paranoid?

somebody called made yesterday on our house phone. lebih kurang ginilah conversationnya:

caller: encik ramadhan, saya ali hensem (bukan nama sebenar) dari syarikat elektrik ali hensem (juga bukan nama syarikat yang sebenar). encik ramadhan ada air-cond kan?

made: ada. tapi kami tak pakai pun. air-cond dah ada sejak beli umah ni

caller: ok. terima kasih

kemusykilannya:

1) mana dia dapat nombor phone umah kami?

2) mana dia tau en. ramadhan adalah empunya nombor phone yg dia dial tu?

3) kalo iye pun dia ada nombor phone umah dan dia kenal made, mana dia tau umah ni ada air-cond?

sebabnya air-cond ni memang dah ada time kami beli umah. come in the house package. kami tak penah panggil sapa-sapa datang servis. senang kata, tak penah buat apa-apa pun dengan air-cond ni. buat perhiasan semata. penah switched "on" pun tak lebih 3 kali. suis dia pun macam suis zaman atuk adam - switch box besar with the green & red button.

marketing call?
prank call?
crime call?

yes, i may have irrational fear. with the current crime condition, i fear almost everything. bai jual roti pun aku takut.

"don't worry mama. i'll smack them with this"

i'm tired..

mentally & physically affected..

1) workloads macam sungai kinabatangan

2) made & adam demam panas

3) my boss went for a holiday & i had to work when i'm suppose to be on SICK LEAVE

fak!
dablefak!

idiot!

i thought i can handle the situation. but one after another? too much la..

penat!

letih!

basah ketiak!

busuk!

"mama janganlah nangis. nanti saya nangis jugak"

gaya tido cucu atok rafei

cucu pertama: adam danial muhammad ramadhan

1) keadaan kena samar-samar gelap untuk dia minum susu. agaknya tak feel kalo minum susu time lampu pasang?

2) kena ada bantal bolster yang perlu dikongsi dengan mama. satu hujung, mama punya. lagi satu hujung adam punya

3) tangan lagi satu pegang patung "dog" ataupun "hippo".

4) baca al-fatihah sama-sama mama

5) kipas kena pasang. kalo demam pun kena pasang kipas. bukan satu, dua kipas, ok

6) selimut tak suka

7) sebelah kaki kena menyelinap bawah badan mama. tapi sejak ada katil baru, katil akan diselitkan di celah katil seperti gambarajah di bawah:

banyak xtvt adam ngan mama kan? of courselah...... mama tido tengah. ayah tepi dan boleh tido dengan lenanya.

cucu kedua: ahmad ammar farhan ahmad joehary (panjangnya nama budak nih)

susah nak bagi fakta pasal gaya tido cucu kedua ni. sebab jarang tido sekali. tapi rasanya dia macam main tido je janji ada puting kat mulut dia. macam gamba bawah ni. hehehehe.......

time ni balik dari aeon au2. dia berak sebenarnya. itu yg tamo duduk langsung. berdiri pun berdirilah. janji boleh tido. hahahah...

debaran porno berakhir

2nd december



we did our pregnancy test, and it showed positive result. happy! the nurse from dato' alex's clinic called to deliver the same message. i'm a few weeks pregnant. happy! happy!


5th december

i had some dark brown discharge this late morning. i called dato' alex and he asked me to see him before 3pm. i went there just in time to have him say "it maybe miscarriage. we'll do another blood test and we'll see from there". nervous!


6th december

dato' alex called to inform that my pregnancy is not progressing. oh!

i prayed hard. but i guess not hard enough to keep me strong. i prayed that if the baby is mine, i wish Allah will let him/her stay with me. but if the baby is not mine, i asked for some mercy to release me from this restless feeling..

Allah loves me. He showed His mercy..


7th december



i had fresh blood on my pad. immediately we went to gleneagles. the medical officer was not able to justify my condition and called for dato' alex. we went to dato' alex's clinic to have proper check up and, yup... the baby is not mine.


8th december



i did DNC and laparoscopy procedure for my pain on my right abdomen. i've been having that pain for quite some time.

Allah has given me a short-lived excitement for me to enjoy the "pregnancy" period. though it's too short, but long enough to love my dear lost baby..

thanks for all well wishes and i am really grateful for the thoughts from all of you.

bye-bye baby... mama loves you too..



room 366, ward 3b
7-10 december 2008

debaran porno

adakah usaha lakonan porno kami bakal membuahkan hasilnya?

jeng.. jeng.. jeng..

debaran awal menunjukkan tanda positif. tapi mungkinkah itu hanya simptom mengada-ngada pelakon wanita?

yang pasti debaran berdegup kencang

dug.. dag.. dug.. dag..

kita tunggu debaran akhir pada minggu hadapan :D

"mama.. i'm already four. i'm going to kindie next year.. i'm ready to be a big bully :P:"

mamma mia

made and i went to watch mamma mia after we had our executive screening (annual medical check up) the other day.

not bad. not bad at all.

it was funny watching pierce brosnan singing "SOS". and i didn't know he's hairy.. eeeiiuuuuwwww...

meryl streep was good.

i kept having vision of drew barrymore while watching amanda seyfried.

i dont quite understand why was one of the fathers turned gay. anybody?

best of all, friends are for life. ears to listen. eye to care. shoulder to cry on. muchas gracias, my friends. you know who you are :D

and did i tell you we watched the movie at the signatures? rm60/seat. pop corn was damn expensive. taste not so nice. but the chair can recline. provided with blanket & little pillow. makes we wonder, do they wash the blanket after it's been used? mm...yuck!



their toilets were so clean and so automated.



"Dont go wasting your emotion
Lay all your love on me
Dont go sharing your devotion
Lay all your love on me"