We spent last weekend in the Gleneagles Resort Medical Centre. Kids are getting better and now mama pulak terbatuk-batuk. They were admitted since Thursday after having fever for quite a while. Doc believed they were having the same viral fever but were attacked differently. Adam on his lung and Alesya on her big round tummy. Hehe..
We were ready to pack up and go home when I suddenly had a text message:
“my mom dah x de”
A simple text and yet the impact was hard. It was from Ayu, a good friend from my primary years.
The memory started to reminisce.
She, knew I like soto. And will without fail had me on her mind whenever she has a pot of soto on her kitchen top.
She, cared about me and she knew where had I been, what had I been doing – without seeing me for a while.
She, is Ayu’s mother.
Makcik passed away peacefully yesterday at about 3pm dan telah selamat dikebumikan selepas Maghrib semalam juga.
Now, I feel ralat sebab, this year; somehow I didn’t go to her house for hari raya. Her house is a must in our Hari Raya visiting list. Tapi entah.. Kenapa tak sampai… Bukannya jauh pun.
Ralat jugak sebab every now and then, bila balik dari AEON or whenever I pass through her house, I had the thought of visiting her, but yet.. I kept on procrastinating.
And yesterday, I did visit her, but when I can no longer salam and bergurau senda. I can no longer have a taste of her cooking. I can no longer feel her warmth and motherly cares.
I am missing Makcik already L
Ayu, whenever you’re reading this, it’s not you alone dear… I lost a mother; she is like my mother too…
You take care Ayu, dear..
And Makcik, semoga Allah tempatkan Makcik di sisiNya dan di tempatkan bersama mereka yang disayangiNya. Amin. Al-fatihah
mak,
tadi kita nak hantar happy mother's day wish kat mak. tapi tangan ni capai handphone peh tu post gamba adam pulak. ada aje alasan kan?
mak,
kita nak wish happy mother's day sebab kita jarang-jarang wish mak selamat pagi, assalamualaikum, selamat petang, good nite - sleep tight. tapi bila kita type "happy mak's day" or "selamat hari mak", macam tak best aje....
mak,
kita tau kita bukan feveret mak. sebab kita tak besar cam along. kaki kita tak sadak cam alin. tapi kita pandai buat kek. kek kita feveret mak kan?
mak,
kita tau kita selalu betah cakap mak. sebab mak pun selalu suka nak menang kalo cakap ngan kita. tapi mak suka talipon kita & bergosip kan mak kan?
mak,
kita tau kita kadang2 makan hati apa mak cakap. yelah.. kita kan bukan feveret mak. kita pandai buat kek aje... kita makan kek ajelah mak... penat sudah makan hati ni.... tak sedap pulak tu..
mak,
itu hari kan, kita kira gaji baru kita. kita nak bagi kat mak. tapi nanti mak sepah2kan.. kita masuk bank ajelah eh?
mak,
itu hari jugakkan, kita tengok kalendar. mak retire tahun ni mak eh? mak nak jaga alesya & adam tak? heheheheh...
mak,
kita tak penah cakap, bukan sebab kita tak penah sayang. kita sayang mak. sebab mak selalu buat benda yang kita tak expect. hantar 100 plus pagi2 masa kita demam. beli daging untuk buat rendang dengan kita. kol kita malam2 masa made takde. masakkan asam pedas untuk kita peh tu panggil kita makan sebab tau kita ni pemalas nak masak kat umah.
mak,
kita tak penah hantar kad kat mak sebab kita tak rasa kad tu akan luahkan rasa sayang kita kat mak. kita tau mak tau. kita tau mak tau kita sayang mak. macam mak, kita pun tak reti nak tunjuk kita sayang mak. tapi kita tau mak sayang kita. kita tau mak pun tau kita sayang mak.
mak,
walau kita tak penah sebut, kita tak penah tulis, kita tak penah luah, kita SAYANG kat mak. kita appreciate apa mak buat kat kita. dari kita kecik, sampai kita besar. dari kita hanya seketul daging sampai dah berketul2 daging dalam badan kita. dari kita hanya kecik senonet, sampai kita dah sebesar2 kita. dari kita baby, sampai kita ada baby.
mak,
andai kita selalu susahkan hati mak, kita mintak maaf
andai kita selalu buat mak runsing, kita mintak maaf
andai kita selalu lawan cakap mak, kita mintak maaf
andai kita selau buat mak marah, kita mintak maaf
mak,
kita sayang mak, lebih dari org lain sayang mak derang
kita sayang mak, lebih dari apa yg kita boleh tulis dalam kad
kita sayang mak, lebih dari apa yg kita boleh luahkan dalam sms & kata
kita sayang mak, sayang mak, sayang mak, sayang mak.
sekian,
kita bukan anak kesayangan mak. tapi kita sayangkan mak.
