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tuesday, 22 april 2008

i was in maybank bandar baru ampang. bapak's hp no appeared on my mobile phone. it was along. at first i thought of nothing wrong until i sensed something was not right because along was asking sort of stupid questions. and i had a feeling that he was trying to figure out how to inform me a news.

"moto bapak hilang, ada org curi subuh tadi. mak nak kuar gi keje, tengok moto takde"

i was stunned. bapak had just recently bought that bike with his allowance & winning money from paralympic games.

i went to bapak's place that night. bapak was in sorrow. whilst listening to the au5's CSI's report, bapak was resting in front of tv. then he sat, looking at me.

i could feel his despair

i could feel his lost

i could feel his sadness

i could feel his anger

i could feel his hope

he did'nt say much. but his eyes said it all..

while i was in maybank this morning, i could not even curse the thieves. i could only think, "hari ni ko bersuka ria la angkut moto bapak aku, akhirat besok berdukalara la angkut dosa2 ko". but upon looking at bapak, i wish i could do more for him.

"tak pelah bapak... kita redha saja. one day, ada rezeki lebih, i'll buy u a new moto - insya Allah"

thursday, 24 april 2008

i have just came back from maknek's place, fetching adam & ammar. then i saw this pakcik misai-ganteng, delivering flyers from house to house. i stopped infront of makcik pah's gate giving way for him to deliver the flyers.

he didn't stopped at kak shida's house. auik? my instant thought was maybe because kak shida is only renting that house. so perhaps there's no reason to distribute the flyer to her house.

but then he skipped my house too. auik? apa kes nih? i starred at him. he did'nt do anything. and delivered the flyer into makcik pah's post box. and to my other neighbours?

that was NOT right!

what make me different from my other neighbours?

first of all, i do not RENT this house. myself and made OWN this house. wanna see the s&p agreement? kami penduduk tetap kawasan ini ok!

yes, we are not the original penduduk of this kawasan, but neither do the mat despatch, pakcik misai-ganteng. he bought the house from pakcik matsom. how do i know that fact? because that house belongs to a friend of mine. and his father, pakcik matsom, has moved to bangi.

yes, made & i not a frequent "visitor" to the surau nearby. not because we suka2 tanak pegi. but we have time constraint and we are woking and we still have errands to run after working hours (these are called alasan ye kawan2). but we have made effort to join the community. we attended the ceramah (which was not informed to us like others. we figured it out thru a banner). made will occasionally perform his solat fardhu in the surau. we invited our neighbours for some makan2 when we have any.

i voted pas for the recent election and saari sungib has won.

so what make us different? why should we be pulled out from the list?

itu hari suruh sangat kami bergiat dalam aktiviti kemasyarakan & surau. tapi kalo tidak diinformkan, macam mananya kami nak tau?

cuba jawab pakcik2, makcik2 ajk BAKAU?

thursday, 25 april 2008

i was in maknek's place wanting to fetch adam & ammar. adam was sleeping, not very to my surprise, with puting. it was not my first time caught adam with puting whilst he's sleeping. not my very first time, i pulled it out and told adam off about this habit. but this time around, i had to put my foot down.

i told maknek that i was dissapointed with her. i told her that she was not helping me and made to get adam out of this habit.

i was harsh and my words were hard. i'm sorry..

i've been telling maknek about how we tried to pull adam out of his habit. i've been telling her how adam was coping with "no puting" environment. i've been telling stories to maknek how was it hard to adam and how he is now ok with the situation.

but whats the use of complimenting adam on all his effort at his own home when he's not achieving anything at maknek's house?

got what i mean?

i know... maknek has been helping me with adam since adam was 2 months old. i could never repay that contribution. but, if she really loves adam as much as i love adam, i just need her to support my moves to mould adam to be a better person. that's only it.

i hope she could understand. it's not that i'm controlling. well, maybe, perhaps, yes a bit. its just because adam is my only child. my only son. my only treasure. my life!

please understand.. i appreciate that...

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