let her go

today marked the first time alesya followed atuk, nenek & abang adam to gapi without us, the parents.  i cried.  like a little kid.  seriously.  i really cried.

alesya didn't want to say bye.

"mama don't want to friend me".

it's not that i don't want.  it's just that i dont want to let her go...

she hugged me.  then she took a framed picture of hers and she gave it to me.

"you can see this picture, ok mama?"

i cried again.  but i let her go.

she was all excited.  when we picked her up from atuk's house, she was still full of excitement.  i would have been the most cruel mother if i was to stop her from going with atuk and nenek today.

let her go.
let her go.
let her go.
it's hard ok.
it's very hard.


wassalam.