l-o-v-e

the fact that made needs to be away on business trip has been quite routine for both me and adam. not to say i'm taking it easy nowadays but i'm trying hard to adapt into the situation. honestly, the feeling is still the same. i still feel terrible. i still miss him, as much as i miss on his first trip to bakun. i miss him even more whenever i came to the fact that this is the requirement of his job. his rice bowl.

alhamdulillah, technology has kept us closer. we are engaged with skype, ym, googletalk, etc. name it.. it's all downloaded for our better communication. when technology doesn't come cheap but there are still freebies :) we communicate each day. we sms-ing, we ym-ing, we chat-ing, all we can do.. just to ease the feeling that distance doesnt really a big thing...

i hate this distance. but i appreciate how it makes me feel closer & love made even more. i appreciate how it makes me closer to adam. and i appreciate the fact that this distance has brought myself closer to the Almighty. and also taught me some sense of anger management. every clouds has its silver lining. i've seen mine... alhamdulillah :D

all these has been good except the fact that, adam needs his ayah. who could bear the sadness of seeing her lovely child holding a picture of his ayah in his hand while laughing watching tom & jerry's silliness? who could avoid having tears seeing her child wishing "good nite" to his ayah, in the little small frame. who could fight the feeling of seeing this only child crying and asking for his ayah and at the same time clinging to mama since he opened his eyes in the morning till the time he has fall asleep...

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L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore

can love, it’s all that I can give to you
love is more than just a game for two
two in love can make it
take my heart but please don’t break it
love was made for me and you