overseas

rasa macam nak keje kat overseas lah. nanti bolehlah hantar gambar dengan ucapan kat salam perantau. time-time raya boleh amik gambar ramai-ramai masuk suratkhabar. femes kan?

pastu, boleh dapat bekalan makanan yang berkotak-kotak dari malaysia. mmm.. macam ada sangat orang nak hantar makanan pun. macam kat overseas tu takde. macam tak boleh beli pulak. hahahahaha...

bila lama tak balik, nanti mak bapak rindu-rindu. nak tengok cucu. along, alin terkinja-kinja la bila kat klia. ha... barulah excited sikit. jerit-jerit. peluk-peluk. nangis-nangis. barulah kememe level ke 14. woohoooo....

main salji semua tu tak de heran lah sangat. jakun sikit adalah. hahahah.. biasalah.. baru boleh dipanggil orang darat :D

kat overseas barulah berbaloi update status kat FB ke twitter ke.. ni setakat update, lepas tu orang depan mata aje yang reply, aleh.. dah tak cool. hahahahah...

bila lagi nak menimba pengalaman kat negara orang. barulah best sikit nak mengundi pos. wakakaka..

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ala... sekali-sekala nak berangan. apa salahnya...

Coincidence

Happened to be i knew that bride -
Which happened to marry to the groom that I know -
Which coincidently was a groom to my other friend.

Small world eh?

Now they know that i know about them
And one is requesting exclusive stories
Which happened to be not of my good skill

I now feeling sympathy (to both + the groom)
Feeling dont know what to do too
Having hidung sumbat and perit tekak

Perfect!

What has passed, let them be a Teacher to your new journey
What awaits you is something that you have to look forward for
My wish is the best for both (+ groom)
Doa & minta yang baik-baik saja. Moga Allah membantu ke jalan yang benar & terbaik untuk kalian..

Insya Allah

buah delima

encik suami dapat message daripada abg ajih bebaru ni. ma nak buah delima. mintak kami tolong carikkan. kami pun type message and sent to those close to us mintak tolong carikkan buah delima.

replies were overwhelmed! alhamdulillah..

on saturday, i received 4 (biji apa dalam bahasa omputeh??) buah delima from nita's mother. termasuk satu botol juice organik buah delima. tapi according to kak ti, ma is on oral chemo. nita dah pesan awal-awal. kalo ma is under treatment or taking any supplements, then it is not advisable to take this drink. pesanan penaja daripada husband dia tu..

along pun usahakan tanya kawan-kawan dia. dia kata abg ashraf is on the way back from langkawi. kalo ketemu buahnya dia sana, dia bawak balik. pas tu masa dia call kata abg fizal ada pokok kat umah, berharap jugaklah kami ni. tapi tulah.. sebelum ni, memang ayah abg fizal tu jaga pokoknya. kali ni, tak dijaga sebab takde sapa request. tak de rezeki ma.

mokteh pun tanya-tanya around her neighborhood. nak tanya kat adik ipar dia kat meru tu, tapi time tu orang tu tengah sibuk berkenduri. jadik tak tertanya...

mak lagi best! dia dah tanya kawan-kawan dia, tapi tak de yang ada information about the fruit. dia pun pesanlah kat kawan dia yang nak ke penang. at the same time, dia sms bagitau dia dah beli pokok and tanam kat umah. moga ada rezekilah untuk tok ma rasa buat delima nenek. insya Allah..

my brother in law, faiz pulak asked favours from his FB friends. nak kata rezeki tok ma kan... kat umah kawan wakleh (pak mentua my sister) ada bertanam. alhamdulillah.. yang tu akan sampai soon. insya Allah...

inilah buah delima. kak amy kata, kak nah suh amik yang crown atas tu. kak ti kata nak yang dalam kaler putih tu. tak kisahlah mana-mana. saya baca buah tu memang bagus untuk antioksidan pun. so, mana-mana yang diperkenankan Allah swt, kita terimalah. moga dikurangkan kesakitan ma.

gambar adalah daripada: http://www.ymr2u.com

Sate ikan

Awak penah makan? Sedapppp!!! Time kecik dulu saya sangat rajin beli kat depan sekolah. Satu cucuk seposen. Apa yang best? Ntah.... Biasa aje sebenarnya. Hehe..

Tadi masa amik Adam, dia tanya "mama nak satay ikan?". "Boleh juga," kata saya & I gave Adam lima ringgit, suruh dia beli dua ringgit sate ikan.

Macam mana dia berlari pegi, macam tu jugaklan dia berlari balik dengan 2 plastik sate ikan. Dapat lima cucuk aje. Maknanya sekarang harga dia dah jadik dua posen. Tak pela.. Masih sedap. Kami makan kat situ jugak.

Habis makan saya mintak air bekalan Adam. "mama nak air with taste?". "adam nak beli air apa?". "they have pepsi light & milo". "milo will do".

Vroommmm.. Adam berlari lagi.

Tiba-tiba hati saya jadi sebak bila terpandang adam kat tangga dengan dua cups milo.

Adam anak yang baik. Kalau disuruh, tak pernah membantah. Cepat menangis kalau tersentuh. Manja. Penyayang. Kalau saya demam, dia la yang sibuk nak letak kain basah atas dahi saya, selimutkan saya, make sure saya ada air untuk minum, etc. Cuma saya la kadang-kadang cepat melenting dengan dia. Kurang sabar. Walau macam mana pun saya marah dia, dia akan datang peluk saya, minta maaf & gives a kiss on my cheek. Haih... Syahdu pulak...

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Sebenarnya..... Adam tak suka sangat pun sate ikan tu. Tapi sebab dia tau saya suka, he just want to get it for me...

Ok. Syahdu lagi.....

al-quran

pinjam gamba dari sini: pesonaindahhantaran.blogspot.com

alhamdulillah...

adam dah naik another level. he has been talking about it and feeling excited. semalam, lepas habis kelas agama terus call mama to inform dia dah naik al-quran. i can sense his proud and happy mood. good job adam! ayah semalam pun ikut excited, terus gi beli al-quran kaler merah.

saya naik quran when i was standard 3. i am so sure about it sebab kat quran tu ada tulis "kelas 3 & 4". means i was in standard 3 in al-ansar when uwan & atuk bought me the red quran. eh.. merah jugak? ok. gene yang bagus. the quran is still with me. tapi dah lusuh lah.

ha.. meh nak cerita pasal baca quran ni..

at the time of naik quran, saya tengah banyak kawan. so asyiklah ponteng kelas agama. reason? takde sangat. main beskal pusing2 taman aje. paling best pun lepak minum slurpee kat padang sambil main buaian. so mengaji pun melompat-lompat. sesuka hati skip pages.

habislah kalo anak aku baca ni.. hahaha...

nak dijadikkan cerita, arwah mak ngah (anak opah usu) nak kawin and looking forward for majlis khatam quran. uwan pun nak buat jugaklah my khatam quran. tang harinya tu, mengaji lah saya, cucu makcik jeah ni. hambik!! tergagap-gagap. nak bandingkan dengan ujir anak mak ngah kat kampung tu, memang komfem saya ni tahap baca alif ba ta aje lah lagi. dia baca lancar betul. sampai kat saya asyik-asyik "eh.. eh.. eh.. eh..". mak kata dia rasa nak potong bawang kat dalam toilet dengar saya ngaji. hahahahahha.. ampun mak.

ok. sedap eh gelakkan saya...

mintak-mintak adam dapat khatam quran dengan sebetulnya. janganlah ikut kaedah cepat baca mama ni. hehehehe..

sembang dengan nenek

adam: nenek, i'll be going to london soon

nenek: oh really? why?

adam: visiting ayah's kampung

nenek: oh? eh?

(mama sudah blushing kat driver's seat)

adam: yes. ayah is from london. then he came to malaysia. he has sold his house in london. so now we want to visit his kampung-lah

pengsan!

bertuah punya ayah. kelentong anak dia kaw-kaw punya...

ya ampun!!!!

Weakness

I cannot-lah teach adam. Rasa geram senantiasa. Rasa macam dia selalu leka-leka and then cuai...

Seingatan saya, tak pernah lagi kot si adam tu tak menangis kalau mama ni mengajar. Mujurlah saya tak jadi cikgu. Kalau tak, femesla nama sekolah asyik masuk surat khabar. Hahaha..

nape saya nak kurus

ok. selain mendapat saranan dan jelingan manja di setiap kali advertisement london management, saya personally rasa, saya kena kuruskan badanlah.

point satu - bukan nak melawa. tapi nak pakai baju yang mudah. takde lah bonjol-bonjol sana sini kan.. la ni, kalo pakai baju longgar mana, mesti ada perasaan bonjol jugak. mmm.. oklah. bonjol tu takleh nak avoid. tapi, kalo boleh sorok, nak soroklah kan. dahlah bonjol tu tak de exclusive mana. hahahahah...

point dua - membanggakan la sikit encik suami. ok. memanglah dia tak penah cakap apa pun. gemuk pun dia ok. kurus kendenking pun dia ok. tapi naklah jugak bagi dia bangga bila orang kata "tengok tu, anak dua badan cantik lagi..." gitu.. kan?

point tiga - tak kuasaaaaaaaaa nak jawab soalan "bila due?"

ok. point tiga has overpowered all the reasonings.

kurus! kurus! harus lose weight!

sapa nak lauk lebih untuk lauk lemak cili padi, sila hubungi saya. hehehehe...

campur-campur

done with tax. yehooo!

yesterday i left office at 11. had a very bad cold. better leave before i spread the virus to everybody who are looking forward for some nice weekend & spring break.

gaji minggu depan baru masuk. addeehh...

have not visited any new born yet! ayoyo!!! bad! very very bad!

bercerita pasal baby ni, terasa pulak nak baby lagi. semalam gatal-gatal tanya encik suami.

i: you nak baby lagi tak?

he: no

aleh.. menyampah!

tak pe.. another baby is coming to rafei's clan. alhamdulillah. dikurniakan adik ipar dikalangan sharp shooter jugak. muehehehehehe...

ok. baking time. alhamdulillah, rezeki berlipat ganda.

hello?

caller: can i speak to anne rafei?

me: yes?

caller: rafei, i'm xyz from 1234 company.

one moment i was.. what??!! rafei?? then, i was like.. mmm... sukahati ko lah.. it was a Malaysian company and local cina bukit voice some more. So calling surname is surely something... different..

me: ok

caller: yesterday, ms. abc came to our office to do yadayadayadayadayada..

cut the story short..

me: yes. i'm aware of the letter. and she's our staff

caller: so i can proceed?

me: yes, please

caller: ok. who's that?

me: er.. anne?

caller: oh. yes.

conversation was not more than 2 minutes. she called me. and she asked my name, again? cam kelakar pulak rasa....

London management

We were watching tv one day and adam started this conversation.

Adam: Mama, I think you should consider going there

Mama: there? Why?

(Oh! It was London Management's advertisement, by the way...)

Adam: well.... I dont know. Maybe you should

Mama: you think i'm that fat?

Adam: noooooo.....

Mama: are you ashamed that i'm fat?

Adam: no lah mama.. I just want you to look good and feel healthy.

My son is so sweet kan? And truth is so hurting kan? Huhuhu....

projek nilam

adam wants to buy this one wii game - i don't know what's the name; it sounds so "action" pack - and ayah wants him to gain it on his own. thus, adam made an offer to me. "mama, i help you with your house works and can i get paid?". i agreed, but my house works are so little to offer. so, we found another alternatives.

during this school holiday, adam was assigned to read story books. he had too much of games and tv already. as i mentioned, the bait was you read and you gain. yesterday, he brought along the book given by aunty ad for his birthday to opah's house. one of enid blyton's series.

the promise: one story = RM2.00. one book = RM5.00

adam, being a mathematical person had a check up before me.

the book has 20 odd numbers of stories. if he read the whole book in a day, he'll get RM5. no profit to him. hence, yesterday he read 4 stories. he gained RM8.00. by end of the week, if he is able to finish the whole book, he could gain more or less RM50.00. correct?

boleh jadik businessman budak ni.

hahahaha...

unforeseen

i need to draft a resignation letter soon than i thought i'd be.

my stress level has doubled my height.

if you know your incapability is in figure & number, then find a way to substitute the weakness. find a solution so that your incapability does not defined as stupidity. search for assistance in coping with the weakness. and you'll be seen as smart ass.

i am tired being (seen as) one of the donkey clerks.

Emo strikes again

Somebody asked me one same question twice. And again two days ago. And again today. It was a complete annoyance.

I got snapped. Raised my voice. And i cried. Guilt built in. I sent an apology text. And I cried again.

Could it be my hormones or am i just simply emotional by nature?

*sigh*

move on..

reconciliation means a lot. but when one side is championing and another side is left offended, does the objective achieved?

hands shaken but heart broken. where's your lead? emotionally still no where. left here still.. swamped.

ah! move on.. gua malas nak amik cara..

Saya sangat bertuah..

Sebab suami saya tak pernah larang saya nak kuar minum or outing dengan kawan-kawan saya. Janji dia tau saya kuar dengan sapa dan ke mana. Yelah... Kot nanti ada bangunan meletup ke, banjir ke, bomb attack ke senang dia nak claim body saya nanti. Uiii... Mintak disimpangkan. Aminnnnn...

Saya juga rasa bertuah dia penjimat orangnya. Dia jarang call saya. Teknologi messaging kan ada. Dia pulak orang IT. Jadi kena la ikut kaedah terkini. Baru kelasss. Jadi saya tak hairan kalau bill dia hanya bayar monthly fees. Kalau ada call charge pun, itu mungkin nombor kenalan yang penting baginya. Asyik bercakap dengan saya pun bosan jugak kan. Kena pulak saya ni memang suka bercakap & share dengan dia. Tak henti nanti.. Camno nak jawab tu nanti? Hehehe..

Kot saya marah ke merajuk ke, saya tak perlu nak tunggu bunga ke cokelat ke tetiba datang kat opis. Sebab saya memang x suka bunga. Bunga kat umah pun dah jadi tempat tido kucing. Membazirlah kalo dia nak surprisekan saya gitu. Baik bawak saya pegi makan. Perut pun kenyang. Tokey restoren pun suka. Hahaha...

Lepas tu, saya tak payah harap dia call lah. Sebab dia tak kan punya. Satu, ke arah penjimatan. Dua, saya ni senang nak pujuk. Selalunya saya pujuk diri sendiri aje. Tak payah nak susah-susahkan orang. Pesan orang tua-tua tu... Ingat elok-elok.

Kalau ada any suggestions nak tukar itu ke, amik pembantu ke, nak pegi sana sini ke, kami selalu bersepakat agar kos ditanggung oleh saya. Sebab hak saya dia simpan dan tabungkan dulu. Sampai bila kot nanti dia tak panjang umur, saya dah tak payah fikir nak cari duit tambahan. Berfikir panjang kan? Tip top punya!

Itulah...
Saya dah kata...
Saya sangat bertuah...

Ya Allah, Kau panjangkan jodoh kami. Kau tabahkanlah hati kami menempuh dugaan hidup yang Kau beri. Tingkatkanlah kesabaran kami kerana kami hanya insanMu yang lemah.

Amin...

Sense of belonging

Mama: adam, your baju sukan is already so comot. Your teacher didn't ask you to buy a new baju sukan?

Adam: no. Why mama?

Mama: no la... You look at airiel. He has the baju sukan. The blue colour shirt. Yours is white. Dont you have sports day soon?

Adam: err... Sports day? I dont know..

Couple of minutes later with the topic was still on going and we were still chit chatting about what is a sports day, what we had done during the sports day, yada-yada-yada..

Adam: oh mama.. Teacher said i have to buy the baju sukan and last day is tomorrow.

Mama: what? Did you tell ayah?

Adam: err... Yes

Mama: what did he say?

Adam: he just kept quite.

It's a frustration on my end. Despite that i have been asking him about whats happening and was there any messages from the teacher on a 5 school days basis, he did not pass this message on to me.

We had a similar incident before. He lost his colour pencils and he had an exam the next day that requires him to have the colour pencils. He told ayah but none of the message reached me. What ayah did was collected all adam's only god knows where & what kind of colour pencils that he found in the house; put it in a bag and gave it to his son to use in the school. Objective? To teach adam a lesson to not lose things. Good intention in a way, but for an exam? And where was i in this family picture of ours? Odd, i feel cropped from the frame.

I'm in my emotional state at the moment. Dont know if it's mensus or pre-menopause. But it IS my frustration. I am so feeling not needed.

Ok. Time to wipe the tears & hop to the office. A place that i feel more welcoming & needed. Even the morning is sympathatic.

*sigh*

Kebanjiran lagi..

Saya sudah sangat menyampah dengan jiran/kontraktor sebelah umah ni. Ntah bila la penthouse 13 tingkat dia nak siap. Rasa macam dah banyak sabar dah ni...

Hari ni air masuk lagi kat siling. Plaster siling umah ni yang satu masa dulu ada kebanggaan saya, sekarang dah macam mangga kecut. Cokelat kusam. Tunggu hari nak bertukar baru. Bila? Kena tunggu penthouse sebelah umah ni siap.

Dari raya tahun lepas, ni dah nak raya lagi beberapa bulan. Umah kami masih lagu tu. Takkan raya tahun ni kami kena avoid tetamu lagi??

Ok. Ini cuma sebahagian siling yang badly affected. Malas nak tunjuk gamba yang lain.

I dont know. I just hope we can go on well once tuan rumah dah masuk. Of which i didnt get good impression from the (second) wife. Nonetheless, hidup berjiran. Saba ajelah.

Ni yang rasa nak duduk kat umah tak jejak tanah ni. Tapi.... Susah pulak orang nak menyinggah. Heii... Macam-macam........

Time difference

I drove off at 7:08am, i arrived office at 7:35am.

If i started my journey at 7:03am, i'll be in the office at 7:20am

5 minutes difference to reach early. Why not... Eh?

But traffic is like the usual crawl. As always. Nothing to comment. The only good is, i got to beat those crowd that sending kids to school. That is a whole lot of patience reconciliation.

Phew! Time to work now..