report to work: day one

it's soooooo hard not to think about alesya! sob! sob! sob!

alarm went off at 5:30am. tangan ni laju je tekan snooze button. i thought i should wait for another 10-15 minutes to wake up. then i thought, "nooo.. i can't be late on my first day". so i woke up. i made breakfast for both me and madē - a simple nasik goreng. then i turned on the washing machine. then i prepared adam's water bottle. then i prepared this and that. then.. i'm ready to go. efisien kan? mm.. ntah² hari pertama aje.. hehehe...

alesya was so quiet this morning. as though she knew that i'm back to work and she should not show her tantrum. dalam keta, dia dengar aje saya membebel. bukan bebel apa pun... saya dok cite kat dia apa yang saya nampak while driving. ada burung. ada org pegi sekolah. ada keta bodo... hahahaha.. sampai aje umah opah (the new babysitter) hati ni macam.. alahai.... sayu pilunya lah...

"dearie alesya... if only mama could stay with you... sorry darling.. mama had to work. later mama can go shopping and buy some nice hair clips for you.. okie dokie sweet pie?"

traffic was rather ridiculous. biasalah kan.. it's part and parcel of living in kl. arrived iskl, my heart was pumping like i had just finished a 5km marathon. ntah apa yang berdebaunya. and i soon saw familiar faces. how nice... dan bermulala handover keje from my boss. kuar dari bilik boss, atas meja dah siap karipap kacang. hampeh betul derang ni. ingat meja saya counter makanan ke. dari pregnant sampai tadi, asik dapat makanan aje. murah rezeki betul. kalo aku gemuk balik, siap korang! hahahaha..

11:30am i went off to pick up adam from school. then to opah's house again. and alesya was there, waiting. when i had her in my arms, she was smiling. "sayang alesya.. mama sayang alesya. mama sayang alesya sangat²". rindu pulak kat budak kecik tembun ni. my worry was more on adam. takut dia tak selesa duk kat situ. lagipun geng dia takde. yang ada iman dengan hani. dua² budak pompuan. tak kan nak main masak² kot.. untuk mengambik hati adam, kami belikanlah toys train dengan keta trailer untuk dia. memula nak tinggalkan dia tu, macam berdebar aje. yelah.. takut bergaduh dengan budak pompuan berdua tu. susah pulak nanti. alhamdulillah, masa nak amik dia balik tadi, siap sound opah "see you tomorrow opah". ewahhh.. sudah geng dengan opah lah ni..

buat keje hari ni, macam tak terasa masa berlalu. yelah.. keja tengah banyak menimbun. tepat kul 4:45pm, dah setat kemas barang nak balik. uihh.. perasaan nak jumpa anak²... macam tak tertahan-tahan.

skang ni kena kemas umah before masuk tido. kalau tidak, bila bangun pagi tak tentu pasal rasa nak mengamuk pulak. and adam has been a good boy. he'll help to clean up his toys and the "lepak tengok tv" area before he goes to bed.

"mama sayang adam jugak.. sayang banyak². sayang-one-hundred-thousand-sixty-seventy-twenty-four-million-times".

alhamdulillah, semuanya dipermudahkan Yang Maha Esa. syukur..