merdeka! merdeka! merdeka!

merdekakah kita?

ntah... persepsi masing-masing adalah subjektif.

those days, kalo merdeka day, bangun pagi tengok perbarisan. hari ni kul 9 baru celik mata. itu pun sebab adam dah "good morning mama! electric dah ada mama. kita dah tak panas lagi". kalo ayat dia cuma "morning mama!" confirm aku doze off balik. hahaha..

made pun takde di kala long weekend ni. jadiknya senyum sumbing ajela bangun pagi. keje ada sikit lagi. kang last minute la buat. macam biasa. hehehehe...

dari semalam asik layan lagu raya. rasa berkobar aje tahun ni nak buat kuih raya. alasan setiap tahun - oven takde. hehehe.. time ni jugaklah asik terkenang kuih raya uwan. mmm.. syahdu. kuih raya uwan takdelah semprit ke yg ber-colourful ke, atau yang bercokelat bagai. dia punya kuih2 lama aje. kuih bijan tu confirm ada. kuih bunga ros tu. kuih siput. macam2 kuih lah.. itu hari rasa nak nangis mengenangkan kuih ketayap. nak sangat makan kuih tu, tapi rasa ngek sangat nak buat tak reti. so i called mak uteh - my resort for recipes. and as she went on explaining the ingredients, she mentioned "you bancuh macam roti jala yang uwan buat tu". mmm.... kalo kata bancuh macam roti jala aje tak boleh agaknya.. kena mention jugak "macam uwan buat". that's how relativenya uwan and kuih serta makanan.

same goes to when made needs to fly off the other day. as it's his first overseas trip yg agak jauh, i intend to make some sambal ikan bilis so that he wont be kebulur over there. unfortunately, after few trials, i still cant make a good sambal ikan bilis. well... it was good for us to eat. but i guess it's not good enough for made to bring it over for his trip. so we called off the idea, and asked mak for her extra serunding instead. and again.... memories with uwan melambai2. when mak or bapak had to go for an overseas trip, uwan will definitely bertungkus lumus pegi chow kit to get some good ikan bilis to make her specialty, sambal ikan bilis goreng. and inilah bekalan yg mak dengan bapak selalu bawak selain maggi.

back to merdeka.. uwan is a true supporter of UMNO. to me regardless of which political group you're in, or whatever view you've having; the most important thing is how synonym MALAYSIA is to you. regardless what "kind" you are, the virtue is how you'd like to value your own country. looking at uwan supporting UMNO has been a joy to me. flashing back the memories on how she made me complete the borang keahlian for all the UMNO members had been so much fun. banyak woooo.... satu kampung pandan punya keahlian. she didn't say much. she said what she felt she had to say. at times, bila pegi ceramah tu, dia tido. tapi tetiba aje dia bangun, bagi point dia. majik! that's my uwan.

the other day as we were clearing up her cupboard, i took one of her baju UMNO just to feel her patriotism and national spirit. tapi ntah bila nak pakai; muat ke tak pun tak tau jugak. paw tu penting (sebelum org lain paw dulu). hahahaha...

selamat berposa & memerdekakanlah diri anda sebelum org lain menjajah semula.

pic from: http://www.malaysianrecipes.co.uk

cita-cita saya

dulu time budak-budak, kalo sapa2 tanya nanti besar nak jadik apa, jawapan mesti standard.. nak jadik cikgu, tentera, polis, doktor. peh tu kat sekolah dulu ada profile student yg cikgu akan listkan apa cita-cita kita. my profile, confirm ada cikgu, doktor dengan tentera. kekonon time tu kagum la ngan keje bapak kan... peh tu time tu jugak cam tak tau apa menda nurse tu. yg menonjol pun doktor. so amik doktor. hebat tuuuu... tapi realitinya, saya nak jadik cashier. hahahahahah..

dulu-dulu la.. kalo ikut mak gi giant kat melawati, mesti saya duk kat depan kaunter cashier tu. mak masuk dalam kedai tu lama-lama pun tak pe sebab saya leka tengok mesin cashier tu. time dulu mana ada bar code. so, semua kena key-in. best sehhhh..

i've been a cashier. seronok giler. kira cite-cite saya sudah tercapai. alhamdulillah :D

sekarang saya ada cita-cita baru.. hehehehe.. saya nak jadik domestic engineer atau bahasa mudahnya, housewife.

kenapa eh? dulu kot org dengar awak tu housewife, automatically orang ingat awak time sekolah tanak belajar rajin-rajin. sebab tulah sudahnya duk dapur ngan jaga anak aje. tapi skang ni, rata-rata yg jadik housewife pun educated beb... belajar setinggi awan pun ada. malas nak keje je. hahahaha...

skang ni saya bukan dalam kategori malas nak keje. i love my job. i still have passion in working. bukan rasa diri dah tua.. tapi rasa nak fokus on anak-anak. aicehhh.. dah sebut anak2 tuuu... i think, i have missed some part of adam's growing up moments. the other day i teased him and he cried out loud. and i just let him cry as i know one day, i'll never get to see his crying. i wouldn't be able to tease him and he'll never cry before me, anymore...

tengok adam dah pandai mengira, mengeja, i couldn't hide the feeling - i'm a proud mom. but deep inside me, i felt i'm a loser. i didn't teach adam how to count. i help adam to count. the teacher taught adam. i didn't teach adam how to read. teacher shanti has the patience, i dont.

but of course, if i were to be a housewife, i still want my current salary + allowance and annual leaves. hahahaha.. dah macam laki aku keje tokey kedai emas 916. hahahahahah

takpelah.. for the moment, i'll just let the mind do the berangan thingy :D

happy birthday sayang

today is another manic monday. but it's a special day :D

it's my darling hubby's 32nd birthday.. dah tua. nak celebrate ape sangat kan? sendiri beli kek la kan bang? ngehngehngeh..

my other half is a man of few words. and i'm the opposite. that's what stick us together. my thirty-words would be his three-words, if i have such luck that day. worst would be, "aaa". nak tengok dia cakap banyak, tunggu "gu-gu" dia berkumpul. but still la.. from observation, dia jadik tukang gelak and tukang tambah.

he ain't look like my fav bon jovi. neither that he's like sexy robbie william. not that he looks like zac efron. salih yakob, i used to refer him to; and he's all i want :D

and this man who have been standing strong beside me for more than 6 years had once told me,
"we learn to forgive and forget because we are not going to live forever. if we do, we dont live for ourselves. we live for our kids. look for a brighter day, and dont look back".

i couldn't and wouldn't ask for more. he's all i need and i'm here to wish him, happy birthday, sayang.

i'm not a good singer, so i cannot sing him a nice happy birthday song.
i'm not a good writer, so i cannot write some nice poem for your birthday.
i'm not a good artist, so i cannot draw a nice picture for your happy day.
i'm just the way i am. and i am still whom you have known before. and here i am, sharing your happiness on your celebration day.
mintak sikit kek tu ye bang.... tak baik kudukut.....

untukmu sayang, kupersembahkan lagu cinta kegemaranmu...

kisah di satu petang

adam was napping and i have to tell you that to get adam to take his afternoon nap is a painstaking job. as i was about to nap as well, tetiba terdengar "pukimak ko, yada.. yada.. yada..". and i was, "hei budak2 skang ni....." and tried to nap again.

then i heard chaos. and i thought "ah sudah.. bergaduh pulak budak2 ni...". so i looked out of my window. tak nampak pulak apa2. tengok arah padang pun takde apa. tengok kanan tak de nampak apa sebab diblocked dengan kain baju dan umah makcik pah. so i went to the living room. i still hear the chaos. dari tingkap living room to baru la nampak umah hujung tu bergaduh, anak beranak - it seems. after a while, they went silent, adam woke up and gua panas hati! anak aku baru nak tido tak sampai sengah jam dah terjaga..

you know what i was planning to do?

i wanted to siap2 cantik-cantik, comey-comey then marched to the said house sambil bawak kosi kecik and take posisi cantik depan umah org gaduh tu. for sure one person will say "ni apa duduk sini ni? balik!! jangan campur urusan keluarga. tak ada kaitan dengan kau"

and i'd reply "memangla takde kaitan. tapi kalo kamu pun cakap sampai kami yang selang lima buah umah ni pun boleh dengar; sampai anak saya pun boleh bangun tido, itu dah macam memang nak suruh kami amik tau. alang2 saya kat sana dengar sayup-sayup je, baik saya duk sini. loud and clear ha....."

what do you think will be their action?

1) akur dengan kesilapan mereka, minta maaf dan berpelukan sesama sendiri lantas masuk ke rumah

2) meneruskan perbalahan antara mereka dan tidak menghiraukan saya kat depan pagar tu

3) mengambil microphone dan berbalah lagi supaya satu taman pulak boleh dengar

4) they stop arguing among themselves and start to kejar me with the parang

mmm.. i think option 4 is the best :D

anyways.. adam terjaga bukan sebab commotion tu pun. dia terjaga sebab mama terlepas pintu so the pintu banged aloud. takde kaitan pun dengan org gaduh2. hehehehe

ceritalah lagi

the past few weeks + months we've seen quite a number of deaths of celebrities. my condolences to their families. this made me think.. kot2 time aku dah sampai in a few days time, would i be ready? would my family be ready? sapa la nak bayar belen kredit kad yg menimbun tu? huhuhu.. adoiii... keciknya rasa diri ni...

pregnancy going well. last check up, doc kata we may be expecting a girl. yiha! yiha! one thought, mama is going to be a shopaholic (again). on another thought, kena pikir in 10 years time, umah ni nak kena re-build ke tuan rumah nak kena berpindah sarang. mmm... hard decision tu. money! money! ongkos! ongkos! kot2 i buat "dana suhanna" ada sapa2 nak menderma tak? heheheeh...

adam dah setat sekolah this week. mama is back with her pick-up duty. adam is getting better with his math. "six on my head, two on my hands. six, seven, eight. eight mama!" well done, my son!! so skang, keje dia main monopoly. without all the leasing cards, only dadu and buah penanda tu. mainlah dia hari2. peh tu asik main lompat2 atas katil dengan kosi. ntah apa yg best sangat main lompat2 tu. kadang2 geram betul tengokkan. tapi dah budak laki kan.. biarlah dia.. tak kosa dah nak melarang.

made will be traveling soon. bulan posa pulak tu. nak merasa berpuasa sebagai perantau la kononnya tu. elehhhhh.. and since he knew gender of the baby, he's been searching for girl's name on the net. so sapa2 nak bagi suggestion tu, sila la buat usul anda kepada encik ramadhan.

selamat berpuasa semua.. semoga puasa kita diterima & amalan kita diberkati. insya Allah..