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this morning something interesting happened...

i was infront of kilang transformer (ha.. kelas keramat kan? siap ada kilang transformer gitu...), i noticed one huge lori pengangkut carrying a jentolak, kept blinking it's headlights towards the opposite traffic. you knowlah.. like what will normally happen when a driver needs to make a turn but has not got a chance to do so. therefore he will blink-blink so that the incoming traffic would consider giving him way lah. macam itu... got it? anyways, pulang ke kisah driver lori tadi.. mari pikir why there were few cars ahead of me whom were also like me, ignored the blinking headlight given?

it is because... the signal given was going to its left. and he was actually wanting to turn right. jadik salah i dan kereta-kereta depan i ke tak bagi dia jalan?

ngoks....

this evening oso, something interesting happened...

i've been wanting to send gayah for some cleaning therapy. so after fetching adam and ammar, i went to this car wash which is like 2 minutes away from my house. the other day, made sent wakjah for cleaning, he said it was fast & cheap. rm7 only. so with this recommendation, i went there with the kids. upon arrival, i felt pity already. one of the workers is handicapped. i sangat hati sayu pilu tak boleh tengok org gini ok... so, i parked my car. and sat with the boys at one waiting space. nyamuk sangat banyak and ahead of us was this sign saying "kawasan wabak denggi". rasa nak je jalan gi 7-11 beli ridsect. the 2 workers were juggling between my gayah and another satria. berlagak siut owner satria tu. nak je aku lempang. macam aku heran sangat ko keje pengiring agung. takdenye aku nak tau ko nak beli keta 2nd hand untuk mak pak ko ke, mak mentua ko ke apa ke. baya keta cash ke. ko bawak satria ko dah sampai gunung ledang ke gunung jerai ke... aku tak herannnnnnnn dan tidaklah aku ingin tauuuuuu wahai kanda oiii.. tapi ko dah cite, aku dengar jelah...

CUTTT!!

cite balik pasal cuci keta. upon arrival, when i asked the guy how much was it for cleaning and vacuum, he said rm8. i was, oklah.. tambah rm1 pun tak kisahlah. then after cleaning2, i thought, nevermindlah. give him extra lah. pity them also. tempat terpencil, dont know got customers or not. so, i decided to give all the small change i had - rm11. after all cleaning done, i asked again how much for the cleaning & vacuum service. the non-handicapped guy told me rm10. pulak dah.. i was like, "eh? tadi kata rm8". and since i didn't want to argue, i just handed the money to him. the money means, all my rm11. and he just l-e-f-t. i watched him with no guilty feeling took the extra rm1 into his pocket. rasa nak belasah je dia. boleh ke? bukan tak ikhlas.. extra rm1 tu pun bukannya banyak mana sangat pun. in fact, i sangat ikhlas nak membantu. tapi....... ntah.. rasa ralat bila tengok keta takdelah cuci sangat. comot masih ada. kesan najis burung pun ada lagi. cuci kejadahnya tu? baik suh adam ngan ammar je cuci. puas hati tengok bebudak ni main air.

things like these happen all the time, yes? tak amanah, ignorant, selfish, berlagak, back-stab, etcetera. we are all human. we are bound to have these kind of feelings. but having said this, human, or we, people are still not wanting to analyze the root to what had happened. what had caused the feeling? what had caused others to feel or to react such way? we want people around us to sympathize. we want people to feel how we felt. but we are not willing to do more for others. am i right?

looking at 20 years ago, there were none to be called major highways. there were minimal tall buildings and skycrappers. there were minimum number of technology in life. and people are so intoeach other. now? as technology lead our life and development took the major role, human factors have decreased. respect, feeling for oneself, empathy, all the good-good note in pelajaran mural have been forgotten.

i'm scared. scared for what will adam face in the next couple of years. scared for what will myself be facing in the next couple of months?

notakaki: i have been bz lately.. penat. letih. exhausted. haus.... will update on me & iskl, me & 30, me & family soon. tunggu made balik, baru boleh upload gamba.

taken from www.babyblues.com

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