raya pertama

seperti yang telah diwar-warkan..  ayam masak merah kita sedapppp!  hahahaha..  sapa lagi nak puji kan?  puji diri sendiri sudahlah.. 

pagi raya tu boleh pulak nak dijadikan cerita, kami tak terjaga awal.  mujur ada kawan hantar sms raya pukul 6.56 pagi.  bergegas bangun solat subuh bagai.  aduhlaaaa...  

patutnya start cooking lepas subuh.  tapi sebab dah lewat bangun, kul 8 baru start masak.  lepas subuhlah jugak tu..  subuh gajah.  hahahha..  alhamdulillah, semua siap on time.  

dah siap-siap semua, kami pun pegilah umah bapak.  tada...  pinggan limited edition dah terhidang dengan nasi beriyani, ayam kampung, acar dan sebagainya.  merasa jugaklah lauk kita terhidang atas pinggan limited edition.  bangga wehhhh....  

jam dah kul 11:45am.  along tak sampai-sampai lagi.  bila kol, rupanya beraya umah jiran.  geramnyaaaaaa kat pengerusi JKKKKKKKKKKKKK ni.  bikin spoil mood saja.  

not to waste time, kami pun startlah salam raya.  memula bapak salam uwan endon.  first time kot, uwan raya ngan kam ini.  tetiba dengar bapak nangis.  eh??  bapak nangis??  memula ingat dia berlawak.  dia ni memang suka sangat menyakat uwan.  tengok dia memang menangis.  loh!  

pastu mak salam uwan.  pastu, since along takde, kita salam uwan dulu. habis family kita, alin & faiz pulak.  pastu kita salam bapak.  again...  bapak nangis esak-esak.  loh!!  biar benar ni.  dah 34 tahun..  ok.  tolak setahun time kita dalam perut mak.  kita rasa tak penah lagi tengok bapak ni nangis.  kalo mak, selalulah.  kalo ada maklong biah, lagi banjir.  hehehe..  rasa heran pulak tengok bapak nangis.  pastu dia kata... 

"i have the feeling that this is going to be my last raya.  i dont know why.  but i have the feeling.  i'm sorry for all what i did. i'm sorry.  i'm sorry.  i'm sorry"..

amekkaw!  terdiam tak leh nak kata.  i was speechless.  clueless.  didn't know how to react.  lap aje air mata dia.  peluk dia.  tepuk-tepuk dia.  tenangkan dia.  dia salam made pun sama.  dia salam alin pun sama.  dia salam faiz pun sama.  asik teresak-esak.  bila salam adam, dia siap peluk kuat-kuat and mentioned "ni kawan solat jumaat atuk ni" for a few times.  and i was like...  completely gobsmacked.

time tu, memang kita rasa nak baling baldi kat along.  i feel, he should have been there to calm bapak down. to listen to him.  to feel him.  to be with him.  but he decided to be 25km away.  nyampah!  bila kami dah siap-siap nak ke tanjung malim, baru dia sampai.  nampak kepul-kepul asap atas kepala ni?  asap bengang ni tau.  eeeeee.......  

so we decided to balik tanjung malim without him along.  mak dengan uwan endon pun tak ikut.  uwan tu tak gagah berjalan.  susahkan kami tak pe.  nanti susahkan orang lain tu, tak seronoklah pulak.  kan?

sampai tanjung malim, hujan dah start gerimis.  kami terus ke kubur uwan.  again.....  bapak teresak.  hish.  apa kenalah bapak kita ni...  kita ni memang dah lah kememe kan.  pantang singgah kubur nangis sokmo.  yang askor pencen pun nangis ni, kita susah sikit nak digest.  

lepas tu, kami langsung ke umah mokteh acum.  then ke umah uwan cik.  then ke umah opah usu.  umah paklong ali tak boleh nak singgah sebab dah pukul 5.  nanti kul baper pulak nak sampai putrajaya.  sian kat made nak beraya ngan ma dia.  sampai putrajaya, ma pun dah tukar baju raya.  aleh..  adik beradik lain pun ada.  makcu kakcik pun ada.  kak ti aje takde.  

come to think of what happened to bapak, i had a thought of perhaps he is having an emotional crisis.  ntahlah. banyak sangat tengok cerekarama time posa ni ke.  kan?  

at the same time, kita terpikir..  manala tau..  ni raya terakhir kita dengan dia.  ntah-ntah tahun depan, kita yang tak de untuk beraya dengan dia?  mana la tau kan...  ajal masing-masing sudah tertulis.  sama ada kita sedar atau tidak.  sama ada kita tahu atau tidak.  itu semua kerja Allah s.w.t.  andai sudah ada penamatnya, pergilah kita.  

kalau kita takde, sedekahkan fatihah untuk kita ye :D

malam raya

malam akhir puasa, boleh tak ingat kami ni berpuasa.  leka duk tengok escobar kat discovery channel, tetiba dengar azan magharib.  made pandang kita, kita pandang made.  tetiba made jerit "maghrib!  buka puasa!".  bergegas masing-masing carik air minum.  hahahahah..  boleh harap betul.

kami sebenarnya dah planned nak ke festival mall sebab baju raya adam tak dapat lagi.  itu yang tak masak & tak ready makanan berbuka.     

balik tu pulak singgah umah mak.  ayah iz sibuk nak main bunga api dengan anak-anak sedara.  dapatlah blister sorang satu.  hahahaha..  bila dengar bunyi mercun dengan bunga api, rasa meriah pulak raya tahun ni. kalau dak, memang rasa nak lempar dengan selipar kat budak-budak yang bakar mercun ni.  this year, somehow, different...

ingat nak amik ayam kampung wak leh, tak jadik.  sebab ayam tu sekor tak berpotong lagi.  budak bandor sorang ni mana reti potong ayam.  (post cooking for hari raya update:  mujur jugakkkkkk tak amik ayam tu.  alin kata kepala ayam pun ada. hahaha).

bila balik umah malam tu, start lah packing duit raya.  best eh duit raya tahun ni.  macam duit saidina.  hahahahah..  

raya ketiga

dah raya ketiga dah hari ni eh?  cepat benau masa berlalu.  lagi beberapa hari nak masuk keje.  keje yang dibawak balik pun tak setat lagi.  males.

hari ni nak jalan umah jiran-jiran.  pakcik yatim!  cik leha!  makcik pah!  bangun makcik-pakcik wehhhh.... hahaha... 

pastu bawak mak pegi kubur atuk baq kat puchong.

pastu visit nenek kat puchong (kami dah second time dah..  hehehe)

pas tu raya ngan kak ti kat pj

pas tu..  mmm..  tak decide lagi.  

pastu kalu sempat, gi beraya umah kengkawan.  

eh..  tak raya lagi dengan uncle ikea.  macam tak caya pulak.  hehehehehe..

aidilfitri

duit raya - checked.  lelen dah tukarkan awal-awal.

sampul raya - checked.  last year punya pun berlambak lagi.

kuih raya - checked.  dah dapat tiga botol.  oklah tu.  jap lagi buat sikit lagi.

baju raya - er.....  mmmm.....  ni cite kendian.

cuti raya - checked.  seminggu!!!!!  horeeeeeeeyyyy!!!!  tapi kena bawak bekalan kerja.  menyampah.

plan raya - checked.  antara malas dengan rajin je nanti.  hahaha..

apa lagi eh?  rasanya semua dah complete kan eh?  semalam mak kata "nanti mak nak masak nasik minyak dengan rendang".  che nani pulak kata "i masak dendeng lah".  so takkan kita nak kata "ok.  kita bawak perut".  nak kena pelempang raya ke apa..  jadi, kita pun katalah..  "kita buat ayam masak merah".  hehehe..

terbaekkk..

jalan-jalan raya

dah plan dah you all punya jalan-jalan beraya?  hehehehe..

kami udah..  yelah.. orang beraya kat kl.  apa lagi nak buat -- ikea lah.  hahahahahha...

tengah buat listing ni. dok balik update aje.

mudah-mudahan perjalanan semua selamat ye.  hati-hati di jalan raya :D

ayam

ok.  admitted - kita ni budak bandar.  dulu-dulu bila balik umah uwan kat kampung pandan, dapatlah tengok seekor dua.  (tengok...  kampung uwan pun kat bandar jugak).  itupun mujur dia ada bela ayam dengan itik untuk buat manja-manja.  dapatlah juga membau taik ayam.  heheh..

so..  yesterday we wanted to try fresh chicken yang baru sembelih kat masjid ulu kelang tu.  dah lama dah orang tu berniaga pun.  kami aje yang tak penah menyinggah.  rasanya since i was a small kid, they already have their business set up there.  and i tell you...  orang tak penah surut la kat situ.  lebih-lebih lagi kalau time perayaan.  siaplah kat situ.  jem!

ok.  back to what happened yesterday.  setelah sekian lama dok berhajat-hajat, made drove me there.  made aje turun sebab i had alesya with me.  mujur...  hehehehe...  so, i watched him talking to the guy.  then the guy pointed to one of the chickens.  made chose whatever the guy pointed.  then dia timbang.  nampaklah about 2 kg.  then dia amik ayam tu, dia bawak belakang dia, zas!  aaaaarrrrkkkkk!!!!!  gila cepat dia sembelih.  mesti dah hapal sepenuh hati doa sembelih ayam.  ok.  jangan ada doubt.  hahaha..  nak kesian pun tak sempat.  business transaction sangat cepat.  tengok2 pisau dah berdarah, ayam dah terlentok.  tamatlah riwayat sang ayam.  

yang kami tiga beranak dalam keta ni buat apa?  jakun tengok ayam lah.  hahahahaha..  alesya tergedik-gedik pointing to those chicken in front of our car.  then bila ayam-ayam tu datang sebelah keta kami, lagilah terjerit-jerit tengokkan ayam.  hahaha.. 

jakun eh?  

yela.. yela..  

  

marah sikit

ok.  sapalah tak penah buat silap kan?  tapi bila silap sendiri, dia tuding kat orang lain, kita jadik sakit hatilah jugak kan..

ginilah..  kisahnya not so a big deal pun.

citernya adalah...  kita buat room reservation for our guest last week.  then ada salah on the check out date.  so, kita buat another revised letter.  first letter dated july 25.  the revised one dated the following day.  and i was contacted by the person in charge to reconfirm the date sebab i made a typo error.  itu citer hari jumaat.  guest datang hari ahad.  he went in ok.  but was later found himself locked outside of his room on monday afternoon.

sebab?  reservation did not receive the revised letter that i sent on friday.

i had to make few calls yesterday to resolve the problem and when i thought it was over, i was again slapped with frustration this morning.

the person in charge called me this morning to confirm what letter i should be providing them .  discussion went fine.  and i did not put the blame on them.  not even a quarter inch.  it was not in my conversation.  later, my boss called me in and explain what she wanted me to do and what was passed on from that person in charge to her supervisor.

ok.  tak payah susah-susah teka.  mistake was anne's.  i was like..  heh?  why didn't she pointing it to me when we were communicating this morning?  why from her supervisor that i hear a twist in her story?

saya rasa sangat-sangat bengang.

 ok. i sent the letter dated july 25.  it was then revised with a letter dated 26.  you called to confirm my typo error and to which, confirming acceptance of our revised letter.  why was it not passed on to your reservation?  with that in mind, why should i be in the position of at fault?

logik?

mujur posa.  tak kuasa nak gaduh.  tadi rasa nak antar emel jugak.  lepas tu malas.

sudah pandai masak..

sikit...  heheheheh...

semalam kita masak nasik minyak siap dengan ayam masak merahnya.  kata mak, kurang air.  bapak senyum aje sambil makan.  tapi testimonial paling best adalah...

drum roll please...... 

UWAN!!  dengan empat kali tambahan

woohoooo!!!  hebat kan?  hahahaha...

i have to be honest, i'm not a good cook..  so when things went well with my cooking, i am so very much a proud peacock.  jadi, ampunkanlah saya..  hahaha..

gamba tak leh share lagi.  nanti you all lapa.  hehehe..

terima kasih kepada buku chef hanieliza.  investment yang amat berbaloi.  next kena beli pengukus sebab ada orang nak kuih kasuwi.  kalo jadik, kita update eh.  kalo kita diam aje, paham-paham lebih kurang udahlah ye.  heheheh

perut

Hari Sabtu lepas, kita umah Bapak.  Masa sampai, dia takde.  Gi Ampang, kata Alin.  Dia balik kejap, pukul 6:30pm dia nak keluar lagi.  Pi pasar malam pulak.  "Nak makan apa-apa tak?", Bapak tanya.  Soalan tu biasa aje sebenarnya.  Tapi petang semalam, rasa macam syahdu pulak...  Macam...  "bapak aku ni.....  macam mak dia juga.  Suka tanya nak makan apa.  Nanti dia pegi cari.  Kalau tak dapat yang sama, yang hampir sama pun tak pe.  Tapi mesti cari".  Uwan Jiah macam tu lah.  Pantang disebut.  Tak besok; lusa siaplah apa yang kita kepingin tu.  

Itulah rahsia nak jaga orang kesayangan.  Patutlah perut kita buncet.  Hish!

Sudin & Marjinah

Sudin bergaduh lagi dengan Marjinah semalam. Oh well... Bukan hari-hari depa gaduh pun. Cuma off late depa ni selalu sangat bertingkah.

Bila dengar Marjinah bercerita, saya rasa macam... "Nape macam tak selesai derang ni?". Until Marjinah luahkan rasa yang the last quarrel they had, they did not come to any conclusions neither final say. Sebab? Kassim, anak derang asik bertanya kenapa spongebob pakai neck tie and papa dia pegi keje tak pakai tie pun.

Heh?

Ah well... So I thought.. Patutlah takde settlement. Apa yang terbuku, tidak terluah. Apa dirasa, tidak dizahir.

I am no marriage counsellor. I've gone through the rough sea as well. But I have to agree that sometimes, husband takes it for granted when the wife looks fine and able to be independently control her feelings. Senggama dua tiga round and he feels every things are under radar. Thats unfair kan?

Memanglah perempuan ni mulutnya boleh tahan juga. But they have feelings too. Kan? Apa salahnya take time to sit, bincang jiwa ke jiwa, keluarkan apa yang terbuku. Both will go one happy. Dont you think? Ni asyik buat assumption saja. Dia senyum. Dia gelak. Maknanya dia ok. Come on la... As much as you guys nak sorok masalah office or any of such, this other half is hurting too and feeling the pain.  Dah lah panas hati, nak kena berlakon dalam office, depan anak-anak.  And she's ain't Erra Fazira, ok?

Ce tanya diri sendiri, ke manakah kesudahannya? Benda yang boleh disettle, tapi sudahnya pertelingkahan disaksikan anak-anak. Bad example kan?

Kadang-kadang letih jugak dengar kisah Marjinah. Tapi, saya kasihan juga. Saya tak salahkan suami dia. Sebab saya tau they are of an opposite attract. Sudin gini orangnya. Marjinah begitu pulak orangnya.

Duduklah. Fikirkan yang terbaik. Tak guna mulut kata sayang kalau sayang hanya jadi mainan mulut dan perasaan.  Isteri tu kan secantik-cantik perhiasan.  Janganlah jadikan dia tunggul.  

Untuk Sudin & Marjinah, janganlah persendakan akad yang telah dilafazkan dan simboliknya cincin di jari manis itu.  Kalau setakat ingin dijadikan hiasan, belilah cincin zhulian.  Hari-hari boleh tukar.  Hehehe..  

alesya ni!!!!

dia pakai my office ID tag.  pas dia datang kat kita, sambil bawak baby dia.  pastu dia bagi baby dia kat kita.  pastu dia buat macam baru balik keje and amik baby tu dari kita.  ala-ala cerianya si emak baru pulang kerja dapat bertemu anaknya.  ha gitew..  pastu dia jalan keluar bilik dengan baby dan tools bag adam.  sebijik macam kita amik alesya daripada umah opah.  macam itulah gayanya.  dengan dokong alesya sebelah tangan.  dengan laundry bag sebelah tangan.  dan yang penting ID tag.

pas tu dia kata baby dia sakit perut pulak.  siap lompat nak capai ubat angin atas lemari.  kita kata kat dia, amik lotion sudah.  dia amik lotion, suh sapu kat tangan dia.  pastu dia sapu kat perut baby.  

hebat sungguh ingatan dan imagination budak-budakkan?  

atau adakah itu petanda scha al-made nak adik lagi?  

ayah...  sila jawab...  

hahahahahaha..

sudah ketentuanNya

Hari Khamis baru ni Mak informed yang Mak Ngah kat Tanjung Malim tu meninggal dunia after her long battle with cancer.  Mak ngan Bapak aje yang pergi ziarah.  Kami hanya sampaikan salam..

Tadi dapat berita tentang anak Olie.  Akif has been battling for his life since 2 weeks ago.  He's a true fighter.  I can't remember who..  But someone told me, special kid like Akif has high spirit and will fight all the way.  Indeed true.  Kita tak sempat nak jumpa Akif.  Nak bagi Akif rasa kek yang kita buat.  But I know Akif is in a good hand of Allah swt.  Insya Allah..

On Wednesday, Made came back feeling sad for Ma.  Ma kata kat Made, "umur Ma dah banyak.  Awak pun dah berkeluarga. Anak-anak lain pun semua sihat & bekerja" perhaps to indicate, there's nothing more to look upon for..  Kita dengar pun rasa sedih.  Kalau kita depan Ma, mesti kita dah nangis.                   

After Uwan, takde lagi orang terdekat/tersayang yang menyusul kecuali Ayah.  Impact was hard.  But..  Itulah..  Semuanya dah ditentukan.  

Mmmm...  Ntah-ntah....  kita yang pegi dulu sebelum you ols.  Mintak maaf awal-awal la ye.  Mintak halal makan minum.  Mintak maaf salah kata.  Mintak maaf salah laku.  Kalau ada terhutang, minta beritahu ye.  Pohon doakan kesejahteraan kita esok-esok.  Insya Allah.  

Amin.  

Amway

I dah join amway, u ols! Hahaha..

Reason? Nothing concrete. Satu - nak cari vitamin. Dua - i heard a good review on their beauty/facial products. Tiga - kedai dia belakang umah. Senang!

So now.. i have new beauty products. Jerawat masih naik. Dia kata give two weeks for the products to settle. Ok. Hari ni baru second day. Kita tunggggguuuuuu...

Hari ni juga adalah hari kedua makan vitamin. Lutut dah takde bunyi time solat. Wahh!! Hebat kan?

So, amacam? Nak beli barang amway? Call la saya. Cecewahhh...

jadual waktu

jadual kita sejak ada maid ni dah berubah sikit.

eh!  awak tak tau kita dah ada maid?  eeeee..  tak updatedlah awak ni.  hahaha..  ha-ah.. kita dah ada maid. alhamdulillah.  rezeki kami nak dapat filipino maid yang muslim.  syukur.  

sekarang ni, kita bangun tiap-tiap hari pukul lima untuk masak makanan tengahari.  masak simple-simple aje. sebab tu kita dah ada buku ini....

ha... hebatkan??  boleh harap jugaklah buku ni.  cuba tu udah.  menjadik tu tak gerenti.  kehkehkeh..  

sambil masak tu, kita start washing machine.  so adalah bunyi-bunyi iringan kat dapur tu disamping alunan bacaan al-quran kat surau.  

sambil masak lunch tu, kita buat sekali bekal breakfast untuk adam.  kadang-kadang kita punya sekali. siap semua, kita kejutkan adam.  selalunya by then dah 6.25am.  mamat ni suka mandi lama.  jadi kena kejut dia awal-awal.  lebih 10 minit kalau dia sorang.  

by 7am kena kuar umah untuk hantar adam ke sekolah.  hari-hari biasa, kalau kuar lambat dari pukul 7 tu alamatnya subjected to be caught in traffic lah.  now, kalau time summer break ni, sangkut jem tiga puluh kilometer pun tak pe..  hahahha..  

tengahari balik amik adam from school.  then by 1.45pm rush balik ke office.  by 4pm, kemas bag.  balik!  kejarkan pulak budak adam ni ke sekolah agama (di hari-hari berkaitan).

in general, my daily life is superb busy dengan operasi membawa kereta dan berkejar ke sana sini.

so my darling kesayangan, boleh ke tint kan cermin kereta untuk i?  panas tau u..  nanti i itam nanti, camne kita nak nyanyi lagu "black & white" sambil pusing-pusing tangan?

wakakaka...
  

porno

ha..  terang mata nak baca eh?  hahahahhaha..

ada kawan kita cite..  husband dia suka tengok porno.  so dia rasa tak suka.  kita pun kata kat dia, it's a norm la for guys to watch porn.  but for all you know, it's you that he turns back to.  kan?

tapi at the same time..  kita berpikir-pikirlah jugak..

apa yang bestnya nonton porn ni?  oklah.  untuk belajar aksi-aksi - kalau ada.  other than that?  untuk keghairahan sendiri?  oklah.  maybe?  ok.  soalan ni sangat subjective and private.  period.

anyhow, kita pun sedarlah badan kita ni takdelah macam kim kadarisman.  tapi kita ada hati dan perasaan jugak pe.  kalau kita kata kita berasmaradana sambil membayangkan muka ex-bofren kita.  awak ada marah ke tak marah?

ha!  samalah kita rasa..

timbang-timbanglah sikit.

beli barang

kalo awak beli sepender ke baju dalam ke, awak bawak tak your other half?

kita bawak tau...

sebab kita nak dia ok ke tak dengan pilihan kita.  manalah tau.. nanti over rambu ramba ke..  tak ceksi ke..  kan..

jadik kita kecik ati jugak tau, bila ada orang beli barang keperluan persendirian tak bawak kita pun.  yelah..  bukan duit kita.  kita tau..  beli pun tak cakap.  tunjuk pun tak.  harap nampak paperbag aje.  itu pun dah ala-ala sorok.

yelah...  sapa la kita....  

exam & appraisal

adam bawak balik results exam dia on monday.  

alhamdulillah.  nak kata superb, tidak.  tidak superb pun tidak.  memadai dengan usahanya.  hahahahhahahah..  mungkin kena extra effort on BM.  2 markah on carelessness (means 4 questions).  agama dengan bahasa arab boleh tahan jugak budak ni.  math & BI exceptional :D

on the other hand, i've just got appraised and received my increment letter.  boss tanya, "you ok ke tak dapat double increment?"  oh well..  kita kena berpijak di bumi yang nyata.  i know how far have i pushed myself this year.  i know how well others had done in their jobs.  so might as well give the good money to those who well deserved it.  works had now been mundane and routine.  i had the same feeling 3 years ago..  so the cycle is back.  oh my!  kena carik optimum job pump next school year.    

from:  http://cuboiart.blogspot.com/

summer break

apa best?

masuk kul 8.  balik kul 4.  on road pagi-pagi tak marah-marah sangat.  when everybody else busy zig-zagging, gua boleh rilex & gelak-gelak dengar salleh yaacob.  petang-petang tu keadaan yang subjective.  period.

pakai suka-suka hati.  tie tak payah.  formal tak perlu.  belasah aje.  jeans tiap-tiap hari pun boleh.  suar pendek pun dibenarkan.  mini skirt pun ok.  midi skirt pun tak kisah.  jangan pakai bikini udah.

keje pun rilex sikit.  bos-bos besar tadak.  ofis pun tak ramai orang sebab kebanyakan amik peluang bercuti.

saya?  cuti tinggal 2.75 hari.  duk diam-diam sudah.  hahahah..

lama tak update eh?

bizi la..  --  ala..  jawapan biasa la ni.  tapi memang bizi la...  cikgu nak balik.  cikgu baru nak datang.  payroll 3 bulan nak katup.  ish..  tambah tolak darab bahagi, kira banyaklah kerja saya ni ha...  now lega sikit.  sebabnya SUMMER BREAK!  horey!!!  but i tell you..  sama aje.  keje masih melonjak naik.  sebab cikgu baru dah datang.  maknanya?  masih banyak kejelahhhhhh..  haish...

i had some days off, which was good.  alhamdulillah.  baru-baru ni ada cupcakes order yang mencecah angka 4 ribu.  wow!! sebenarnya dia nak seribu aje.  tapi sebab empat cups per box.  jadiknya empat ribulah ordernya.  amacam?  hebat tak saya?  hahahah..

adam dah dapat exam papers.  alhamdulillah.  berkat kena marah, boleh tahan la markah dia.  haha..  cumanya.. adam kena tuition subject BM la agaknya.  from the 5 papers he brought home yesterday, BM has the lowest mark.  bahasa arab lagi terer.  careless marks pun boleh tahan jugak.  patut huruf kecik, tapi dia buat huruf besar.  ejaan salah.  tak buat cara pengiraan.  mmm..  geram aje tengokkan..

oh ya!  hari ni birthday adam danial.  HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADAM!!!  mama sayang adam.  dari hari sabtu sibuk buat goody bag dia.  letih jugak eh?  tapi seronok!  especially bila tengok kawan-kawan dia tadi appreciate apa yang kami bagi.

"wow!  banyaknya barang."
"ada cupcakes lah...  "
"nak satu lagi boleh?  saya nak bagi adik saya?"

eh?  boleh harap budak ni eh..  sayang benar kat adik dia.  hahahah...

yang lain apa eh?

gusi saya sakit.

sekian.  :D

Bila angin dia...

Ok:
"Please........"

Tak ok:
"Noooooooooo....!!!!"


Ok:
"Yom mama.... Yom...... (read: jom)"

Tak ok:
"Noooooooooo...!!!"


Ok:
"Mama.... Aaa u (read: where are you)?"

Tak ok:
"Mama... Mama... MAAMAAAAAA!!"


Ok:
"Mama... E-yu (read: i love u)

Tak ok:
Mama: Sya.... Kiss mama?
Alesya buat bodo aje. Pandang pun tidak. Jeling ada.

Boleh harap betul budak kecik ni.

tiga puluh empat

alhamdulillah.  syukur.

bertambah lagi satu tahun usia saya.

ok.  nak baca well wishes kat fb dulu.  seharian dapat baca gitu-gitu aje.  bizi la katakan..  hehehe..

Apabila cuti...

Malasnya nak bangkit dari katil ni. Nak bukak tingkap pun bercinta. Hujan pulak pagi tadi. Bestnyeeee melepak ataih katil.

Mujur aje adam sekolah. Kalau tak, gerenti empat beranak ni masih berselimut.

Ok. Nak sambung baring ke nak bangun buat keje..

Alahai........ Nak pikir pun malas. Muahahaha....

and where we return

This morning, I posted about the return of Nayati.  A happy news, indeed.  

This afternoon, with sadness, my posting is on the death of Bob Kuman.

No, he's not related to me.  Saudara sesama Islam sahaja.  Tapi pemergiannya tetap dirasai.  For someone who had once or twice (I think figuratively, it's more than the number mentioned) made me laugh, he is someone unforgettable.  

The news had made me think of:

1)  kitaran hidup kita mudah.  Gembira dan sedih.  Datang dan pergi.  Hidup dan mati.  Itu sudah ketentuanNya.

2)  jika sudah nawaitu untuk berbuat baik, bersegeralah....  With deepest regret, I had been planning to contribute to Bob, but had been delaying & procrastinating.  Lesson learnt!

Al-fatihah untuk Bob.  

home is where he belongs

I looked upon the sky today
It was bright and nice
I had a thought
And I said a prayer
Allah listens and He works in His miraculously ways

Alhamdulillah
Nayati is now safe at home

My angels at home -- Mama loves you dearly!

we are drivers too: signal

signal comes in a package, kan?  awat ramai orang tak suka guna?  

selalu orang dok pakai time emergency aje.  selainnya tu, time nak kona, main kona aje.  nak-nak time kat junction.  yang kita ni tunggu macam bodo.  kang jalan, dia langgar.  tak jalan, dia nak kona.  geram betul!  

kalo encik suami lambat bagi signal, saya sendiri yang tekankan.  hehe..  ntahlah.. i think it's important to indicate to other people where are we heading to. unless memang dah jalan sehala.  dah memang tak boleh kona kanan atau kiri.  segaklah kan?  kang orang gelakkan pulak tengok kita bagi signal.    

bapak kata, those days orang pakai tangan aje.  kalau nak kona kanan, hayun tangan.  kalau nak kona kiri, pusingkan tangan.  kalau nak u-turn, mm.. lupa pulak.  zaman la ni sempat ke kalau pakai tangan?  takut putuih tangan sebelum sempat kona simpang aje.  orang la ni bawak keta laju benau!  hahahahaha

oh well.  some people are just ignorant.  nak wat guano..  

gambar dari sini:  themotorreport.com.au

ps:  cantik eh kaler merah ni..  napelah takde kat kl....  

girdle

you all pakai girdle?

girdle yang ni saya beli lepas dapat alesya.  ntah apa ntah nama dia.  but recommended by a friend who is a doctor.  sebenarnya girdle ni untuk orang yang buat liposuction or any plastic surgery on the tummy.  apparently when they did a research it was also good for those moms who had c-section.  i had it for RM400.  pakai almost 3 tahun.  ok lah kot?!  kira berbaloi la ROI dia.  hehehe.

earlier, i bought a girdle named beautiful after i had adam.  tapi lepas beberapa bulan pakai, rasa macam kurang selesa.  rasa cramp selalu.  ok.  ni bukan nak condemn product okeh.  saya nak bercerita saja.  i know my cousin yang pakai ni nampak elok saja.  and at the same time, my aunty yang pakai pun rasa kurang selesa.  i guess, me and my aunty shared the same sentiment la kot.  hehehe..

saya punya ni dah terkoyak.  now tengah berusaha senyum lebih-lebih kat encik suami.  hehehe..

trust

remember the post i had on "coincidence?".  it's not a big deal that i knew the parties in the cerekarama.  but the point that frustrates me the most was the trust i had on one of the characters.

that character had indirect connection onto the cerekarama.  the character was there because i had that character involved.  i called the character to get confirmation, which i did not get.  i got the confirmation from the main character of the cerekarama itself.  and i thank you for the main character for providing me the information.

i shared the confirmation for i wish the mystery (speculation?  hehe..) solved.  and not meaning to be shared with the unfortunate character.  oh well...  of courselah.  mana ada cerekarama semua berbahagia kan?  nora elina pun ada character yang makan hati ape...  least that i know the confirmation information was shared with the unfortunate character.  

yes.  i pity the unfortunate character as well.  but that was what fated in her life journey.  i have given you my trust, and you betrayed it for sympathy?  ok.  i was/am not there to listen to any whines from the unfortunate (alhamdulillah) character.  but as you were informed, the confirmation was not to be shared.  for the good sake for both parties.  

i am hoping that my character will only be a tempelan and nothing more.  i wish the best to all characters.  

me - including.  

credit-less

sedang berusaha mengosongkan credit card.  payoh jugak eh.....  

elok nampak kosong, zas balik.  habis bayar aje, zas balik.  hish!  selagi boleh di-zas.  asyik nak zas aje.  

sekarang dah ada resolution baru.  eh baru ke?  renew kot.  haha..  mesti!  DIMESTIKAN - memperhabiskan  segala hutang piutang sebelum bulan puasa.  sebab?  nanti bulan puasa, gerenti nak membeli-belah.  gerenti punyalah!  ini pun dah aim sofa baru.  cecewahhh..  macam banyak ruang kat rumah ni.  

ntahlah..  dah rasa tiba masa untuk tidak berhutang.  tensi rasa bila tengok duit gaji habis ke hutang setambun aje.  tapi nak bawak cash setebal bulu mata rozita che wan tak sanggup pulak rasanya...  kot jadik apa-apa, nangis tak berlagu pulak.  senang lagi bawak credit card.  zas aje.  balik bayar balik.  m2u kan ada.  treatpoints pun dapat.  (kena claim promo maybank ni.. hehehe).  tapi selalunya lupa la nak bayar immediate la-kan..  dah sampai hujung bulan, tengok gaji masuk baru clearkan apa yang telah di-zas-kan.  

nak doa panjang-panjang kepada Allah swt supaya dikuatkan semangat agar tidak berbelanja dan tidak mengikut nafsu berbelanja tanpa nawaitu dan approval chief minister home affairs.  amin.  

ps:  time ni lah catalogue baru braun buffel datang.  gatal!

gambar dari sini:  http://angelanguyenn.blogspot.com

cantik eh credit card dia?  perasan comel aje bila nak zas.  hahahaha..  

berwajah baru

dah lain eh posting untuk blogspot ni eh?  nampak kodi aje.  hahahaha..  tak pelah. janji boleh pakai.

dapur kitorang dah berwajah baru.  eh silap.  dah bertambah maskara dengan eye shadow baru aje.  hehe..  beli fridge yang besau sikit.  senang nak letak barang-barang kek & cookies yang takes up most of the space.  nak stock up makan pun nampak lega sikit.  takdelah cramp sangat.  

lepas tu, kitorang letak tv kecik kat dapur.  hehehehe.  ok.  bad idea sebenarnya.  tujuan asal nak attract alesya makan kat dining table.  itu budak sangat bertuah.  nak makan bersuap dekat depan komputer sambil dia tengok bo (barney).  eh eh eh..  banyak kaedah kan?!  tapi sebab tv kat dapur tu bersabit dengan unifi yang takde channel cartoon, so we are back to square one.  makan dalam bilik - depan komputer.  hahahaha...    

Assignment

Ok. Mood nak menaip tiba-tiba datang. Hehehe..

Remember I posted about having the dream to send salam perantauan, skype dengan mak bapak & families, rindu-rindu, etc? Well... Encik suami came back from work one day and shared his assignment with me.

"I kena gi UK. Two weeks"

"Ikutttt"

"Mahal lah"

Ok. Akur. Bengang sikit. Tapi sebab dah pernah sampai, tak heran sangatlah. Konon.

The next day he came back with another assignment.

"Tadi my boss tanya if I'm interested with assignment to Houston"

"Houston? Whitney Houston? Nak jadi CSI?"

"Houston, USA lah"

"Oh! Ok! Ikut!!"

"3 bulan aje. You keje camne? Adam sekolah"

Hish!! Ikut hati nak resign aje. Boleh jugak lawat-lawat negara orang. 3 bulan tu ok jugak la dok? At least..... Kan?

Adam? Home schooling. Cewah!! Macam rajin aje mama ni pun. Hahaha

April

Eh... X de posting lagi? Bahan ada. Nak type malas. Haha...

Nanti ye.... Harap-harap angin rajin datang dengan segera.

Amin..

overseas

rasa macam nak keje kat overseas lah. nanti bolehlah hantar gambar dengan ucapan kat salam perantau. time-time raya boleh amik gambar ramai-ramai masuk suratkhabar. femes kan?

pastu, boleh dapat bekalan makanan yang berkotak-kotak dari malaysia. mmm.. macam ada sangat orang nak hantar makanan pun. macam kat overseas tu takde. macam tak boleh beli pulak. hahahahaha...

bila lama tak balik, nanti mak bapak rindu-rindu. nak tengok cucu. along, alin terkinja-kinja la bila kat klia. ha... barulah excited sikit. jerit-jerit. peluk-peluk. nangis-nangis. barulah kememe level ke 14. woohoooo....

main salji semua tu tak de heran lah sangat. jakun sikit adalah. hahahah.. biasalah.. baru boleh dipanggil orang darat :D

kat overseas barulah berbaloi update status kat FB ke twitter ke.. ni setakat update, lepas tu orang depan mata aje yang reply, aleh.. dah tak cool. hahahahah...

bila lagi nak menimba pengalaman kat negara orang. barulah best sikit nak mengundi pos. wakakaka..

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ala... sekali-sekala nak berangan. apa salahnya...

Coincidence

Happened to be i knew that bride -
Which happened to marry to the groom that I know -
Which coincidently was a groom to my other friend.

Small world eh?

Now they know that i know about them
And one is requesting exclusive stories
Which happened to be not of my good skill

I now feeling sympathy (to both + the groom)
Feeling dont know what to do too
Having hidung sumbat and perit tekak

Perfect!

What has passed, let them be a Teacher to your new journey
What awaits you is something that you have to look forward for
My wish is the best for both (+ groom)
Doa & minta yang baik-baik saja. Moga Allah membantu ke jalan yang benar & terbaik untuk kalian..

Insya Allah

buah delima

encik suami dapat message daripada abg ajih bebaru ni. ma nak buah delima. mintak kami tolong carikkan. kami pun type message and sent to those close to us mintak tolong carikkan buah delima.

replies were overwhelmed! alhamdulillah..

on saturday, i received 4 (biji apa dalam bahasa omputeh??) buah delima from nita's mother. termasuk satu botol juice organik buah delima. tapi according to kak ti, ma is on oral chemo. nita dah pesan awal-awal. kalo ma is under treatment or taking any supplements, then it is not advisable to take this drink. pesanan penaja daripada husband dia tu..

along pun usahakan tanya kawan-kawan dia. dia kata abg ashraf is on the way back from langkawi. kalo ketemu buahnya dia sana, dia bawak balik. pas tu masa dia call kata abg fizal ada pokok kat umah, berharap jugaklah kami ni. tapi tulah.. sebelum ni, memang ayah abg fizal tu jaga pokoknya. kali ni, tak dijaga sebab takde sapa request. tak de rezeki ma.

mokteh pun tanya-tanya around her neighborhood. nak tanya kat adik ipar dia kat meru tu, tapi time tu orang tu tengah sibuk berkenduri. jadik tak tertanya...

mak lagi best! dia dah tanya kawan-kawan dia, tapi tak de yang ada information about the fruit. dia pun pesanlah kat kawan dia yang nak ke penang. at the same time, dia sms bagitau dia dah beli pokok and tanam kat umah. moga ada rezekilah untuk tok ma rasa buat delima nenek. insya Allah..

my brother in law, faiz pulak asked favours from his FB friends. nak kata rezeki tok ma kan... kat umah kawan wakleh (pak mentua my sister) ada bertanam. alhamdulillah.. yang tu akan sampai soon. insya Allah...

inilah buah delima. kak amy kata, kak nah suh amik yang crown atas tu. kak ti kata nak yang dalam kaler putih tu. tak kisahlah mana-mana. saya baca buah tu memang bagus untuk antioksidan pun. so, mana-mana yang diperkenankan Allah swt, kita terimalah. moga dikurangkan kesakitan ma.

gambar adalah daripada: http://www.ymr2u.com

Sate ikan

Awak penah makan? Sedapppp!!! Time kecik dulu saya sangat rajin beli kat depan sekolah. Satu cucuk seposen. Apa yang best? Ntah.... Biasa aje sebenarnya. Hehe..

Tadi masa amik Adam, dia tanya "mama nak satay ikan?". "Boleh juga," kata saya & I gave Adam lima ringgit, suruh dia beli dua ringgit sate ikan.

Macam mana dia berlari pegi, macam tu jugaklan dia berlari balik dengan 2 plastik sate ikan. Dapat lima cucuk aje. Maknanya sekarang harga dia dah jadik dua posen. Tak pela.. Masih sedap. Kami makan kat situ jugak.

Habis makan saya mintak air bekalan Adam. "mama nak air with taste?". "adam nak beli air apa?". "they have pepsi light & milo". "milo will do".

Vroommmm.. Adam berlari lagi.

Tiba-tiba hati saya jadi sebak bila terpandang adam kat tangga dengan dua cups milo.

Adam anak yang baik. Kalau disuruh, tak pernah membantah. Cepat menangis kalau tersentuh. Manja. Penyayang. Kalau saya demam, dia la yang sibuk nak letak kain basah atas dahi saya, selimutkan saya, make sure saya ada air untuk minum, etc. Cuma saya la kadang-kadang cepat melenting dengan dia. Kurang sabar. Walau macam mana pun saya marah dia, dia akan datang peluk saya, minta maaf & gives a kiss on my cheek. Haih... Syahdu pulak...

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Sebenarnya..... Adam tak suka sangat pun sate ikan tu. Tapi sebab dia tau saya suka, he just want to get it for me...

Ok. Syahdu lagi.....

al-quran

pinjam gamba dari sini: pesonaindahhantaran.blogspot.com

alhamdulillah...

adam dah naik another level. he has been talking about it and feeling excited. semalam, lepas habis kelas agama terus call mama to inform dia dah naik al-quran. i can sense his proud and happy mood. good job adam! ayah semalam pun ikut excited, terus gi beli al-quran kaler merah.

saya naik quran when i was standard 3. i am so sure about it sebab kat quran tu ada tulis "kelas 3 & 4". means i was in standard 3 in al-ansar when uwan & atuk bought me the red quran. eh.. merah jugak? ok. gene yang bagus. the quran is still with me. tapi dah lusuh lah.

ha.. meh nak cerita pasal baca quran ni..

at the time of naik quran, saya tengah banyak kawan. so asyiklah ponteng kelas agama. reason? takde sangat. main beskal pusing2 taman aje. paling best pun lepak minum slurpee kat padang sambil main buaian. so mengaji pun melompat-lompat. sesuka hati skip pages.

habislah kalo anak aku baca ni.. hahaha...

nak dijadikkan cerita, arwah mak ngah (anak opah usu) nak kawin and looking forward for majlis khatam quran. uwan pun nak buat jugaklah my khatam quran. tang harinya tu, mengaji lah saya, cucu makcik jeah ni. hambik!! tergagap-gagap. nak bandingkan dengan ujir anak mak ngah kat kampung tu, memang komfem saya ni tahap baca alif ba ta aje lah lagi. dia baca lancar betul. sampai kat saya asyik-asyik "eh.. eh.. eh.. eh..". mak kata dia rasa nak potong bawang kat dalam toilet dengar saya ngaji. hahahahahha.. ampun mak.

ok. sedap eh gelakkan saya...

mintak-mintak adam dapat khatam quran dengan sebetulnya. janganlah ikut kaedah cepat baca mama ni. hehehehe..

sembang dengan nenek

adam: nenek, i'll be going to london soon

nenek: oh really? why?

adam: visiting ayah's kampung

nenek: oh? eh?

(mama sudah blushing kat driver's seat)

adam: yes. ayah is from london. then he came to malaysia. he has sold his house in london. so now we want to visit his kampung-lah

pengsan!

bertuah punya ayah. kelentong anak dia kaw-kaw punya...

ya ampun!!!!

Weakness

I cannot-lah teach adam. Rasa geram senantiasa. Rasa macam dia selalu leka-leka and then cuai...

Seingatan saya, tak pernah lagi kot si adam tu tak menangis kalau mama ni mengajar. Mujurlah saya tak jadi cikgu. Kalau tak, femesla nama sekolah asyik masuk surat khabar. Hahaha..

nape saya nak kurus

ok. selain mendapat saranan dan jelingan manja di setiap kali advertisement london management, saya personally rasa, saya kena kuruskan badanlah.

point satu - bukan nak melawa. tapi nak pakai baju yang mudah. takde lah bonjol-bonjol sana sini kan.. la ni, kalo pakai baju longgar mana, mesti ada perasaan bonjol jugak. mmm.. oklah. bonjol tu takleh nak avoid. tapi, kalo boleh sorok, nak soroklah kan. dahlah bonjol tu tak de exclusive mana. hahahahah...

point dua - membanggakan la sikit encik suami. ok. memanglah dia tak penah cakap apa pun. gemuk pun dia ok. kurus kendenking pun dia ok. tapi naklah jugak bagi dia bangga bila orang kata "tengok tu, anak dua badan cantik lagi..." gitu.. kan?

point tiga - tak kuasaaaaaaaaa nak jawab soalan "bila due?"

ok. point tiga has overpowered all the reasonings.

kurus! kurus! harus lose weight!

sapa nak lauk lebih untuk lauk lemak cili padi, sila hubungi saya. hehehehe...

campur-campur

done with tax. yehooo!

yesterday i left office at 11. had a very bad cold. better leave before i spread the virus to everybody who are looking forward for some nice weekend & spring break.

gaji minggu depan baru masuk. addeehh...

have not visited any new born yet! ayoyo!!! bad! very very bad!

bercerita pasal baby ni, terasa pulak nak baby lagi. semalam gatal-gatal tanya encik suami.

i: you nak baby lagi tak?

he: no

aleh.. menyampah!

tak pe.. another baby is coming to rafei's clan. alhamdulillah. dikurniakan adik ipar dikalangan sharp shooter jugak. muehehehehehe...

ok. baking time. alhamdulillah, rezeki berlipat ganda.

hello?

caller: can i speak to anne rafei?

me: yes?

caller: rafei, i'm xyz from 1234 company.

one moment i was.. what??!! rafei?? then, i was like.. mmm... sukahati ko lah.. it was a Malaysian company and local cina bukit voice some more. So calling surname is surely something... different..

me: ok

caller: yesterday, ms. abc came to our office to do yadayadayadayadayada..

cut the story short..

me: yes. i'm aware of the letter. and she's our staff

caller: so i can proceed?

me: yes, please

caller: ok. who's that?

me: er.. anne?

caller: oh. yes.

conversation was not more than 2 minutes. she called me. and she asked my name, again? cam kelakar pulak rasa....

London management

We were watching tv one day and adam started this conversation.

Adam: Mama, I think you should consider going there

Mama: there? Why?

(Oh! It was London Management's advertisement, by the way...)

Adam: well.... I dont know. Maybe you should

Mama: you think i'm that fat?

Adam: noooooo.....

Mama: are you ashamed that i'm fat?

Adam: no lah mama.. I just want you to look good and feel healthy.

My son is so sweet kan? And truth is so hurting kan? Huhuhu....

projek nilam

adam wants to buy this one wii game - i don't know what's the name; it sounds so "action" pack - and ayah wants him to gain it on his own. thus, adam made an offer to me. "mama, i help you with your house works and can i get paid?". i agreed, but my house works are so little to offer. so, we found another alternatives.

during this school holiday, adam was assigned to read story books. he had too much of games and tv already. as i mentioned, the bait was you read and you gain. yesterday, he brought along the book given by aunty ad for his birthday to opah's house. one of enid blyton's series.

the promise: one story = RM2.00. one book = RM5.00

adam, being a mathematical person had a check up before me.

the book has 20 odd numbers of stories. if he read the whole book in a day, he'll get RM5. no profit to him. hence, yesterday he read 4 stories. he gained RM8.00. by end of the week, if he is able to finish the whole book, he could gain more or less RM50.00. correct?

boleh jadik businessman budak ni.

hahahaha...

unforeseen

i need to draft a resignation letter soon than i thought i'd be.

my stress level has doubled my height.

if you know your incapability is in figure & number, then find a way to substitute the weakness. find a solution so that your incapability does not defined as stupidity. search for assistance in coping with the weakness. and you'll be seen as smart ass.

i am tired being (seen as) one of the donkey clerks.

Emo strikes again

Somebody asked me one same question twice. And again two days ago. And again today. It was a complete annoyance.

I got snapped. Raised my voice. And i cried. Guilt built in. I sent an apology text. And I cried again.

Could it be my hormones or am i just simply emotional by nature?

*sigh*

move on..

reconciliation means a lot. but when one side is championing and another side is left offended, does the objective achieved?

hands shaken but heart broken. where's your lead? emotionally still no where. left here still.. swamped.

ah! move on.. gua malas nak amik cara..

Saya sangat bertuah..

Sebab suami saya tak pernah larang saya nak kuar minum or outing dengan kawan-kawan saya. Janji dia tau saya kuar dengan sapa dan ke mana. Yelah... Kot nanti ada bangunan meletup ke, banjir ke, bomb attack ke senang dia nak claim body saya nanti. Uiii... Mintak disimpangkan. Aminnnnn...

Saya juga rasa bertuah dia penjimat orangnya. Dia jarang call saya. Teknologi messaging kan ada. Dia pulak orang IT. Jadi kena la ikut kaedah terkini. Baru kelasss. Jadi saya tak hairan kalau bill dia hanya bayar monthly fees. Kalau ada call charge pun, itu mungkin nombor kenalan yang penting baginya. Asyik bercakap dengan saya pun bosan jugak kan. Kena pulak saya ni memang suka bercakap & share dengan dia. Tak henti nanti.. Camno nak jawab tu nanti? Hehehe..

Kot saya marah ke merajuk ke, saya tak perlu nak tunggu bunga ke cokelat ke tetiba datang kat opis. Sebab saya memang x suka bunga. Bunga kat umah pun dah jadi tempat tido kucing. Membazirlah kalo dia nak surprisekan saya gitu. Baik bawak saya pegi makan. Perut pun kenyang. Tokey restoren pun suka. Hahaha...

Lepas tu, saya tak payah harap dia call lah. Sebab dia tak kan punya. Satu, ke arah penjimatan. Dua, saya ni senang nak pujuk. Selalunya saya pujuk diri sendiri aje. Tak payah nak susah-susahkan orang. Pesan orang tua-tua tu... Ingat elok-elok.

Kalau ada any suggestions nak tukar itu ke, amik pembantu ke, nak pegi sana sini ke, kami selalu bersepakat agar kos ditanggung oleh saya. Sebab hak saya dia simpan dan tabungkan dulu. Sampai bila kot nanti dia tak panjang umur, saya dah tak payah fikir nak cari duit tambahan. Berfikir panjang kan? Tip top punya!

Itulah...
Saya dah kata...
Saya sangat bertuah...

Ya Allah, Kau panjangkan jodoh kami. Kau tabahkanlah hati kami menempuh dugaan hidup yang Kau beri. Tingkatkanlah kesabaran kami kerana kami hanya insanMu yang lemah.

Amin...

Sense of belonging

Mama: adam, your baju sukan is already so comot. Your teacher didn't ask you to buy a new baju sukan?

Adam: no. Why mama?

Mama: no la... You look at airiel. He has the baju sukan. The blue colour shirt. Yours is white. Dont you have sports day soon?

Adam: err... Sports day? I dont know..

Couple of minutes later with the topic was still on going and we were still chit chatting about what is a sports day, what we had done during the sports day, yada-yada-yada..

Adam: oh mama.. Teacher said i have to buy the baju sukan and last day is tomorrow.

Mama: what? Did you tell ayah?

Adam: err... Yes

Mama: what did he say?

Adam: he just kept quite.

It's a frustration on my end. Despite that i have been asking him about whats happening and was there any messages from the teacher on a 5 school days basis, he did not pass this message on to me.

We had a similar incident before. He lost his colour pencils and he had an exam the next day that requires him to have the colour pencils. He told ayah but none of the message reached me. What ayah did was collected all adam's only god knows where & what kind of colour pencils that he found in the house; put it in a bag and gave it to his son to use in the school. Objective? To teach adam a lesson to not lose things. Good intention in a way, but for an exam? And where was i in this family picture of ours? Odd, i feel cropped from the frame.

I'm in my emotional state at the moment. Dont know if it's mensus or pre-menopause. But it IS my frustration. I am so feeling not needed.

Ok. Time to wipe the tears & hop to the office. A place that i feel more welcoming & needed. Even the morning is sympathatic.

*sigh*

Kebanjiran lagi..

Saya sudah sangat menyampah dengan jiran/kontraktor sebelah umah ni. Ntah bila la penthouse 13 tingkat dia nak siap. Rasa macam dah banyak sabar dah ni...

Hari ni air masuk lagi kat siling. Plaster siling umah ni yang satu masa dulu ada kebanggaan saya, sekarang dah macam mangga kecut. Cokelat kusam. Tunggu hari nak bertukar baru. Bila? Kena tunggu penthouse sebelah umah ni siap.

Dari raya tahun lepas, ni dah nak raya lagi beberapa bulan. Umah kami masih lagu tu. Takkan raya tahun ni kami kena avoid tetamu lagi??

Ok. Ini cuma sebahagian siling yang badly affected. Malas nak tunjuk gamba yang lain.

I dont know. I just hope we can go on well once tuan rumah dah masuk. Of which i didnt get good impression from the (second) wife. Nonetheless, hidup berjiran. Saba ajelah.

Ni yang rasa nak duduk kat umah tak jejak tanah ni. Tapi.... Susah pulak orang nak menyinggah. Heii... Macam-macam........

Time difference

I drove off at 7:08am, i arrived office at 7:35am.

If i started my journey at 7:03am, i'll be in the office at 7:20am

5 minutes difference to reach early. Why not... Eh?

But traffic is like the usual crawl. As always. Nothing to comment. The only good is, i got to beat those crowd that sending kids to school. That is a whole lot of patience reconciliation.

Phew! Time to work now..

Cupcakes & cakes

I've just settled 3 orders of cupcakes + an order for a cake. Tiring? Indeed. But the fun of doing it & satisfaction looking at the end product -- NO WORD TO DESCRIBE!

Starting from a point which i could say an "accident interest", alhamdulillah this part time business has given me the highest satisfaction and the joy of my life.

I had, once upon a time felt that my products are too expensive. But friends had assured me that money can buy whats best from my kitchen. Insya Allah products that are being presented are all the best of my capability. And i am in the run of more knowledge and new in the cakes making.

Doakan saya berjaya.

Happy birthday kak an

Ni lah kak an. Akak sulung dalam buddies mommies.

We celebrated her birthday in Ayuthya (sp?) Wangsa Maju. Filled with fun & 18sx. Hahaha...

Many happy returns & best wishes kak an. Moga Allah berkati usia & perjalanan hidup akak!!

Extended families

Termaktublah sudah kisah kawin-kawin family encik rafei & puan noraini. Alhamdulillah....

Yesterday was the reception ceremony in Ayer Hitam. All went well. All came back still in good health. Alhamdulillah...

Pagi ni pengantin laki ada interview kat Maybank KL. Moga semua urusan dipermudahkan dan dapatlah dia taraf pemaustatin Kuala Lumpur. Insya Allah. Hehe.

Selesai sudah...

Alin dah selamat diijabkabulkan. Alhamdulillah...

Sebak jugak eh? Nanti kalo adam & alesya nak kawin, macam mana la rupa mama ni. Adik yang sorang tu kawin pun rasa lintang pukang. Hehehe..

All credits to orang kuat - che nani. Dia yang bertungkus lumus kejekan umah mak. I did not. At all. Satu, sebab buat cupcakes. Dua, sebab takut demam mengemas. Kebelakangan ni, if i were to kemas umah, malam tu start la demam, selsema bagai. Eh! Alamak! Pecah rahsia trick nak mc. Hehe..

Next week majlis bertandang.

Blackwater - here we come!

Itinerary orang nak kawin

Ketibaan pengantin disambut kompang
Selawat ke atas nabi
Diarak ke pelamin oleh bubble boys & girls
Majlis dizahirkan oleh along
Silat
Merenjis-renjis dipilis pasangan pengantin
Makan beradap
Joget melayu

"mak, nape masa kita kawin mak tak buat pun camni?"
"waktu tu x cukup ilmu. Sapa suh kawin cepat sangat"
"alahhh... Nak kawin lagi sekali la"
"gatal. Buat sendiri. Bajet habis"
"alaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh"

should i press the panic button?

kad belum habis distribute

kotak cupcakes dah dapat

barang cupcakes belum beli

mixer belum amik

baju adam & alesya belum siap

baju made & myself in progress

tudung tak carik lagi

mekap done - ini penting ok.. hahaha

bag untuk door gift dah jumpa ke si akut ni

tag/stamp untuk cupcakes tak buat lagi

umah mak still pending

umah sendiri pun tunggang langgang

will there be rehearsal?

budak-budak punya bubble guns tak prepare lagi

payroll for february is coming soon

then leavers settlements pulak

and i have only 2 weeks to settle. ayayai!

should i press it now?

alin nak kawin

wohooo... my baby sister dah nak kawin. cam tak caya..... hahahahhahahahahah..

tadi dia bagi wedding card for distribution. dok ralit tulis nama recipient on the card, tengok-tengok kad dah tinggal lima keping. eh.. tak cukup pulak. kena mintak lagi la ni.. hehehe..

mana yang dapat kad nanti, jemput datang ye. yang kena tagged on FB pun, kami alu-alukan kedatangan anda. yang terima sms pun, jika takde halangan, sila la hadirkan diri. nak bagi kad sorang satu tak sempatlah.. so, mana yang dapat ajelah ye. sekarang ni, harga postage pun mahal. tak mampu makcik ni ha...

so save the date... 5th FEBRUARY 2012 - alin & faiz

I knew..

One day, it will happen. The clock ticks and tacks. Anticipating a situation. Now the show started..

Somehow, i selalu takde luck with those born di bulan sebelas. Ntahlah kenapa.. Taurus and scorpio conflict kot? I'm a taurean and a horse too.. I can be hard to understand but i can be easy to please too..

Recently i have a situation with a friend. I had the feelings couple of years ago, during the first stage of knowing this friend. Perasaan eh? Maybe.. As much as i try to avoid, im still a human. Obliged to make mistake.

Clashes of thought are predicted. But when only one thought kena kondem, sakit jugak hati tu kan? And friends... Please.... IM, email, YM, whatsap or whatever tech thingy are no good at passing messages basically. And please realize that huruf besar in ur typing can be understood wrongly. When u feel u want to make a subject clears, another may think, u're shouting & it becomes offensive. My case, i think, the wall is already there. So, ni kira wrong timing lah.

At the moment i'm at "ntahlah" feeling. I have much respect and love for this friend. For this friend has been such a good listener & advisor and had been with me & my other buddies at all time.

How to move on, i tak sure lagi. Playing with time is the game right now. Nak say sorry tak sure for what. Now it seems what i've planned and thought a long time before, dah disalah erti pulak. It's hard eh when people like to assume & being judgmental?

Till then...

DJ umah orang kawin

dah common dah kan sekarang ni? flash back 8 years ago, my wedding pun ada DJ jugak. what i'm going to share is about an irritating DJ - awal tahun dah nak comment pasal orang kan? hehe..

we attended the very first wedding on for 2012. we were among the early birds. banggakan? sudu pun tak bersusun lagi. food was nice. ice kacang tambah sampai 5 mangkuk. kumpulan gamelan & nasyid was good. cuma DJ aje buat bengang ulu hati.

after a while, dia jemput hadirin-hadirat hantar sms untuk dibaca kepada pengantin yang dirai. ok. good motive. tapi.... dia tanak baca ucapan selamat untuk pengantin baru zaman dulu, i.e. "selamat pengantin baru, semoga bahagia ke anak cucu". oi! suka hati lah... lagu orang kawin yang selalu dipasang time kenduri tu pun gitu jugak senikatanya. ok.. i understand the reasoning. doa sampai ke cucu aje. lepas cucu takde ke?? but, dont la say like that. cuba cakap something like "saya pohon agar ucapan tu biarlah ke akhir hayat ye. jangan sampai ke anak cucu saja". i believe hadirin yang 90% adults tu akan paham apa maksudnya. kan?

then agaknya takde text yang masuk, dia kata pulak..

"alah apa sangatlah sepuluh sen satu sms tu. kalau nak kedekut sangat, lepas hantar tu, marilah datang meja DJ tuntut sepuluh sen. tapi saya tak akan bagi duit. saya akan bagi air suam. hahaha (ketawa sendiri. orang lain buat derk aje). air suam pun sekarang tiga puluh sen tau".

eeeehhhhhhhhh.......... ada aku pedulikkk??!!

we left before hearing to any sms. so, tak taulah ada ke tak yang sempat salin nombor talipon dia tu.

cheeky thought - cara bagus untuk dia market service DJ.. kan? hahaha..

on another occasion, we had one DJ yang asiklah bagitau hadirin pukul berapa. ada la kot selang lima belas minit dia update semua orang on the time. takde bahan nak bercakaplah tu gamaknya.

DJ can be entertaining but sometimes irritating. janganlah syok sendiri jadik DJ tu. yang penting ayat-ayat tu kena jaga. memanglah majlis kenduri kat umah-umah aje. tapi ayat awak tu, satu kampung boleh dengar. agak-agaklah sikit...

feeling

felt what uwan felt on this particular day, 8 years ago.

hurt.

silence.

better, i hope.

calar

nak kata first calar pun bukan. sebab dah kena gesek bawah tu dah baper kali. kehkehkeh.

tapi yang ni memang meruntun jiwa, sanubari..

kena kat umah mak. tak nampak tong sampah. ingatkan dah lepas dah. adehhh...

bapak kata hantar polish aje. mm.. polish pun polish lah...

End of 2011

is just around the corner..

It's time to:

update 2012 resolutions. Should there be no changes, carry forward aje. Confirm banyak tak tercapai. Haha..

Happy New Year everyone!

Moga tahun yang baru adalah lebih elok dari tahun yang sebelumnya. Hiasi peribadi, perelokkanlah ibadah kita. Insya Allah... Yang baik itu hanya dariNya.

anak burung

dulu ada myspace. lepas tu password lupa, username pun tak ingat.

lepas tu sibuk friendster. peh tu malas. account ntah ke mana.

masuk pulak zaman facebook. hambek! pantang bukak, berejam melekat. sumpahan betul!

now, i sudah jadik anak burung u-olls! berkicau-kicau. memekak!

hahahahahah...

Batang sayur

You all makan batang sayur?

Saya makan. Tapi sejak kawin dengan made ni, rasa malas pulak nak makan.

(sila jangan kona-kan pemikiran anda)

Bukan malas pasaipa... Made suka makan daun dia aje. Batang tak berapa. Memula tu give in la jugak. Tak kisahlah kan.. Lelama boring pulak rasa. Nak-nak kalo termakan tang batang yang tak sedap. Geram aje tengok made habiskan daun sayur.

Oleh itu, kalo sapa-sapa mai makan umah saya, jangan la kata saya tak pandai potong sayur; walaupun itulah hakikatnya. Hehehe...

555

rezeki byannerafei untuk minggu ini.

alhamdulillah..

thanks for the support!!!!

Reasoning

the more i thought about "early retirement" from my work, the more reasoning i need to do. haih!

ok.. why?

1) i wanna be with my kids. well, yes ok. i can still be with my kids though i'm working. i've been working for the past 8 years, with my kids sent to babysitter. that's the catch! my kids are sent to babysitter. shouldn't they be with me? oh well.. i'm the mother. i need to do the needful. ok. if i'm working i'd be able to provide more than necessities to them. but think about this.. adam is going to turn 8 soon. should he still be at babysitter's house up till he's 12? oh come on! alesya is growing. shouldn't she be with me? ok.. disturbed mind. cant think of reconciliation to this reason; at the moment.

2) i'm tired at work. yes, true. i understand my boss needs me. she loves me. she's my "baby". but there are times when i came home, and i'm already exhausted. one, for the amount of work. two, for the mentally challenging work i have in the office. i have never thought HR could be as hard as i've been going through. i've always thought HR would be the best platform for me. 4 years in HR division proved to me that, what i have been seeing are only the overview of what a HR personnel does in an office. what i've been going through is sometimes, a hell of a work place. you're the most hatred person. you're the most loved person -- when one needs help. people goes silent when you walk into the lounge and you'll notice that the topic has changed to cooking - suddenly. when one news reaches HR office, you'll be the first person to be blamed, when you (me in this situation), never knew of such news existence neither had the thought of conveying any messages - should there be any. and one would either ignore your friend request, or block you, or added then remove you in FB! kejam!!!! conveying exclusive news to HR director is one of my job descriptions. and for the past 4 years, i have never had marks more than 3. tiga tu pun markah kesian for no news had been kepohci from me. mmm.. this reason sounds personal... truth is, i'm tired with the mental and psychology challenge.

3) i'm tired to think right now.

will think some more later.

nite-nite.