lagi. Hishhhhh!!!!!

Tapi heran eh... Used car berlambak-lambak tu, tanak pulak dia curi. Kenderaan yang orang nak pakai tu la yang dia nak aim.

Ya Allah! Mintak dijauhkanlah daripada dugaan yang sebegini. Amin..

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Len macam

Eh... Snooze button dah lain??

Eh... Bila pulak ada download reminder dengan video application ni??

Eh... Apasal gamba jadik macam besar aje ni?

Eh... Mana pegi facebook??

Oooohhhhhhhh!!!!! Sudah upgrade iOs5.

Hehehe...

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

it's a deal!

Mama: if you got all A's in your final exam, we'll buy you an iPad

Adam: alahhhh.... What if I have 1 B?

Mama: then you get only the iPhone cover

Adam: alah! Only? If 2 B's?

Mama: i'll bring you to the chicken rice shop

Adam: yay!! I like it


Alamak! Salah offer la pulakkk...


Monday, October 17, 2011

she's my mother too..


We spent last weekend in the Gleneagles Resort Medical Centre. Kids are getting better and now mama pulak terbatuk-batuk. They were admitted since Thursday after having fever for quite a while. Doc believed they were having the same viral fever but were attacked differently. Adam on his lung and Alesya on her big round tummy. Hehe..

We were ready to pack up and go home when I suddenly had a text message:

my mom dah x de

A simple text and yet the impact was hard. It was from Ayu, a good friend from my primary years.

The memory started to reminisce.

She, knew I like soto. And will without fail had me on her mind whenever she has a pot of soto on her kitchen top.

She, cared about me and she knew where had I been, what had I been doing – without seeing me for a while.

She, is Ayu’s mother.

Makcik passed away peacefully yesterday at about 3pm dan telah selamat dikebumikan selepas Maghrib semalam juga.

Now, I feel ralat sebab, this year; somehow I didn’t go to her house for hari raya. Her house is a must in our Hari Raya visiting list. Tapi entah.. Kenapa tak sampai… Bukannya jauh pun.

Ralat jugak sebab every now and then, bila balik dari AEON or whenever I pass through her house, I had the thought of visiting her, but yet.. I kept on procrastinating.

And yesterday, I did visit her, but when I can no longer salam and bergurau senda. I can no longer have a taste of her cooking. I can no longer feel her warmth and motherly cares.

I am missing Makcik already L

Ayu, whenever you’re reading this, it’s not you alone dear… I lost a mother; she is like my mother too…

You take care Ayu, dear..

And Makcik, semoga Allah tempatkan Makcik di sisiNya dan di tempatkan bersama mereka yang disayangiNya. Amin. Al-fatihah

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

kenapa tak doa panjang jodoh?


ada orang tanya soalan gitu lepas saya post jodoh kita. macam mana nak kata eh... mmm.. ginilah ye...

dulu masa saya bercinta dengan first love saya, kami kejap putus, kejap sambung. masa tu, saya selalu doa minta panjangkan jodoh saya dengan dia. sebab first love ma... mestilah sayang lebih... lepas putus cinta pun, dia masih baik dengan saya. dia masih ambil berat pasal saya. dia berbangga dengan kawan-kawan, malahan dengan isterinya juga; yang saya ni first love dia. bangga kan? tapi kami tak penah berpeluang to build up another relationship. bila lihat kehidupan dia sekarang, saya rasa bersyukur dengan ketentuan Illahi. dia aktif berpersatuan, merokok (maaf kata), selalu beraktiviti dengan kawan-kawan. saya ni pulak pasif dan manja. saya tak rasa saya boleh coop dengan lifestyle yang macam tu. so i made a conclusion. Allah dengar permintaan saya. Dia panjangkan jodohkan saya, tapi saya takkan dapat bersatu dengan dia tapi persahabatan saya dengan dia masih berkekalan.

ok. settle satu kisah.

lepas tu saya bercinta dengan bekas tunang saya. ok.. in between adalah lelaki lain ok.. tapi macam cinta monyet gitulah... ala.. macam la you all takde... elehhhh... :P

saya bercinta dengan dia 5 tahun. dah bertunang bagai. tapi tak juga sampai berkahwin. sama juga dengan first love tadi, saya selalu berdoa panjangkanlah jodoh saya dengan dia ni. kami pernah putus sekejap dan keadaan saya adalah horrible. berkat doa, dia kembali tapi, saya rasa tak serasi lagi. kami berusaha, tapi tak menjadi juga. sekali lagi, pelamin anganku musnah. saya rasa ada juga kebaikannya untuk kami tidak bersama. sebabnya? er.. biar ajelah saya yang tahu. hehehehe.. berbanding first love saya, yang ni ketegaq, hati batu sikit. tak nak berhubung langsung. marah benar la agaknya kat saya. tapi takdir Tuhan tu menjadikan teknologi sebagai mode of communication. apa orang sekarang panggil? facebook? ha.. itulah dia...

so when i met made, saya rasa takut nak berdoa panjangkan jodoh saya dengan dia. mula-mula ada jugak. lepas kawin, saya fikir.. jodoh ni ketentuan Yang Maha Esa. jika kataNya habis, putuslah kita. apa yang penting untuk saya adalah rumahtangga yang dirahmati dan diberkatiNya. apa yang saya mahu adalah kesejahteraan dan kebahagiaan rumahtangga saya. saya rasa itu lebih penting. kan?

this is my thought, my personal thought; Allah dengar setiap permintaan hambaNya. jadi bila saya berdoa minta dipanjangkan jodoh, Dia makbulkan. tapi kita hanya merancang, Dia yang menentukan. Dia panjangkan jodoh saya, tapi at the same time, Dia menduga saya. in a way, wanting to tell me, "jodoh itu pilihan saya dan adalah doa saya, tapi bukan yang terbaik untuk saya". jadi Dia berikan saya pilihan. dan saya yang menentukan pilihan saya.

pendapat saya mungkin tak sama dengan you all. i appreciate the feedback and i value the advise that was sent in. rasa sangat disayangi gitu..

Monday, October 10, 2011

Terjemahan versi Adam

"Mama, next week I have kepujian"

"Hah?!! Kepujian tu apa?"

"Kepujian lah. Examination"

"Oh!!! Ujianlah...."




Sunday, October 09, 2011

Mak is 58!

Semalam birthday mak. Hari Jumaat confirm sudah mak retire. Bengang aje dia bila PM announced retirement age naik 60 tahun. Hehehehe...

Takpelah mak... Nanti boleh duduk umah jaga cucu eh? Boleh gaduh-gaduh manja dengan bapak. Okeh? Hahaha...

Semalam takde la celebrate apa sangat. Bawak mak makan kat chicken rice shop aje. Hajat nak ke cozy. Tapi for sure la nanti cucu-cucu dia tak reti nak makan apa. Nak kata perut melayu, ok aje kalo makan mekdi. Mmm...

While we were there, at one point tu, mak nak ke watson. Saya temanlah. Nak dijadikan cerita, cashier tu bersembang pulak dengan kawan dia yang datang beli barang. Lepas tu entertain pulak customer yang datang lepas kami. Marahla ini orang sebelah saya. And she commented "kalau staff mak, siaplah kena ni". I couldnt bring myself to say anything. I wanted to tambah garam a bit. But another part of me said "mak ni lupa gamaknya dia dah takde staff". Hehe..

Or could she be in denial? Hahahahaha... Najib la niii.... Lambat sangat buat announcement.

Hahahaha...

Happy birthday mak!! Best wishes & many happy returns :D

As I was browsing my photo album in this phone I realized I did not have much pics of mak. So, hows this picture? Cantekkan mak saya? Hehehehe


Saturday, October 08, 2011

bercanda bersama adam & alesya

i was on leave yesterday as opah had to bring her daughter for a minor surgery. i didn't want to spend the day in the house. it'll be boring. so i brought them out. me alone and the kids. and i survived!! yay!!!!

both me and alesya went out at 11.45am to pick up adam from school. from there, we went ahead to klcc. adam wanted to buy toys. a'ah.. macam dah takde toys kat umah.. i told adam. if - we couldn't find any parking, we have to adjourn to another shopping mall. GE mall & ikea was listed. after 10 minutes we got a very nice parking. right in front of the entrance door at P2. horey!!!!

rupanya ada isetan members' sale. patutlah parking penuh! i told adam that i need to top up the touch and go card. then we can go round and round and wherever he wants to go. first stop was at the swatch shop. adam has been wanting to buy a watch. orang dah pandai tengok jam ni kan.. so i thought, oklah. after all, dia kena jugak ada jam some day. bought one watch for him then we went to marks & spenser to get some cookies. thinking that we arrived during lunch hour thus, most food restaurants would be full. true enough that we have to wait for another 40-45 minutes to get into chillis. so... toys-r-us we went. nothing in braunbuffel that interest me, though they were having a 50% sales after 3 years. nothing in mothercare too. except for the moist tissue that later i found another one hidden nicely in alesya's bag. we arrived chillis after 45 minutes. i thought the kids were hungry so i ordered such a huge meal. completely forgotten that they had 2 bags of cookies. adoi!

alesya was all wet. air botol sudah tumpah atas stroller. baju semua basah. lucky i brought an extra baju. tapi nak carik kids' changing room susahnya la.. ada satu aje kat concourse level. bertuah betul. nasib baik selesa. then off we go.. adam ada sekolah agama pulak lepas tu..

tadi dalam keta dah tukar baju nak ke klcc. now tukar baju nak ke sekolah agama pulak. best kan keta i? boleh jadik bilik salin baju lagi. hahah..

belum kuar parking klcc lagi, alesya dah tidur. alhamdulillah. tak meragam langsung. tak merengek. tak mintak dokong. makan elok aje. tak melompat-lompat. ok, lepas ni kita gi jalan-jalan lagi eh dik?

singgah tuttifruti, then to al-manar. sampai dah awal sangat. tapi budak adam sibuk nak turun. sebab apa? sebab dia nak bagitau kawan-kawan dia dia sampai awal. haha.. tapi sebenarnya dia nak show off jam baru dia. hahahahahaha.. bertuah betul!

soon after, aireil & kak an sampai. orang lain takde, so kami pegi lepak fullhouse, wangsa walk. minum-minum, kul 7pm baru balik.

begitulah kisah saya dan anak-anak di hari cuti saya. best jugak eh lepak dengan budak-budak ni. selagi tak buat hal ok lah. bila dia dah buat perangai tu, rasa nak kerat 14 je hati ni. hehehe..

Friday, October 07, 2011

jodoh kita


saya selalu bagitau made..

seandainya kami berpisah kerana putusnya jodoh kami, saya tidak mahu apa-apa daripadanya. cuma berikan saya anak-anak saya. itu saja harta paling berharga yang saya ada. saya tak halang andai dia ada jodoh yang lain. bagi saya, takde guna juga menghalang hati orang bila hati dia pada saya dah takde. saya penah ada di keadaan itu, satu masa dulu. jadi tak guna nak sakitkan beberapa hati untuk menyenangkan hati sendiri. dia boleh, insya Allah; dapat anak yang lain. saya cuma ada yang dua itu saja. biarlah yang dua itu saja jadi sebahagian pahit manis hidup saya.

seandainya kami berpisah kerana kehendak Ilahi, saya mahu dia cari pasangan yang lain yang MAMPU bukan sahaja menjaga dia, tapi juga MAMPU jaga permata hati saya yang dua itu. dan jika ada peluangnya, carilah yang kemampuannya berganda daripada saya. dua orang itu sahaja harta saya yang amanahkan untuk dia jaga.

dalam doa saya, saya jarang minta dipanjangkan jodoh saya dengan made. saya cuma berdoa agar rumahtangga kami dirahmati dan diberkati. dan semoga kebahagiaan dan kesejahteraan rumahtangga kami kekal ke akhir hayat.

amin...

Wednesday, October 05, 2011

Tanya sama pokok

"Mama.. Tomorrow I have an audition for choir. Teacher wants to select only 15 students. I volunteered"

"Good for you. What song are you going to sing?"

"Tanya sama pokok"

"Good! Let me hear you sing"

"I dont know"

"What do you mean you dont know?"

"Err.. I cannot remember the song"

"So, how are you going to sing the song tomorrow?"

"Errr.... I'm not so sure"

So, whats the use of technology, ye tak? I turned on youtube on my phone and had Adam listened to the song. And by the time I posted this, Adam is now perfecting his performance.

Way to go Adam!!

Tuesday, October 04, 2011

Monday, October 03, 2011

Mari belajar vocab dengan Alesya

Mama = mama

Ayah = yaya

Abang = ba

Atok = to

Nenek = nene

Susu = shushu

TV = bibi

Baby = bibi

Barney = bo

Belon = bo

Nasik = shi

Kencing = shi

Opah = pa

Kakak = kaka

Alesya = aaaa

Boboiboy = bobo

Habis = bi

Jatuh = toh


Sehingga update yang akan datang. Sekian, terima kasih :)

Sunday, October 02, 2011

Bon voyage Izyan

Izyan is my mok teh's daughter. Mok teh is my father's younger sister. Therefore, Izyan Zahirah is my cousin :)

Izyan is leaving for Mesir tomorrow. Continuing her studies in medic.

Yesterday, we had a kenduri doa selamat for Izyan's safe journey and the best of her stay.

Insya Allah, we'll see again in 6 years (or next year; if she comes back for hari raya).

All the best Yan. Gonna miss you.

Mmmm... Why am I teary? I guess the "feeling old" is creeping in oredi.. Haha!!

Friday, September 30, 2011

housewife proposal (version 1.0)


isteri: kalo i duk umah, kita tak payah pakai dua keta la eh?

suami: mm.. ok jugak

isteri: jimat sikit dok?

suami: ha'ah. ada la sikit

isteri: so, i boleh benti keje?

suami: of courselah no

isteri: alah.......


REJECT!

Thursday, September 29, 2011

life routine on a typical work day

5am - wake up, prepare breakfast for adam, washing dishes, clean up
(alternative: lipat kain, ironing)

6am - prepare myself to work (read: mandi)

7am - MUST start the car and out to Opah's house
(latest by 7:10am. otherwise, lepak dengan encik jem)

- reach office and start another routine schedule at work pulak

1pm - off to pick up adam from school
(12pm on Fridays)

- drop Adam at Opah's house then back to office and continue mundane office routine

4pm - pack my things and off I go
- pick up Adam & Alesya. (Adam goes to sekolah agama three days a week. So on those days, I'll be alone with Alesya)
-back at home, clean up, masak (eh.. menipu pulak rasa.. hehehe), start laundry, then dry it then fold, makan, celoteh dengan anak-anak & suami, etc, etc..

9pm - huarrghhh... zzzzz.....


boring pulak rasa.. kalo life as a housewife cenggana gamaknya?

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Adam wants me to stay at home

Because he doesn't have to go to Opah's house.

He wants to stay at home play so that he can play with his iphone. And he can watch tv.

Not that he can spend time with me.

Sedeh la gini.....

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Choice of words

From KDE, one day..

Mama: Adam, I think you have been swimming a lot lately

Adam: I love swimming, Mama. I really enjoy it

Mama: That's fine, sayang. But you always forget to apply the sun block on your skin. Like orang tua, like that

Adam: Eeeiiii... I'm not that old la

Mama: Then.. You always forget. Look at you now. Getting darker already

Adam: I'm not dark, Mama. I'm tanned. Just like Ayah.

Mama: Err.. Yeah! Tanned. Whatever. Make sure you apply sunblock next time.

Obviously Adam has better English vocabularies than I do. Huhu..

Monday, September 26, 2011

bila anak orang bertunang..

... Saya pulak terasa tua. Hahahaha...

Malam Sabtu tu, kami sekeluarga pegi engagement anak Kak An yang sulung, Alya. Meriah juga majlisnya. Anak perempuan sulung. Siap ada kambing golek ha..

Tengah-tengah majlis tu, tetiba perasaan ni macam berbaur-baur pulak. Rasa seronok ada, sayu pun ada. Dah tua ek?

Masa first time jumpa anak-anak Kak An rasa macam kerdilnya diriku ini. Hehe.. Anak-anak Kak An ni, boleh tahan sizenya. Umur pulak tak jauh beza dengan saya. Tu yang bila first time jumpa derang rasa tak puas hati je bila derang panggil "Aunty". Nak-nak si Adieb tu. Kehkehkeh..

Kak An punya kelam kelibut menyiap majlis, sampai terlupa nak amik hantaran dia daripada saya. Agaknya kot nanti time Adam sok macam mana pulak. Uishhh.. Mau berlari-lari tak cukup tanah mama Adam ni nanti.

Eh... Lupa nak perkenal.. Kak An ni mak kawan Adam kat sekolah. Kami ni rapat dari kindergarten. Sampai sekarang pun rapat lagi sebab Adam sekarang satu sekolah dengan Aireil. I was given an honour to do Alya's hantaran. Dua dulung okeh... Ce tengok idung saya.. Kembang kan? Hehehe..

Saturday, September 24, 2011

Bapak kuar TV

Adam call atok dia malam tadi. Saja nak ajak sembang. Atok kata dia nak kuar dengan kawan dia. Atok suruh Adam tengok TV pukul 10. Beriyalah si cucu ni pun, siap set alarm.

Tepat pukul 10, tercegatlah kami anak beranak depan TV tu. Tadaaaa..... Muka Atok betul-betul belakang pengacara. Immediately Mak kol. Lepas tu Mak Uteh hantar sms. Adam punyalah excited siap call Che Itam dia. Well... I pun apa kurang. Siap sms to relatives lain. Hahaha...

So, amacam? Femes tak Bapak I? Hahahaha


Thursday, September 22, 2011

mama's friend

Tadi Adam cite dia main kejar2 dengan kawan dia nama Aiman Najmi. Peh tu I cakap kat dia "Aiman's mother is my friend". Dia boleh kata "why everybody is your friend?". hahahahaha...

The other day when he was in SK Wangsa Melawati, I told him that I have a friend who is a teacher in his school. Time tu dia tak heran sebab my friend tu sesi petang. Jadi tak kenal dia.

Pastu, bila dia masuk SK Wangsa Jaya ni, the very next day, his classmate came to him and told him "mak saya kenal mak awak". Korek punya korek, rupanya mak that girl was my schoolmate kat SK Lembah Keramat. kehkehkeh..

Small world kan?

Mama Aiman Najmi tu takde la I kenal lagi pun. Kenal di alam maya ni aje lah. It's fun when all faces become familiar because of technology. Mesti you all pernah pandang orang and had a thought "mana aku jumpa dia ni eh?"

Kan? Jangan tipu..... Dosa.......

Hahaha...


Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Hidangan hari raya

We have just had our 1Malaysia Hari Raya at school today. The feeling was great especially with those sporting mat salleh that came down with baju melayu. Well.. Only one that I saw. But nevermind lah!

The food spread was delicious and great except for the satay that was not accompanied with the kuah kacang. Mmm.. Peanut is not allowed in school for health reason. Sigh!

A friend told me her story of hidangan hari raya that she had this year. She was invited for a hari raya do on the 5th day of Syawal and was all excited about it. She was all ready for rendang, lemang, soto and etc, but dissapointed to see only spaghetti and its beef sauce among other kuih raya.

I could share her dissapointment but on the other hand, most people (nowadays) are talking about dieting most of the time and who would eat the oily rendang, the full fat lemang and neither the filling lontong anymore. Correct, right? Furthermore, if you have 3 open houses in a day and if all three serve the same dishes, would you still enjoy your lemang and rendang at the third house? No, right? No matter how delicious the rendang is, you would skip and opt for kerepek in the balang. Kan? Ha... Jangan tipu tau..

Hari raya food are so rich and full filling. I'd opt for more modernized food like satay & catered food myself. Lemang, though it is highly associated with hari raya; is normally out of my list. Nasi impit is a 'yes' as it can be eaten with satay or soto or it can stand alone with its kuah kacang. So i have more options with one dish. Tak gitu?

Anyhow, I enjoyed myself today with 5 sticks of satay, 2 pcs of roti jala, a piece of dodol, a piece of chicken rendang and couple of chocolate cookies. Oh! And 2 glasses of coke.

There goes my diet!!!

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Tambi Adam

Adam saw his friend, Alaudin on our trip back from school. As usual, he likes to call Alaudin out loud and waves him bye-bye.

Thus today, nothing was irregular except that Alaudin called him back.

"Bye tambi", said Alaudin.

My silent immediate response was "kureng asam punya budak". And to my own surprise, I responded to Adam..

"Adam, do you know that Tambi means brother? Why does Alaudin call you brother?"

Adam was surprised.

"Really mama? Tambi is brother?"

"Yes. That's why you cannot simply call on people unless you know what it means."

"Oh! Actually Umar (another classmate) calls everybody tambi. I dont know why"

And I imagined Umar with the mamak style having roti canai banjir in his left hand and milo ais on the other hand. Haha...

I'm patting my shoulder with this improvement. I know if the same situation happened 5 years ago, I would have shouted to Alaudin.

Good job! Pat! Pat! Pat!

Monday, September 19, 2011

Budak-budak datang raya

Dah tak ramai kan skarang ni? Rasa tak meriah pulak.

Baru kejap tadi ni, ada tiga orang budak laki-laki datang nak beraya. Ntah mana la datangnya. Saya pulak rasa happy menyambut budak-budak tu. Tapi sebab baru balik keje, x larat pulak nak menghidang makanan, minuman bagai. Bagi duit raya ajelah..

Dulu best ek kalo jalan beraya. Sakan dengan baju raya, kasut raya bagai. Jalan pegi umah jiran-jiran. Masuk umah ntah sapa-sapa.

"Jomlah.. Aku kenal makcik ni".

Sudahnya ntah umah makcik mana kami pegi. Zaman budak-budak. Best betul.

Semalam pegi raya umah makcik, ada tetamu bawak anak dia yang kusyuk dengan iPad dia. Tak kelih kiri kanan langsung. Alahai... Budak-budak zaman sekarang beraya...

Come to think of it, umah jiran tetangga pun tak pegi lagi ni. Bagi kuih raya aje. Haha... Hampehhh.....

Sunday, September 18, 2011

Jalan-jalan raya

Kononnya hari ni nak raya umah kawan-kawan, sedara mara. End up sejam di SJMC. Sigh!

Takpelah... Dapatlah jugak sejam lebih sikit dgn kawan-kawan sekolah dulu. Bersyukur la daripada takde langsung. Mujur kenyang makan nasik lemak umah montok. Kalo tak, berlapo la sampai nak ke sudah hal si adam.

Sorryla ye kawan-kawan.... Takde rezeki nak manja2 ngan korang. Ntah bila nak dapat masanya.... Sedeh :(

Friday, September 16, 2011

Weekend activities

Again - we went swimming at KDE. And they are no longer allowing non-member to swim without an accompanying registered member. Dissapointing regulation when we decided to have it as a regular weekend activities with the kids, including Ammar.

So, what's next?

1) become a member?
We have thought about it before. We come here only to swim. It'll be a waste? Yes?

2) find alternative activities?
Kids will be watching tv. Made will either reading or surfing internet. I'd be.. mmm... sleeping? Hahaha

3) find alternative pool?
The portable pool we have at home is the size of a baby bath tub. That'll be out of the list. Hehe.. We dont live in a condo, so we do not have "our own pool". Anyone wants to have us every weekend? Hahahaha... Public pool? Can do la kan?

OR

Should we do a make over to the house and have a pool of our own?

Wooohoooooo!!!

Ok. Must do some thinking. Tata

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Sob! Sob!

Opah had dental appointment the other day, so I had to come home early with the kids.

Soon after we reached home, Adam left for sekolah agama with Aireil. Leaving Alesya and myself at home. Alone.

I brought home some works thinking that I have some spare time. As I was sorting the leave application forms, I noticed Alesya was tossing right-left-right-left; restless. I ignored. Then i heard soft sobbings. Alesya's.

I looked at her and my inner feeling told me to put my files away. I looked at her again, and Alesya was smiling in between her sobbings.

I felt so bad that I have ignored her. I'm so sorry my little angel. Mama sorry, ok Asya?

I vow not to bring home works anymore. Well.... I'll try. I should have enough 8 hours to settle my work. All I need is to stay focus on my works & plan my works ahead accordingly. And NO Facebook. Hahaha


Wow!!

Two (+ one) posts in a day.

One at 6:30am

One at 6:30pm

Coincidence?
Rajin terlampau?

Jakun - YES!! The exact word!

Hahahaha

ambition vs alesya

part i

adam: mama, i want to be a class monitor
mama: good for you. but why?
adam: because i can take cake of alesya
mama: you're such a good brother, adam


part ii

adam: mama, i want to be a teacher
mama: wow! that's good. but why?
adam: i can get alesya to be my class monitor. just like tok ma and ayah. furthermore, i can teach her abacus
mama: oh! ok! good thought..


part iii

adam: mama, i think i want to be a headmaster
mama: but i thought u want to be an astronaut? what happen to your other ambitions?
adam: i dont want anymore. because if i become an astronaut, i'll be away for 6 months. who's going to look after alesya then?
mama: **speechless + teary**

loving brother, eh?


Yo!

Mobile blogging yo!
Hebat yo!

Kalo lembab jugak update peh ni tak tau la yo!
Hahaha

Friday, July 29, 2011

baru is new


alhamdulillah. syukur pada Yang Maha Esa.

adam moved to a new school. he had never complained, so i take it as he likes it :D

made got a new job and moved on. he also had never complained, so i take it as the new job suits him well :D

i got a new gadget too. insya Allah it'll arrive this afternoon. can't complain much & yet. so till next year.... hehehehe..

alesya gets mmmm.. nothing yet. she has never complained too, so i take it as she couldn't be bother.

hahahaha

a non related pic :D

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

asik marah-marah



semalam I marah adam. sebab dia takut gelap. it was too early in the morning. and I was a bit too hard on him. kasihan adam :(

bila la angry level ni nak surut. i know i was hard on adam. i realize that. and there are times i realize it before i nak marah adam bersungguh-sungguh. tapi bila tengok adam, api amarah tu menjadik-jadik pulak. astaghfirullah..

sama macam I marah alesya itu hari. I failed to understand alesya tu tido awal. we were in JJ at 9pm and it was alesya's bed time, of courselah dia cranky kan? dang!!!!

I need to amend this. I need to be more calmer towards my two little treasures. I can only seek forgiveness from them. but I'll never know how would they feel inside. I can only see the scared eyes and I can only feel the pain, after they have been scolded & punished. And I know, I dont want this to prolong...

*sigh*

Friday, June 03, 2011

sweet betrayal

i feel betrayed
for the show i had performed
for the books i have written
for the answers i have searched
for the downs that i have put up with

i feel betrayed
when i know i shouldn't be
when i should have said "alhamdulillah"
when i should have been happy than not grateful at all
when i know u know what i know

i don't hope for you to feel how i feel
for you will not know
or least that you wanna care for
fake is the game you're playing
betrayal is the way i'm feeling

rational - please come forward
logical - please show yourself
common sense - please say something
faith - please keep me strong

it is hard when you have to put up a fake show and mime the song they are singing

oh! i hate this feeling!

Saturday, May 07, 2011

mak

mak,

tadi kita nak hantar happy mother's day wish kat mak. tapi tangan ni capai handphone peh tu post gamba adam pulak. ada aje alasan kan?

mak,

kita nak wish happy mother's day sebab kita jarang-jarang wish mak selamat pagi, assalamualaikum, selamat petang, good nite - sleep tight. tapi bila kita type "happy mak's day" or "selamat hari mak", macam tak best aje....

mak,

kita tau kita bukan feveret mak. sebab kita tak besar cam along. kaki kita tak sadak cam alin. tapi kita pandai buat kek. kek kita feveret mak kan?

mak,

kita tau kita selalu betah cakap mak. sebab mak pun selalu suka nak menang kalo cakap ngan kita. tapi mak suka talipon kita & bergosip kan mak kan?

mak,

kita tau kita kadang2 makan hati apa mak cakap. yelah.. kita kan bukan feveret mak. kita pandai buat kek aje... kita makan kek ajelah mak... penat sudah makan hati ni.... tak sedap pulak tu..

mak,

itu hari kan, kita kira gaji baru kita. kita nak bagi kat mak. tapi nanti mak sepah2kan.. kita masuk bank ajelah eh?

mak,

itu hari jugakkan, kita tengok kalendar. mak retire tahun ni mak eh? mak nak jaga alesya & adam tak? heheheheh...

mak,

kita tak penah cakap, bukan sebab kita tak penah sayang. kita sayang mak. sebab mak selalu buat benda yang kita tak expect. hantar 100 plus pagi2 masa kita demam. beli daging untuk buat rendang dengan kita. kol kita malam2 masa made takde. masakkan asam pedas untuk kita peh tu panggil kita makan sebab tau kita ni pemalas nak masak kat umah.

mak,

kita tak penah hantar kad kat mak sebab kita tak rasa kad tu akan luahkan rasa sayang kita kat mak. kita tau mak tau. kita tau mak tau kita sayang mak. macam mak, kita pun tak reti nak tunjuk kita sayang mak. tapi kita tau mak sayang kita. kita tau mak pun tau kita sayang mak.

mak,

walau kita tak penah sebut, kita tak penah tulis, kita tak penah luah, kita SAYANG kat mak. kita appreciate apa mak buat kat kita. dari kita kecik, sampai kita besar. dari kita hanya seketul daging sampai dah berketul2 daging dalam badan kita. dari kita hanya kecik senonet, sampai kita dah sebesar2 kita. dari kita baby, sampai kita ada baby.

mak,

andai kita selalu susahkan hati mak, kita mintak maaf

andai kita selalu buat mak runsing, kita mintak maaf

andai kita selalu lawan cakap mak, kita mintak maaf

andai kita selau buat mak marah, kita mintak maaf

mak,

kita sayang mak, lebih dari org lain sayang mak derang

kita sayang mak, lebih dari apa yg kita boleh tulis dalam kad

kita sayang mak, lebih dari apa yg kita boleh luahkan dalam sms & kata

kita sayang mak, sayang mak, sayang mak, sayang mak.

sekian,

kita bukan anak kesayangan mak. tapi kita sayangkan mak.

Sunday, March 20, 2011

walk for children 2011


10 fakta tentang gamba ini:

1) baru lepas walk for children kat dataran merdeka, organized by ISKL.

2) baru parking keta, org dah kat start line. belum sempat register & amik baju + nombor, rosmah dah sampai & flagged off. belum sempat suku perjalanan pergi, participants lain dah jalan balik. lintas jalan, join crowd balik dataran ajelah jawabnya...

3) reason utama patah balik: adam dah tak larat. asik sibuk "mama.. my leg hurt.. mama, i feel the pain". akan tetapiiiiii... bila dia main kat karnival tu, elok aje kaki tu kan? boleh lompat2 lagi ha....

4) alesya rilex aje dalam stroller.....

5) kasut yang mek pakai tu, dibeli sebelum beranakkan alesya lagi. kononnya niat nak berjogging. tapi sebab preggy then miscarriage then preggy lagi then keluarlah si alesya, itu lah baru first time pakai kasut tu.. nasib tak tertanggal lagi tapak daripada kasut. hehehe

6) ingat nak tunggu performance aizat. tapi baru performance dari tourism malaysia nak start, dah dapat instruction balik. tgk kat youtube ajelah sudahnya

7) adam kena cekik dek budak down sindrom dalam jumping castle. mujur tak lemas anak mek. tapi trauma jugaklah... trauma punnnnnnn......... main jugak lagi..

8) diwartakan ramai artis. haram sekor pun mek tak nampak. ada la nampak bayang2 lisa surihani. yg lain tu ntah... ke mek yang tak kenal artis? mmmm.... ada mungkin jugak tu...

9) baju derang kasik ni ada sikit jarang. so mek pakai baby-T kat dalam tu ha.. tapi...

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Sunday, March 13, 2011

bila adam berkata-kata




"mama... can we have a baby boy? i want to name him diego?"

"i thought the other day you want a baby girl?"

"yeahh.. but now i want a baby boy"

"but diego is not a malay name. not even a muslim name"

"what about my name?"

"your name is a muslim and a malay name. you know what adam.. if i have a baby boy, i'd like to name him aliff"

"aliff? like alif ba ta?"

"ha.. like that.. you like it?"

"no.. i like diego"

"but you cannot"

"what about scott?"

"that's not a malay name"

"kid taylor"

"nope"

"ultraman?"

"definitely NO"

"are you going to have another baby, mama?"

"er... no"

"oh ok.. i can name my baby then"


tolong! tolong! tolong!

Sunday, March 06, 2011

membeli sambil membelah credit card




tadi gi klcc. lamanya tak berjalan.... kalo tak kerana membership card tu, ada mungkin tak sampai jugak klcc tu, kot? but anyhow, dapat jugaklah zas credit card se-ehem-ehem jumlah untuk dua beradik ni. hehehehehe.. pantang betul masuk kedai yang satu ni. mesti ada aje benda yang nak dicapai.

kendiannya singgah GE mall pulak. bukan nak wat apa pun... adam ni asik sebut nak makan kat chicken rice shop. jadik, malehlah nak makan kat klcc tadi. 5 minit lepas makanan sampai, kami pun dah kekenyangan. kebulur gamaknya kan? hahahaha..

peh tu, sementara tunggu adam kat art class tu, kami pegi jejalan kejap. tak sangka termasuk pulak kedai yang last day sale ni ha. bergantung2 tag 50%, 60%, 70%. siap ada pengumuman additional 20% sebab dah last day sale lagi. uihhhh.... berseri2 aje muka. memula excited you.... peh tu rasa reserve pulak. mana taknya! asal pegang, tengok harga, takde yang kurang RM100. alahai... akan tetapi.... in the end beli jugak la beberapa helai shirt. hehehehehe... not bad la bargain dia. harga sebenar in total: RM800. i got it all for RM300. bolehlah kan?

meh nak cite kisah kat cashier counter.. sessi ngumpat ni.. hahaha...

bila mek sampai kat situ, ada la sorang makcik tengah nak wat bayaran. tunggu punya tunggu, bukannya dia nak bayar lagi. dia suh cashier tu check how much she has to pay for what she has selected. alahaiiiii... makcik ni pun.. nak check harga, check la kat bin baju tu tadi... harga punya terpampang ha.. mengada betul la. siap suh tanggalkan tag "70%" sebab takut laki dia nampak. hampeh... dengan laki pun nak berkira. hahahahaha.. peh tu kenen nak wrapping paper free pulak. adeh makcik ni...

kerana makcik ni, line org nak bayar dah panjang. sebelah mek ada dua orang bukan warganegara yg memekak aje keje dia. dah la memekak, tak menyabar pulak tu.. time cashier tu pulangkan balik credit card makcik bargain tu tadi, dia cepat2 hulur baju dia. ewahhh.. dia ingat mek ni pili bomba ke apa? cecantik muka.... mujur si cashier tu tolak baju dia ketepi and amik baju mek. kalo dak, memanglah den seligi aje makcik bukan warganegara ni.

kedai ni pun satu... dah tau sale time, expect crowd la. bila tengok crowd dah bertambah, bukak la cashier counter lagi satu. kan dah memekak lagi si bukan warganegara ni. bila dah kecoh2 baru nak bukak. peh tu nak panggil next payer pun, panggil la those next in line. kamu panggil orang belakang dia, memanglah si bukan warganegara ni bengang. alahai...

macam2 ragam orang membeli belah.

Thursday, March 03, 2011

fun with adam




it was all laugh & fun with adam today!

1)
adam got his math result. he was so excited showing me the exam paper just now.

"mama! i got A for my mathematic. i got two stars."

then with a confuse face he said "and i got number 87 and what is this mama?". he was referring to the percentage symbol.

"87 percent" i said

"yay! i'm nearer to the evil ultraman & god vent"

yeah! right... :P

2)

then he continued..

"oh mama! i tried to search for my songkok at home but i couldn't find. then i look-look, then i found this"

pull out a kopiah from his bag and he said "see mama.. TOPIAH. i'll be wearing topiah to sekolah agama"

"kopiah la adam.. apa topiah pulak"

"oh! it's like topi. so i thought it's a topiah"

hahaha

3)

then after talking to his father, he overheard made called his friend "Qari, jom!"

adam then said "fuyo mama.. ayah got a friend named QORIJO. hebatkan mama?"

i guess he's in his excited mode. so nama yg tak de berkaitan apa pun, jadik hebat untuk dia.

hahaha

macam2 budak adam ni..


adam sayang... no matter how good or bad your result is, mama will always proud of you.

Sunday, February 27, 2011

exam


adam nak exam next week!!!

gelabah! gelabah! gelabah!!!!

bukannya anak. mak yang gelabah lelebih. hahaha..

bukan exam apa pun.. ujian formatif saja. tapi perasaan cam excited aje. :P

when adam was in KG2 (5 years old), i got a bit frantic when seeing adam's results were not as much i had been hoping for. and you knowla... bila mak2 lain mula bertanya, hati ni pun mula la rasa emosi tak tentu pasal. then i started to realize:

"anak den baru LIMA TAHUN la..."

then only i started to calm down. whenever exams' period, i no longer put pressure on adam. at the end of KG3, i was proud (and still i am) that adam did his very best in his exam. he scored well. he did well. that's all i want.

all i want is for adam not to become discouraged should he be having any failures. i dont want him to feel ashamed of his results. all i want is for adam to do his very best in every exam. i dont want to hope for a 100% results. i want his best. the best of adam.

now that he's placed among the best in his school, i am all bersyukur. alhamdulillah..

semalam ntah kul baper dia tido, bangun pagi ni umah bersepah dengan polisterin, gunting, kertas, gam, etc. nampaklah ada tabung, kapal terbang, ultraman yang dah ditambah sayap, kapal selam & yacht. ntah apa aje yang dia buat dengan ayah dia semalam.

adam!!!!! kemassssssssss!!!!!!!