babai 2005, welkam 2006.

alhamdulillah. i've had a year. a year of happiness, sadness, yada yada yada.. i've had it all.. thanks to all the people that have made my days.

to my beloved families,

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to my best buddies,

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to the rest of the fellowship,

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and to those who had applied to play a nasty game with me,

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i believe u know where u belong to. ala-ala sapa makan cili dia rasa pedas la kan...

so for 2006,
i look forward for all the besties things to happen. i hope those who are "nice infront but sucks behind" will realize what they had done and look forward for them to be better people. i couldnt hope for more.. those yg masih dalam kebodohan sendiri, sedarlah.. rasa nak minta maaf, sila lah. to forgive is divine. ingat ya.. what goes around, comes around ya..

untuk mereka yg berpangkat phD, sila-sila la bertaubat. tak gunanya berphD. anda yakin anda akan pergi jauh? mmm.. mungkin... jauh ke dalam neraka jahanam. dah sampai sana sok jalan baik-baik ye. jatuh bangun sendiri. nantikan saya di pintu syurga *heheh.. cam komfem leh masuk...*

tak ada guna berpelajaran tinggi, kalo akal di tahap kaki
tak ada guna berdiploma, berdegree, kalo hanya suka berdengki
tak ada guna bermuka-muka, kalo sekadar menyakitkan hati
tak ada guna bermegah-megah, kalo harta haknya org
tak guna juga berkata-kata, jika hati itu buta..

biarlah kita bodoh di depan org, tapi pandai di akal sendiri.
biarlah kita hodoh di pandang org, tapi mulia di hati

i hope the best for me, my families & friends.

last but not least, please... dun start a nasty game if u cant play along..

first, second, third and fourth

i have mix feelings. upset. happy. frust. rasa macam nak hempuk org pun ada..
first: pagi² dah ada satu kuih pau bikin sakit hati. kenapa dia kena bossy itu macam eh? i ada being bossy on what she does ke? i heran ni.. ada anybody appoint her as pembantu koordinator for the renovation ke? dia ada paham ke i need to settle few things before i start the pindah-randah? would she care if i were to be humiliated by polly for not having his login problem settled? i yg nak pindah. suka hati i la bila i nak pindah. dia susah hati pasal apa. oklah.. positive thinking: she's so excited to help me with the moving things... ahhh!!! help my (_x_). kalo dia nak tolong sangat, awat tak tolong i ngan roy pindah & angkat barang leechek? ceh.. pirahhhhhh...

second: i have one jurry. tiba² dia datang kat i mengadu pasal tuan tanah that didn't keep her informed about the refreshment for our briefing at 4pm. oklah. i got a solution. i ordered nasik lemak pak lang. half an hour later i met the jurry. i informed her that i've ordered nasik lemak. sekali dia boleh kata "eh tak payah... sebab tuan tanah dah arranged for the refreshment." rasa macam nak campak kerusi meja kat jurry ni tak? what goes around comes around kan? kan? kan? cakap org, sekali dia pun sama kan? eloklah tu..

third: there are times that i hate reporting to nika. yes i admit she'a good lady. no doubt. satu opis even opis² lain pun will agree on the same thing. it's just the promises she gave me for numerous times are not often fulfill. like the new things that she's about to give me. i dun have any updates. i dont know whether commencing sunday i'll be doing the same things or i'll be wiping somebody's (_x_). upset? definitely. i feel like a fool. idiot. i feel like i sorang je yg terhegeh² for the new things. whilst she or they know something, she or they keep it fishy for me. surpriselah konon tu.. yucks.. i hate surprise especially when it's not on my birthday. postive thinking: i ni gelojoh sangat kot. sabar²lah sikit..... mmm.. yelah.. yelah...

fourth: i tak berjaya menang any prizes from marigold. uwaaa.. tapi tak pelah.. kalo menang kang banyak pulak yg i nak spend. elok jugak tak menang.. hehehehe

the nasik lemak yg i dah ordered tu, i kasik kat pusat tahfiz & surau kat umah my mom. alhamdulillah.. rezeki mereka. insya Allah ada rezeki i kendian hari. i nak nangis. tapi i tanak nangis. i tanak nangis for stupid things. save my tears for something better..

typer shark yg gila calculator kena pindah besok...

i'm thrilled. i'm hounted. with sharks. yuppie! it's the typer shark!! hey baby... yey baby.. heheh.. i'm the super duper diver.. *tepuk! tepuk* it's a typing lesson game. for me of courselah senang. 3 semester belajo ini je. mana tak kematu jari jemari mungil i ni.. so for those newbie secretaries, pegi-pegilah mengadap game ni. memberikan anda keseronokan yg tak terhingga. kalah twisties.

senyum adam.. senyum..... ah.. comel lagi.. ;)

tadi i gi beli calculator. lagi. hehehe.. ntah apa yg gila beli calculator. padahal nak pakai bukannya selalu. tapi i memang suka calculatorla. i punya ambition kan ke nak jadik cashier.. kalo ikut hati i beli mesin cashier tu. so whenever people borong i punya barangan tupperware, i leh kuarkan receipt. wakakaka.. berangannya i...

besok tuan tanah suh i sewa tanah lot tempat lain. dah lah kasik last minute notice. rasa nak hempuk dia dengan segala komputer, scanner dan segala apa yg ada kat tempat i tu. hampeh punya org. salah dia buat keje last minute, org lain jadik mangsa. lagi satu contoh org yg tak reti plan la nih. bayangkan.. rumours bukan baru sehari dua. dah lebih 2 bulan. dia wat tak reti je. alih2 the new bosses are confirmed to come in tahun depan barulah menggelabah puyuh nak wat renovation. taik kucing betul la dia nih. tahun depan baper lama lagi kan? kan? dahlah my colleague is away. tak pepasal je i yg solid molid ni kena angkat barang sensorang. nak kena kemas 3 tempat pulak tu. masamla ketiak i besok.... sapa nak tolong hempuk dia angkat tangan? mmm... tak yah angkat tanganlah. baik tolong i kemas je besok.

besok pakai t-shirt je la kan? ape kelas nak pakai baju kurung angkat komputer.... hehehhe

tupperware & streamyx ku

i had a bad day with my tupperware distributor. the story begins. i called up the distributor to inform that i'd be coming over to collect my things. and whilst the rest of the sentences are still under construction, suddenly i heard "ok" & "tut.. tut.. tut". huh? is "bye" already an extinct word? cruel!!!

i was there about half an hour before their "closing" time. the place was packed with new stocks. ok. i dont mind about the boxes, org ke kiri & kanan. it didnt bother me much. however, it's the unfriendly environment that made me feel bad because i brought a friend along. bikin malu saja. as a new comer, manalah i tau pasal barang tu, barang ni. and definitely my calculator & my left brain wont callobrate well after 10 years i passed my SPM. dahlah derang ni cakap tak menggambarkan suasana harmoni langsung. rasa macam nak sedekah penampau jepun je. oklah.. i admit it. the way some nogorian talk is a bit harsh. tapi ni menusuk kalbu punya harssssh. i ni dah macam mengong kat situ. peh tu disuruh buat itu dan ini. eeeiiii... geram tau!!! sampai tersalah order. nasiblah. hari sabtu rectify. hehehe

anyway, people! tupperware is having its new catalogue. tunggggguuuuuuuuuu...

we've just got streamyx. yey!!! terlalu obses sampaikan kul 5am baru tido. macamlah tak de waktu lain nak main internet kan? heheheh.. biasalah. barang baru. kena lenjan selagi bolehlah. most of the time on my bloglah kan. mana lagi..

looking forward for new scanner cum photocopier cum printer. lupa nak mintak santa claus itu hari. kena beli sendirilah nampak gayanya..

the longest yard: if u cant get out, get even

i spent the rest of the extra public holiday watching this movie. great! at least something for the eyes. paul crewe, caretaker, turley, cheeseburger, megget (correct ka?), deac, brucie, unger, bla, bla, bla. couldnt get the rest of the people.. *was lena - courtney cox? she looks "extra". harharhar*

there's a lot of things to learn from this movie. the best of all; TEAMWORK. people have been talking a lot of teamwork. so why shouldnt i, rite? after all, it's a good thing to talk about. hehehe

"teamwork is the ability to work together toward a common vision. it is also the fuel that allow common people to attain uncommon result. Team building is creating a work culture that values collaboration. In a teamwork environment, people understand and believe that thinking, planning, decisions and actions are better when done cooperatively. People recognize, and even assimilate, the belief that “none of us is as good as all of us.”We can, however, create a teamwork culture by doing just a few things right. Admittedly, they’re the hard things, but with commitment and appreciation for the value, you can create an overall sense of teamwork in your organization."- cilok from somewhere.

it's easy to say than to get things done. everywhere, we can have a lot of seminars, lectures, etc, etc on teamwork. but how many of them work? effectively? it's hard. hard to get few heads into one solution. hard to get few hearts into one soul. even harder when there's a "stone head" standing proudly in everything. i've gone thru so many types of team work. back in school, university, office, at home, everywhere. even in a relationship. there are difficulties. but we have to keep the faith to have the strength. there's no way we can please everybody. the least we can do is just to share. share the uncommon. and work toward the vision.

i think enuff with teamwork la. let the motivator do their jobs. nanti dato' dr hj. fadzilah kamsah tak leh carik makan pulak.

madagascar: one moment in time

i watched this cartoon recently. quite ok. cant really say bad though it's far from my expectation. i've watched the elder one, sharktale. and it was good. so i thought madagascar would be on the same par..

i bought the vcd from anakku. but due to some technical problem, i had to ask for exchange. whilst getting the exchange i pinjamlah kat my sista in law. excited punya pasal la kan

i cant say i like the plot. as i have to think about what are they trying to reason out here. friendship? being adventurous? wanna be free? imagination goes wild? and the movie brings me to this song..

ONE MOMENT IN TIME

Each day I live I want to be
A day to give The best of me
I'm only one But not alone
My finest day Is yet unknown

I broke my heart fought every gain
To taste the sweet I face the pain
I rise and fall yet through it all
This much remains

I want one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will feel
I will feel eternity

I've lived to be the very best
I want it all no time for less
I've laid the plans now lay the chance
Here in my hands

You're a winner for a lifetime
If you seize that one moment in time
Make it shine

Give me one moment in time
When I'm more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I'm racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will be
I will be free

itm di hatiku

i've never thought being such a well known institute that has produced a lot of major names in our country, UiTM still mengamalkan dasar dis-kri-mi-na-si. UiTM was formerly known as ITM. i was one of the many products. togetherwith is my sister and she's still pursuing her studies in UiTM. being a recognized institute, i have without doubt respect to this purple logo place. but not today.

being able to locate oneself into university is something that most of us look forward for. but how do we feel when we already received the confirmation card and made the all the way to the university but only to be accused of lying in application and forged our documents. how can UiTM do this? sampainya hati...

ok. to make things simple. i have an acquaintance. a close one. she applied for PJJ program with UiTM. she had the confirmation card and she's so excited. haruslah.. sapa tak excited dapat masuk U kan. so today she + her sisters + brother in law head to shah alam for registration. sampai sana, she was questioned on her nationality & race. ok. her late dad was an indonesian so as her mother. but she already acquired her PR status + malaysian IC. yes. the one that we have in our wallet right now. not the red colour of course. so she's a free malaysian. back to what happened in UiTM. this nasty-kurang-ajar-female staff in UiTM has proudly & openly accused her of forging her documents & lying in her applications. the arguments went on her race which i think it was actually on her nationality. but the stupid staff dok kata she's a non malay. if the arguments was she's a non malaysian, ok. i can accept it. i pun bukan seorang yg pakar dalam bidang ini. but in this incident she said my acquiantance is a non malay. bukan org melayu. this UiTM lady makan gaji buta ke buta? kalau my acquaintance ni betul menipu, u think she's so berani nak pegi registration ke? and kalau org UiTM ni buat kerja dengan betulnya, would she be receiving the confirmation card? booooolohh punya olang...

untuk staff UiTM yg terbabit,jangan salahkan org lain bila anda tak buat kerja dengan cekap. janganlah jugak senang hati nak menuduh org bila awak sendiri tak tau apa yg awak nak salahkan. jagalah jugak air muka & perasaan org. jangan sampai org kata bekerja ditempat berprestij dengan students yg bijak, tapi staff bangang macam tak pernah pergi sekolah. i bet org tak gi sekolah lagi pandai nak menilai permata & kaca, batu jalan & batu jade.

nota kaki:i had an explanation from someone close on this matter. a person who's working in UiTM. due to the fact that my acquaintance's parents are not local, therefore, she's not qualified for a place in UiTM. and that's the regulations. end of story.

a frustration? indeed..

plan la...

i hate it! i hate it! i hate it when people dah sampai depan toll and bila toll gate guy/gal tadah tangan barulah dia menggelabah carik duit. adohai!! carik la awal². letak kat tepi. apalah salahnye? or sediakan satu compartment for toll monies. itu pun susah ke? u already know that u're going into hiway, then be prepared to sedekah ur monies to sami velu la.

setakat bagi RM50 tu i dun mind lagi. i pun ada jugak sekali-sekala jadik cenggitu. especially hujung² bulan la kan. ni tidak. org sebelah ada. org belakang pun ada. tapi tidak banyak membantu nampaknya. at least kalo si drebar tu tak alert, those yg di sekeliling kena aware la.

it's actually nothing. but it shows the type of person u are. in this case, i'm thinking about somebody who doesn't do any planning. if they plan which route to take, which turn they are heading to, they wouldnt be last minute giving signals or bawak selow sebab nak tengok jalan or terhegeh² nak kiri ke kanan. i understand. sometimes we all go to new places. new area. kita tak tau jalan. yes.. i come accross that too. but we have hp oledi right? use that la. ask for direction. pakailah speaker phone. or bagi signal duduklah tepi jalan while u figure out which route to take. ni tak... being malaysian yg multitasking, they would talk while driving while mata melilau kiri kanan. tengok signboard, tengok simpang. ayoyo.. giving other people hard time to think where u're going and which precaution to take. buatnya tiba² break? dah banyak pulak kereta bercumbuan² tengah jalan.

i dont say in particularly male or female drives. and i dont put in focus any races. pukul rata, semua pun ada. all races & genders contribute equally.

so what can u do? plan please.....

malaysia boleh!!!

jika ko fikirkan ko boleh, ko hampir boleh melakukan

jika ko fikirkan ragu², usahamu tidak menentu

jika ko fikirkan kekalahan, ko hampiri kegagalan

jiko ko fikirkan kemenangan, ko hampiri kejayaan

enkolah apa ko fikirkan, terkandung dalam pemikiran

bertindak atas kemampuan, ko boleh!!!

~ 0 ~

these 2 weeks i've been listening to kes tetak-menetak. apalah nak jadik? can we put blame on anybody? shall somebody be responsible? some people will menyalahkan mak bapak tak pandai jaga anak. padahal menda tu nak jadik, macam mak bapak dia yg suh dia buat. some will put the blame on the environment. well... it's WE who have to adapt into the environment and not the other way round. others will push the blame to kengkawan. apa kena mengena ngan kengkawan? kan? my thinking; it's ourselves. diri sendirik. the accountability is on ourselves. our-true-selves. sometimes kita terlalu angkuh. tak sedar diri. tu yg buat kita alpa. lupa.

sudahnye, boleh ke kita salahkan org tetak org lain?
ohhh.. tak boleh.. sebab derang ada darah pahlawan. sebab tu parang kerat pisang jadik parang kerat org

so kita boleh marah org lepak²?
oohh.. tak boleh jugak. sebab derang tengah menghayati panorama indah di KL ni. KLCC, menara KL. lepak² sambil cuci mata

then boleh ke kita marah org pakai seksi²?
ehh.. mana boleh.. duit nak pakai buat beli buku. so kena bajetlah.. dah beli buku besar, kenalah beli baju kecik sket

cenggitu... kita boleh marah org curi besi kat umah org lain?
ish.. besi ni kalo biar lama² nanti berkarat. tak cantik pulak nanti

malaysian boleh kannnnn..

bottomline: i dun feel safe anymore. umah, shopping complex, keta, jalan raya, balai polis, *hehehe* everywhere. there's always fear....

it's just something..

i know this lady. she has the qualification; "a bought MBA" - quoted by somebody who attended the same university. the thing is, i cannot understand the way she thinks, the way she does her works & the way she values herself as somebody in an organization. i think, being her; being somebody in her position, she should be on her own. stand independently. but she's not. and she lets herself go with the wind. can i call her stupid? mm.. tak pelah.. not now.. laterlah

i'm actually talking about one of my managers (a senior indeed). a manager who handles human behaviour & resources. well.. maybe i'm not the rite person to talk about her. yalah.. baru setahun jagung di sini ma.. but i just couldnt stand the way she "handles" people. i have no doubt that she has misused her "qualification" & position to create a new dimension in developing people. heheh.. develop? hiyerlah sangat.....

ntahlah.. it's actually hard to explain. i could actually collect a minimum of 76,584 complaints on this lady in a day. tapi tak pelah.. i have some other things to do. ini bukan kes bukan salah ibu mengandung ye. ini mungkin terlalu obses dengan diri sendiri. she's too proud. proud of herself. and she thinks other people are just piece of junk. i feel like telling her "wake up lady.. u're getting older. wrinkles are making their way." tapi.. on 2nd thought.. tak payahlah.. pi mampuih kat dialah... kita layan org bodo, kita jadi bodo.. biarlah dia jadi bodo sorang².

dahlah.. maleh dah lah nak ngata org.. i just hope that she'll change. it's a waste for somebody like her. being a senior manager for nothing. yg mana salah dibetulkan. yg mana betul disalahkan. again.. i'm not the rite person to talk about her. myself pun tak seperfect mana. so, semoga org itu berubah... janganlah terlalu bangga dengan apa yg telah awak buat. tak puas lagi menyakitkan hati org? masih bergumbira menganiaya org? tunggu jelah... what goes around, comes around..

SS14 dalam kenangan

back left to right:
mai (the best buddy), fahmy, "tak ingat nama", biawak (harharhar), hana, as

front left to right:
"my mother make luv to me everyday", putat (terkebelakang sket), it's meeeeeeeee, darliz, kak nini, aiza & eda

~ 0 ~

terkenang semasa dulu.. sambil makan kuih bahulu.. eh.. bahulu tak boleh weh. sensitip. heheh.. i'm a bit what to call eh.. mmm.. ala-ala duduk sensorang sambil terkenang².. ha.. cenggitulah..

it's me & fellow SS15 people. ITM 1996-2000. i dun know whylah i masuk this course. to be a secretary? no.. not really. i'm more into admin thingy. and at that time, my thought was to take this course as a jumping stone to get into admin thingy la. yeh. some people have actually advised me to go into business admin. well. it's the hard headed girl say SS14. and the people cannot say anything. hehehe..

i got another offer from UM - TESL, the same day i received the offer from ITM. it was a tough call. mak nak i masuk UM. sama ngan big joe. well i guess, that was the reason. tak besh la kan. dari sekolah sampai ke U asik muka dia je kan? balik umah nanti pun muka dia lagi. aduh busan.

banyak kenangan beb kat ITM ni. tak yah cite la. kang syahdu madu. some are good. some are just nighmares. i duk kat kolej seroja just for a semester. lepas itu saya telah ditendang keluar kerana telah mengeluarkan diri melepak di section 2 tanpa membawa kad yg sahih untuk keluar kolej. bloergh.. teruk kan? nak kuar lagi nak pakai kad. bengang giler seh time tu. tapi tak pe. kuar kolejnyer pasal la made me a tough person. wah.. time tu memang penat tak hengatlah. bangun kul 5 am. 5.45am dah kena tunggu bas mini kat permata. siap berebut tu. aaaahhhhh.. the memoir of a mini bus. pink pulak tu. naik kat permata turun kat CM. pegi pulak bus stand kelang. tunggu pulak 222. time tu bas 222 masuk dalam ITM lagi. so lama sikitlah tido. tu pun kalo dapat seatlah. kalo tak, berjinggutlah berdiri. sampai lenguh² tumit. kalo habis kelas kul 2pm, kul 6pm baru balik. tak laratlah nak duk dalam bas berlama². dengan jemnyer. dengan org balik kejenyer. kem salam lah weh. tak dapek la nak berebut dengan org balik keje ni. derangnyer eksen lain sket. yelah.. sapalah kita.. budak sekolah lagi. laaaaa.. cite bas pulak.

back to ITM. i failed OM on my final year. oh God.. time tu tak tau nak kata apa. my lecturers & friends tak menjangkalah. mana penah fel beb.. dapat D pun jauh sekali. apatah lagi nak fail. yg tu memang traumalah. and to make the feeling worsen, mdm usha actually has given out the "spotted question". tak de spottednyer. memang dia kasik soklan bocor. nangis pun tarak lagu itu sudah. repeatlah satu paper. urghhhhh.. giler punya seksa punya rasa dalam hati. but that failure gave me the strength to carry on with my life. alah.. like the always. gagal sekali bukan gagal selama²nya. cakap senang kan. tapi bila rasa.. awouchhhh.. pedih giler

and due to my-pegi-balik-naik-bas-situation, i've never dressed up nicely. while my fellow friends bawak beg² ala2 seksiteri, i bawak budak sekolah punya bag. time tu brand OP tengah naik. memang kayalah org keje kat OP starhill tu. i guess that's why ramai misjudged me as engineering or mascom student. dahlah baju tidak melambangkan kursus langsung.. harharhar.. anyway.. sukalah.. i punya baju. nak bawak beg pompuan²? tak delah i.... bawak beg ala² perempuan ni remehlah dol... bawak knapsack, ha ko.. selambak barang ko leh bawak.

those are my days in ITM. and here i am. 5 years after graduated. still a waras human being. i guess i'm also a good citizen. no vandalism case. heh.. i feel like going back to classes la. mm.. 2nd thought.. maleh lah. nanti ada exam. well, i'm a bit baik compared to my years in secondary skool. yg tu lagi tegarrrrrrrr.. harharhar

ps: thanks lin. u were right. i got carried away.

it's a ting tong day

I would have given you all of my heart

but there's someone who's torn it apart

and she's taking almost all that I've got

but if you want, I'll try to love again baby

I'll try to love again

but I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby

I know The first cut is the deepest

'cause when it comes to being lucky she's cursed

when it comes to lovin' me she's worst

but when it comes to being loved she's first

that's how I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby I know

The first cut is the deepest

I still want you by my side

just to help me dry the tears that I've cried

cause I'm sure gonna give you a try

and if you want, I'll try to love again

but baby

I'll try to love again

but I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby

I know The first cut is the deepest

'Cause when it comes to being lucky she's cursed

when it comes to lovin' me she's worst

but when it comes to being loved she's first

that's how I know

The first cut is the deepest, baby I know

The first cut is the deepest

~ o ~

hari ni i ada sikit ting tong - thanks lin!! thanks for the RM1.50 thought.. hehehe

i'm not suppose to have this feelings. i dont. i should not. why i let myself being carried away with this feelings?? arrgghhh.. stupid me. please feeling.. please let me go. please go away. i dun need u. not now. perhaps not forever.. i'm happy. i'm happy as i want to be. i have to let the feelings go. it shouldnt be with me. things have passed. yes indeed.. it was memorable. but it was pain. and the pain is suck.

i've had enough. i've gone tru it. i dont want to go tru it again. not the same feelings again. no more guilt in me. no more mercy for this feelings. u have to go out! out! out! out u go! shoooh! out of my life! u have to learn how to be independent. on ur own. stand on ur own. stand alone. i can never be with u. anymore. i'm sorry. i love u but i have to hate u. i'll treasure the moments. each of it. and i'll have to throw the key to the treasure away. away from my life. no more. no more access to this feelings.

i dont want to fall. i dont want to feel u anymore. i've had u. i've to set u free. tata feelings. babai! take a good care of urself. i know u're good. i know u've done nothing wrong. but i cant pet u anymore. i cant hold u anymore. please accept the faith. the destiny. the chosen path for us. please.... i wish to be free..

thanks feelings. thanks for being with me all this while. thank u so much......

the terminal: life is waiting

i watched the terminal over the weekend. 2 thumbs up (plus 2 toes please..) for steven spielberg, viktor navorski, amelia warren, enrique cruz, gupta & the fellow people. i'm quite agree with "life is waiting". watch this and u mite understand what i'm saying..

i have a few buddies that are still looking for someone right for her or his life. i've found mine 2 years ago. alhamdulillah.. now with the number running in the age sequence. surroundings never keep silent. queries as "bila ko nak kawin?", "apa lagi yg ko tunggu?", "adik ko dah kawin, ko bila lagi?", "ko tak pegi mandi bawah jambatan ke?" have no ends. there's time i wonder why. it's their life. why people have to bother? oklah.. mungkin derang terlebey sayang kat kita. or maybe, they are just part of the people yg suka bertanya. or mite be they have NO other things to talk about. well.. they are just human beings.. kan?

my always thought: those yg asik tanya² are the makcik² type. nampaknya zaman sekarang budak² muda pun ramai yg bermulut makcik². yelah.. budak muda skang kan ke dah ramai sudah kawin dan beranak-pinak. that's why derang pun dah jadik makcik² type kot. marriage is a license to ask such thing? mmm.. dunno.. i guess so.

for my buddies..
lantakkanlah apa derang nak kata. it's ur life kan? u have the rite to determine what u want in ur life. there's no space for comparison like "ko dah kawin aku belum kawin". honesly, there's no such thing. i always believe that there's going to be someone rite for u. no worries. when the time is precise, that person will be coming along. like i used to say, u'll be meeting the wrong person along the journey, then only u'll find the one that suits u. u know my case kan buddies.. take that as an example udahlah... perhaps there's a reason when u have to feel the pain before u enjoy every moment of ur life with that someone besides u.

i wish i'm thaaaat empathy. well i guess, i am. but i dont know to what extend. i can't feel the pain that u felt. i might have the tempias, but that's it. yes, i can cry as loud as u because i am cengeng. but i could never cry for the pain that u have suffered. for the things that people said, for the lost & dump, for the kurang ajar punya laki & perempuan.. i will never feel that. if i have had, i dont know if it's the same feeling. we have to go tru the humps and punk'd. we have too..

u have my say; i'll be by ur side. thru sad & happiness. thru cry & laughter. u know i will. i'll be the shoulder. but if u wanna cry, please prepare the tissue ye. i'm not the tissue carrier.. so perempuanish la.. harharhar

for the people of the surroundings..
leave my buddies alone la. it's their life. and u have ur life. lantak pi la derang nak kawin awal ka, lambat ka.. ada rezeki kang dema ajaklah korang makan² kenduri tu. tak sabaq nak beli hadiah ka? lek lu.. kumpul dana banyak² sket.

dah. toksah nak pikir panjang². ada jodoh kawin. ajak i.. hehehe

sorry loser...

i hate those people who cant give in some little time to queue. hate them! buang dalam laut kasik ikan pirana makan. kalo emergency sangat pasanglah hazard lite tu. then people would consider giving u ample space for u to speed off. ni nak mencelah sana, celah sini. causing massive jams. come onlah.. give some understanding tabley ke? semua org mau kelija juga maaa..

wanna know what happened? tanak tau? tak peduli. meh i cite.. i was in the middle of not to say heavy traffic lah. so-so traffic lah. heading to elavated hiway. my route starts from the flamingo hotel, near the petronas one. those regular "customer" knew la.. sungguh banyak pemotong queue yg bertauliah. keta kecik, keta besa. name it. suma ada..

then there's one mamat. wira 6009. depan itu petronas ada lubang². so to avoid the lubang, i took a bit right. this mamat meredah itu lubang untuk memotong. ok.. itu satu. peh tu, on the way up to the highway, si mamat ini mencurahkan rasa hati ingin mencelah ke kanan. hellloooooo.. sabar² sket tabley ka? if i was going slow, then go lah. i wont stop u. tapi i pun tengah melajukan my waja perkasa kelabu untuk memanjat bukit itu. ok.. end of it. peh tu i mencelah ke kanan, sebab i nak amik tidal flow. ooo.. dia tengok i dah masuk, he sped just to cut me in queue. ooo.. tak pe.. tarak hal munya. sekali i tengok dia nak masuk tidal flow jugak. ah! ini sudah mendatangkan marah. sure i jadi tak senang bontot duduk belakang dia. biasalah.. adrenalin sudah burst ma... so i followed my instinct. i took the normal route. my thought was: lantak kat ko lah. maleh nak gaduh pagi² ngan org camni. save my mood for something better.

i pun kerling ke kanan. heheheheh.. padan muka sama itu mamat. ada 2 kereta termasuk satu lori yg lembabs alas kengkuras di laluan itu... harharhar.. thank God for the instinct. You really want me to feel good today..

when i reached the toll booth, i saw the 6009 again. ala.. jumpa lagi. all i wish at that very moment was: mintak²lah org depan dia kasik duit RM50. amin...

aaaaaa.. berjaya.. org depannya lembabs. and guess who's the winner?

yey!!!!!!!!

*tepuk! tepuk!*

thank u. thank u.. saya mengucapkan terima kasih yg berbanyak² kepada pengambil duit saya di toll booth tadi. terima kasih kepada anda. tanpa anda, saya tidak akan merasa kejayaan ini..

to the mamat 6009,
tabahkanlah hatimu. berhati² di jalan raya. sayangilah org tercinta..

sekian terima kasih..

my hero... aaaaahhhhhhh

i was in my sangap class yesterday.. and it was even worse with pagi² makan nasik lemak. manalah tak sayu layu mata i ni kan.. but then, the moment uncle wong mengumumkan "lastly", satu keajaiban telah terjadi. wow! mata i segar bagai direnjis eyemore. tak sampai 5 minit dia kata babai, i dah ada kat keta. ready to head back. heheheh.. that's why la i luv u uncle wong.. luv uncle wong so much... if it's not for uncle wong, i wouldnt be home by 3:30 pm yesterday. if it's not for uncle wong, my middle finger would be doing his bad-sometimes-good duty. jasa uncle wong akan saya hargai sepanjang hayat saya.. yey!

talk about hero kan.. i dun have a proud hero that i could think of at the moment. batman? superman? i'd add in flinstone. powerpuffgurl? mm..

during my days it was barbie, she-ra, he-man (master of the universe), transformers, care bears, smurfs, thundercats and silverhawks. and the ugliest series was V. makan tikus weh.. and i still remember those moments.. letak gam atas tangan. peh tu kaler ngan kaler hijo. peh tu biar kering. peh tu tarik macam citer V. wowo... ganassssss!!

i watched batman begins the other day. thank u my daling for letting my kerja terbengkalai... huh.. i tak nak tengok sebenarnya. betul.. tak de ati nak tengok. peh tu, biler terpandang je, sure best² punya scene. tengoklah dulu. layannnnnn.. so that's how bruce wayne became batman... dah tengok? lom? gi lah tengok nuuuu.. best wooo..

i jarang tengok tv. unless for my feveret series like CSI, Dr. House. but not so hooked up like those time with oshin, moero attack, police cadet, the wizard, mcgyver, the A-team, knight rider and lagi satu citer. couldnt recall the tajuk. but i remember one of them is named as johnny. dia leh lari laju. peh tu ada cahaya² biru. ntah apalah nama cite tu. lagi satu air wolf.. woo.. itu pun sedap weh.. lagu dia yg paling interesting. cite tom selleck tu pun was one of my fav series. itu pun lupa nama. aaa.. satu lagi. i dream of jeanie (did i get it right??) yg ni komfem hari jumaat kul 2, tv3. because of it, i selalu gi sekolah lambat.. harharhar..

skang i tengok tv amik dan je lah. mana sempat tengok. tak sempat pun tak pe. no harm. kalo dulu siap suh bapak recordlah. la ni tadak hal. tak sempat tengok kul 2, kul 9 malam kang boleh tengok. dah tak de kat tv, carik je vcd. tak de vcd, tunggulah tawon depan. tak mo tunggu tawon depan, browse internet. sure ada cerita dia punyalah... apa mau heran.. kan?

i nak berangan la.. agak²kan.. kalo i apply jadi a new member to powerpuffgirl, derang approve tak? mmmm.... harharhar...

sangapan dengan hati yg gumbira nestapa

hari ni i sangaaaap sangat banyak. duk dalam training room. dry subject pulak tu. tertambah menambah sangapan i untuk hari ni.. besok nak cakap uncle wong suh habih awal sikitlah. makan sambil belajar pun tak pe. yang persidangan pun hari ni la nak raptai.. besok lagilah jem. ayoyo ama apa.. mana mau lari ni weeeehhhh..

alhamdulillah!! got a good news today!! mmm.. eh.. ada 2 la.. heheheh.. murah rezeki kuarga che pa'e ni hujung tawon nih.. ahaks.. cepatlah kut.. doa²lah bapak beli keta sawi ituuuuu... boleh bawak adam & anak buah baru berjalan² makan² angin... nyaaakkkkk


my hp yg cinonet tu out of service. tetiba "hang", peh tu tetiba hanya terlayar skrin putih. adoi!! pegi kedai tutup pulak. tanak void warranty kena tunggu senin. hari nilah.. nasib baik my daling boleh tulung gi hantar. tengkiu daling...

<-- sekadar gambar hiasan.. ahaks... tawon depan ye.. tawon depan.. tungguuuuu!!



we bought adam a drum set last saturday. tapi semalam atuk & pak long yg belasah... by the time adam 3 years old, dah tak de rupa drum rasanya.. just to avoid him playing with the periuk belanga... tak yahlah main periuk kuali tu lagi ye adam.. main keta pulak eh.. vrooom.. vroommmmmmmmmmm