first, second, third and fourth

i have mix feelings. upset. happy. frust. rasa macam nak hempuk org pun ada..
first: pagi² dah ada satu kuih pau bikin sakit hati. kenapa dia kena bossy itu macam eh? i ada being bossy on what she does ke? i heran ni.. ada anybody appoint her as pembantu koordinator for the renovation ke? dia ada paham ke i need to settle few things before i start the pindah-randah? would she care if i were to be humiliated by polly for not having his login problem settled? i yg nak pindah. suka hati i la bila i nak pindah. dia susah hati pasal apa. oklah.. positive thinking: she's so excited to help me with the moving things... ahhh!!! help my (_x_). kalo dia nak tolong sangat, awat tak tolong i ngan roy pindah & angkat barang leechek? ceh.. pirahhhhhh...

second: i have one jurry. tiba² dia datang kat i mengadu pasal tuan tanah that didn't keep her informed about the refreshment for our briefing at 4pm. oklah. i got a solution. i ordered nasik lemak pak lang. half an hour later i met the jurry. i informed her that i've ordered nasik lemak. sekali dia boleh kata "eh tak payah... sebab tuan tanah dah arranged for the refreshment." rasa macam nak campak kerusi meja kat jurry ni tak? what goes around comes around kan? kan? kan? cakap org, sekali dia pun sama kan? eloklah tu..

third: there are times that i hate reporting to nika. yes i admit she'a good lady. no doubt. satu opis even opis² lain pun will agree on the same thing. it's just the promises she gave me for numerous times are not often fulfill. like the new things that she's about to give me. i dun have any updates. i dont know whether commencing sunday i'll be doing the same things or i'll be wiping somebody's (_x_). upset? definitely. i feel like a fool. idiot. i feel like i sorang je yg terhegeh² for the new things. whilst she or they know something, she or they keep it fishy for me. surpriselah konon tu.. yucks.. i hate surprise especially when it's not on my birthday. postive thinking: i ni gelojoh sangat kot. sabar²lah sikit..... mmm.. yelah.. yelah...

fourth: i tak berjaya menang any prizes from marigold. uwaaa.. tapi tak pelah.. kalo menang kang banyak pulak yg i nak spend. elok jugak tak menang.. hehehehe

the nasik lemak yg i dah ordered tu, i kasik kat pusat tahfiz & surau kat umah my mom. alhamdulillah.. rezeki mereka. insya Allah ada rezeki i kendian hari. i nak nangis. tapi i tanak nangis. i tanak nangis for stupid things. save my tears for something better..