tough nite

it has been a tough nite for me, made and adam. both me and made are trying very hard to get rid of adam's habit - nyonyot puting.

our little treasure is turning 4 this year. we think, it's time that adam put off that habit.

we have actually went into battles with adam:

1. we told him to leave the puting if he wants to watch tv - failed. it's either mama or ayah is too bz with the computers and didn't realize this young guy is enjoying his puting. bad parenting :(
   
2. we told him that he will get his toys if he willingly put the puting away - failed. we love buying toys for adam. seeing him enjoying his toys makes us on the top of the world (tho i know the toys either wont last, or he woulnd't be bothered about it after a day or two)
   
3. we told him that puting is only for him to sleep - failed. everytime also "mama, saya nak tido", :P there was one time that he actually sneaked into my room and came out after 5 minutes. the 2nd time he did it, i saw him nyonyot puting. alahai kesiannye.. purposely went into the room to have some private time with his puting
   
4. we hide the puting from his view - failed. somehow or rather, either mama or ayah will kesian tengok anak takde puting
5. we let him play, enjoy the tv, and do whatever he wants to do as long as he doesn't ask for puting - failed. whenever we were out of sight, he'll grab the puting
6. we made him tired by playing, do whatever he wants to do so that he could fall asleep easily - failed. in the middle of the nite, he'll ask for puting

we've lost the battles. so tonite, we decided to go into war.

we told him not to take the puting, not to think of the puting. uh.. being a psycho is so tough! we even showed him picture of "mr. os". ** ampunlah.... mintak ampun banyak2. niat kami suci murni ** then he fall asleep. we were glad. 10 minutes after, he woke up and started asking for puting. i put him on bed. he was crying hard. we tried being psycho once again and told him that puting is not good. and we asked him "adam sayang mama tak?" not a nod. "adam sayang ayah tak?" also not a nod. bad sign. "adam sayang sapa?" "puting" adooooohai....

we then drastically decided that if he chose puting, then he has to sleep alone in his room. need not to guess. he chose to be with his puting in his room. so we left him there. we switched off all the lights and we closed our door. but we were actually waiting for him in the hall - ayah and mama to the rescue la kononnya. he didn't cry at first. then after a while, we heard him sobbing - very hard! we rushed in and ayah told him to let go his puting if he wants to sleep with mama and ayah. and he finally said yes.

phew! what a nite. now he's fully awake after the hard times mama and ayah gave him. hahahaha..

i hope, adam will say bye-bye to his little (but many) puting
and i hope maknek will help us out a bit
with extra lil' hope that nenek wont be saying "ha.. bagi puting dia. mana puting dia? dia nak puting lah tu.."

nitey-nite

"super adam to the rescue"

post note: as i was typing this post, adam was on his bed, behind me. when i turned to him, we was with his puting. he quickly put it away and said "takde. takde apa2 pun" and left. alahai.. ciannye anak mama.

aiseymen......

tangan ni gatal

browse internet

jumpa gamba ni

aiseymen

camne nak tido ni...

ngehngehngeh

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op.... sat-sat.. bunyik pulak hp ni... eh eh.. cam tau je org tengah tengok gamba dia...

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okie dokie. nitey-nite. lena la mek tidoq malam ni :D

i did it my way!

and now, the end is near
and so i face, the final curtain
my friend, i'll say it clear
i'll state my case, of which i'm certain
i've lived, a life that's full
i've traveled each and every highway
and more, much more than this
i did my way

regrets, i've had a few
but then again, too few to mention
i did, what i had to do
and saw it through without exemption
i planned, each charted course
each careful step along the byway
and more, much more than this
i did i my way

yes! there were times
i'm sure you knew
when i bit off more than i could chew
but through it all when there was doubt
i ate it up and spit it out
i faced it all and i stood tall
and did it my way

i've loved, i've laughed and cried
i've had my fill, my share of losing
and now, as tears subside
i find it all so amusing
to think i did all that
and i may say not in a shy way
"oh no! oh no! not me, i did my way!

for what is a man
what has he got
if not himself, then he has naught
to say the thing he truly feels
andn ot the words of one who kneels
the record shows i took the blows
and DID IT MY WAY!

***

my dearie friends,

i'm truly sorry for some confuse posts i had for the past few days. at first i was in that stage myself, but then some best buddies had made it clear for me. thanks

julie, as far as i'm agreeable to what u've mention, i think it's all depends on one's character themselves. i have a friend, whom has been with me since i was 10, and we had wonderful years growing up together. and indeed, we quarreled, didn't get along in some matters, but she's still by my side when i need her the most. and her mom cooks nice soto :) yes ayu, u know who u are to me :D besides that, i have geena, dee, awa and some others. er... nazim should not fall into any categories ok? ngehngehngeh

we fight, we quarrel, we have crossed into each others' path for some reasons. that's human. that makes a friend, special. **i'm trying hard not to talk craps here, tho my mind has some bad points to note down*** i'm a bull horse. i'm a determined person and stubborn. i know myself. big headed with big dreams. but i'm a bull that dare to face the reality. that will mellow down when the time has come to forgive and forget. that doesn't count any pennies for what she has paid. and will stumble when she falls. i guess only my "friends" will know who i am, how i thought and definitely who am i to them. i'm blessed that in december, i met a friend from my primary school, a friend from my secondary school and also a dearie friend of my itm team. and i'm glad that the bounding are still intact!

i went for a hair cut today. mudahan buang suwei yg ada :P

i wish for a great year ahead
i wish for a better me
i wish for a toyota wish (eh.. boleh gitu che nani?) hahahaha

HAPPY NEW YEAR FRIENDS!

ngok ngek pala kemek

i've expected (again)

couldn't be bother

ego + stupidity = arrogant

lantak sama kamu

tidak kuasa mahu melayan

doakan yg baik2 aja

"a great year ahead"

insya Allah

** thinking again, hati masih sayang. tapi dalam kepala masing2 ada batu, itu pasal la laga2 takde pecah. the best? buat bodo je la.. go with the flow **

*** kak nomi, confius lagi? hahahaha.. ini macam typical lawan surat cinta la. but this one is electronically. canggih siket ler. when two heads collide, satu jadik ngok, satu jadi ngek. dua2 pun pala kemek. hahahaha ***

miss-judge?

i have somehow knew this would happen. dejavu!

she probably knew or probably not. when she does thing, things comes back to me. i'll be asked for million things. "why you let her do that?", "why dont you tell me?". why? why? why? and me? proper judgment will do. never want to interfere. never want to create more mess

she probably knew or probably not. when she's on a hot sit. i'm hot too. as if whenever she does wrong. i'll be the one to be blamed. no fair, not that i want. but i care less. indeed a friend
i'd do more for her

she probably knew or probably not. when she does good thing i'd be proud. i'd bring donuts when she's feeling ain't alright. never i want to judge. nor i want to umpire

i dont come to u for ur big car
- got one myself
i dont come to u for ur fame
- never knew u until u told me
i dont come to u for opportunity
- first move was for a lunch buddy
i dont come to u to call u stupid
- u've always had that in ur mind, even before i came

stupidity for things u already knew. but yet u're doing it again and again. stupidity for whom u already knew. but yet u're telling them more and more. that's u. and i cant change that

but i think i should probably have known. a scorpio and a bull has tendency to fight. a dragon and a horse can get crossed. thats all written. in the fate of life

i wouldn't answer a question that never been asked. why should i counter when the question was not "kenapa sejak aku kawan dengan ko, apa aku buat semua salah?". if that was not the question, i wouldnt be answering "kalo ko rasa kawan dengan aku semua ko buat salah, then jangan kawan dengan aku". logic?

i'm a 4 months baby. i'm due for any mistakes. people look at me for any blunders. have u ever care about it? have u ever consider when u decided to do things. people make noise on you
and i have to take the blame? i stood poised for you. for what i believe, i've seen and i've heard. and that's what my lady is proud me

anyways, the not approved audible "hmmph" was for me to think what's good to say. the best i can do rather that i'd keep quite and u'd go sulking for a late response

misjudge? i dont think. opinion, indeed. when things dont get ur ways. u get crossed, isn't it? then u get upset. then u start to tell things. thats when all things got fired up. come on lah! same goes to me

deep inside me, i was ashamed. for someone like u. saying "aku lagi tau dari mak aku". arrogant to me. but, hey! that's just u. yes u maybe. but... the tone and sound impact completely

sacred as i may be. dedicated as i always be. but if u tend to have "scared" spelled, then nope, nope, sorry. why should i be?

just one thing i'd like u to know, i've enjoyed the ship between us. and the only thing that i only need to know "have u ever thought of me whenever u do things?"

hey my friend, i've tried to help and pull u off the hot sit. as i want u to off my lady's big binocular (that she'll off off my big fat ass too). but it seems that it's not ur call. and that's all urs.

thanking you! and wishing u a great year ahead!!

katamu, kataku

katamu,
ilmumu melebihi orang itu

kataku,
mana rukuk, sujud, pelengkap auratmu?

katamu,
tahumu abadimu nanti

kataku,
aku sendiri tidak pasti

katamu,
sayangmu petah, lincah, hype!

kataku,
pasti! tapi akankah dia akur?

tanyamu,
mengapa seringkali jejambat ini meningkah lakuku?

jawabku,
jika jejambat ini yang merantaimu, leraikan saja. let it go

kerna
aku tidak bisa benar pintamu
aku tidak bisa penuhi anganmu
aku tidak bisa karib hanya di mimpimu
aku tidak bisa mengangguk bila tidak mengiya

kau tahu aku
aku tidak berbisa
bila aku tidak perlukan sengatnya

kau tahu ini untukmu
kau tidak perlukan spice-nya

aku? ya! aku rasa incomplete
tapi biarlah
jika freedom yang lebih kau perlukan

layan seh..

woohooo.. besok keje...

how did i spend my holidays?

day one - hari raya aidiladha. made some lodeh and sent it to mak's. then headed to aunt atheera's in puchong. spent one whole day kat sana macam takde umah sendiri :)

day two - went to tupperware to pick up some stuff. waited for made until he's done with his friday's prayer. then to kenny rogers's for lunch. that nite we brought bapak and mak for some nice dinner in cozy corner, ampang park.

day three - cant remember what we did. i think the whole day spent with downloaded games for myself and downloaded manga for made. and also some nice songs from jiwang.org for my pc in the office. boss takde bolehlah mak bergendang gendut kat opis..

then we got a call from along inviting us for dinner with his mom in law. we went and we stayed on to discuss on our "BURPING" project

day four - we went to pizza hut for lunch then to maxvalu - the new store in ampang, for some groceries. then to manjaku - behind carrefour wangsa maju to buy adam's diapers. it's so cheap over there. huggies costs rm42.90 in maxvalu and only rm33.90 in this store. spend wisely my friends :)

nite, we had our "BURPING" first meeting and brainstorming session. what's "BURPING?" check it out next year....

day five - time spent redecorating my lovely kitchen :) come la visit. sangat shantik tauuu..

day six - ho ho ho.. merry x'mas. buat office works yg dari day one ditangguhkan. muahahaha.. then kemas bilik adam.

and here i am still with the computer before me. updating bits and pieces of what i've done and what i wanna share with you.

anyways, have you checked out my new counting days widget and the music player? the music player is auto play. dont know how to make it played on request. pepandailah korang off kan sendirik ye. and the counting days widget is for you know what la kan? ehem.. ehem.. ehem...

andddddddd...... here's what i've been doing in a couple of hours:



and this



layan kan? hehehehe..

again, the 2 songs that i've grown up with. those times, these are my fav idols. tommy page, of course for his cute face. and nkotb for errr.. their cuteness oso. hehehehe.. my fav was jordan. look at how they dance and ehem.. sing. tommy's song has always been my favourite. the wordings are so right.. dont you think?

dengan itu saya melantik lagu tommy page untuk menjadik theme song untuk blog saya.

sekian terima kasih..

aik.. apesal asik cakap ala2 MD ni? apa yg dah berlaku ni? hmmm...... mesti "BURPING" punya penangan ni ...

rock kapak

yesterday we went to pizza hut wangsa maju for lunch. food sedap -for sure. one additional point for this pizza hut is that, they aired rock kapak songs that both me and made grew up with.

"misteri mimpi syakila", "umpama mimpi dalam mimpi", "rozana" are among others. sangat layan.. macam kembali ke zaman riang ria muda rumaja pulak perasaannya :)

they stopped the songs untuk memberi laluan kepada lagu happy birthday for this one little boy. sangat ceria budak itu. thus i have made an additional note for my next year's birthday wish...

me, myself and i would like to wish for a SURPRISE BIRTHDAY PARTY

muahahahaha...

i have even gave made instructions of what to do and whom to contact. boleh gitu?

so my friends, whom knew and value the friendship with this cute little owner, writer, author, whateva of this blog, u know what to do, right? it's soon dear. u ought to do some preparation dearies.. month of May is just around the calendar. tell me, do you need made's number?

did i sound a little pathetic?

aaaahhh.. tidak ku pedulikkkkkkkkk

hahhahaha..

opocot.. birthday party pulak..

terkejut i
ngehngehngehngeh..

:P

small water and big water

some call it wee-wee. some call it as pee-pee. and even shee-shee. i sometimes call it cecen, or she-sheng or at times, tenching. kurang segan silu sikit, adalah org yang panggil kencheng. commonly known as buang air kecik la. any others or not?

for the other type of "water", some call it yayak. i call it as simple as it is.. berak. hahhaha.. sometimes, when my manja2 mood comes, then it'll sound a little nicer la.. berak ucuk (uh.. what makes the different rite?)

back to what i want to ask you all.. when you do the small thing business, do you all do it as it is no body else's business or do you do it shy-shy one? yup-yup.. i know. what kind of question la this lady bringing out.. this lady got nothing else to ask or what.. let me assure you that this question is made only for the sake of asking ok... nothing personal and i hope i dont offend anyone.

the thing is.. i know some of you mite be shy a bit in the four-walls- little-cubicle where you tend not to let others hear you are shee-shee'ing. rite or not? and you go shee-stop-shee-stop-shee-stop... kan? kan? kan? and some of you can just let it go thinking that no body couldn't be bother about it.. and you go ttttttzzzzzzzzzzzz with a little "ah" when you're done.. betul tak?

hahaha.. sorrylah.. i had this thing on my mind since yesterday. i was in this hotel. and i was really in need for some personal time. when i'm in a very nice hotel or public toilet, i tend to be a little shy in the toilet. shee-shee also shy2. whereas at the same time i could hear my next door neighbour shee-shee like the ultraman firing the raksaksa.. bzzzzzzzzzz.. and the raksaksa dies.. hahaha.. walawei.. she could kill the germs lah, i tell u.. bulleyes punya!

and earlier that day, i was in a public toilet belongs to this govt office. there was a very nice looking lady went into the toilet before me. this lady, who chosen to be in the cubicle next to me went bzzz-silent-bzzz-silent-bzzz-silent-ahhh..

so i was just wondering about you guys la.. how you "perform" eh? hehehehhee

i remember the first time ever that i had to use a toilet without salur getah. it was in glenmarie. i pandang kiri, pandang kanan, thinking.. "macam mana nak basuh ni?" then i turned on this pipe, next to the basin. next thing i knew, habis basah my pants sebab the water shot out from inside the basin itself. at that time, i couldnt be bother pun.. i was only 12, i think.. hehehehe.. basah oso no harm to me :) if it's going to happen to me now, i think i'll sue the inventor. hahahaha

another thing is... what do you do when doing ur "big water" time? i know some will be enjoying reading magazines, comics, newspapers, etc. some will be sms'ing. some will be doing some business proposal. rite? ala.. dont lie la.. i know one.. hahahaha..

when i know i'll be having "hard" time with my "big water" i tend to bring along anything to read. most of the time will be my catalogues la. i dont like sitting there, having some hard time and i cant do much. it's hard being a multi-tasker, isn't it?

hey.. that's just me.. tell me about you la.. apa macam? berani ka?

seorang yang bernama marie-france

she's a teacher with iskl. sangat easy going. sangat.... bengong.. hehehe.. at first i had a little goosy-moosy feeling to start a conversation with her. but i was then couldn't stop talking. one, she asks a lot, she talks a lot. second, she's fun. bottom line, she's totally adorable. main thing about ms. marie-france blais, she has this "all-out" attitude.

u knowlah.. iskl got this theme, that theme, pyjamas la, halloween la, stripe la, polka dot la. and this marie-france, when it comes to a themed day, she'll dress up accordingly and she has never failed to be an eye catcher..

enjoy some of her pics..

theme: rock & roll
"elvis presley"
yang baju hitam skirt hijau tu memang over sket :P

theme: halloween day
"hantu"
yang berkelip2 & penuh lampu tajaan tnb tu adalah kelas dia. best kan?

"hantu" iskl

"hantu" dah insaf

saya anak malaysia

pada satu ketika, perarakan bagi saya adalah perarakan hari merdeka yang diadakan setiap tahun pada tarikh 31 ogos. kalau adapun perarakan lain, ia mencampur adukkan pelbagai bunga yang ada di alam flora.

perarakan yang saya tahu dulu, mengumpulkan semua rakyat MALAYSIA. baik dia beragama islam, hindu, kristian, buddha, tidak beragama dan sebagainya. di dalam perarakan itu juga terdapat bangsa yang terdiri daripada bangsa iban, melanau, kadazan, india, cina, melayu dan lain-lain lagi. di dalam perarakan itu juga pelbagai persatuan bersatu padu. baik umno, mic, mca, pas, semangat 46, perikatan, dan lain-lain.

tetapi setelah 29 tahun, saya diperkenalkan dengan perarakan yang bagi saya bak mengikut fesyen terkini dan peredaran zaman kononnya. mengikut negara barat yang seringkali mengadakan perarakan kerana terdapat ketidakpuashatian. perlukah adanya perarakan ini? perlu sangatkah kita up-to-date mengikuti budaya yang satu ini?

lepas ini apa? akan ada yang mengamuk membawa pistol, membunuh semua orang? akan ada yang mencantas kepala orang sesuka hati mak pak dia? akan ada yang meludah ke muka kawan-kawan kerana tidak berpuas hati?

tidak banggakah kita dengan nenek moyang kita? nama-nama nenek moyang ini terpahat dengan bangganya di bangunan-bangunan. di jalan-jalan raya. di buku-buku sejarah. tidak ada sekelumit rasa gah kah mereka ini melihat nama nenek moyang mereka ini? nenek moyang yang dikatakan (ini interpretation saya ye...) menyusahkan mereka sudahnya? pandangan pertama saya, tidak suka, tidak puas hati, pulanglah... jangan buat kacau. awak rasa awak ada negara awak sendiri, then pack your stuff and leave. tapi saya masih ada rasa perasaan muhibah di hati. saya masih ada perasaan kasih pada sahabat-sahabat saya yang berlainan bangsa dan agama ini. saya masih mahukan mereka di sini

duduklah di sini. di malaysia ini tidak seperti negara lain. tidak seperti negara yang masih mengamalkan kasta. tidak seperti negara yang tidak mampu berbahasa inggeris kecuali bahasa mereka sendiri. tidak seperti negara yang ketuanya hanya sibukkan negara orang lain dan tidak peduli apa yang berlaku di negaranya sendiri.

kita di sini aman. bahagia. rukun dan damai. apa lagi yang kurangnya? fahaman politik, tidak puas hati tentang bangsa, agama hanya perkara jijik. saya islam. saya diajar agar menghormati agama lain. saya diajar agar menghormati pegangan orang lain. saya tidak mengutuk agama itu. saya tidak mengutuk kaum itu. walaupun ya ada, sekali-sekala saya mengutuk juga.. siapalah saya kan.. hanya manusia jua. tapi itu bukan secara global. itu secara persendirian. kerana personaliti seseorang itu sendiri. kerana stupidity seseorang. dan seseorang itu, pada saya, tidak mampu mewakilkan seluruh bangsa, agama mahupun kaumnya.

saya berkata sebagai rakyat malaysia. rakyat malaysia yang adakalanya tidak setuju dengan dasar kerajaan. rakyat malaysia yang hanya bercakap sendirian dan berbincang bersama teman lain. dan sebagai rakyat malaysia yang ingin berterusan mengecapi keamanan dan kedamaian yang telah dirasai selama 29 tahun ini.

mana-mana kita pergi, akan adanya ketidakadilan. kemana pun kaki melangkah akan adanya rasa tidak suka dan "this is not fair". tapi hidupla kita seadanya. pegangan saya, "we cant change the surrounding or environment, but we still can adapt into it".

hujan emas di negara org, hujan batu di negara sendiri

tidak ada bangsa lain, saya hanya kenal ali, abu, dan minah. dengan ada bangsa lain, saya kenal ah seng, john, siva, lengau dan sebagainya. thesaurus saya bertambah. contact list saya berganda. saya rasa bangga. tidakkah anda?

i miss u, dearly

pagi tadi mokteh talipon. i didnt answer. i didnt notice it actually. tapi rasanya dah tau kenapa dia kol... today is 22 november 2007. time flies...

i wish i could turn back the time. i wish i could still be a person that is so close to my heart. a person who has important role in me. a person when she was still alive, she was being so strong for everybody.. yet, i've made her cried once. that was when i talked about pokde. she has never lose her faith in pokde. pokde was an addict. masuk kuar serenti, confirm. and she has never failed to visit pokde whenever he was behind bars. we have never been there. neither on ourselves nor with her. she has always been there alone. pagi raya, org tak siap berbaju raya, dia dah called. "bila nak gi kubur ni?" lambat means, she'll go by taxi. she's not willing to wait. she's so independent. after that, she'll make her way to visit pokde. terkulat-kulat la kami ni tunggu dia balik. she never bothers. alhamdulillah, all her prayers were answered. pokde kembali ke pangkal jalan. we could never see pokde lepa solat. not even once.

air tangan dia is the best. the best ever. you could ask her to cook anything.. it will never match anybody. jangan "tersebut", confirm dia pun "terbuat". she will buy the ingredients herself. she'll go to pasar pudu. the best place for her shopping. or she'll ask us to buy it for her if we're happen to visit her. she has never failed to say "yes" to any orders. last minute orders pun gerenti siap. turun naik tangga flat 4 tingkat has never been her burden. she wouldnt mind turun naik tangga. lupa beli bawang, turun balik. naik balik. lupa beli garam, turun lagi. then naik lagi. she has never complaint. but we know.. we know she was in pain. the pain that she doesnt want anybody to know. the pain that only once in a blue moon, she'll ask for help.

she's so used living alone. she bought the house for dear paklong. but paklong has his own plans. kalo datang visit, kadang2, dia tertido sambil tunggu anak cucu datang. cian dia.. but she has never complaint. malam pun dia tak kisah. petang pun tak pe.. kalo tertido, dia bangun. kalo dia solat, kita la tunggu... tapi skang umah tu jadik macam gajah putih. hanya ada pokde sorang. anak cucu tak lagi datang. rumah tu dah tak meriah. dah takde makanan best2. ada pun habuk. ada pun kenangan. ada pun barang2 dia yg no body dares to touch. to much emotions..

she's always there for me.. i was brought up in kg pandan, that was my kampung. my favourite place to lepak. why? because she's there. she'll always back me up. no matter what happened. cite i masak nasik lupa letak air jadik riuh sekampung. wan milo, wan teksi, nenek kak jannah, pakat gelak ramai2. anak dara nak belajar masak. gitulah... again, she'll keep on teaching. turunkan ilmu di dada.. anak cucu je tak pandai grab opportunity..

now she's no longer here. no longer to be my shoulder to cry on.

i always let her play with her thoughts.... let her be.. and now i miss her thoughts. her words, her hugs & kisses. i miss her smell and i miss her being my side. i miss her a lot. all i have are memories. all i got are just flashbacks. i wish she's beside me. i wish she'll always there for me. i wish she's back......

i wish she's never been there... been there away from me... been there in her lovely house..

ya Allah.. ampunkanlah hambaMu ini. hambaMu yg amat merindui uwannya. hambaMu yg seringkali leka dengan kurniaanMu. hambaMu yg kerdil dan seringkali alpa dan lupa. ampunkanlah hambaMu ini.. aku tau... uwan aman di sana. uwan damai di sana. uwan tenang di sana. insya Allah...

alfatihah


"uwan.... kita rindu uwan tau.. kita sayang uwan tau"

"ye.. aku tau"

it seems like yesterday....

sayang bini?

a) bawak gi habib jewels, poh kong dan kedai yg sewaktu dengannya

b) bagi rm lima puluh ribu sahaja setiap bulan

c) belikan kereta berjenama mewah dan tukar setiap 6 bulan

d) semua di atas

tet! too bad. pepatah melayu berkata, sayang bini tinggal-tinggalkan. :P

once again i thank Allah swt for the opportunity of having a circle of friends that has been very supportive and concern about me. i can never thank each of you. hopefully cukuplah sekadar i wish all of you well too and hopefully to be by your side whenever you need me around.

this "opportunity" of being left behind, or should i say "a single handed mother" temporarily has a bit taught me to be taugh & strong for you loved one. i'm known as kememe and dependent to my other half. so when he has to be away (like this), i learn to do things on my own. dalam erti kata sebenarnya, aku ni pemaleh... dah kena tinggal sendiri ni, kena buatlah.. kalo tak, nak harap sapa lagi nak buatnye... hahahahah

if made used to wash adam's poo-poo, since he's away, i have to do it. adam dahlah berak satu malam berkali2. apa la dia makan kat umah mak nek tu..

if made used to make adam's food & susu, since he's away, the role is mine. adam sangat picky ok. but lucky he's ok with pizza, biskut & spateti. pick up the phone and order.. wow.. menakjubkan

if made is the one who throw the rubbish every morning, since he's away, that's my job. tapi pagi tadi terlupa. hahahhaha

but above all, i miss the moment when we complete the task together :(

if i were to wash the clothes & start the washing machine, he will hang all the clothes. or sometimes, we will do it together

if i were to angkat the kain, he will angkat the bakul

if i were to lipat the kain, he will lipat yang cepentot

if i were to finish lipat-ing the kain, he will kemas all of it and ruin my colour coding of my tudung. :P

thanks for the advance of technology. we feel so close despite being physically apart. made has set up googletalk so that we could have a mean of communication. smses and phone calls are toooooo expensive for a middle-of-the-month-trip.

adam was so good yesterday. well.. tho ada sikit naughty, rasa tak sampai hati nak marah. buatnya dia nangis mintak ayah, satu keje pulak la nak kena beli tiket gi thailand.. ngehngehngeh..

miss u honey.. eh.. ni bukan honey.. ni panthy. ngehngehngeh...

saja nak tanya.. korang baca made tu as "made in china" ke made as my pronunciation? it's ma-de tau.. made in kelantan. hehehe

marriage proposal - another dimension

i thank all for your comments on my "marriage proposal" post. so glad that i know i have the bestest friends all around me. however, i'm so sorry to admit that the post on "marriage proposal" was not actually on a friend getting married, left me behind, or any sort of that matter. it was actually about me & my good-friend-for-life, made.

he is indeed the bestest, closest friend i've ever had. when you all have some little dirty secret with your loved one, i dont have any with my other half. i told him everything... uh.. almost everything la. :P

basically, the post was meant for made.

the marriage proposal was actually an offer of transfer that made received few weeks ago. i've been asking him to seek for any opportunities to work in KL. but he was so happy with his current position & work, which is 30km away from the house and cost him an hour or so to get to his office. so when he got this offer, i was so delighted. little that i know, he'd be traveling - a lot...

this transfer means he has to travel to the other joint venture company for the systems set up and other IT thingy. it's not soooo far, indeed. only in thailand. yes thailand. when u'd be thinking, oohh.. she must be worrying about the "chickens"; actually i'm more concern of his safety. insya Allah, all will be fine. touchwood!

made was so excited about this transfer. he showed me his chat history with his new colleague and we had quite an exciting conversation about it until suddenly he stopped talking about it. the next thing i knew, he came back from a barber shop and told me "yang, i nak gi amik gambar for my passport. i ingat nak gi putrajaya besok". i went sulking. why? because i was not informed about the transfer progress. then suddenly, passport. apa nih?

so i built up the wall. sulking for few days. until he wrote me an email explaining the whole thing to me. things settled, he went to the immigration office in wangsa maju. got the passport in an hour. transfer arrangement still in process. and now at the time of typing, he's on his way to KLIA. by the time you're reading, he's already in thailand. uh.. time flies!

this morning when made woke me up for subuh prayer, he has already bathed. i was crossed. we normally bathe together ok.. we prayed together but then i went sulking. why la... why he has to leave me behind. one, the financial planning. then the passport making. and now?

both of us cried. i cried not for i mad with him. that was just a minor reason. i cried because i know i'm going to miss him. i'm going to miss him a lot. the last time he was assigned for a week outstation trip, it was only to bakun. that time, i was still living with my parents and adam was still in my womb. thereafter, it was only local day trips. now that he had to go for a week in thailand, i felt a little emptiness. i nak gaduh ngan sapa? i nak mengadu kat sapa? i nak bermanja ngan sapa? malam nanti i nak tido ngan sapa? huhuhu...

adam was crying yesterday when he saw made packing his things. i pun sayu.. ntahla.. i hope everything will be just fine. ajal, maut, rezeki, jodoh, semuanya kurniaan Allah. angkasawan gi space pun alhamdulillah selamat, yg langgar pillar pulak yg meninggal. kan?

so my dearie friends... please bear with me for a couple of days ye.. :)

ayah, mama, eh... mana adam? rambut je?









ayah, mama, eh eh.. tak muat pulak adam..







ha... adam, mama, ehhhh.. mana ayah ni? maing-maing demo nihhh..

my 2007 raya

i had sort of pathetic raya this time around. read on..

i planned to start cleaning up the house the day before. sekolah cuti. however, i was totally in sleeping mode. i had to force & drag my beautiful-like-the-stars-up-in-the-sky feet & hands to start the cleaning at nite and continue a bit more on the first day of hari raya. too bz with the cleaning that i have totally forgotten to iron made's baju melayu. only realize about it when he woke up and ready for raya's prayer. (ngok ngek laki aku.. dah nak solat raya baru nak bangun tido :P). we all got ready by 10. and made our move to my kampung. ehem.. ehem.. 5 minutes away, no tolls, no traffic, no highways... hahahaha..

main thing in mind, of course, food. i tried not to eat too much but the food were sooooo tempting and has this "marilah-makan-saya-yang-sangat-sedap-ini" look. delicious ok. well, eventhough it is not, somehow, it IS delicious if it was our mom's cooking. aint me rite? mak made some pulut kuning and rendang daging. i'm not fond of rendang ayam. sorry. add in some serunding giler best dari kak yah kelantan. perghh.. 2 words to describe: sangat sedap. sangat leleh air lioq

then salam2 raya. bapak didnt want to put on his baju raya because along took his kain raya back to ipoh. and another thing, his baju raya is actually a baju raya cina which he bought in taiwan recently :P then mak uteh arrived with her "ku lihat hijau" team. sembang2, salam2 we made our move to tanjung malim.

who's in tanjung malim? my darling uwan, of course. i was so agitated at first because some parties were delaying the trip. somehow, hati sangat sayu upon arriving uwan's lovely house. the same old feeling whenever i visit her lovely house. the moment i stepped out of the car, the tears would accompany. nevertheless, i enjoyed this opportunity. the closest moment to her, the closest i could be by her side.

we then visited uwan cik & uwan usu and soon made our way back to kl during the downpour.

the very next day, when it's only 7:30am and our dearly back door neighbour has already started their karaoke session. hampehh.... we then lead our way to nurul's place, then mak's - to get our stomach filled up. heheheh.. and to start our pathetic raya, we made our way to eye on malaysia. sangat beraya di perantauan kan? luckily there was a long queue and drizzles. we moved to our 2nd destination, ikea. amazingly, the store was sooooooo full of people. even the front parking entrance was closed due to overwhelming visitors. we parked our car in the curve instead. for record, only 1/2 hour spent in ikea. first time ever. hahahahaha

then only we went for our raya to kak yam's, zahar's, kak noor's & aiza's place. kembali ke sarang at about 11.30 pm.

3rd raya dah tak tau buat apa. tunggu ajelah barang ikea sampai. kemas rumah ala kadar, and get ready for work the next day. raya ke 4 dah keje ok.. made still on leave. cian i :(

that was my 2007's raya. sangat best. kan? additional note, ma (made's mom) is now in town. so tak balik raya kat kelantan pun tak pe, mak mentua mari turut.. hahahahaha.. sangat durjana punya menantu. muahahahah

selamat hari raya all :)

thank you!!

to those whom have spared some time to come over for our open house. let see.. can i remember all?

* makcik leha & abg basri
* liya & husband
* abg li, kak chum, fatimah, dijah & imran
* abg cha, kak za & iman
* kak ti, abg nan & hannah
* taj
* julie & ajim
* nurul, hubby & their little girl
* tok ma
* abg chik, kak chik & nina
* ikmal, wife & kids
* kak shida, abg nasri, danish & diyanah
* pak syed & sham
* kak salama & hubby
* marie-france & kamal
* linda, hubby & 2 kids
* kak nik, hubby & 4 kids
* pak cik yatim, cik ana, nisa & leyla
* makcik lat, makcik yang, kak liza & 2 kids
* makcik pah, abg man & kak wati
* kak nik & kids
* kak mala, hubby & kids
* kak tuty, abg bodeng & little boy
* mak uteh, pak uteh, mira, syafiq, akim & intan
* pak uda
* pak long, mak long, nole, lia & aziq
* kor, suzi & kids
* kubba, kak lenny & kids
* korup, yati & kid
* putong, anis, & kids
* jaki & wife
* kak ziana, nurul & nasrul
* izmir & nani
* en. mat poin
* cik tinah, cik man & lokman
* kak zaini & family
* noor, hubby & kid
* aunty norlia, uncle khalid, nek & nana
* aunty yati, uncle khairul, atheerah & aleen
* uncle meo, aunty e, yani & kimi
* riko & sofea
* mastika, dania & 2 friends
* ija, hubby & kid
* fariz
* ana & hubby
* izan, hubby & kid
* kak azila, mother & kid
* kak mah, hubby & kid
* kak akmar & ita
* rohaiza & kids
* inaz
* ayu, makcik, shafik & shakir
* syahman, riza & yana
* mak nek, intan & alien
* eebal & daiya
* arman & yati
* fendi & nisya
* fik & bob
* mak & bapak

i hope everyone has been counted in. i wanna thank all of you for making our days (read: to finish all our ordered dishes. hahahaha)

special thanks goes to che nani, along & ammar, for making this open house merrier & i couldn't do it without your help. thank you very much.

thanks to sherry, amirul, iskandar & zulkarnain for preparing the extra dish for me. thanks dearie.

post open house note:
at first we were contemplating in hosting the open house. made has some urgent thing to do. going for outstation trip some more. furthermore our front house neighbour has put up a canopy infront of our house for their daughter's engagement ceremony. but then, thought after thought, we decided to go along with it. and i'm so thankful for it. food were great. our must-have-dish, satay; roti jala & meehoon sup thailand from kak ani was so special. everybody was asking for the recipe. i have to get one myself. everything went smoothly.

alhamdulillah :)

i hope everybody was enjoying themselves & had a good time.

thank you again.

a marriage proposal

i have a good friend. a good friend of my life. recently a guy of her dream asked her hand for marriage. she was so delighted. and so was i. of course i was..

however, this proposal has gone a bit out of the line. it has given me some hard times. not that i'm not happy with the good news, but.. i don’t know.. some bad feelings had me

ok ok.. maybe i'm exaggerating. but that's how i feel. ok? well.. for now

first, she told me about the good news. i was so glad. i was so happy indeed. at last a friend will be enjoying the life that she has long for. yippiee.. i’m the happiest person - as i was also the culprit. i’ve been asking her about it until she got fed up. and now when the time has come, why shouldn’t me be happy. isn’t it?

second the not so good news: she’ll be travelling a lot since the hubby is an expatriate and working in joint-venture projects. but one thing good, i’d be getting some nice fridge magnets. hurrah..

third and the most disturbing news: she has started to ignore me. how could she do this to me.. the first thing was, she did not considered me in her financial planning. well.. not that i wanna be part of her life 24/7, but i thought being a good friend, is being together and always here, there and everywhere and indeed, being part of someone’s life. now, i’ve been having this feeling: i’ll be a losing a friend. and i’m not needed anymore. somehow, i feel, i’ve been replaced.

where was i when she needed me before she had this guy of her dream?
i was next to her.

where was i when her father died last year?
right by her side.

who’s shoulder was it for her to cry on?
mine. absolutely mine.

why is she ignoring me?
well I don’t know. i don’t seem to find the reason. i can’t find what i’ve done that she had to place me as a non-executive person in her life.

i was, am and still crossed. totally crossed when one fine day, she came to see me, just to say “hi.. i’m getting my wedding card done. chio”. and i was there.. “you’re what? you’re not calling me in?” and she said, “oh.. i think i’ll just get over it myself. you could join me later”. and i was thinking, which later part that she wants me in? on the bed? oh no! not on the bed part definitely. i wouldn’t want to get a threesome. it’s so troublesome!

being part of someone’s life made me feel so important. being left out in some major transitions made me feel bad. really bad. don’t you, honey?

notakaki: disguise is good, at times. :)

raya sakan korang ye

11 October 2007

7:01am - ready masuk keta ngan adam
7:02am - akut kol
7:07am - sampai umah bapak. hantar adam. hugs & kisses
7:11am - made our ways
7:17 am - arrived ISKL
7:24am - punch in

look at the time!!!!!!!! crazy!

yipiyayo!

ramadhan datang, ramadhan pergi

but my darling ramadhan stays - patiently with me.. hehehee

esok lusa tulat dah nak raya. sangat cepat! maybe i am/was so bz with my works. ye kawan2.. mek anne sangat bz. sangat ampun dan mahap ye.. kad raya satu pun tak balas, satu pun tak hantar. balas kad raya & sms kawan2 pun ala kadar je. this is not anne ok.. so so so not me. but my works are up to my neck. dia bagi ruang sikit je nak bernapas.

ramadhan, as in bulan puasa, had taught me a lot this time around. and i believe at the age of becoming 30, i've changed a bit. last time, if my boss scolded me, i'd turn in sour. so hard headed that i'd switch my radio volume from low to high. ye.. saya sangat keras kepala. ada batu dalam ini kepala. but now, i see me changed. i got another (according to sumber2 yg boleh dipercayai) big headed & high ego boss, but i seem to blend and give in a lot. not like last time, that i tried to actually start a battle. i'm now a good samaritan. hahahah

but in any aspects, i could never - read my lips - NEVER give ways to queue jumper and those who wanted to get in line without giving signals. i'm totally against these groups of people. and i tell u... my middle finger will just pointed straight up to them. sorry but i feel really irritated with these kind of people. mau cuba? marilah... :P

in the month of ramadhan, when i know everybody is fasting, still not everybody is really acknowledge kemuliaan of ramadhan. like me, being so "NO TO IDIOT WITH NO SIGNALS & QUEUE JUMPERS", i'm soooooooo not into menghayati ramadhan sepenuhnya. of course, my puasa is not penuh. and my terawikh was only done during the first part of ramadhan, before i got my menses. a really bad record. tunggulah lepas raya. sure nyesal tak sudahhhhh..

but i managed to keep my anger low. yipieeee.. good thing for me. my good point! dear malaikat on my right shoulder, please rite it down.. i managed lots of them ha.... :)

i've been cooking a lot during this ramadhan. macam2 lauk i cuba. yg tak penah org buat pun i buat. masak lemak putih letak bendi. boleh? sengal je tengok lauk tu... tapi habis ok.

all and all, i rasa bersyukur ke hadrat Ilahi kerana mengurniakan kesihatan yg baik untuk i di bulan ramadhan ini. alhamdulillah. i dapat jalani ibadah rukun islam ni dengan sebaik mungkin.

and for all my beloved friends, due to the probationary period that has ruled my hari raya celebration this year, i'm gladly inviting all of you to come over and celebrate this raya - anne's style. hahahaha.. anne style kejadahnya... makan kuih kering dengan air sirap da la.. hahahaha

yes.. honestly, i dont have any extra leaves. i'm still under probationary period and not allowed to take any personal leaves. thankfully the school is closed on friday & monday. bolehlah cuti lama sikit.. (deepavali cuti sampai seminggu tuuuu.. kejadahnya aku nak makan maruku hari2...). i'll be back to work on tuesday. so sapa2 yg menyudi2 tu, marilah datang ke rumah ku yg serba indah ini ye.. :)

oooppsss.. made me thought of makcik kas who is on leave for a month.. habislah i kena kemas umah sensorang friday niiiiii...... sengalnyeeeeeeee

till then all,

selamat hari raya aidilfitri
maaf zahir dan batin
0-0 ye
take care
have a safe journey to your hometown
(mine is only 5 minutes away - no tolls, no hiways :P)

model raya tahun ni. klassssss gitu

notakaki: lupa nak update - i dah boleh muat M gitu.. 5 kg kurang ok.... hahahaha

dable tags

walah.. dable tags tu.. meh mek anne nak jawab.

first tag by kak nomi: 5 thingy

5 things in my bag - heheheh.. sat nak gi tengok

1. wallet
2. coins purse
   
3. calculator watson (read: yg bengong). (tekan nombor 2, dia kuar 2. tekan nombor 1 pun dia kuar 2. ape ke bengap calculator nih.. hancus perniagaan brooch mek tadi)
4. kad klinik adam
5. surat untuk rasi - walah.. lupa lagi nak letak kat mail box..
   

5 things that are in my wallet

1. duit beberapa keping
2. kad kredit
3. bank cards
4. kad pengenalan & driving license
5. salinan pembelian kad kredit - yg membuatkan mek teringat yg mek tak bayo lagi...

5 favourite things in my bedroom

1. katalog tupperware, avon, ikea dan sebagainya - peneman untuk lelap mata
2. buku cite marion keyes yg dah sebulan tak habis baca
3. bantal, katil dan tilam ku yg empuk
4. koleksi jam, minyak wangi yg kadang2 pakai dan selebihnya untuk tayangan umum semata
5. er.. encik ramadhan tu kira kategori things ke? favourite utama tu :)
   

5 things i wish to do

1. well.. speed up my recovery so that i could have an additional family member
2. menunaikan fardhu haji bersama kuarga terchenta
3. cuti-cuti habiskan duit di mana jua kad kredit ku diterima
4. spend more time with my darling adam
   
5. i wish in a blink my house would be bersusun indah *blink* ala.. takde punn.. sepah jugak :(
6. can i add another one? i wish i could spend more time with uwan and that i could learn on her cooking tactics... i'm so poor cook la.. hampeh werekeh
   

5 things i'm doing now

1. thinking of where could my beloved made be
2. thinking of mak masak sorang2 kat umah sana
3. thinking of my dear adam. apa cite jalan2 ngan atuk tu
4. korek telinga. opps... pecah rahsia mek tak posa..
5. updating my tupperware account

5 people i'd like to tag - nak tag kawan2 baru ah.. hehehehe

1. z sengal
2. filla
3. mai
4. fara
5. ila

selamat kena tagging :)

z, tag ko aku buat kendian eh...

little guy named adam

tuan/puan

dukacita di maklumkan bahawa permohonan anda tidak dapat diluluskan buat masa ini. setelah mendapat persetujuan panel hakim, anda diminta berehat untuk jangkamasa tambah tolak setahun dua lagi. berdasarkan laporan kesihatan anda, keadaan anda adalah belum 100% pulih. untuk mengelakkan apa2 kejadian yg tidak diingini, di harap anda dapat bersabar untuk sementara waktu

sekian, terima kasih

yg menjalankan tugas,
mak

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hehehe.. i had a talk with mak the other day. she suggested that i wait for another year before deciding to have an additional family member. she gave me some medical points which as usual, i blindly digest as i dont know what would that mean. sebagai contohnya; uterus adalah womb ok.. mana gua tau.. hehehe

therefore, both me and made have decided to send in the application next 1 or 2 years. at the mean time, bergasak dulu la dengan budak tecik ni.

adam is getting cheekier nowadays. some points:

1) we are trying to put off his habit of nyonyot pacifier. so he was told not to, unless he wants to go to sleep. so what this cheeky little guy did was, he secretly went into the room, pretending that he had to take something, and for a while, he took the puting and nyonyot la. pandai kan?

2) maybe because adam is a little guy and ayah is a big guy, he doesnt want to kiss ayah. hehehe.. i always ask him for a kiss, and i always got one from him. the other day, we were at this traffic lite and i asked for his kiss. he kissed my cheek. then ayah asked for a kiss. he said "ala.. saya penatlah.. asik cium saja". after a while, ayah asked adam to kiss him again. he still give the same answer. then i asked him, "can mama have a kiss", well... eventually mama got a kiss. hahaha.. kasihan ayah

3) after nurin's case, i have asked maknek (well. it's not my first time asking her) not to bring either ammar or adam out of the house if not for emergency. perhaps my words were quite harsh that time that maknek asked adam the next day why mama was angry at maknek. and adam simply replied "alah.. tak apa. perkara kecik aje". boleh gitu?

4) adam has now eager taking his medication. thanks to dr shanaliza. tak taulah ilmu apa dia pakai. adam is now no more stranger to medicine. he even asked for medicine when he feels uneasy with his cough and flu. bagus kan? so mama2, mommies, mak2 semua, silalah berjumpa dengan dr. shanaliza di wangsa maju untuk keterangan lanjut

5) we bought a tent for adam the other day. we gave up on giving him our selimut to become his tent. so when we saw a a tent in the latest ikea promotion, we decided to have it for adam. it was the last piece. alhamdulillah.. belum sampai umah lagi, dah sibuk asking for the temah (as adam's pronunciation). malam pun nak tido dalam temah. siang pun nak tido dalam temah. senang kata, makan minum sumer pun nak dalam temah lah... ada tokoh jadik pengakap tak? hehehe

6) adam sangat suka cakap ini macam bila mama marah dia: shorry la mama. shorry saya mama? hahahaha.. best.. best.. best..

7) tangan adam sangat cepat. sama laju dengan mulut dia. one fine day, i baru basuh yayak dia. i asked him to get his diaper while i load the washing machine. but instead he stopped at our rice dispenser. my dearly made has left our rice dispenser on a table (within adam's reach) for some cleaning purposes. yg si anak bijak pandai ni pun bertanya "mama, ni apa?" dan-dan tu jugak beras berterabur atas lantai.. aduuuuhhh... tanya aje tak cukup gamaknya.. kena test try jugak. dengan itu, i gave him a mangkuk and asked him to kutip sumer beras yg berterabur. cian dia...

7) adam is in his learning process to become a photographer. masterpiece from adam:

nurin laid to rest

a'ah.. i'm still with nurin. i dont know why...

last nite, after buka puasa, i spent time watching buletin utama dan segala berita yg ada to get update on her death. tho the parents had denied, but there's truth that they cant hide. after i read nurin's blog saying that the parents had accepted the body this morning, i felt released. for what, i dont know. perhaps for not having to imagine the poorly brutalized little lady. and now she has laid to rest

i slept with her in my dream. i woke up with her first thing in my mind. this lovely face will forever be in my mind.

kasihan kamu, nak..
diseksa tanpa dia peduli kamu dalam kesakitan
betapa kejamnya dia

kasihan kamu, nak..
dibiarkan pergi tanpa sayonara pada ibubapamu
tanpa peluang menatap wajah kesayanganmu

tapi nak..

beruntung kamu, nak..
perginya kamu di malam jumaat, di bulan mulia, bulan ramadhan.
di mana umat islam yg lain berdoa dan mengharapkan kesejahteraanmu di samping Yang Maha Esa

beruntung kamu, nak..
tidak hanya seorang, tidak hanya ibu bapamu, tidak hanya ahli keluargamu meratapi pemergianmu.
seluruh malaysia, seluruh pelosok merasa kehilanganmu

di dalam keadaan kamu dizalimi

alhamdulillah Allah ingin tunjukkan tingginya kedudukanmu, nak..

pergilah nak..
damailah kamu di sana
di sana lebih aman untukmu

dunia ini kejam padamu
dunia ini tidak adil padamu
insya Allah nak...
Yang Maha Kuasa akan tetap membalas perbuatan mereka ini

tenanglah kamu di sana, ya nak...







pic credit to thestar online

al-fatihah

untuk adik nurin dan takziah untuk keluarganya.

*****

i got the news on her death this afternoon. perhaps only few minutes earlier than it was in the news. no.. i'm not her relative. neither that i'm her acquaintance. i just happened to have the news earlier.

upon receiving the news that the little girl that was found dumped in pj was nurin, my tears dropped. this poor little lady was suffered to death. tak de peri-kemanusiaan langsung ke pembunuh kejam tu? oh.. why would he/she rite? after all, she/he is a pembunuh kejam :P

nurin as all knows by now, was sexually abused by strong object. and the strong object known as terung and timun. kita yg dah besar and have had sex ni pun tau sakit. apa lagi sekecik cam nurin tu. apa sangatlah yg budak tu tau? apa jugaklah yg budak tu dah buat sampai terseksa dia macam tu sekali? she was totally abused. scars, bruises here and there. ya Allah.. manusia apa yg dah buat menda gila ni?

apa dah jadik dengan manusia sekarang? hidup dalam dunia yg penuh dengan development, hi-tech. tapi fikiran makin lama makin kebelakang. org zaman jurassic dulu, membunuh untuk hidup. they had to survive. but people nowadays? kill for excitement? ya Allah.......

nyawa skang umpama duit 20sen. lambung, head or tail. u pick the head, ur head will be chopped off. u pick the tail, u'll suffer baby.. camtu ke? is that how easy people solve their problems? is that how people think nowadays? no more logical thinking? no more sense of sympathy? Allahuakbar...

i'm still sad. sad with the news. when the news first appeared on buletin utama, my first thought was "there u go. another anak merajuk dengan mak, balik umah atuk". but then when i knew that the little girl had this and that sakit, i pointed my 10 fingers to the parents. why should they let her out? she's just a plain 8 years old kid. and she's sick! cant they think? i wouldnt let adam out of my eyes for a second. there was once when i came to fetch him from maknek's house, he was not there. out of my sight. and not with maknek, i've already started to think about the making police report. ni pulak parents yg boleh lepaskan anak dia macam tu aje. aduhhhh... senangnya..

and now that she's gone, but still my 10 fingers are with the parents, and deep inside i feel bad. bad for this murder had taken place. kalo berdendam sangat, kalo marah sangat, janganlah menyeksa anak org. kalo marah ngan ayah dia, pegi berkarate ngan ayah dia. kalo bengang tahap 28 dengan mak dia, pegilah seligi mak dia. kenapa kena balas kat anak dia? anak dia tak bersalah!

i bet, the parents will live in regret. the father is now living in denial. of course he would. he was hoping for good news, but he received otherwise. the same case if i were to give u a 30cm long pencil. but in return i got a cinonet 1cm long pencil. should i call that pencil mine? definitely not. i pity the parents.. but what has gone, that's the fate. accept it as what we are told by our religion. redha dan pasrah dengan ketentuanNya. yg penting percaya kepada Allah dan qada & qadarnya.

i'm not adding salt to the current pain. my apology if i have offended anyone. but please.. take care of your beloved children. org sekarang tak macam org dulu. dulu kalo org jumpa anak kita tepi jalan, dia hantar anak kita balik umah kita. org skang, kalo jumpa anak kita tepi jalan dia hantar anak kita balik umah dia.

i'm a mother, i'm telling this to myself also. anak tu tanggungjawab. biar beban macam mana pun anak kita, dia tetap anak kita. biar sakit macam mana membesar dia pun, dia tetap anak kita. macam mana kita terseksa dengan dia pun, dia tetap berbin/bintikan suami kita sepanjang hayatnya, dan berbin/bintikan kita di akhir hayatnya kelak.

i hope, the suspect will be brought up to justice. sepandai2 tupai melompat, akhirnya jatuh ke tanah juga.

insya Allah

nurin, damailah kamu di sana. amin

here's a blog for beloved nurin by her uncle: nurin jazlin

iMac G3

thanks to iskl!!

the support staff got some freebies today. and it was iMac G3. complete with kids games software. wuhuuuu..

baru je berangan2 nak beli komputer. dah dapat komputer. alhamdulillah..

eventho it's a used computer, yet it is still in a good condition. still tip top. at least tuan pengetua adam can enjoy own his pc and not disturbing mama playing games anymore. hip hip horeeyyyy!

when i took the computer, the harddisk was said to be 10G. but according to my beloved systems analyst, the harddisk was already upgraded to 20G. yiha.. tak payah senyum dengan siew kim lagi.. hahahaha

for how many times today, adam kept asking me "kenapa mama beli komputer untuk adam?". and for how many times also today, i have answered him "sebab mama sayang adam"

agaknya kalo peh ni i berangan nak dapat ford focus, ntah2 dapat jugak kan? hhhmmmmmm....

permohonan untuk pertambahan ahli keluarga

Merujuk kepada perkara di atas.

Saya sebagaimana penama di bawah ingin memaklumkan kepada bahawa kami telah membuat permohonan untuk pertambahan ahli keluarga. Untuk makluman juga, kami telah mendapatkan persetujuan daripada anak pertama kami, En. Adam Danial Mohd Ramadhan. Beliau telah memberikan kata persetujuannya pada 15 September 2007. Disertakan di sini chop pengesahan beliau.

Usaha untuk permohonan ini telah giat dilakukan. Janganlah kuatir.

Kami berharap untuk mendapatkan kata kelulusan dalam masa sebulan, agar dapat kami membuat persiapan yg rapi dalam masa sembilan bulan kelak.

Dengan ini, kami amat berharap agar permohonan kami ini diberi pertimbangan yang sewajarnya serta mendapat kelulusan.

Sekian, kami dahului dengan ucapan terima kasih.

Enclosure: chop pengesahan daripada En. Adam Danial Mohd Ramadhan

calon suami mithali #372

nama penuh: mohd ramadhan mohd tahir
nama glamer: made (as ma-de not made in china)
tarikh lahir: 17 ogos 1977
tempat lahir: kelantan (hidup krai!)

5 sebab mengapa saya patut dicalonkan?
- testimoni mesti ditulis oleh isteri/teman wanita/atau sesapa yg berkenaan.

penulis testimoni: su.anne.na
hubungan dengan calon: isteri tercinta

sebab-sebab pencalonan:

1) suami saya adalah seorang yg baik hati. sudah 2 tahun berturut2 dia tolong saya settlekan kad kredit saya yg sampai ke puncak kasihnya. selain itu dia telah belikan saya bunga yg saya mintak sempena hari keraian kami. walaupun dia tahu saya bukanlah peminat bunga, dia tetap membelikannya kerana ingin membuktikan cintanya selain berniat untuk membazir. dia sering memenuhi shopping list saya hanya kerana dia tak mau saya bermasam muka (read: berhari-hari).

2) suami saya juga adalah seorang ayah yg penyayang. di kala saya sedang menaip testimoni ini, dia sedang bergurau senda dengan anak kesayangan kami. seringkali dia jugalah yg bergurau senda dengan anak kami kerana saya seringkali leka main donlod games. pada waktu adam baru dilahirkan dia jualah yg berjaga malam kerana melayan rengekan anak kami itu. "aku tengok bola eurolah" helah suami saya kepada kawan2 yg bertanya kenapa matanya ber-eye shadow pada keesokan harinya.

3) suami saya seorang yg pandai berjenaka. dia sentiasa membuatkan saya tersenyum walaupun tatkala itu saya sedang mendidih kemarahan. kerana dia sering tersilap cakap dan juga sering tersadung itu dan ini akibat kakinya yg kurang dibedung ketika kecil dahulu. jenaka yg paling tidak boleh saya lupakan adalah apabila saya terkentut di dalam bilik, tiba2 dia datang dan bertanya "napa u panggil i?" itu adalah sejarah gelak guling2 yg tak boleh saya lupakan

4) suami saya jua adalah sorang yg dikategorikan pendengar yg baik. walaupun di posting saya sebelum ini dinyatakan kekurangan audio beliau, namun dia tetap pendengar yg setia di dalam hati saya. ini kerana beliau akan sentiasa mendengar rengekan, kutukan, cerita-ceriti saya tanpa jemu. dan mungkin juga saya bercerita dalam nada yg agak kuat yg membolehkan beliau mendengar cerita saya dengan jelas sekali. biasalah.. saya kan wanita. bila bercerita tu kadang2 suara boleh sebatu bunyinya

5) suami kesayangan saya juga adalah seorang yg menurut kata. ini menambahkan kedominan saya. (read: lihat saja badan saya. hahahah..) sebagai contohnya, kejadian malam semalam. saya dikehendaki menggosok baju kerana makcik kas tidak datang bertugas. dan saya lihat dia membaca buku cerita yg baru dibeli dari mph. kerana rasa tidak puas hati dan dalam kata mudahnya jeles melihat dia membaca buku, saya mintak dia menemani saya di dalam bilik. dia menemani saya tetapi masih membaca buku. ini menambahkan ketidak puasan hati saya. lalu saya menyuruhnya membaca yasin. fantastiknya, dia pergi dan datang dengan sehelai kain dan surah yasin. alangkah sejuknya hati saya sebagai seorang isteri.

dengan ini saya menyokong penuh pencalonan beliau sebagai suami mithali tahun ini. semoga beliau meraih kejayaan dan sekaligus dapat membelikan saya ford focus yg menjadi idaman saya sejak dua tiga hari ini.

sekian terima kasih

life goes on

mak baru kuar hospital. itu hari dia lutut dia terkehel bila naik tangga. "warga emas gitulah" kata mak. somehow i agree. hehe.. i haven't got any details on budget announcement yet. and i hope there's no announcement on extending the retirement age. it'll be a good news to mak. and on personal note, not to me. mak has been working and working and working. now she's 53. tho i'm not her (as how i thought) her favourite darling, i have concern over my mom. mak kan... gaduh camne pun mak kita jugak. sakit hati camne pun, dia jugak yg beranakkan kita. as i'm catching the age of 30, somehow, i jadik malas nak gaduh & take things personally anymore. come in here, goes there.

things have changed tremendously for me. work for an instance. from sime darby's sub, i moved to petronas & shell's sub. then i got a job in cia. no, not as an investigator. more of the procrastinator. hahaha.. i'm sort of workaholic type of person. and when i landed in a job/company with no job in hand, i get bored easily. i dont mind routine works but i cant just sit around and do nothing. now i'm engaged to iskl - the international school of kuala lumpur. a good place to be (a comment from 1 month staff.. hahaha)

some say, i change my jobs as if i change my clothes. but to me, why stick to one job when u're bored and u feel u cant handle it anymore? i left the first sime darby's sub for the bossy boss that i counldnt stand no more. i left the 2nd sime darby's sub for the stupid bloody hell hr manager & politics. i left petronas & shell's sub for my boredom in the job. a GM's secretary who had to sit in for a receptionist. and at the end more of a receptionist than a secretary :(. i cant take that kind of perception. then i moved to cia when i thought i had a better deal. mainan hidup semata2. too much of fantasies and dreams. i left cia after a month working. the working environment was so -oh! i dont have a good word to describe it. perhaps, by saying working in a "family business industry" was not a good move. i sent in my resignation when i got an offer from amanah raya. but at the time of offering and starting the new job, i got a better (too much better) offer from iskl. so i moved on. being with middle & high school students are more of me now. and i like the job now. i like it! i like it! i like it! :)

dreams can come true - yes it's true. when i was still schooling, i never like my lukisan kejuruteraan subject. and i have never favor accounting. somehow after my graduation, i end up working in an engineering company, sub - finance dept. then into insurance company which was a big NO for my cup of tea. then moved on to another oil & gas company and i had to sit in for a receptionist. moved again to a financial advisor company that thought me how to deal with stupid people and stupid situation. when at first i thought, the hell is just everywhere for me, now i thanked Allah for all the companies i've worked with as i gained all the good experience that made me worth here in iskl. alhamdulillah, syukur di atas kurniaanMU

for all in sime engineering, u've thought me a lot. being an "auditor" is what my boss likes about me so much

for all in sime insurance, thanks for all the political dilemma. i've earned my respects & i'm worth all the "premium"

for all in csmp, thanks for the hard times and "shopaholic" episode. and not forgetting the luxurious with the hotels opportunities. glad i went thru!

for all in cia - i didnt lie. and i dont have the guts to lie. nor that i have low dignity and pride like u have. thanks Allah for LIA. i appreciate it! i do lia! i do! if not for u, these stupid cows will still create stories of me. bloody ass!

for all in iskl - wish me the best!


thanks!

ayah vs adam

ayah tengah mandi. adam tengah tengok tv. tiba2 tv tu takde gambo. jeritlah adam daripada ruang depan rumah kepada ayahnya di dalam bilik air itu. maka terjadilah komunikasi seperti di bawah:

adam: ayah.. kenapa tv tu?
ayah: ha? sapa kat pintu?
adam: bukan! bukan! tv tu saya salah tekan
ayah: ha? adam nak coco crunch? nanti ayah mandi dulu. lepas tu ayah amik.

hahahahaha

mama dalam bilik ni meleleh air mata dengar dua beranak ni berkomunikasi.

and i'm still laughing.. i couldnt stop.. hahahahhaa

happy (belated) birthday to adam

adam's birthday was on 12 june. we brought adam to langkawi on his birthday and had the celebration back at home on the 30 june. here are some pics by uncle hanyut.




"what? what?"

"blowwwwwwww"









"ayah tolonglah saya"

"mmm.. sedap kek ni"











"my shirt says it all :P"









"mama, ayah, thank you for the lovely birthday party. saya sungguh terharu"



we had a separate session for the family at nite. it was awesome!




"show me the toys and we'll share the cake, deal?"







"mama! tengok dimple ammar kat dahi"







"apa lu mau brader?"







- all of us -







introducing: de-tih, le-sue & a-damn-penat

incik-incik & puan-puan

saya dilahirkan sebagai manusia biasa saja. bapak saya bekas mat terap. mak saya masih menjadik misi. abg & adik saya pun manusia biasa jua. walaupun mereka lebih besar & hulk, tapi mereka masih juga manusia yg tidak ada kelebihannya.

oleh kerana fakta ini, ingin saya memberitahu bahawasanya saya tidak ada kelebihan kuasa jangkauan ke-enam, mahupun kuasa piskik. kuasa telepati pun tidak saya punyai. disebabkan ini, saya hanyalah manusia biasa. manusia yg ada juga perasaan & akal fikirannya.

di atas sebab-sebab yg tersebut di atas, ingin saya tegaskan bahawasanya saya tidaklah boleh menduga atau menjangka bila dan kat mana anda nak setop keta dan jua bila mana masa anda nak kona kan keta anda itu.

saya akui, keta anda cantik. berkilat-kilat. berkilau-kilau warnanya. kaler biru ada, merah ada, hijau ada. pendek kata sumer kaler ada lah. keta saya takdelah cantik mana. belakang dah ada kaler cokelat sebab langgar pagar. satu belah dah kemek sikit sebab ada org langgar. peh tu tempat bukak pintu tu pun dah dua kaler silver, dua kaler hitam. iye.. keta saya tak lawa..... memang keta anda sangaaaat cantik. dan lagi cantik kalo tak kena langgar kan? yelah... kalo kena langgar kang, dah tak comei. herot bonet, kemek bumper. ish.. huduhlah bak katanya. jadik apa kata..... trigger la signal tu bila2 masa incik-incik & puan-puan nak ke mana2. tak kena bayaran pun. extra charge apa tah lagi.. nak ke kiri, ke kanan, tariklah batang signal tu. ha.. senang kan?

cuba ingat2 balik... taim beli keta tu pun mesti beli full spec kan? full spec tu mesti masuk sekali signal kan? ha.. mana ada extra charge.. tipu ni... dia bagi complementary je tu.. pakailah. rugi tak pakai. kang derang kata keta derang tak reach international standard pulak. anda anda2 juga yg ngutuk.. cian keta tu..

akhir kata, sayangilah keta anda.

sekian,
terima kasih

learning curves - gemma townley

my 3rd book of the month. yippieee..

azizi ali read more or less 3 books a month. so did i. he's already a millionaire. and me? uh.. millionaire in the making? hehehee.. insya Allah

this book was pretty interesting. couldn't stop what i've started.

it was about jennifer bell. parents, george bell & harriet keller separated when jen was 13. harriet was a gossip lover and george was a workaholic.

yada.. yada.. yada..

jen broke up with gavin and found new love with her MBA lecturer, daniel peterson.

harriet and george finally remarry after george saved harriet's firm.

tsunami, acheh and indonesia were some of the facts mentioned in this book.

uh.. kinda hard for me to elaborate more about this book. ala-ala cerekarama aziz m osman pun ada. sapa nak baca, royaklah. saya beri pinjam.

*******

i had a chat with my friend today. her ym was something like this:

i was so angry with my hubby & maid
i saw a pic of my maid
naked
in my camera

i was speechless. i got nothing to say. i was trying to figure out some good sentences, but i just couldn't.

how could a husband have the heart do such thing? and to make things worst, the pic was taken in HER own bedroom. and in one of the pictures, has her husband's foot.

this particular lady is actually a cyber friend. with Allah's will, we got very well connected to each other.

not long ago, she has lost her first child - on hari raya. and now, the husband is playing the horse in the lubang. she? buntu already

i suggested her to bring the matter to the nearest pejabat kadi. bring along the copies of the pictures. seek advise from them.

she loves her marriage and couldn't bring the matter to that level

i asked made for his opinion. he'll do as what i suggested. reason? the hubby had betrayed her trust, with somebody who has been living with them.

if i were her? ntah.. i just can't think of any. perhaps i'll be in her condition too. to weak to speak or rather to make any decisions.